First Steps On Finding Your Purspose

This is the first episode of Find Your Purpose, where I share my personal journey from corporate emptiness to discovering my calling as a coach. I open up about hitting rock bottom despite having everything society told me would make me happy, taking a leap to travel, and the struggles with self-sabotage and money blocks that followed. You'll hear about my temporary return to a 9-to-5 job that felt completely misaligned, the breakthrough moment when I finally committed to my path, and how clients began flowing in once I truly believed in myself. This episode is about taking that first scary step toward what your inner voice is calling you to do, even when you don't know exactly how it will work out.

Transcript

Hi guys and welcome to find your purpose this is gonna be the first episode I'm so excited I did not really think that I'm gonna do this or I didn't think that I'm gonna do it right now but decided that action is actually the first and most important thing that I should take so I decided you know why not why not sit down and actually record the first episode so here we are this is find your purpose and we're gonna talk a lot about your inner voice how to find out how to reconnect with it how to find your real calling and how to actually make money with it because that's a hard part you know you know maybe what you want to do in life but you have no idea how to make money with it and that's a big block that's a big thing so we're gonna talk a lot about that and we're just gonna give a lot of examples and just work through trauma work through blockages things that stop us from being our highest self and just living our best life living with purpose and aligning ourselves I don't really talk about those things or not in my main profiles so I thought that this is the right place to talk about it and connect with the right people so if you're here I'm so grateful you are and just so you know if you found this that means are you ready for a change and that change is coming to you so without further ado let's start this transformational journey together and let's get excited for it and start with the first story I thought I would share a little bit about myself and what led me to actually help women find their purpose and how did I find it and I think that my life has always been this channel which other people can look at and find find some wisdom in it and just help you know just with what I'm doing and how I'm living I feel like I've helped a lot of people I was very very miserable when I was about to graduate my college I had everything I had an amazing apartment I had a very good and stable job and you know I was achieving all my goals and something was missing but I'm not talking about something small was missing I mean I felt so empty I felt like nothing made any sense I felt like my life has no meaning I felt like I was useless I felt just this huge huge nothingness like everything was alright but nothing made sense to me I was always following what people said that would make me happy that would make me you know achieve all my dreams and when I do that when I have the apartment the diploma the job like I would be so happy and fulfilled but that did not happen I that was I was so far away from that and I was even mad at those people because I I was just sold a lie and I didn't know what to do I was so lost the only thing that I was genuinely inspired from was just I remember one night I was sitting there alone in my room and I was just like please God like I'll do anything just to be able to help people and inspire them and and just work with people like I was I was genuinely just sitting there and asking for guidance and asking for just this one thing and just it even makes me feel emotional when I look back at it because every time I was thinking about that it just it just gives me so much power and just happiness because I know that that's my purpose and even back then not knowing it I was still going in that direction but I blocked myself from thinking that was a possibility because back at a time there was probably three and a half years ago that was not a job coaching online was not a job especially in Bulgaria it was not an option nobody was doing it or none of the people that I knew so I didn't know how I would get there I did not know that it's a possibility at all but I did that I just asked that from God and that was that was my first step into actually changing my life I remember back at a time I decided that I'm gonna take a break and I'm gonna travel for a little bit which as well was not a thing in Bulgaria in my country you literally graduate and then you start working there is no in-between there is no break like other countries do we just go right into it because you need to climb that ladder right you need to get into the corporate world as fast as you can so you can achieve as much as you can that's what's happening in my country which insane but I decided that I'm just gonna quit my job leave my apartment and I'm just gonna go to Italy one month one month in Italy and then I'm gonna come back that was that was a great idea but I actually decided a little bit later that I'm also gonna go to Bali so these two destinations were on my list I was gonna volunteer and just live my life for two months in the summer right so I managed to do that and it was just so transformational I fell in love with traveling it was just so inspiring I could travel 24-7 and feel absolutely amazing and while I was doing that I started posting and a lot of people found that inspirational and wanted to do