Hello,
My name is Jacqueline.
Thank you for choosing my story I wrote to listen to.
Make yourself comfortable and I will begin.
The Angel A great sadness washes over me.
It feels like my life has felt so sad and pointless forever.
But it's only been a few days.
Where has my happiness gone?
I used to laugh and smile all day long,
But now I feel overwhelmed with grief,
As if a light has gone out inside of me.
It's the middle of the night and I'm lying on my bed trying to sleep.
But sleep won't come,
No matter how hard I try.
I feel so tired,
But all I do is toss and turn and can't switch my mind off.
I continually pray for guidance,
But nothing.
I wish I didn't feel like this,
But it's all I can think about.
This feeling of emptiness engulfs me.
The more I think about it,
The more my heart aches.
Even going for a walk doesn't help.
My depressing thoughts come with me and I just feel even more miserable when I get home.
It's dark in my bedroom.
I close my eyes tightly as I cry out for sleep.
Please,
I beg,
I'll do anything to take away this anguish and stop these thoughts rolling around inside my head.
Suddenly,
Through my closed eyelids,
I see a bright light.
I open my eyes and try to focus upon it.
What can it be?
It's only tiny,
But bright enough to catch my attention.
As I sit up in bed,
The bright light appears to be moving towards me.
It finally settles at the bottom of my bed and looks like,
No,
It can't possibly be.
I gently rub my eyes and take another look.
Yes,
It is.
The most beautiful angel is sitting on my bed.
I used to dream of angels when I was a child and in my dreams we would have conversations.
Whenever something was bothering me,
I would fall asleep after asking my angels to give me guidance in my dreams.
And they always did.
Life seemed so simple back then.
I didn't allow anything to bother me.
I always seemed to just know the answers and life was such a happy place.
Then I grew up and became an adult.
Life started to become more complicated and I stopped talking to my angels.
I now allow silly things to bother me.
I easily become distracted and I seem to worry about everything all the time.
The more I worry about one thing,
So something else happens for me to worry about.
It really is never-ending.
My mind is always in a state of confusion and I expect the worst from everyone.
And I'm always right.
I say something will go wrong and it does.
Why can't life go back to being smooth and easy as it was when I was younger?
Suddenly I was brought back to the moment as the angels spoke,
Hello,
How are you feeling today?
Not great,
I replied.
You have been praying for guidance from us,
But you haven't allowed yourself stillness to receive the answers.
You've only been focusing on your sadness and have become overwhelmed with your own self-pity.
Regretfully I agree.
I don't know what to do.
My life just feels so bad.
I have never felt so depressed.
Please help me.
The answers you need are all inside of you,
But you have lost touch with yourself.
You are too obsessed with things which you have no control over.
What can I do to change that?
I ask.
You have to change what you think about.
The moment you are concentrating on your problems and they are increasing,
Right?
Yes they are,
But that's how life is.
It's not my fault.
I'm afraid it is,
Explained the angel.
You control your life.
No one else does.
You are choosing to focus only on your problems and then blame other people for your lack.
You need to start taking responsibility for your life,
No matter how good or bad it is.
Then shift your attention onto positive things and allow them to multiply.
Get energy moving around you.
Instead of staying indoors feeling sorry for yourself,
Go outside for a walk.
I've been doing that,
I replied a little sharply,
But it doesn't work.
That's because you are thinking about your troubles.
Don't take your sad thoughts with you everywhere you go.
You need to take your mind away from any negativity.
Instead look at the beauty around you and soak that up.
Keep your attention on being out in the fresh air.
Focus on the amazing body you have.
Feel thankful for the heart beating inside of you.
Your life has so many good things going on.
Okay,
Yes,
That makes sense,
I said as I started to really absorb the advice.
When I was younger,
My focus used to only be on the positive things in my life.
I used to love looking at nature and there was always something to smile about.
Come to think of it,
I don't seem to smile anymore either.
Find something to smile about.
There are many things all around you if you choose to see them.
Think of things which have happened in your life,
Things that made you feel warm inside and then smile.
Try it now.
Close your eyes.
Think of something which gives you a warm happy feeling and smile.
I closed my eyes and immediately remembered the puppy I had when I was four years old.
I could feel him in my arms,
His soft fur and his little tongue as he lovingly licked my cheek.
My heart felt so warm and I smiled.
I stayed with his image and my smile grew bigger and I felt amazing.
The angel gently said,
When you smile,
You cannot be sad.
It's impossible to feel happy and sad at the same time.
Write a list of things to smile about.
Be prepared and choose to change any negative thoughts immediately that come your way before they get out of control.
Opening my eyes,
I smiled and whispered,
I can do that.
The angel moved closer to me and looked into my eyes saying,
You always have a choice about every thought and feeling you create.
If you really want this,
You can make it happen.
Oh,
I want this,
I declared as I felt a new glow within me.
Just before leaving,
The angel said,
Now go to sleep thinking only about something which makes you smile.
Allow it to happen naturally and don't try to fight it.
If you feel a negative thought coming in,
Acknowledge it and then refuse to focus upon it.
Instead,
Shift your attention back to your positive happy thought.
Tomorrow is a new day.
When you wake in the morning,
Make a decision to be in control of your feelings and use the same techniques.
I lay down on my bed,
Poured the covers around me and closed my eyes.
My heart felt lighter and was beating gently and my mind felt clear and relaxed.
I smiled as I fell asleep,
Thanking my angel for this much needed visit.
