Hello Kindred Spirits.
My name is Tondre Olay and I want to talk to you about something that happens in the quiet of the night.
Something that has terrified people for centuries.
In my culture,
The elders called it the witch bite in your back,
But later doctors would term it sleep paralysis.
It's a terrifying moment where your mind wakes up,
But the body is still asleep.
You can see the room,
You can see people moving,
You can even scream for them to shake you,
To wake you up,
But your mouth doesn't move.
You are trapped in your own body,
Often feeling a heavy weight on your chest and a vibrating sensation that feels like it's shaking your very soul.
For years,
I feared this,
I fought it,
I prayed for it to stop.
But I want to offer you a different perspective today.
What if that vibration isn't evil?
What if that weight isn't there to hurt you?
What if it's you reconnecting to the infinite power of Source?
To understand this,
We need to talk about the ego.
Now,
I often hear people say,
Kill the ego.
There is this common idea in spiritual circles that the ego is the enemy,
Something to be destroyed,
Hated,
Or conquered.
People often speak about it with such animosity,
But I don't believe in killing the ego.
You need it.
The ego is like a spacesuit,
And you are a high vibrational energy being.
If you came into this physical reality without a buffer,
You'd blow the circuits of the body.
The ego protects you,
It allows you to exist here.
But the ego is terrified of the non-physical.
It is terrified of the silence.
Why?
Because the ego knows that when you transition back into the spirit,
It dies.
It ceases to exist.
So when you enter that deep state of rest,
That sleep paralysis where you are hovering between worlds,
Your ego panics.
It screams,
Danger,
We are losing control,
Wake up.
It creates fear to put you back into the physical.
That fear is what turns a blissful spiritual experience into a nightmare.
You aren't fighting a demon,
You are fighting your own spacesuit trying to keep you grounded.
I learned this the hard way.
The first time I experienced this vibration during a chakra meditation,
I was terrified.
I felt a bump simultaneously at my root and my crown chakra,
And suddenly I was vibrating from head to toe.
It felt like I was levitating.
I could not tell my nose from my toes.
Now,
Even though it felt blissful,
I fought the current because it was unknown and my ego kicked in.
I prayed for God,
For Source to get me out of here.
Years later,
I was in a deep gratitude meditation.
I was visualizing a table with everyone I had ever met,
Thanking them for the part,
Whatever it was,
That they played in my life's journey.
Ironically,
I first started thanking the people I was no longer friends with.
People where there had been a negative rift or a painful fallout.
I looked at them in my mind's eye and I began thanking them.
And perhaps it was because I had truly forgiven them.
Perhaps it was because I finally let go of that heavy,
Low vibrational luggage that the frequency shifted.
Because suddenly,
That familiar energy returned.
The vibration started.
But this time,
I remembered a promise I made to myself that if this happens again,
I would just relax into it.
So I didn't fight it.
I didn't panic.
I simply remembered to breathe.
And by surrendering to that sensation instead of fighting it,
The fear disappeared.
Instead,
I experienced Source on an even deeper,
Higher level.
I felt connected to everyone and everything in existence.
I felt connected to the entire universe.
And it felt like love.
Tears began streaming from my eyes because I was finally receiving the answer to the question I had always asked.
How is it possible that the Divine is omnipresent?
And I saw it.
I saw the One,
The Great I AM.
And I saw these extensions of Divine Light spreading throughout the entire universe.
It was everywhere.
It connected every single being in existence,
Spiritual and soulful,
Physical and non-physical,
Dark and light.
We are all connected.
We are all extensions of Source.
And I realized I wasn't fighting some quote-unquote demon.
I was simply plugging back in.
So how do we get there?
How do we stop the nightmares and the insomnia?
First,
You must power down.
Many of you are watching TV or scrolling until your eyelids drop.
And your brain?
It's still fired up.
You are feeding the ego right before you try to transcend it.
Give yourself at least an hour.
Put your phone in Do Not Disturb.
Read something high-vibrational.
Listen to some high-vibration music.
Or my favorite,
Just simply sit in silence.
You know,
My grandmother used to always say,
Sometimes the best thing to do is nothing at all.
Second,
And I want you to understand this,
The Law of Attraction does not work while you are asleep.
When you are awake,
You are consciously creating.
But when you are asleep,
You are in a state of allowing.
You are resting in the arms of the Divine.
You don't need to worry about manifesting bad things in your sleep.
This is your time to recharge.
And finally,
Check your luggage at the door.
If you are holding on to anger or grudges,
You are keeping yourself in a low vibration that attracts fear.
Release it.
Forgive them.
Not for them,
But for your own rest.
And then do something courageous.
Turn around and forgive yourself.
For every low-vibrational thought you may have had about them or the situation,
Free yourself from it.
Ask yourself,
Does this serve my highest good?
And if the answer is no,
Let it go.
Anything low-vibrational does not serve your highest good.
It cannot.
You cannot get there from here.
You cannot be positive and negative at the same time.
As a matter of fact,
Try and think of it this way.
Your bed should be your sanctuary,
Your place of rest.
It's where you take your body and give it the peace and love it so richly deserves.
It does so much for you on a 24-hour basis.
As a matter of fact,
When you're sleeping,
Your body is still working for you.
When is the last time you treated your body by giving it the rest that it deserves?
Now,
All of your problems,
All of your pains,
Your heavy decisions,
Your work,
All of these things should be left at the door.
Never bring a negative into a positive because then you stand a chance of tainting that sanctuary with all of your negative energy.
You want at least that space to be a peaceful space.
And I guarantee you,
If you try this,
If you practice this,
You'll see a big difference the moment your head hits the pillow.
So,
Try to refrain from bringing your negative waste into your positive space.
And not only you,
No one should be allowed to do that.
Tonight,
If you find yourself in that state,
Awake but paralyzed,
Vibrating,
Feeling that weight,
Do not panic.
Tell your ego,
I am safe.
Try to relax into that vibration.
Ride the wave.
You might find that on the other side of that fear is the most profound peace you have ever known.
I'm going to say to you what my grandmother often said after sharing such wisdom with me.
And that is,
You don't have to take my word for anything that I shared here with you.
Try it for yourself.
And don't try to force a particular outcome.
Just be.
Set your intentions for tonight.
Repeat to yourself the following affirmation,
I will rest in the flow.
Just keep repeating that so you will remember in the moment,
If you ever find yourself in that situation.
And remember to breathe.
Breathing brings you back into the here and now,
To the present moment.
Remember to breathe.
And as you breathe,
Relax everything totally.
I am Tondre Olle.
I hope this talk helps you to remember that you are more powerful than you think.
You are a direct extension of divine source,
The I am.
Therefore,
You are never alone.
Sending you love and light.
Sweet dreams and namaste.
