My Journey Into Spirit Baby Mediumship - Episode 1

In this opening Episode 1 of the Spirit Baby Guide Podcast, I share the story of how Spirit Babies entered my life and transformed my path.
I talk about vivid premonition dreams, multiple IVF treatments, pregnancy losses, and the moment I heard a clear inner voice that changed everything, and opened my path to the reality of mediumship.

You’ll hear how these experiences led me to understand soul planning, incarnation, free will, and the deep link between mother and child at the soul level.

A story of reclaiming power, healing after loss, and trusting that your soul’s path is unfolding perfectly-even when life looks different than you imagined.

Transcript

Welcome everyone to the first episode of Spirit Baby Guide podcast.

My name is Aga and today I will talk about how spirit babies entered my life.

Let's dive in.

My experience with spirit babies did not start from the very childhood although I was always having dreams where past loved ones would visit me and with time I was also having dreams about incoming souls so the souls of babies that would like to be born and enter our extended family.

So I had already from the beginning that kind of connection with the spirit dimension that was mostly through dreams.

And it wasn't until the moment when I was going through my own fertility chapter that that ability expanded and I stepped into the conscious mediumship where I realized that I can connect not only for myself but also for others and I have taken it forward ever since.

Before I tell you about my fertility experience I want to start with a little story.

When I was in my 20s I was still a student and working part-time at a cafe and one day a medium stepped through the door and she said that she's got a meeting with my manager and that she's got a few minutes left and she asked me to sit with her.

So when I joined her she said to me that she is a medium and that she's happy to tell me something about my future if I don't mind.

For me that was something really exciting so I said yeah I would love to hear it and she brought up quite a few interesting details from my past and also aspects of my future.

She said to me that I will have one child and that it will be a difficult pregnancy or a difficult path to have that child.

She also said some things about relationships,

She also said something about when I will die and the level of information received was quite overwhelming and I would say some of the information I wish I haven't heard.

That reading stayed with me throughout my whole mid-30s into 40s.

That's when my fertility chapter began.

At the age of 35-36 I was actually told by a fertility specialist that the state of my ovarian reserve is incredibly low.

They were asking whether there was a premature menopause within my family and all the questions indicating that well you know there are high chances that you're not going to conceive.

The information from the doctors felt overwhelming and they felt quite negative and as soon as they told me that I may not be able to conceive for the next year because my lining is too thin because there's been a lot of physical elements that they could see on the scan that was indicating well not favorable conditions for the pregnancy,

For conception etc.

Not enough follicles.

Only two weeks after that diagnosis and me being absolutely frantically crying about it and surrendering to whatever will be will be and just giving up all the hope.

Only two weeks after that I felt pregnant naturally.

Unfortunately at the week eight of that pregnancy I have lost it and before I had that loss I had a dream during which a spirit of a baby girl showed herself to me as she was walking away from me and she was walking towards a gate towards a schoolyard where there were lots of other children and all of them were turned away from me so I could not see their faces but I could see exactly the hair color,

The posture,

The silhouette and the clothes that the girl was wearing but I knew that she's walking away from me and that I do not have access to where she's going and it felt really heart-wrenching.

I felt such a pain that I cannot go there with her.

It felt like a real loss but also at the same time as a reassurance.

I knew she is my daughter and I knew I cannot follow her there but I also knew that she is fine.

So that was my first encounter with my own spirit babies.

A dream just before a loss,

Before my pregnancy has ended.

Soon after that we stepped into different fertility treatments with my husband so we went through IUI and IVFs and on the second egg retrieval I've had a dream and in that dream I had a spirit baby boy showing himself in all the colors so I could see his face,

His personality.

He was talking to me,

I could hear him and he was behaving a little bit mischievously.

He was a really cute boy and I knew he's my son.

It was like oh my gosh he's my son,

That's my son,

I'm talking to my son and I wrote every single detail of that dream and I sent it to everybody and I said I think I'm expecting a boy and then it turned out that yes we conceived and the pregnancy is continuing and eventually the DNA testing showed that yes this is a boy.

Everything matched,

All the details that I wrote in that email to myself and to my friends,

My family.

Now we can reread it and we can see that whatever has been described he looks and behaves like this.

So this is really funny to really see it like five years after.

I feel so privileged to be able to have such a dream and communication with him before he was born.

I cherish it till today,

It's just incredible.

But I wanted to say we did not want to have just one child and that sort of links to what that medium in my 20s was talking about,

That I will have only one child.

I remembered that message from her and I really did not want to have just one child.