that as well so I became an influencer which was very wild for me back at the time but out of the sudden I had all of these people and I always had this inner feeling and inner guidance that I want to be able to teach and I want to be able to help those people and I started doing groups I started doing meditations guiding them through different challenges that they've had but of course I had my own blockage and I was never able to bring it actually to the end and I was kind of giving those one-on-one calls or those group calls and then I would retreat and I would I was kind of even scared of success so every time I would just self-sabotage again and again and again and no matter how many times I was trying I would just fail and I did that for I would say two years I've been traveling and doing not only coaching but I also did a lot of travel guidance I did the travel guides I still do to this day and that was a huge success I loved doing it I do it to this day what my problem was that I had a lot of money blockages and I wasn't able to charge what I should charge I did not believe in myself I had a lot of self-doubts and just my self-worth was really bad I had that similar experience with relationships but I was able to fix it but now I had to face my own fears and fix my money blockages as well and start to actually appreciate the knowledge that I have and that I am allowed to charge those prices and that was pretty hard for me to go back and heal all my trauma connected to money because I can tell you that this problem goes back not only to my mom but to my grandma and my dad and his mom it's just the whole family all my ancestors had some kind of issue with money so trying to fix my mindset going through them and what they had to experience it was just a lot and it just kept on showing up again and again so the whole thing was just too much at one point so I just fell into fear and into lack and my mindset was just lower than ever it was just very bad mindset because I was just defeated by all the work that I had to do and I decided I'm gonna start a nine-to-five job just to get that secure income again and I was literally just selling fudge at a shop I did not care what the job is gonna be I just wanted to get rid of all the anxiety I had about my income not being consistent so I just decided to find any job that's great but the problem is that I became so connected with myself and my feelings and my body that the moment that I started working this job I was pretty delusional for a month and after that I just I just felt it in my body I felt it in my heart in my soul in my bones that this is not for me and that every second that I spend doing this is a second I spend going away from my highest self in the version that I want to be and I was just so disappointed with myself and I did not want to do that anymore literally like every second was a torture I was ready to go out of my body I was just not there mentally I did not know how to cope with this I was just not wanting to go back into that nine-to-five not because it's a hard work I didn't I'm not scared from hard work I've been working since I'm 14 I've been doing literally 12 hours every day and I did not care about that it was just that I was so out of alignment with who I am then what my purpose is that my body was just indicating that on every possible level I had the worst headaches in the world I was just soulless I was so deeply connected with my mission for bringing people happiness making them feel more free and helping them heal their trauma and all that just disappeared for a month and a half and I was devastated because I genuinely just love it so much and it's it's my inner calling it's something that I can't run away from and it will always be the one thing that I have to do with my life so I did that work for maybe a month and a half and I told my partner I'm sorry but like I I can't do this I need to get back into what I'm originally doing and he never pressured me to do any work at all it was all my fears and all my mindset in the whole time and he right away said that's fine like go away from that job and just do whatever you need and I think having somebody that understands you and supports you as well through your journey is very important and a very crucial part of your journey so be very careful who you pick to be around you because your decisions would be also influenced by the people around you and you have to be very very careful who you're gonna ask for advice so I quit my job I'm very happy with it and I started digging very very very hard about how to find your purpose like what is your purpose because even though I knew I felt like I needed some kind of confirmation about it and I connected with a girl that was talking specifically about Dharma and what is your purpose what how do you connect with yourself and I scheduled a couple of meetings with her and I seeked out coaching because I needed it because sometimes even the coaches need coaching the same way therapists need therapists for them because you can't see your own shadows sometimes and you need somebody to help you with it and I think that's very important because I wouldn't be able to coach other people if I don't have the right people grounding me and coaching me and giving me their guidance as well so I do believe that the whole thing is just a shared experience and we all teach each other and we all help each other out really because even my clients they they teach me things as well even though I'm the person that's leading that doesn't matter they are teaching me a lot of things as well so I