Postpartum Healing - Grieving The Maiden To Embody Mother

In order to feel more at peace and more activated within our new lives as mothers, we must release the maiden version of ourselves. This meditation guides us to thank her (our maiden) and release her to more fully embody the mother archetype and thus, live out our lives as mothers more gracefully.

Transcript

Take a deep breath in,

Relaxing your body,

Finding a soft space to land,

Whether that's seated upright or that is laying down.

I want you to release whatever tension you're finding in your body,

Feeling safe,

Feeling rooted,

Feeling grateful that you took this time for yourself.

Take another deep breath in,

A deep cleansing breath.

Exhale,

Imagine it coming down out through the root,

Grounding you into the space wherever you are.

Taking a big deep breath in from the root,

From the earth,

From the ground,

Feeling the belly and feeling it work its way up to your heart.

Exhaling out the top of your head and just continue this pattern,

Pulling the breath in from above your head down through your body,

Out through the root and then drinking nourishing breath up from the root,

From the earth into your body and releasing it out the top of your head.

We're here,

We're grateful for this time,

This present moment now.

Feeling what doesn't serve and just feeling so much love for the body that you have and the opening that you are.

You are a creatrix.

I want you to just imagine where you are in space and time right now.

Maybe you're in a room,

Maybe you're traveling,

Wherever you are,

Zoom up above where you are,

Imagining the location you're in and then where in that location is.

So maybe the town,

The region,

Just keep zooming out,

Zooming out,

Zooming out until you're kind of just maybe in outer space.

Feeling the nothingness,

Feeling the void,

Maybe seeing black,

Maybe seeing stars,

Maybe seeing color.

As you're floating out there,

I want you to think back to a time in your 20s,

A time that you felt really curious,

A time that you felt really innocent,

A time that you had the world at your feet,

Nothing to lose and everything to gain.

I want you to see that version of yourself,

That version you might have thought at the moment was too fat,

Too poor,

Too much and just look at how amazing she is.

See her,

Her beauty,

Her charm,

Her grace,

Her unpolished,

Unrefined drive.

She was so driven.

Look at her in all of her glory and I want you to imagine walking towards her.

Maybe you're dropped back down into that space in time,

An old apartment,

An old dorm room,

An old house.

You're there again,

But you're you.

Whether that's pregnant you,

Mother you,

Business owner you.

You're going to look at her in the eyes and just stare at her,

Looking into her soul.

Imagine you're communicating with her through telepathy,

Through the look that you're giving her and you're just communicating love,

Love and reassurance.

She needs to know that things land.

She needs to know that everything is going to be okay.

I want you to break the eye gaze and I want you to pull her in for a hug.

The hug she needed,

Especially if it was a time when she was really lonely.

She's being mothered by you now.

Hold that embrace.

See what comes up for you in your body.

Maybe you're feeling something in your heart,

Maybe your throat.

Breathe through it.

Now as the hug begins to release,

I want you to stare back at her again.

I want you to be receptive to her.

She's now looking at you and she's giving you telepathic messages that you need to receive.

Words without words.

She's communicating with you and she's giving you all the wisdom,

All the learnings and all of the experiences of her journey and her moment that can stay with you forever for the good.

Make that be an opening.

Feel that spark,

Spunky,

Beautiful,

Fun,

Fearless,

Fast moving essence of her and imagine the pieces that you need for motherhood.

The pieces that you need for your queendom and your leadership of your life are kind of falling into your body like puzzle pieces that you were missing if you had sort of banished her from your life.

Maybe you had forgotten how to have fun.

Maybe you had forgotten the playful side.

Maybe you lost your fearlessness.

Receive what you need from her.

Big breath in.

Now I want you to imagine that you're in your most beautiful,

Favorite place in nature.

You too are transported there and you're going to face outward.

Imagine you're walking in the right direction,

Whatever that means for you.

You're holding hands.

You're just walking side by side.

Two distinct cycles of life that you're in running parallel in time.

Time isn't real after all.

Just walking with her,

Knowing she's always there.

You're going to come to sort of an ending of the path you're on and you see one path going left and one going right.

Doesn't matter which one you choose,

But whatever one you choose,

You know instinctively she's not coming with you.

You're going to look at her,

The long lost friend,

Soul sister,

The younger you that she is.

Then you're going to lean in and give her one more hug,

A hug of gratitude.

This hug of thank you.

Thank you so much.

Let the tears out if they need to come.

And then grab her hands,

Looking again just at all that she is.

Telepathically tell her goodbye energetically.

And begin to walk down the path as she walks down hers.

Your path is spiraling,

Sort of walking maybe down,

Maybe up,

Whatever feels right for you.

It's spiraling though.

Kind of feel like maybe you're walking even a labyrinth.

Something spiraling,

Integrating.

I want you to find a place where you feel like stopping.

Maybe you're floating back out into the void.

Maybe you're seeing colors.

And I want you to feel into your body.

Noticing any sensations that are coming up for you.

Sending breath,

Sending light,

Sending love to all those places.

Imagining that with just intention you're an architect of your energetic body.

Healing,

Fixing,

Recreating,

Regenerating the pieces that need little tweaks here and there.

And now as you're armed with her essence,

See if there's any places where that essence can come in to heal.

The parts of you that were feeling unequipped for this next phase of your journey.

As you imagine your maiden self moving out into the distance,

Going back into that space and time in the parallel universe where she's in her maiden glory.

Is there anything else that you wish for her?

Anything that was left unsaid?

Now as you've chosen these pieces of her essence,

I want you to imagine wherein they might be purposeful for you as you move into this new phase of life,

The phase of the mother.

Any ideas you have for how to integrate them into your life for the better.

Imagine yourself in the most whole version of who you are,

Although you've released the parts of her that you don't need anymore.

You've reassured her,

You've loved her,

You've encouraged her,

And she's encouraged you.

You're going to listen to the sound.

It's going to begin to play and just let it energize,

Support,

And reveal to you what you may need moving forward.

Releasing anything that doesn't serve.

Breathing in,

Breathing out.

Stay here as long as you need and when you're ready,

Start to imagine venturing back from space,

Coming back down,

Looking at the planet,

Looking at the beauty,

Looking at your region,

Coming closer,

Looking at your town,

Looking at your home,

Whatever that means for you.

Taking all the energy and the wisdom from this parallel universe of your maiden self,

All the pieces and the essence of her that are now in you consciously,

And return to your space where you are,

Taking as much time as you need to come back into yourself and into the room to enjoy and live the most empowered way for the rest of your day and your life.

God bless.

Reviews

Wow. I was able to release a cry that I did not know I was holding. Thank you.

The sound is a little rough, but I’m still bookmarking and coming back to this.