Take a deep breath in.
Deep,
Deep breath.
Into your nose.
And exhale through your mouth.
And just relax.
Let's talk about trauma.
Hmm,
And now it gets interesting.
But let's shift our perspective right away.
Because when we hear the word trauma,
We often get scared right away.
Trauma means pain.
And we want to avoid pain.
We have a pain-avoiding brain.
Our computer,
Our body,
Our brain is programmed to avoid pain.
Because it brings us,
Consciously or unconsciously,
Back to the old experiences,
The old situations.
The old pain where we were powerless.
Powerless and thus filled with mortal fear.
Yes,
It was that intense.
You don't even need to have dramatic stories or know about them.
For your body,
For your nervous system.
It felt like you were dying.
As a baby.
As a child.
Unconsciously that powerlessness felt like dying.
And that was significant.
It triggered a survival mechanism within us that kept us safe.
But now we are no longer children.
We are adults.
We've grown up.
And now it's time to look at it.
But let's look differently.
Let's look.
With gentle eyes.
And ourselves.
At every part of ourself.
Including our trauma parts.
Our survival parts.
Let's look with gentle eyes and discover our potential.
Let's redefine.
Instead of fear.
We can also look with the eyes of love.
And thus by doing that.
We now immediately start.
Reprogramming ourselves.
Let's get factual.
Trauma is your nervous system's reaction to an overwhelming event.
It's not about the event itself.
Not at all.
In an event you might label it as severe or not so severe with your mind.
But it's about the nervous system's reaction to the event.
And that can be a sudden,
Intense event like an accident.
And that's about too fast,
Too much.
But also and this happens more often than you might think.
It's about too long,
Too little.
When you get too little for too long.
Like a lack of emotional connection.
Its trauma for your nervous system.
Chronic trauma.
So think of you as a baby or a child.
Who needed that hug,
Who needed this embrace.
And didn't get it.
That's trauma.
And if you can regulate yourself,
Your nervous system,
After an overwhelming event,
Or a series of events,
Or maybe rather non-events because you didn't get anything,
Or,
If you get help with it,
The so-called co-regulation,
It helps your nervous system to discharge the stressed energy.
Think about animal.
They shake off the stress from their bodies and it's gone.
Animals shake off all the frozen stressed energy from their body.
This is how beautiful the body works.
But we humans don't do that.
So,
In us.
This intense energy of shock.
Freeze and overwhelm,
Get stuck.
And it starts already at birth.
With the cutting of the umbilical cord.
The energy of the trauma that comes along with birth.
Should be discharged through the umbilical cord.
But by cutting it.
This discharge of the energy doesn't happen.
And thus a lot of fear and shock energy with a low vibration.
Gets stuck around your navel.
And that And that's it.
Behind your navel is the energetic zero point.
Where your entire physical energy field is held together.
It's the source of your physical energy field,
So to speak.
This is the point where all the cells are connected to.
And you know,
It's all information,
It's all this Wi-Fi field.
So,
This trauma energy is everywhere.
And that's where you start as a baby.
And then,
When you are this baby.
You are so dependent.
Co-regulation from your mother and your father is so necessary.
Because you can't regulate the energies yourself yet.
Letting a baby cry itself to sleep.
Isn't making it calm down.
But it's the nervous system going into freeze.
Because it can't discharge its fear and sadness through co-regulation.
And it hasn't learned to self-regulate.
Whoa.
Who among us hasn't experienced that?
We all have these experiences.
We all have this frozen energy within us.
We all have trauma.
And it's very interesting,
Because why do we experience this?
Why is the world the way it is,
Where this happens?
And if we are,
100% creator of our own reality.
Why on earth would we create this?
No one wants this,
Right?
Well,
There's much more to say about this.
And we'll cover it all in this journey.
Step by step.
Piece by piece.
For now,
Trauma is nothing more than a scar.
A scar that grew after a wound.
And the wound is the unexpected,
Intense experience that you couldn't process when it happened to you.
Often as a child.
The scar is your survival mechanism that grew over the wound.
It allowed you to continue.
You had to do this,
This way.
And there is nothing wrong with it.
Not at all.
It served you well.
Only,
Now that we are adults,
It no longer serves us.
Because scars are frozen energy,
Frozen life force,
Frozen potential.
And this life force,
This potential,
Wants to participate.
Everything wants to participate in life.
All your cells want to vibrate.
At the highest frequency possible.
And if they don't,
Because they are in this freeze mode,
Still stuck in the experience from then.
