Welcome to this guided journey into the Akashic Records.
My name is Mariella and I'll be guiding you today.
During this visit,
We'll be looking into self-doubt around our creative pursuits and how to overcome this so we can kick our inner critic and inner imposter to the curb.
When I say overcome it here,
I mean get to a place where it doesn't affect us as much and doesn't influence our decisions,
The way we perceive our creative work.
And the joy we get out of it.
If you don't have pen and paper ready to write down what you'll be receiving during this journey,
Please go and get that now.
Here we go.
Place one hand or both on your heart.
You might also like to place one hand on your heart and the other on your belly.
Breathing deeply through your feet.
Feeling yourself connect to Mother Earth.
To Gaia.
Breathe out through your heart space.
Breathing deeply through the crown of your head.
Feeling yourself connect to the cosmos,
To the universe.
And breathe out through your heart space.
Breathe in through your feet,
Feeling that grounding energy enter your body.
And breathe out through your heart space.
Breathe in through the crown of your head,
Allowing yourself to expand.
And breathe out through your heart space.
Again,
Breathe in that earth energy through your feet.
And breathe out through your heart.
Within the sun,
The moon,
The stars.
Through the top of your head.
And breathe out through your heart.
One more time,
Breathing in through the feet,
Embracing the body.
This incarnated light.
And breathing out through the heart.
Breathe in through your crown,
Honoring the divine within yourself.
And breathe out through the heart.
Now breathe normally,
Whatever that looks like for you right now.
Imagine yourself in a quiet place.
It's the absolute safest place you can imagine for yourself.
It can be anywhere and it can look like anything.
For you,
That might be a quiet beach,
Or a forest,
A field.
Where do you feel safest right now?
What makes you feel the safest you've ever felt.
Take a couple of deep breaths here.
Allowing yourself to relax as much as you possibly can.
Now imagine the air in front of you starts to shimmer.
And a crack begins to form.
And that crack slowly turns into a doorway.
Allow that door to fully form.
Place your non-dominant palm against the door.
If you're familiar with the Reiki symbol for distance.
You can now use your free hand to draw it on the door.
If you don't know or remember the symbol.
Or aren't sure how to use it.
That's okay.
I'm going to draw it on the door for you now.
If you're feeling any trepidation at this point,
Remind yourself that it's safe for you to see.
And that it's safe for you to know.
The records never give us information we're not ready to handle.
Even if our egos may try to make us believe otherwise.
Now we'll speak the portal prayer twice.
During the first time,
You repeat the words out loud after me.
And the second time you repeat the words silently to yourself.
Remember,
When I open my own or someone else's records,
I always address the highest divine source.
If you'd rather use the word Goddess,
God,
Unova,
The Divine Cosmos,
Or something else entirely,
Just replace Highest Divine Source with that when you repeat my words.
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I ask the highest divine source.
To surround me in a circle of white light.
For protection and strength.
May I be joined in my intention?
To expand my soul.
To remember who I really am.
And what I am here.
As it is written in the Akashic Records.
I ask the record keepers at the highest divine level to allow me to open and read.
The rackets of me for this purpose.
Only the light is welcome here.
May I open to receive.
The most helpful,
Sacred and empowering guidance.
So it is.
Now we'll do this one more time,
But this time you repeat my words silently to yourself.
I ask the highest divine source.
To surround me in a circle of white light.
For protection and strength.
May I be joined in my intention?
To expand my soul.
To remember who I really am.
And why I am here.
As it is written in the Akashic Records.
I ask the record keepers at the highest divine level to allow me to open and read.
The records of me for this purpose.
Only the light is welcome here.
May I open to receive.
The most helpful,
Sacred,
And empowering guidance.
So it is.
Now push open the door.
Step over the threshold.
And say the words.
My records are now open.
You are now inside your own Akashic Records.
If you need a moment to actually get inside your records,
That's okay.
If you don't see a door or another sort of entrance or opening.
Just ask to be guided towards it.
Once you've made it inside,
Take a moment to settle in.
What are you seeing?
What are you hearing?
Is anyone in there with you?
If so,
Who are they?
What are they doing?
Do they have any messages for you?
If you're struggling to get into your records or move through them.
This is a good place to remind yourself it's safe for you to see,
That it's safe for you to know,
Whatever information the records want to share with you today.
Once you've repeated that to yourself,
Ask your record keepers to guide you towards the place you need to be for this particular journey.
If you're not in front of your book yet,
Tell your record keepers that you're here to learn more about your self-doubt.
In particular the doubts that tend to come up when you're doing creative work.
