You can't chase down forgiveness.
Forgiveness arrives in a whisper.
It trickles in on dew drops.
It moves through the air on dust particles.
Sometimes we have experiences in life that simply cannot be forgiven at this moment or that one or today or last week.
It was and it is too traumatizing or confusing or chronic in our bodies and in our brains and in our emotions and in our spirits to be able to be forgiven at this time.
And for right now,
Let that be okay dear one.
You're exactly where you need to be.
You can however consider forgiving life itself.
Since you are a human,
You can speak for humanity.
On behalf of humanity,
You can offer up to the individual and to all individuals who are also you the following,
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.
You might feel resistance here.
You might not be able to get past I'm sorry at first.
You might say I'm sorry and say screw that.
No,
I'm not.
I'm not sorry.
You might have a resistance like I don't want to hear that.
Nobody's been sorry.
I'm not sorry at all either.
Okay,
That's fine.
Dear one,
So on behalf of humanity,
You're not going to leave you.
You're going to stay right here with the resistance that is and be with it.
Lean into it.
Ask it to tea.
Resistance can sit side by side and I'm sorry.
I am sorry.
I'm so sorry.
On behalf of humanity,
I am sorry.
I am sorry that we as a society have not healed our ancient and our deep wounds.
I am sorry that we still hurt each other.
So sorry that you got caught in someone else's unconscious pain.
I'm sorry that that happened to you.
I'm sorry.
Please,
Please forgive me.
Individuated,
You can feel resistance here.
Forgive who?
No.
It may sound something like I'll listen but I cannot and I will not forgive.
No way.
No how.
That pain runs too deep.
Okay,
That's okay,
Dear one.
That's perfectly okay.
But on behalf of humanity,
You,
You're not going to leave you.
You're going to go sit right here where the resistance is.
Pull up a chair and be with it.
Lean in.
Get real close.
You're going to hold out your hands loving,
Allowing,
Open-palmed in the kind space for the hurt in you to be heard.
Heart open.
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
Please forgive me for not holding you sacred.
Please forgive me for forcing you to have to defend yourself.
Please forgive me for not seeing how badly you've been hurting.
Please forgive me for not seeing you were hiding and trying to protect yourself.
I'm so sorry.
Please forgive me.
When you have held your own heart in protective and in sacred love and kindness for long enough,
You'll eventually feel a little give,
A little space,
A little willingness to at least grant forgiveness to humanity in general.
Humanity is climbing out of darkness and unconsciousness.
And in that process,
We have to face how we've hurt ourselves and how we've hurt one another,
How we've hurt you.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.
Humanity is incomplete without you,
Dear one.
You,
You are incomplete without humanity.
We are one and we are the same.
I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.
From my heart to yours,
Right in this very moment,
On behalf of humanity,
I'm sorry.
Please,
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.
I wish you swift healing and peace that arrives with ease.
