Hi Pramasutha,
Hello,
It's so good to see you and this really helped,
It helped so much what you just said,
Because I'm such a muddle,
Then I'm in situations I'm fine again,
I feel more peace and this morning I thought oh yeah I'm feeling better and I'm doing it and everything so and then I indulged myself with a beautiful day and I went into the sauna and I had a good time there and I felt so relaxed and you know being with my mantra all the time and then I came back and all of a sudden I feel this up again and my question or what I wanted to tell you is that I feel this bodily sensations more and more in the last weeks,
It's like a tingling and normally when I had tingles before it was always lovely,
It was oh it was a sparkling,
Lightful,
Tingling sensation and now these tingles are mixed with numbness and sometimes I feel them really heavily like being poisonous tingles when darkness comes up,
It's so like sometimes I feel my lips get blue,
I can't feel it anymore and my hands are off.
Yes,
Anna it's so good you're speaking about this,
I am very very happy and we could also speak on the phone if you wish but maybe that's not necessary you know okay okay Anna,
May you be ready to hear this okay because I've been saying it to you for five years okay Anna when you were when you got up this morning and you went you were feeling good and it's like yay I'm doing it right right yeah yeah yeah it was like that is the problem that is the problem it's making oh and this is so common you guys making a judgment oh about like about yourself this way like as if this is a game and you're doing it right and you've got it now and the the the other state of you know the opposite of that is bad Anna and this is why you're getting poisoned with the numbness because because you know why it's tingles and numbness because you really need to see this and refusal to see it will steer you into being number do you see what I mean because it's time for you to see it and if you refuse to see it then you're choosing numbness because you've already paid quite a big cost for this for what for what went on recently you've paid a big cost for it okay and the reason is because the universe really wants you to get this and move into truth or refuse to get it and the numbness will increase you guys this is what the journey is like it is true reality there is no messing around with it we cannot keep the journey and remain in our egos so Anna like this is stunning work this is what I hoped for and you already had a dream of you being illuminated remember and as I said to you hold on to that dream that signals that you're going in the right direction okay yeah right right so when you don't know and Corinne too when you don't know what's up or down or whatever you hold on to anything right Jenna anything you've you can find that signals that you're on the right track right yeah right yeah you you and sweetie you yeah you just need to be very patient but be on it it's patient and stay on it all of you guys that's the key patient and staying on it and getting Anna stepping back and getting really interested in what you do to yourself yeah right because this is the injured little child going oh I've got it now it's also not I'm pleasing mama you know ama mama premisuda I've got it and it's like no it's you're feeling good it's just you know it's sure it's lovely to feel good it's wonderful to feel good and enjoy it enjoy it fully enjoy yeah revel in it but don't go oh I'm doing it right now do you and it's it is just a subtle thing with your mind it's where you're attached and it will be where you're attached to your family as well right but it's interesting I'm getting you're brave enough to do this Anna hmm where else are you gonna go anyway right like if you go on the journey it gets so that you you have to stay on it yeah so I'm seeing like clear air around you now it's like the clarity coming out of the confusion you know this is the clarity right it's very subtle stuff it's how we are with ourselves we're taught to be cogs in a machine and to move into that we're a value in ourselves is is just the most radical thing you can do but it's the thing that helps most so and I really value your increased honesty and increased vulnerability this is really really good so how are you feeling right now Anna I can feel um I still feel that the tingles but I um I feel a bit more clarity I don't know where it's it's everywhere around me and in me and um and again don't judge the numbness no no no no it's like it's it's um it's like a um it's like comforting me it's like being with me just um yes good it's it's um it's like a at the moment it's even soothing and it's yeah yeah and it's okay I feel you know I got this when you were talking I got this picture of me embracing all of me at night you know the whole the whole package and the the numbness and the tingling and the poisonous stuff and it makes so much sense you know it's like I feel a bit more whole the tingling is like a beautiful light blanket uh on my skin it's it's beautiful on my skin and it's just uh okay so that subtle feeling of being more whole is actually a huge spiritual step that you took and because we're working in this like the feminine face of god work these steps can be taken so seamlessly like this and since we've been deeply associated over five years and I've stayed with you and stuff there's a level of trust there that is allowing and also you know you you know it's like when we're not 30 anymore we we realize that we got to get this done before death right you know we get more motivated sometimes yeah yeah yeah that feeling of wholeness that's it and you put your arms around yourselves and you guys then you become attached to your own truth and then more non-attached to everything else but then more loving with everything else you actually can love more deeply yeah good wow victory jayma really victory this is a victory good but don't hang on to the victory thing i'm sorry i said i i was just no i was just going like stay humble uh be hard just be humble and everything will yeah just be yourself you know yeah yes i mean what else could we be other than ourselves i mean yeah yeah that's it that's it that's it okay good whole and hearty full of heart full and hearty and lent hearty yeah yeah and heart spells here with a t here listening to this to this soft silent soft voice here hear your heart yeah it's all so simple it's just the thing is to just do it yeah yeah yeah oh it's very good thank you so much for this yeah thank you for speaking blessings anna thank you