Then let the record keepers guide you towards your book.
Or ring the book to you.
If no book appears and you're not being led anywhere with a book either.
It might be that your record keepers want to show you the information they want to share with you today in a different way.
Just take a deep breath.
And trust that they will give you the answers you're seeking.
Now I'll be asking some questions and whether you repeat them out loud or silently to yourself is up to you.
If you drop into a past life or a particular moment in your current lifetime after asking questions,
Pay attention to what's around you.
And try to use all of your senses.
What or who do you see?
What or who do you hear?
What do you smell or feel?
What is it that the record keepers want you to see or understand about this moment?
Write down whatever information you're given.
In whichever way it shows up.
If it feels like you might have made a vow or contract,
Or that a soul fragment is involved,
Ask about it and write down whatever answer you receive.
We'll come back to this at the end of the journey.
Once you've returned from the records.
We'll start with the following question.
What aspects of my creative life are currently affected by my self-doubt,
By my imposter syndrome?
What aspects of my creative life are currently affected by my self-doubt?
By myopostor syndrome Whatever shows up for you in response to this question,
Whether small or big.
Write it down.
If you get the feeling that multiple aspects are affected,
Ask your record keepers to show all of them to you now,
So you can write them down.
Now,
Looking at the aspect or list of aspects you've just written down.
Will ask the second question.
What is it that triggers my self-doubt here?
For each of these aspects.
What is it that triggers that imposter syndrome here?
So what is it that triggers my self-doubt here?
For each of these aspects,
What is it that triggers that imposter syndrome here?
In case ego got a hold on you and managed to distract you,
We're in the middle of asking the record keepers what it is that triggers your self-doubt.
Each of the aspects you've listed earlier.
Here's the third question.
Where does my self-doubt come from?
When did it first take root?
So where does my cell doubt come from?
When did it first take root?
If it looks or feels as though your self-doubt originated not in this lifetime but in a previous one.
Ask the record keepers to show you how it has developed over your past lifetimes.
How has my self-doubt developed?
Over my past lifetimes.
And for our next question we'll ask What do I need to heal,
Release,
Or clear?
To overcome this self-doubt.
To minimize the hold it has on me.
So what do I need to heal,
Release,
Or clear?
To overcome the self-doubt,
To minimize the hold it has on me.
You if the record keepers are giving you a number of practical steps to take next.
That's great.
If their advice is not as easy to implement,
It's not as straightforward.
Ask them for some practical action steps now.
Something you can start doing right away.
You you Now we're going to invite a version of you who isn't troubled by self-doubt.
Or a version of you who has already overcome it.
This version could be a past life version of yourself.
A future incarnation of yourself?
Or a future version of yourself in this lifetime.
Just ask this version to join you now.
Once they have,
Once they're in front of you Ask them to show you how living without self-doubt,
Without imposter syndrome,
Shaped their life.
If they struggle with it but manage to overcome it.
Ask them to show you how overcoming it changed their life.
What is it like to look at a version of yourself who's not or no longer?
I factored myself down.
By imposter syndrome.
How does watching this make you feel?
And where in your body are you feeling that?
You might want to place one or both hands on the spot.
And take a couple of deep breaths toward that area.
Now ask this version of yourself what advice they have for you.
What have they learned about living a life in which self-doubt doesn't affect them all that much that they want to share with you now?
When you're ready,
Thank this version of yourself for showing up for you.
And allow them to return to where they came from.
Take a couple of deep breaths here to really feel and acknowledge.
What they've showed you.
We have now arrived at our final question for this journey.
Is there anything else my record keepers wish to tell me today?
Is there anything else my record keepers wish to tell me today?
Will now be leaving the records,
So step away from your book or wherever you were receiving your answer from.
And please repeat the closing prayer after me.
We'll only say it once and we'll say it out loud.
I thank the record keepers.
For all the wisdom,
Healing and information.
Given during this reading.
May the healing and wisdom I receive here today continue to help me?
For as long as they are needed.
In gratitude to the Akashic Records.
So it is.
Now envision yourself going through that door we opened at the very beginning of this journey.
And closing it behind you.
Once it's closed and you're back in that quiet safe place you envisioned at the very start of this meditation,
Say the words,
My records are now closed.
Take a deep breath in here.
And a deep breath out.
And allow yourself to slowly come back to the room you're in.
And then take a moment to write down anything you haven't yet.
Thank you for joining me on this journey.
If during your visit a contract,
Vow,
Or soul fragment showed up,
Send me a message and I'll share further instructions on how to work through and heal these things.
Until we meet again