Still stuck in the lower vibrations of fear and pain.
They can't vibrate as they are meant to.
The cells are the information and they hold the information until it is seen.
Until it is recognized and acknowledged.
Until it is declared safe.
Because only when it is safe.
The energy can flow again.
And as long as it isn't?
This frozen information in the lower frequencies will affect everything in your physical energy field.
Your physical cells are not in their optimal state.
And your thoughts and emotions also vibrate at that lower frequency.
Everything is interconnected.
And in those lower frequencies.
Life is just not as much fun as it is supposed to be.
You send out these lower frequencies into the field and you attract all kind of experiences to you,
Which aren't fun.
It affects you.
And maybe you recognize some of these symptoms.
Being very tired,
Being often very tired.
Being overwhelmed by nervousness,
Without being able to explain it.
Or maybe not being able to feel your body well,
And therefore not feeling your boundaries.
Or maybe entering relationships that are not good for you.
Or having the tendency to seek approval by always being kind.
And this is also about being out of touch with your own needs.
The energy just doesn't flow.
And you know?
And I speak from my own experience.
This is what you know.
This is how it always has been.
This is just how you always have felt.
From the outside,
It might all look very nice.
But inside you feel anxious,
Inadequate,
Always on guard.
Pleasing.
Or you make yourself so big to hide that you actually fear rejection all the time.
You feel uncomfortable.
There is always this unexplainable tension within your body.
You are alert.
Insecure.
Yes,
Even afraid of being exposed.
And you are just always working hard.
It simply doesn't flow.
Things just don't go natural for you.
And if that is what you know,
That is what you've always known.
That is what you've always felt.
How can you ever know?
That there is a completely different state of being.
A different state of being where you feel good.
Where you feel the life force,
The life energy.
And thus also the sexual energy flowing fully through your body.
Where you feel connected to yourself.
Where it all becomes the same thing.
What you do outside is how you feel inside.
And how you feel inside is what you express on the outside.
You feel good within you and you simply radiate.
This beautiful powerful.
High-frequency energy.
No more adaptive behavior.
No more making yourself bigger or smaller.
And holding back to feel safe.
This is about feeling good and embodying the energy of Source.
And your own higher consciousness fully,
In every cell.
And from there being completely yourself.
Completely.
And from that state,
You just trust life.
Everything flows to you and through you.
Effortlessly.
It flows on all levels,
From your higher consciousness,
Your higher self.
Through your physical energy field.
Through your body and every cell.
And from there,
The energy flows back.
From the operator to the computer,
From the computer back to the operator.
Seamlessly.
In this state,
There's no more need.
To pushing back those uncomfortable feelings.
Those uncomfortable feelings.
Like anxiety,
Insecurity.
And to cover it up with addictions or diseases or any kind of thing that is just not aligned with who you really are.
It's your birthright to feel good.
And it's your birthright.
To step into your full potential.
Where every part of you.
Is present.
And joining this wonderful life experience.
Trauma is stored information within your nervous system.
It's frozen energy that disconnected you.
And from there,
You simply stopped feeling.
Because if we don't feel,
We don't have to feel the pain.
We don't have to feel the pain from back then again.
This energy knows no time.
At the moment the energy freezes,
At the moment the scar forms,
Time stands still.
Therefore,
Times start to overlap.
Thus,
We seem to grow older.
But in time,
Everything is layers of energy.
Like the rings of a tree.
You grow in time.
In your body and in your consciousness.
You know more and more.
It's a new ring.
But the previous rings,
With all the energies,
All the information,
All the old experiences,
Are still there.
Thus,
Your consciousness from when you were a child is just as present as your consciousness as an adult.
This is what we talk about when we refer to your inner child.
It's that child,
It's the energy,
The consciousness,
The information from that time.
It's still present in your energy field and in your cellular memory.
The energy of those experiences back then,
Don't just disappear.
Unless you consciously do something with it.
When you replace it.
When you replace the old information.
In everything,
However,
It's like this.
It wants to be seen and heard.
So,
Going to meet it.
To see it,
To look at it.
To listen to it is necessary.
Reprogramming the information as possible.
Once it's seen,
Heard and felt.
If it is recognized and acknowledged.
If the message behind the pain.
Is visible.
And tangible.
And that is so essential.
Because then,
When we look at it,
When we really start looking and listening and feeling the love behind all of those experiences,
Is to be unlocked.
And that's quite a task,
I know.
And I understand because our survival brain.
Our pain-avoiding brain.
Makes us feel like we are dying.
