As we begin this meditation,
This prayer,
I invite you to close your eyes,
Settle into your breath,
And relax into your body.
There is nowhere else you need to be,
Nothing else that needs to be done.
Enter into this present moment wherever and however you find yourself,
Honoring every emotion that may surface.
God of my heart,
Lover of my soul,
You delight in me and I am your beloved.
I come to you with my insecurities and weaknesses,
With every part of me that feels unlovable,
Too much,
Not enough.
I do not feel worthy of the love that I so desire.
I am constantly seeking,
Searching,
Reaching out for this love.
I want to know that I am entirely and passionately loved as I am,
That I am worth fighting for,
I am worth waiting for,
I am worth reaching for.
It feels easier to hide,
To run,
To shut off the valves of my heart so that I do not feel the vulnerability of love,
The vulnerability of desire,
The vulnerability of rejection.
But healing requires the risk of openness.
My whole being feels suspended in air as I long for perfect love to fill me,
As I wait for the approval of others to calm this exposed heart knowing that it will not satisfy.
But your love,
Lord,
Pursues me.
I do not need to exhaust myself to earn it.
Your love is a resting place,
A landing,
A coming home.
Your love soothes the panic of feeling unworthy,
Unknown.
It is my short anchor,
My firm foundation,
My deepest breath.
This cannot be taken from me.
I can trust everything that flows from knowing this love as my center.
Let me rest in your love,
Clinging to nothing,
Allowing your goodness and delight to wash over me.
I am yours and you are mine forever.
Amen.