I really wanted to have children and then I followed with more IVFs to make that happen.

But not many follicles and not many embryos out of those.

And one thing,

I had absolutely zero positive pregnancy test.

The doctors told us that they can't do anything else for us with my egg reserve,

That I will need to have a donor egg if we wanted to continue.

At that moment we knew that this is not the path for us and that's for various different reasons that are more personal to my husband and to me.

With that decision came a lot of grief because that was the realization and facing that,

Oh no,

This medium was right.

I am having just one child,

That's not something that I wanted to settle for and also that the doctors cannot do anything else for me.

And at this point I wanted to mention that when I had my first pregnancy,

So I conceived naturally and then lost it,

At that moment in time my mind,

My subconscious mind has learned that if I conceive naturally again,

That is dangerous for me because I have lost that baby.

Whereas with IVF I actually felt more safe and secure because I knew that IVF gave me my take-home baby.

I knew that that was also a block in itself for my natural conception.

There was still a program running in my head that IVF is better because it has already given me a baby before,

So logically we can trust that.

When I received that information from the doctors that I can't do anything else,

That was an absolutely devastating moment because that was the finality.

That was it.

There is nothing else that they can do for me.

And what this meant is that I could no longer give my power away because they were returning my power back to me.

But they were returning it in a way,

Well,

We're powerless,

So now it's up to you to make a choice.

I wasn't still accepting it fully,

So I was going through the grieving process,

The anger stage,

The sadness and the bargaining stage as well.

And the bargaining stage looked like me sending messages to the doctors and asking them,

Hey,

Is it possible to have some extra medication that I can take at home that could help me to increase the number of follicles or maybe ovulation and all of that.

And I was eventually following that path.

And during that path,

I remember I was feeling so miserable.

I was feeling so weak.

My body was absolutely exhausted of all of it.

And I remember this pivotal moment on the bathroom floor where I was so unwell.

And I said this out loud and in my heart,

Like I meant it.

And I said,

God,

Why did you make me do this?

And then the response came.

And I've heard the response as if someone was standing next to me,

As if literally I had a man standing next to me.

It was a man's voice.

And I've heard,

I did not ask you to do this.

And the most surprising thing was that this voice vibrated in my whole body as truth.

It was nothing that I could argue with.

It was final.

And it felt right.

It felt like a wake-up call.

It's as if someone wakes you up from a nightmare and you realize that,

Hey,

Hold on,

I don't have to do this.

And I can choose something that is not making me this miserable.

And in an instant,

Everything has changed for me in that moment.

First of all,

I realized that there is someone next to me who is telling me those things.

So that's one.

And later,

I learned that this is my spirit guide.

And then secondly,

I have the power.

I have the power,

I make decisions,

And I can change it.

So the moment the doctors have given me my power back,

And then that voice of my spirit guide has mentioned that I didn't make you do this,

It was clear.

It was just me.

That's me who is doing it.

And if I'm doing it to myself,

And I'm making myself feel so miserable,

I may as well make myself happy.

And that was the pivotal moment when everything started changing.

I started a real healing process.

First,

I attended different healing modalities.

I followed Reiki,

I followed hypnotherapy.

I started studying hypnotherapy myself,

And I certified as a hypnotherapist.

And eventually,

I built my own hypnotherapy program,

Focusing on releasing anything and everything that was not serving me on my life path,

And also on my fertility path.

And then reconnecting with my body,

Moving to the manifestation stage of connecting with my spirit babies.

That process took about nine months,

But my program on myself took three months.

I've recorded my own sessions.

I was listening to them as if I was the client.

I was sitting in meditations one hour in the morning,

One hour in the evening.

So I really set up the routine as well.

So I was very intensive and very intentional about it.

Hypnotherapy,

Meditation,

Connecting with spirits,

With spirit guides,

With my past loved ones,

And with spirit babies.

I was blending every single element because I already knew that having had those dreams,

Having had someone standing next to me and telling me that this is me who was choosing it,

The path,

I haven't had the doubt there is someone else,

That there are souls out there,

And that we're constantly connected and that they are guiding us.

I haven't had any doubt there.

So I incorporated all of that into my own healing process.

And at the end of that third month,

I had a positive pregnancy test.

And I just wanted to reiterate this because during my IVF egg retrievals and all those multiple journeys of transfers that followed from it,

I have never had a positive pregnancy test.

So now working on myself,

Healing myself,

Releasing everything that was not serving me,

And eventually having the positive pregnancy test meant I was free from any limiting belief about my own fertility and what my body can do or cannot do.