It makes us feel that we are back in that time.
We literally get entangled in time.
In the splinters of trauma.
That were all in different places.
They are truly splintered parts of our energy field.
That are everywhere.
And nowhere in time and space.
And we feel them but we have no grip on them.
And then,
When you go about your normal day,
You get triggered and ha!
You jump into another ring in the tree,
Another time,
Another age.
And you react from the old instead of from the now.
This is what drama does.
And look at it.
From the bright side.
We see it now,
And there's so much potential.
To be unlocked.
There are so many gifts to be unwrapped.
Oh,
There's so much more to say about this,
But for today,
This is enough.
And we will continue with this,
Of course.
This is healing.
This is bringing all the splintered parts back.
Lovingly bringing them home.
So they can become whole.
So your physical energy field can become whole.
All the parts that are all over the place right now.
We bring them home.
So that our potential can fully flow.
And in all our parts and cells soars energy and the energy of your own higher consciousness can flow.
And you can simply be.
Who you are meant to be.
You can get to a place where the flow of life carries you.
Where you don't have to do anything.
And where you feel good and wonderful in your body.
Healing trauma is about restoring what has been disturbed.
What has been fragmented.
You can approach this process in different ways.
You can approach this process in different ways.
First,
You can go back cognitively,
Top down,
And then you know things,
You can explain them.
With the risk of re-experiencing them.
And actually reinforcing the fragmentation.
But we can also go bottom up.
Restoring connections from within.
Because trauma fragments.
It disconnects parts of ourselves from our body.
Everything is in our physical field.
Everything is in our physical body.
So if we can restore the connections there,
Within our body.
We can become whole.
All parts can participate.
And you can come home.
Completely.
To yourself.
Within yourself.
As a child,
The survival mode was to disconnect from yourself.
You couldn't protect your boundaries.
And now we are adults,
We can learn to do that.
And it is my invitation to you to engage in this process.
Because in this way you can embody your divine essence in everything.
In every cell.
And then it truly becomes one.
Then we don't go around it.
But we truly become it completely.
On all levels.
And I feel it very deeply inside.
That is what we came for here.
To embody our own unique divine frequency.
In everything.
In every cell.
Beyond the freeze mode.
We are going to do this process very slowly.
Slow down.
Slow down.
Salauda.
Gently and softly.
It's been hard and fast long enough.
It's time for softness.
For gentleness,
For calmness.
Our nervous system can only heal when we go soft and slow about this.
And that is what we will do.
One small exercise every week.
An exercise to restore the connection with your body.
And to send out the invitation to all of those parts of you.
That long to come home,
To slowly return.
To slowly experience that it is safe.
That where it was once unsafe.
Is now safe.
And I can tell you this,
And you can believe me or not,
And you can think about it what you want,
But there is only one way to truly experience this.
And to truly make it happen.
And it is by feeling.
And feeding is so scary to our pain avoiding brain.
And that is why most of humanity spends most of its days in their head.
Hidden in the Attic.
Well,
There is a world to discover in the whole house,
Which is your body.
And I can tell you,
It's so worth it.
Oh,
How good it feels to be in the full,
Integrated,
Fulfilled state in your body.
To feel the life energy flowing through your body.
To feel the life energy going up and down your spine,
To feel your heart opening up.
To feel firmly your legs and your pelvis.
To be an open channel and to bring through the energy of Source.
This is a process that we will approach step by step.
And one thing is so important here.
Know that you are helped.
It is all about being held,
Being seen,
Heard and held.
That what was not possible when you were a little child is possible now.
We can learn to hold ourselves.
Where others could not,
When we needed it the most.
And however painful.
In those experiences,
In those difficult experiences of trauma in your childhood,
Lies your goal.
And that gold is to be found now,
To be given space,
Because we can hold ourselves now.
You hold yourself.
Yes,
Your higher self holds you.
In this warm embrace.
Know that you are held,
Embraced and loved in the arms of your higher self.
To fool you.
And all parts count.
All the fragmented trauma parts,
All your survival parts that worked so hard to keep you safe,
And all your healthy parts.
And know,
Just know,
Your higher self will not allow.
Anything to happen to you that you are not ready for.
Your body will tell you.
You only have to ask as things unfold.
Trust that.
And if that was not the case,
You wouldn't have attracted this information.
Just trust.
And we will take very small,
Very gentle steps.
Small steps with enormous impact.
Do not underestimate this.
The simplest exercises are so incredibly powerful.
We will do one exercise every week.
Starting tomorrow.