Welcome.
This is a somatic meditation that feels like a homecoming for me.
The themes are trust and surrender.
Two qualities.
That have been integral for me on my healing journey.
So I hope this resonates.
Find a place to sit or lie down.
Where nothing is asking anything of you right now.
Whatever is there.
Can be set aside.
And you can find gratitude and thank yourself for carving out this time.
To create safety.
And awareness.
Within yourself.
Let your eyes close if it feels safe.
Or let your gaze soften.
There's no wrong way to arrive here.
Before we go anywhere.
I'd like to build the floor underneath you.
Feel whatever is holding your weight right now.
The chair,
The ground,
Or the bed.
Letting yourself know that this surface has been holding you the whole time.
Whether you notice it or not.
And for right now.
Allow yourself to receive.
And know that you don't have to hold yourself up.
You can let something else do that job.
Take a slow breath in through your nose.
And let it go.
Again.
In through the nose.
You And exhale,
Maybe letting the exhale be a little longer.
Then the inhale.
Allowing your nervous system to receive the message.
That it's okay to stand down.
Your body wants to check the room,
Allow it.
Glance around.
Notice the walls.
And again,
Notice that nothing here requires anything from you.
Quietly say to yourself,
I am safe,
Right now,
To feel what I feel.
This is the Earth element.
This is the ground.
That you don't have to build for yourself today.
Let it hold you for a few more breaths.
Before we go any further.
Imagine your inhale coming in through the center of your heart.
You And on the exhale.
Imagine the air escaping through the center of your heart.
As you breathe.
Know that you're building beautiful heart coherence.
And from here.
We can turn toward what's underneath.
If there's any grief there.
Know that it's not asking to be fixed.
Maybe just acknowledged softly.
Any parts of it.
The wannabe released can go.
Think of whatever is asking for room.
Inside today.
A sensation.
A feeling,
It might have a name.
Her face.
The season of your life.
Or maybe it's shapeless.
And it feels more like a weight than a story.
You don't need to explain it to anyone.
Not even yourself.
Just feel its sensation.
And let it be here.
Notice where the grief lives in your body.
From here.
We can turn toward what's underneath.
Or safe.
And we're going to work with grief today.
Grief doesn't ask to be fixed.
He wants to be acknowledged.
And let through.
So think of whatever is asking.
For room today.
It might have a name,
A face.
Season of your life.
Or it might be shapeless.
And more of a weight than a story.
You don't need to explain it to anyone.
Not even yourself.
Just let it be here.
Notice where the grief lives in your body.
Grief tends to settle.
Somewhere specific.
In the chest.
The throat.
Maybe the space behind the eyes.
Wherever it is.
Put a hand there if it helps.
Or just let your attention rest there like a hand would.
You're not doing anything wrong if it moves.
Cheers!
Maybe a held breath finally releasing.
A wave of something that doesn't have a name.
All of it can be grief finding a door.
Some grief unfolds over a lifetime.
One small door at a time.
Let this be one of those doors.
However small.
On the next inhale.
Being again to connect.
To whatever layers of grief.
Are showing themselves.
And on the exhale,
Say quietly to yourself,
This grief and I are not enemies.
I am finally willing to listen.
Instead of trying to outrun it.
You Let yourself breathe with whatever came up.
No need to move it faster.
Just breathe alongside the sensation.
The way you'd sit next to someone you loved.
Who was in pain.
Without trying to talk them out of it.
Here we're letting the water flow.
Or allowing it to flow at its own pace.
And you get to decide whether that's a trickle or a stream.
Breathing in.
And feeling any release.
On the exhale.
Now we turn toward what comes after the honoring of the grief.
You you not away from what you just felt.
But moving through it.
Toward the part of you.
That already knows how to trust.
Surrender isn't giving up.
It's setting down the belief.
That you have to control every outcome in order to be safe.
That belief has worked hard for you.
It kept you moving.
And scanning.
And it kept you one step ahead of the next hurt.
But it can rest now.
You feel what it would be like.
To let your hands open.
Wherever they are resting.
Palms up if that's available to you.
Or just the intention of open hands.
This is the posture of receiving.
Instead of gripping.
And your body understands the shape.
Even before your mind agrees to it.
Trust and surrender.
Aren't the same move.
But they aren't opposites either.
I see them as a dance.
Surrender is the exhale that says,
I don't have to hold this alone.
Trust is the inhale.
That says something on the other side of this breath.
Is trustworthy.
So back and forth.
Breath by breath.
Is the whole dance.
And you don't have to master it today.
You're simply taking one turn of it.
So quietly say to yourself,
I am not surrendering into fear.
I'm surrendering to love.
My discernment gets clearer.
The more regulated I become.
Not the more I force it.
And let the next few breaths be this dance.
Inhale,
Letting something in.
And exhale,
Letting something go.
You In this room,
There's only you.
And the frequency you've chosen to come home to.
Wherever you are right now.
In your body.
In this room.
In this exact moment.
His home.
It's not a place you have to earn.
It's a place you get to return to.
Again and again.
Every time fear pulls you back out.
So take one more full breath.
In and out.
And let it be the one.
That brings you back into the room.
Taking your time.
Wiggling your fingers if that feels helpful.
Feel the floor or the chair.
You and open your eyes whenever you're ready.
Coming home to yourself.
Thank you so much for spending this time with me.
Namaste.
