Take a moment to get comfortable.
As comfortable as you can be.
And we're going to drop.
Into your body.
So you want to start by noticing your breath.
And letting your spine find its own natural length,
None of this is forced,
You're not holding on,
You're letting go and you're just allowing yourself to be supported.
And so if it feels good and safe to do so,
Let your eyes gently close or just soften your gaze downward and away from the screen.
And as I say,
We're going to bring our attention to our breath.
So you're going to start by inhaling for four.
Holding for a moment at the top and then exhaling for four.
And as you continue again,
You're just inhaling for four.
Exhaling for four.
.
.
And you're going to keep that rhythm going.
If you can,
You're going in and out through your nose.
If it feels more comfortable to go through your mouth,
That's also fine too.
Inhaling.
.
.
And exhaling.
Allowing your breath to be even and easy.
And coming to a place of being both calm while alert.
Allowing yourself to feel the steadiness of your own presence.
Allowing your attention and your intention to be united.
Here.
And now.
And notice what is supporting you right now.
The chair,
The seat,
The bed,
The floor beneath you.
My voice moving through the space.
And if it is possible to be 2-5% more comfortable.
And do whatever you need to do to allow that to happen now.
Let those shoulders drop,
That's right.
That whatever you've been holding on to.
Be released.
Can you rest into your own safety?
Just a little bit more.
That's it.
Just like that.
Today I'm taking you somewhere that most people don't go.
Not just into your fullness.
Of into parts of you that make your fullness possible.
We're going to go into the shadows.
But the shadow is not a bad thing.
It's not wrong.
This is simply a place that is often unseen,
Unilluminated.
I'm going to go to the place and the part of you that learned very cleverly a long time ago how to keep you safe,
Loved and alive using whatever strategy was available at the time.
And every single shadow you've ever carried has been guarding something golden.
We're going to move through the four elements.
The way life itself moves,
The way it always has.
Water connecting us to our mother's womb,
Our blood and our soul self.
Fire.
Connecting us to our individual contribution.
And our spirit.
Earth.
Connecting us to our body and our evolution.
And air connecting us to our breath and our radiance,
Wellbeing,
Magic and the mystery.
In each one will meet the illuminated part of you.
The archetype that has.
Already been in the fullest version of you.
And right beside it will gently meet its shadow.
Not to fix it,
Not to banish it,
Simply to see it,
Thank it and ask what gold it's holding for you at this time.
There is nothing to perform,
Nothing to get right.
You just get to be and breathe and let my voice be the path and let your body do the rest.
Each shadow is a seed,
Waiting to become and bloom with the right tending of fruit.
Which may in turn drop seed.
Take one more full breath here before we begin.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Bring your attention now to your pelvic space,
That wound space or the area where your pelvic energy lives.
Feel your breath drop low into your pelvis as you breathe.
Imagine this space as a lake.
Feel,
Sense or know this fluid,
Shimmering aliveness.
Notice its surface.
Notice what's moving beneath it.
Invite the element of water to meet you here.
And invite in the lover.
The part of you that is open.
Spontaneous.
Tender.
The part that knows exactly what it desires.
And doesn't question its worth.
This is the part of you that showed up first.
Before strategy,
Before performance,
Before anyone told you who to be.
Trusting,
Uninhibited,
Imaginative.
Feeling.
Diffuse.
Flowing like water finding its own level.
Let yourself float into this space.
Melting into the waters.
Like being back in a beautiful,
Contained,
Comfortable womb space.
And ask your intelligent body now.
What truly,
Deeply,
Really matters to me now.
What do I love?
What do I feel with my spidey senses in my waters?
Is true and right for me.
In this moment.
What do I deeply get to become cognizant to that is meant for me?
And let a wave of feeling move through you.
Anything that you get from this place,
A pulse,
A sensation,
Images,
Whatever it is,
Let it come.
You don't need to translate it.
You don't need to do anything with it.
Just be here now and notice.
Feel yourself drenched in the intelligence of connection.
Where soul came from.
Where Source lives.
The wisdom of feeling.
This is a somatic experience.
This is energy in motion.
With purpose.
Conception itself.
This is your lover.
Pure,
Worthy,
Flowing like water.
Say these words to yourself now,
Silently,
And notice which ones land and which ones catch.
I love myself.
I know my values and I live inside them.
I'm not for sale,
Not physically,
Not mentally,
Not emotionally,
Not spiritually.
It is safe for me to express myself.
My emotions guide me back to openness.
I am a wellspring of creativity.
Feel the quality of water in balance moving through you now.
Encircling care.
