Hello and welcome.
My name is Maura.
I am a music producer from the Netherlands and usually I share meditation here.
But today I want to do something else because recently I have written my first book and this book means a lot to me so I figured why not create audio recordings to share with you.
What I intend to do today is to share with you the introduction so I'll read it to you and I'm gonna explain first a little bit more about the book,
Why I've written it and what it is about.
And in the next recordings,
The coming recordings,
I'll read to you chapter after chapter.
So my book is called Break Free,
Live in Truth and the reason I wrote it is because about 10 months ago or maybe I think it's even a year ago,
I came back from living in Egypt for two years and what happened is I had a Kundalini awakening.
If you don't know what a Kundalini awakening is,
I would say it is very similar to a spiritual awakening except it has also a lot of physical symptoms and yeah I'm still in it,
I'm still going through it.
It's quite intense to be honest but because of my Kundalini awakening I have been able to let go of more and more layers of,
I would say adapting and pleasing and this sort of identity that I created my whole life and a lot of us we do this,
We create some sort of mask that we wear and we're saying to the world this is who we are but often this mask isn't our core,
It's not who we really are,
It is just a way to,
You know,
To receive love or acknowledgement and to feel that we are accepted by the people around us.
So for me this was definitely the case.
I was living my life for a long time as someone that isn't really me.
I was adapting and in a way that wasn't healthy for me and so this awakening has been just peeling off all these layers of limiting beliefs,
Of fears,
Of pleasing other people to really get back to who I truly am and the book that I've written is all about taking off this mask,
This identity that we've created and to show up in life as who we really are and this can be quite scary because if you've lived your whole life in a certain way the people around you they have this expectation of you so once you start sharing your truth and who you really are you don't know how people are going to respond and it might change your whole life,
You know,
Some people might leave you,
Some people might feel upset when they start seeing the real you and some people really really like it.
So this book is not written as I'm your teacher,
That I'm going to teach you how to do this or what to do,
It's more an expression of my own perspective on this and with some vulnerable examples of my own life and that I'm sharing with you so maybe you feel you recognize yourself in it or maybe you feel inspired to also stand up and speak your truth more often.
So this is what my book is about,
It's about the journey of taking off my own mask,
Showing up as who I really am and I will read to you now the introduction of the book so make sure you're sitting comfortable,
Maybe have a nice cup of tea,
Whatever it is,
And I will be starting now.
I'm not here to be cute.
I've been called an angel more than once.
When I asked people what they loved most about me they often said I smile a lot,
My voice sounds soft and warm and that I'm decent.
I used to take that as a compliment until I realized they didn't see me fully and I can't blame them.
I wasn't showing who I truly am.
I've been hiding many parts of myself.
Most of my life when I shared something real it got ridiculed,
Dismissed or made people uncomfortable.
So I stopped.
I learned that staying a cute girl who smiled through life made me feel safe,
Accepted,
Loved.
But that kind of love never lasts.
It disappears the moment someone takes a peek underneath the mask and to keep it alive I'd have to walk on eggshells for the rest of my life.
At some point my body said stop.
I got sick.
Chronic fatigue took over my life.
I couldn't keep up the mask anymore.
Someone cute and cool trying to impress people by being a DJ and a personal trainer.
Trying to be admired.
That was the mask.
Getting sick forced me to take it off and look at everything.
I've never felt like I belonged.
Not in my personality,
Not in how I look,
Not in my energy.
So I adapted.
Now years later I live my life the way I want to.
I'm done rejecting myself.
No more hiding because people judge me for my spiritual essence,
My big nose or the fact that I'm more into astrology than into politics or pop culture.
Trust me,
Hiding doesn't help.
My soul wants expansion.
It didn't come here to live small or quiet.
It knows I'm worthy exactly as I am.
I'm not beautiful despite my nose.
I'm beautiful because I'm real.
I'm not valuable despite my spiritual view.
I'm valuable because I see what most people overlook.
I'm not valuable despite not knowing surface level things.
I'm valuable because I didn't stay in the shallow waters.
This book isn't here to fix you or teach you.
It's here to share a truth some of us have been hiding.
And now I'm here to remind those who forgot that their raw,
Complex,
Too much selves are exactly what this world needs.
Thank you so much for listening.
I really hope you enjoyed this and if you are curious for the whole story,
Make sure to listen to the next audio I will be sharing.
I will share chapter after chapter and guide you through my own story.
And I just hope it makes you feel seen,
Understood or perhaps it even inspires.
And apart from that I just want to wish you an amazing day or a really good restful night.
I hope to see you soon.