Having the positive pregnancy test was already proof to me that you don't have to give your power away to receive something in your life.

And actually it is the contrary.

When you take your power and use your power in most joyful ways on your path,

That's the moment the true transformation can really happen for you,

Because you're working through all the layers of who you are.

You're working on your body,

You're working on your subconscious mind and your conscious mind,

But you're also working with your soul and your energetic connection to other entities and beings of light,

Your past loved ones and your future children.

So all of that came together in this positive pregnancy test that I have seen after three months of doing my program.

And that positive pregnancy test also arrived in very incredible way,

Because just the night before I had a dream where my grandma that passed away came to me with incredible amount of love.

And that was the reason why I felt the need to take a pregnancy test the next day.

That is how my third pregnancy began.

From that moment I could also hear my spirit baby girl,

So I was able to communicate with her consciously,

Ask questions and receive the signs and information back into my mind.

A month before I conceived her,

Something bizarre began happening.

I was more active with asking my son,

Would you like to meet your sister?

Would you like your sister to come?

I was also asking my husband,

Hey,

What name would you choose for our daughter?

And I remember those questions were arriving out of nowhere.

I was even surprised,

Because I was so connected without really speaking to my spirit baby girl,

Just the thoughts were arriving in my mind and were prompting me to ask questions to the family around me.

And I know now that this was the making of my spirit baby girl,

Who was making those thought prompts in my mind to engage my whole family in her arrival.

So if you are experiencing anything like that,

That suddenly you feel you want to talk about your baby,

Or you want to ask your child about having a sibling,

Please know this is not nothing,

This is not you just making something up.

Especially if you notice that there is a pattern,

That you're speaking about it a little bit more often,

It's not a coincidence.

It's definitely a synchronicity and there is someone behind this and that is definitely your baby trying to prepare everybody for their arrival.

I have never really imagined experiencing the pregnancy in this way.

And when I had those two lines,

Positive lines of pregnancy,

I couldn't believe it.

It meant so much to me to even see that.

I said to myself,

I don't even mind if this baby chooses not to come to me in this lifetime,

Because having her already,

Even for this short little while,

Is already enough.

And I'm so grateful for it.

And it still makes me feel really emotional when I'm thinking about it,

Because that amount of love that I felt during the pregnancy,

And I can still feel it now,

Is incredibly healing and empowering.

This pregnancy lasted about eight and a half weeks.

Only a day before the miscarriage began,

I had a scan where we could see her heartbeat and that joy,

Just seeing her growing,

Was so immense.

The night after the scan,

I had a dream and that dream was incredibly symbolic and it was with a spirit visitation from her soul,

From the soul of my baby.

She showed herself as standing on a rock.

She had one leg on the rock as if she was jumping and she was trying to support herself.

She was trying to grab hands of both parents.

And she couldn't.

And she made me know in that dream that the balance is missing,

That she needs balance to be able to stay.

I'm saying this to you because each dream,

As much as each spirit baby medium reading,

Or any medium reading with spirits,

They use a lot of symbols to convey those messages for us.

And they do it because it's one of the ways to get the message across.

So if you have a dream in which you sense there is a spirit visitation,

It could be from your spirit baby,

It could be from any other past relatives,

Just remember it,

Write it down,

Write every single detail,

Every symbol.

It's like catching all the dots and then connecting the dots to make the full meaning of that story.

Because spirits,

They always come with those messages.

We only need to learn to notice and notice not only what we expect to hear,

But also the little nuances,

Because the answers are already within those.

That's also the reason why I ask my clients to always triple check how does it make you feel and to check all the meanings of the symbol,

Spiritual meaning of x,

Y,

And z.

Every symbol matters and it's irrespective whether you're connecting with your spirit babies,

So the souls of your babies,

The future ones and the ones that have already tried to be born,

Or your other past loved ones,

Your spirit guides as well.

Symbols,

Details,

They are the clue.

The morning after that dream,

The actual miscarriage began and this loss was painful physically,

Emotionally,

But here's the thing,

It also made me feel a release and I will explain you why.

My first pregnancy that has ended as a missed miscarriage had to be completed via medical surgery and after that surgery all the genetic material was tested and we were confirmed that we were expecting a girl,

But because her little form has been taken away from us for the testing,

It felt like we couldn't really create a ritual for her and that also never really gave me the closure that I needed and I never really thought I would need such a closure.