The safety of the womb,
Inclusion,
Nurturance,
The warmth of home.
Now we're going to go a little deeper because the lover has a shadow.
And it's been working hard for you.
Somewhere.
At some point.
Loving openly felt dangerous.
And sew.
A part of you learned to trade.
To perform love instead of feel it.
To give yourself away in exchange for safety.
For acceptance.
Of the feeling of being included.
Misses.
The Shadow Lover.
Also known as the prostitute.
Not dirty,
Not shameful.
A child who got scared.
That being open wasn't safe.
And found a strategy to stay loved anyway.
Maybe it learned to rely on others to take care of you,
Developing a quiet talent for eliciting help.
Maybe it learned to yield.
To endure hardship.
As if suffering itself were a form of love.
Maybe it learned to release everything all at once,
Sharing without inhibition,
Needing to be seen no matter the cost.
Whatever you see or feel now,
Don't push it away,
Just notice and feel where it lives in your body.
Is there a place where you've been trading your values for a sense of security?
A place where you say yes when your body says no.
A place where you've gone quiet or gone along just to keep the peace.
We meet this place and this part of you without judgment.
With recognition.
The prostitute learned to survive by making you small,
Quiet,
Or available.
And underneath that energy is something gold.
It knows better.
Than almost any other part of you exactly what real safety would feel like.
Any wisdom or message it has,
Let that be known to you now.
Thank it now.
Thank this part of you silently in your own words and in your own way.
Thank it for keeping you loved when you didn't know another way.
And invite it now to rest.
Let it know it doesn't have to keep trading.
But you?
Your whole self,
Your mature and adult self.
Listening to these words right now,
You can generate your own safety.
Doesn't have to come from outside of you anymore.
And feel this area in your pelvis settle back into its own natural flow.
Anything that's been learned,
Being integrated,
Moved.
Say in your own mind to yourself,
I love myself.
I know my values and I live inside them.
It's safe for me to be open.
Because my safety is generated by me and no one can take that from me.
I'm passionate and devoted to myself.
Feel that truth flow in your body.
Let it be simple,
Let it be true.
And on your next inhale,
You're going to let this water energy rise as vapour,
As mist,
Moving up.
Through your belly and towards your head.
And as you feel this shift.
Notice some clarity emerging,
A spark,
Some illumination,
Creativity.
And there's the lights in two places at once.
Maybe there's a fire,
A spark in your belly.
And a little peace in your imagination,
In your mind.
Invite the element of fire to meet you here.
And invite in the sovereign.
The part of you that leads,
That knows its own greatness,
That takes full responsibility for its thoughts and its actions and trusts fully that all of its needs are met.
This is the part of you that's imaginative,
Adventurous,
Positive.
The part that entertains,
Motivates,
Inspires and galvanises simply by being lit up.
Ask your belly and your mind now what is really true for me.
What do I know without needing anyone else's permission to know it?
Breathe.
Notice the insight flickering like sparks catching light.
Let your thoughts be warm.
By the passion of purpose.
Let this fire spread gently through your system,
Lighting pathways,
Illuminating what is next,
Synapses.
Creativity,
Imagination.
It's all possible for you.
This is your sovereign,
Positive,
Self-governing,
On fire,
Lit hot with its own life force.
And as you say these words now in your mind's eye,
Notice where they land.
I respect myself.
I know that I am good.
I show others how to treat me.
It is safe for me to be generous.
And accepting of mine and others' needs and capacity.
My needs are valid.
I am the source of my own power.
I am not anyone else's source of power.
Feel the qualities of fire in balance,
Driven,
Directed.
Clear line towards the horizon,
An arrow in pursuit of its target.
The kind of fire that protects and warms a whole circle of people without burning any of them.
The fire that heats a home and cooks and turns ingredients into a meal.
And now.
Let's meet its shadow.
Somewhere.
At some time.
Being that powerful didn't feel safe.
Maybe your light was too much for the room.
Maybe your greatness went unacknowledged or unresourced.
And so a part of you learned a different strategy.
Stay small.
Stay Dependent.
Wait for permission.
This is the child.
A part of you that once reached for encouragement and didn't always find it.
Not weak,
Not lesser.
But a part that learned to look outside of itself for the thing it needed to feel good enough.
Maybe it learned to idealize,
Seeing endless possibilities,
Always identifying good ways to make things better.
While quietly avoiding anything that felt negative or risky.
Maybe it learned to be impressive.
Achieving and achieving and giving the impression that it can do anything so no one would look too closely at whether it felt good enough underneath.
Maybe it learned to foster and care for everyone around you.