did a couple of sessions with her and it was just eye-opening it was very interesting to see myself being coached because I've never done that before I mean I had a therapist but that was all I've never had an actual spiritual coach and it was just very very good experience that opened my eyes and gave me the confirmation because she went through my astrology she went through my all types of behavior and it was just a big confirmation of what I am here to do and it was very fun because I was like okay this is the right path that I'm on and I don't know how but things are gonna work out things are gonna start working out for me because now I'm showing myself and I'm sure that this is my path even though I always knew it deep inside of me the moment that I actually had somebody confirm that for me I was like okay I need to start acting on it and I did a lot of research I invested literally hours and days and months into just studying how to find your path and we're gonna talk about a lot of things in the next episodes and it's gonna be all interconnected I promise you and it's just very interesting to track all of it because all the things that I researched back at the time now I used to teach other people and it's the universe is funding like that because it will put you exactly through the experience you need just so you can help other people with it I can't coach people if I haven't been through the same experience how am I able to relate with your feelings how am I able to understand what you mean if I haven't been there if I haven't done that and I haven't researched it and I haven't found a solution for it it's just not how it works so after I found what I wanted to well not found but came back to what I wanted to do initially I started coaching people and clients just started coming out of the blue and it's it just felt so aligned and it was like I just unleashed some kind of power because it's just came everything just came and I was so surprised I was like where all these opportunities coming from how is that possible and why didn't that not happen before because I always knew I wanted to do this I always had that vision but why the clients are coming now you know why am I able to finally release and finally trust and I think one of the answers is because I believe in myself really deeply I did all the shadow work that was connected to it and recently actually I invested in another coach I started believing so much in myself that I started investing in myself and saying okay if if the problem is my marketing I'll start taking marketing courses if my problem is the way that I present the offer I need somebody to help me with that if my problem is the way that I make my content I will ask somebody to teach me how to do that I started finding reasons to go even deeper and make that even a better experience for everybody involved in that I started over delivering for everybody and just the amount of changes that I've seen since inspired me so much and it gives me so much motivation and energy that I remembered why back at a time I wanted this it's just this inner fire and in there knowing and I'm just acting out of this inner fire and seeing people connect with that seeing people connect with that literally power that they have inside of them was what is and it will be always magical to me this there is no other word than magical because you can't explain it you can see it you can feel it but you can't really explain it the light that you can see in people's eyes and the way that they start acting the way that they change the way that everything starts to make sense it's just incredible but since that time that I decided I'm gonna do it until now I've seen so many changes and today this first episode is specifically for that making that first scary step to just get out of the place that you are at the moment and just bring yourself one step closer to your vision what do you really know your inner knowing is guiding you towards because yes quitting that job was scary because I didn't know where my income is gonna come from and that is always scary and the coaching that I have now the one that I submitted for I have no idea how I'm gonna pay for that because it is more than my income at the moment but I know that the coaching will bring me higher and I will have the money to invest in that even further so when you're making investments when you're thinking about your future self what is one step that you can take today that is gonna bring you so much closer what is that one step it could be the smallest step ever but what is that one step that's gonna make it make sense later I'm so happy that you stayed until the end I am so so grateful for that and for your time and if you do want to work together you can still find that in my sub stack and all the offers are over there you could connect with me at any time that you you want to you can subscribe and just follow through with the podcast I am very happy if you do that as well there will be a lot of episodes and I think it's just a great way to connect with people and just share and this is not the first time that I had a podcast I used to have a travel podcast and I feel like it's just so raw and I can talk to you about anything and everything so please share with me if you have something that you want to tell me about if something resonated if something was on on the brighter side made you happy made you smile or it was maybe something that triggered you and you're gonna think about it I want to know it all but thank you for choosing to spend your time with me and I'll see you in the next one