Caged At The Floor | My Poem Of Anxiety & Overwhelm

In my poem "Caged At The Floor", I describe my lived experience, looking back at a moment many years ago, where I was in the midst of overwhelm, anxiety and wrestling a harsh inner critic. My intention by sharing is to raise awareness of how such an experience can feel like, for increased understanding - support comprehension - and let those who might have experienced something similar feel recognized, less alone, seen.

If you feel activated while listening please support yourself gently. I suggest you listen to "I Am Safe | Calming The Nervous System", "Side By Side, Through The Darkness We Walk | My Poem To You" and "Our Purpose And Worthiness | V1 | Includes Box Breath" as soothing follow up tracks.

Thank you for being here, witnessing me.
Please share with others to raise awareness.
And
take the most gentlest care of you.

With love,
Madeleine B

Recorded: 26.05.2026

Transcript

In the deep dark night Sitting on the floor with my back against the wall. Choking on the tears of anxiety. Feeling the excruciating fear. Wondering, Questioning, What am I doing here? A lump in my throat and my chest squeezed by the feeling of drowning. My heartbeat in my ears are pounding. Feeling like there is no other option and forced to continue without knowing how to get through. A numbness in my legs and feet, My hands feeling sweaty and cold. My head and my thoughts are racing and I'm wondering will I get through? Will I live? To get old. All the adrenaline flowing in every vein overwhelm, Suffocating. The excruciating pain. Of horror, Worry and shame. Thinking I should have done things differently. And now, Here I am, Finding it hard to breathe. Dizzy by the storm in my head and all the fears my face wet from all the tears grasping for air, Squeezing my own arm, Wishing to return to calm.

Reviews

My dear Madeleine, I relate so completely. Thank you for sharing so deeply and honestly. Sent with much love and solidarity 🤍🫂🤍

Thank you for sharing something so deeply personal and vulnerable. While I haven’t experienced this myself, your words gave me a glimpse into how overwhelming and isolating such an experience can feel. I hope that sharing your story helps others feel recognised, understood and a little less alone.

With warmth and care. ❤️
Jenny