So busy meeting other people's needs that it stayed invisible.
Even to itself.
Whatever that part looks like or feels like or feels true for you at some time,
Notice where it lives in you now.
Notice where you wait for permission before your lap.
What are you depending on right now to feel good enough about yourself?
And we're meeting this part without judgment,
Only recognition.
This part,
The child has spent years working out exactly what it needs to feel secure,
To feel chosen,
To feel like enough.
That is gold.
It knows precisely what nourishment looks like.
Because it's been hungry for a long time.
So thank that part now.
And let it know you don't need permission anymore.
You are allowed to be the source of your own power,
Your own fire,
Your own goodness and greatness.
And feel your sovereign rise back up into your belly and your head and know that you are good.
You know and show others how to treat you.
Your needs are valid and you are the one who meets them.
See in your own mind's eye,
I am motivated and inspired by myself.
I am on fire.
I am lit.
I am hot.
And when you're ready,
Let that warmth,
That sparkiness,
That heat move back down through your centre and ground that fire into the cauldron of your gut,
Your belly.
Inhale… And as you exhale,
Arrive deep in your abdomen.
And let your belly soften.
Let your breath fall low and steady.
Even and easy.
Calm but alert.
And if it helps to take a pand to your belly,
Then you can do so now.
Invite the element of earth to meet you here.
And we're inviting in the warrior.
That peaceful ninja within you,
The part that sets boundaries.
Takes action.
Builds a life that can actually hold weight.
Down to Earth.
Solid,
Pragmatic,
Capable of the dynamic action and success in the world.
That you want and that you claim.
Ask your gut now.
What action feels deeply right and true for me next?
What do I stand for?
And no one is watching,
Deep down.
Feel the element of earth filling your legs,
Your feet,
The bones beneath your flesh.
Feel the mountain in you,
Immovable,
Present,
Connected.
This is your warrior.
Disciplined,
Resourced,
Resilient.
And say these in your mind's eye after me now.
I will do whatever it takes.
For as long as it takes.
No matter how long it takes.
I have all the resources I require.
Money and resource come from me.
This is my boundary.
This is what I am and not available for.
It is easy for me to go all in and commit.
Feel the qualities of earth in balance,
Order,
Structure.
Standards that protect rather than restrict.
A body that knows exactly where it stands.
Rooted.
We're going to meet its shadow.
Somewhere.
Standing your ground didn't work.
At some point,
Your boundaries were crossed,
Ignored or punished.
And so a part of you learned to give up its power in exchange for peace.
This is the victim.
A part of you that got the message very young that it doesn't fully exist as its own person separate from everyone else.
This part is not pathetic,
This part is not broken.
It's been trying to prove otherwise ever since.
Maybe it learned to uphold the rules,
Believing that doing everything right would finally earn acceptance.
Maybe it learned to push against every limit,
Contesting and asserting because pushing was the only way it ever felt like it existed at all.
Maybe it learned to define itself sharply by its differences,
Desperate to be seen as separate,
Distinct,
And unmistakably its own.
Feel where this part of you lives.
Where do you say it's not fair instead of setting the boundary?
Where do you over give until you're exhausted and call it love?
We meet this part without judgment,
With pure love and recognition.
The victim has an extraordinary sensitivity to what's fair,
What's just.
To what real protection looks like.
That's its goal.
It's been keeping score so carefully because it's never stopped believing that fairness matters.
Thank you.
And let it know that you can hold your own territory now.
You don't need the world to hand you permission to take up space.
Feel your warrior rise back through your body,
Steady and whole.
Mature.
And repeat after me in your mind's eye,
I am not reliant on any one person to provide for my well-being.
There is no such thing as failure,
Only feedback.
I am energized and ready to make moves.
I'm going all in.
Now with your next inhalation,
Let your awareness rise up through your gut,
Into your chest,
Filling your lungs.
Expanding all around your heart.
As you inhale,
Allow the air through your nostrils,
Cool and fresh.
And out warmer as you release.
With each new breath,
Feel your lungs expanding and your heart held inside that expansion.
This is the breath of life.
The rhythm of your heart and lungs working together,
Bringing the wisdom of your whole full self into every cell.
Invite the element of air to meet you here.
And invite in the magician.
The integrator.
The alchemist,
The sage,
The bridge between worlds.
You're a magician.
Is awareness.
Your magician knows everything.
And it is in this place where all of your intelligences communicate your lover's compassion.
Your sovereign's creative clarity,
Your warrior's courage,
Dancing together now in coherence.
There is nothing to do except be and breathe.
