I'm Forgiving Myself

I’m forgiving myself for having a fridge filled with no apples, a container with 1 inch of milk, and four moldy bell peppers which I had to toss into the garbage yesterday.

I’m forgiving myself for the child who is not here who would be 32 this year. “It’s okay,” I tell myself,” whispers of her wafting into my memory every now and again.

I’m forgiving myself for leaving the Catholic Church. The church houses a Bishop who refuses to call trans or nonbinary folks by their chosen names. Their new names. The names in which they feel the most at home in a body that has been foreign territory.

Set a timer for 10 minutes using the writing prompt: I'm forgiving myself...

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Transcript

I'm forgiving myself. I'm forgiving myself for having a fridge filled with no apples, A container with one inch of milk, And four moldy bell peppers which I had to toss into the garbage yesterday. I'm forgiving myself for the child who is not here who would be 32 this year. It's okay, I tell myself, Whispers of her wafting into my memory every now and again. I'm forgiving myself for leaving the Catholic Church, The church who houses a bishop who refuses to call trans or non-binary folks by their chosen names, Their new names, The names in which they feel the most at home in a body that has been foreign territory. I'm forgiving myself for the 10 pounds that seem to have found me in perimenopause. I used to wear a badge at Weight Watchers that said my name, How many pounds I lost, And the date I lost the pounds. I also carried a lifetime Weight Watchers card in my wallet until recently. I set it on fire. I'm forgiving myself for peeling kitchen laminate, Outdated linoleum, And faded countertops. For a kitchen remodel that I'm fairly certain will never come to fruition because the one we did 24 years ago left a mark that I don't wish to revisit. I would much prefer to either move or burn the kitchen down. Besides, Where will I put my moldy bell peppers? I'm forgiving myself for being a messy, Honest, Foul-mouthed, Religionless human who requires less these days. This is my prayer for all of us. Lay down the stuff that we've held on to for far too long and be set free. Embody our divinity. Let's do that, Okay? Let's do that.

Reviews

This resonates so much! I've bookmarked this track to remind myself to stay relaxed and focused, even when life gets tough. Thanks for sharing this gem! 🙏🏽💙🩶🩶🩶🌀🩷

Omg! I’m so glad I found you today! You’re one of the best teachers on here!!!!! And it’s all because Toronto has a freezing rain and snowstorm warning today in April !! so I stayed home to do my work and that’s how I found you! I’m going to use this prompt and write a poem as well and it’s going to start with:, I’m forgiving myself for being a vegetarian, even though that contributed to my major bone loss and osteoporosis. I’m forgiving myself for not listening to my mother years ago when she told me I should start taking hormones when I hit menopause! I’m forgiving myself for living in my crappy apartment for the past 10 years with an abusive 70-year-old neighbour down the hall—even though I vowed to myself that I would move out after one year! And I’m forgiving myself for sneaking a couple of Reese’s peanut butter cups the other day when I was having a sugar craving😅 This is FUN!!! I’m just gonna finish this poem after I log off here 😅 Have a great day and I hope you have another live class soon😻😻😻

Im a greatful humble Christian actor singer with courage and purpose to bring people together amen and so it shall be

We need more self forgiveness and authenticity in all things!