It simply did not feel complete to me and I'm talking about the closure of my body taking care of the whole process and also at the end of it having the possibility to create something meaningful,

A ritual,

But with this third pregnancy,

So the second loss that I had again with a baby girl who is the same soul that tried for the very first time that I had that loss,

This time I was able to communicate with her,

With that spirit of a girl from the very beginning and continued after the loss and not only spiritually I was connected,

But the physical components of the beginning,

Of the continuation and ending,

All of those meant so much to me because for the first time I felt my body,

My soul and my mind and I mean here my subconscious mind and my conscious mind worked fully to conceive and to grow our daughter and when the moment came for her to leave my body also carried her departure with this quiet wisdom and confidence.

It knew what to do and then we were able to do a burial ritual and now in that place where she's buried every February we see lots of crocuses and that reminds us how lucky and blessed we actually were to have her and how much she still loved and we can sense her love every day and even now as I just spoke those words I could feel her presence and she was answering back to me instantly and she says that I'm still here,

I'm still here,

I'm still the same and she's got this very nice sense of humor,

Very delicate,

Very peaceful,

But that is true she's still the same energy that I have felt for my first pregnancy that has ended and then for my third pregnancy that also ended in a loss.

She's been part of my soul journey in this lifetime and I'm so grateful that she's been present in my life in all the ways that she chose to be.

If I could describe you this final miscarriage in just one image it was like an ocean wave arriving and it was washing away all that pain of every past attempt to get pregnant,

Seeing all those negative tests and having those losses along the way and I did not expect that feeling because once you have a first miscarriage you know how deeply painful it is and what kind of wound and scar it can leave and quite a lot associated fears and emotions related to that so experiencing it for the second time but in slightly different way having been already connected to a spirit baby meant that this loss went completely differently in comparison to the first one so if anything spirit baby communication truly can help on a mental health and well-being of a mom who is going through a loss and I speak from my experience but also from experience of my clients so that final pregnancy did not bring me a healthy baby into my arms but the final loss and associated with it communication with the soul of that baby brought me peace so now when I look back and I can see that despite every choice,

Every treatment,

Every effort that I have made towards bringing my second child to this world,

The path still led me here to one child and I do believe now that this might have been a part of my soul planning and if I haven't had that medium 20 years ago who picked up on it,

Who said that I will have one child in my lifetime,

That I will have some challenges along my fertility path,

I don't think I would look at it as deeply as I am today and truly questioning what is pre-birth planning and what is free will in this lifetime because I actually gave 200 percent of myself medically and also holistically working on myself,

Releasing past beliefs,

Releasing all the conditioning,

Working profoundly on my subconscious mind and also spiritual connections and yet the end result is still having one child.

So if we look at the pre-birth planning,

The soul planning,

It may look a little bit like this.

You have some big life lessons that your soul would like to accomplish in this lifetime and it's basically gravitating in that direction.

Let's remember it's all energy so the energy flows in certain direction and that direction has been already set in motion before you incarnated on earth.

You can still use your free will as you walk your path and that free will might relate to how you're going to accomplish those life lessons.

So you can take for example a counter lane and make it slow and picturesque but also with lots of different surprises like potholes and you need to stop somewhere and it takes much longer or you can take a highway that will get you right there and much faster but probably you would miss other experiences along the way as well.

Ideally though the end result will be that you're graduating from that life lesson,

That experience that your soul ultimately came here for and let me just reiterate it.

We may not be coming to planet earth to experience losses but we come here to create specific life circumstances so that we can grow through those and whether this is through losses or something else that will be specific to each soul.

Looking at all of that i would like to say one message to those moms who are in a similar situation as me that you are going through a chain of losses,

Negative pregnancy tests and you still dream about having one more child,

Two more children etc.

I've learned that sometimes you can give your whole heart and you still arrive somewhere unexpected but that doesn't mean that you failed and that your life won't be joyful and peaceful.

It might mean that there is a greater plan and a deeper unfolding for your soul and that's irrespective whether you believe in soul planning and irrespective of how that mechanism truly works.

As for me i do believe that this was part of my soul planning but this is my belief and i arrived to that conclusion through many years and experiences of questioning it,

Releasing it,

Connecting with spirits and trying to understand what it is that i came here to do and experience.

But one thing still holds true.

Taking your power back instead of handing it away to doctors,

Systems,

Fears and human conditioning that you received along your lifetime,

All of that becomes the very doorway to your own healing.

Your story doesn't have to look like anyone else's.

Your soul path is yours alone.

So just honor it,

Enjoy it and trust it.

Thank you for listening and for walking this path with me and if my story brought you light or perspective i would love for you to share this episode with someone who needs it.

Until next time honor your path,

Trust your soul and remember you are never walking it alone.