And as these intelligences flourish and share their wisdom with one another.
What is the wise way forward?
What perspective am I yet to see?
And as everything you have learned and discovered from the shadow and illuminated archetypes and intelligences within your own system is shared and mixed and mingled with one another as it moves through,
Your blood,
Your skin,
The fascia,
The tiny little hairs.
Ask,
What does my whole co-creating self have to share to support my fullness,
My wholeness,
And my contribution to what we are evolving towards?
And as your system hums with coherence and as you breathe and that blood moves and you feel your heart beat All pulsing together,
All in motion.
An unseen conductor carries signals,
Carries magic.
Throughout your whole being.
And your whole system breathes itself effortless,
Intelligent,
Alive.
This is the spacious,
Allowing part of you.
It's chaos,
But it's also magic.
It's where miracles find a landing place and where you remember that wisdom doesn't need to be forced,
Only received.
This is your magician.
Objective,
Adaptable,
Certain or unbothered by needing to be,
Say,
Do anything in particular.
And repeat these inside yourself after me.
I see all sides and all perspectives.
I can be impartial unattached from any view.
There are endless possibilities.
Just because it has never been done doesn't mean it can't be.
I do not need or require evidence or proof because I already know.
And as we feel the qualities of air in balance.
This dance,
This pushing of boundaries and service of growth,
The muse at play.
We're also going to quickly step into the shadow.
Somewhere.
Seeing too clearly became frightening.
An impossible choice made too early taught a part of you that whatever you choose will cost you something.
So it learned to protect you by staying suspicious,
Sceptical,
And always scanning for a threat.
This is the saboteur.
Not sabotaging you out of malice,
Trying to keep you safe using the only tool it trusts,
Fear.
Maybe it learned to detach,
Becoming.
.
.
So independent,
So self-reliant that it drifted beyond cool into distant.
Maybe it learned to weigh every option endlessly because an impossible choice made too early taught it that every path leads somewhere costly.
Maybe it learned to stay alert,
Scanning constantly for threat.
Nobody else has noticed yet,
Its sharp intellect never quite allowed to rest.
Feel where it lives.
Where do you talk yourself out of the leap right before you take it?
Where does that's not realistic show up uninvited?
The Saboteur has the sharpest eyes of anyone in your system.
It's gold is that it sees the risks nobody else sees because it's been watching for it your whole life.
And once it's not driving from fear,
That same perception becomes discernment.
So we thank this avatar.
And let it know you don't need proof from the past to move forward anymore because you are allowed to leap.
And feel your magician settle back into your chest,
Your heart,
Your lungs,
Breath by breath.
I know what I know.
I follow the fun,
It doesn't have to make sense.
Everything can change in an instant and I trust the timing of my life.
And now we make one final direct request before we come back.
Bring your awareness or invite it towards your autonomic nervous system,
The intelligence beneath your intelligence.
The network that already runs your heartbeat,
Your breath,
Your digestion,
Without you ever having to think about any of it.
Speak to it now,
Silently,
In whatever way feels good and true.
And ask your nervous system in its coherence to gather the wisdom of your lover,
Your sovereign,
Your warrior and your magician.
And pass each message from one intelligence to another.
Compassion to clarity,
Clarity to courage,
Courage to awareness.
And back again,
Around and around until they're all speaking one language.
And ask it to carry that wisdom wherever it's needed.
Into your body,
Into yourselves,
Into every place that you've been holding,
Protecting or bracing for your own and whole embodied wholeness.
For the reclamation of your whole self.
And feel that request land.
There's nothing to force,
Nothing to steer.
You asked and so it is done.
Let your own body's intelligence do what it already knows how to do best.
And as everything ripples through you and you find yourself coming more to the surface.
As all of those elements swirl together,
Fire,
Water,
Air,
The whole ecosystem,
Fully online,
In harmony.
Carrying the wisdom you just asked for wherever it's need,
Needed.
Feel what it feels like in your body to hold all eight at once.
Not competing for the front of the stage,
Just present together in yours.
This is what totality,
Wholeness,
Integrity actually is.
It's not the absence of a shadow,
It's the presence of everything,
Held together in one body.
Slowly,
Slowly you're going to start to take a few more breaths and bring your awareness into here and now.
And notice how your body feels now that every part has been acknowledged.
You are coherent.
You are whole.
You are the mountain and the sea,
The flame and the breeze.
Every part of you that has ever protected and every part of you that's ready to lead,
All now speaking the same language and on the same side.
Whenever you're ready.
Begin to wiggle your fingers and toes.
And bring your awareness back to the room.
