Intuition Vs. Expectation: A New Year's Eve Story

This short podcast explores the importance of listening to your body and trusting intuition. Through a personal story of unexpected illness on New Year's Eve, we discover how surrender can lead to a more fulfilling experience.

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Love,
Diana

Transcript

Okay,

Here is a story that I will be remembering the rest of my life.

Now it is the New Year's Eve here in Bolivia.

I'm in the best place to celebrate the Amazon New Year and I was going there with my friend.

Oh,

We had such a good plan and I decided to take a nap before leaving.

But while I was doing the breathwork practice to release tension,

To switch the state,

I got migraine.

And it starts with visuals and I never know how it's going to develop,

Whether it's going to be mild,

Which happened only once,

Or severe,

Which happens all the rest of the times.

So I knew that I had to stay,

I knew I had to just go to sleep.

I should just first of all listen to my body.

I have no idea why the migraine started.

I was feeling great,

But I know that it is a sign of my body and it tells me something very important,

Something that I probably did not understand.

Well,

I told my friend that I couldn't go with him and I had to stay.

I think this was the moment of realization.

I still hope that I will go to the celebration because the main moment,

Main part is to greet the sunrise the next day.

So I still now hope to get a good sleep for a few hours and then take a taxi at night and spend there maybe like a couple of hours before the sunrise enjoying the party and the main event.

I was screaming because of how unfair it is,

Like the migraine coming at such moment.

I was very,

I cannot say I was angry,

But I was so disappointed.

I am so disappointed and I know,

I just know more than anything that I should listen to my body and that I should trust myself more than anything or anyone else.

I mean more than my desires,

The logic of my brain,

Which tells me that I want to go,

That I want to be at this celebration now,

That I want to have dinner with my friend first,

That oh my god we had such a good plan.

And I know that I don't understand why this happens,

But I know that it is the guidance from first of all my body,

From my subconscious mind,

From my intuition and from perhaps the universe.

I know that I don't have to understand that,

But I know that I have to listen to it and follow inner guidance,

Even though I don't agree with that.

But I know that it is the best way that I am guided.

You can call it god,

You can call it,

I don't know,

Something spiritual.

For me it is my intuition,

My body and the universe.

All of that irritates me and annoys me so much right now,

But there is no other way I should do that and I can't do that.

And probably I will understand later why it happened at such moment and what it was.

And probably it is so because it is much better for me to go just for the sunrise than to see the beginning of the celebration or even to spend the whole night,

Which would be like very tiring for me.

So I don't know,

I hope I'll feel better in a few hours.

I hope I'll find a taxi to go to the main site at night and I hope I'll enjoy the sunrise and I hope I'll understand what happened to me.

But I am still thankful and grateful for the guidance,

Whatever it is.

I know it is a strong sign and I know I have to listen to it and I do.

And for this I'm thankful to myself too.

And now Diana from the future is speaking and I have to admit that it was a blissful sign.

And I'm,

I cannot say happy that my great happened that night,

But I'm very happy that I stayed the night at home,

That I could relax.

And it was the most magical moment definitely of the whole year.

You can see how it was in my online profiles,

But the thing is that I got the most out of the night.

I was restful,

I was full of energy,

So I could appreciate the moment much more.

And the sunrise itself was incredible.

Later I met my friends and they admitted that probably staying the whole night nine hours wasn't the best idea or experience.

They were super tired,

But of course appreciated the moment as well.

And I continued a new day and a new year of my life,

Full of self-love and being super connected to myself.

And for this I'm very grateful.

And thank you guys for listening to that.

I don't know if I'm gonna upload it somewhere or anywhere,

But if you are listening to that,

Let me know that first you listened till the end,

That it wasn't in vain sharing it.

It's not easy to be vulnerable,

But I hope that my words,

My experience,

My vision are helpful.

Let me know your opinions,

Maybe some similar experiences.

And thank you so much once again for sharing this moment with me.

Bye.