Hi.
We'll be focusing on creating your inner lab,
Which is a place where you can do all sorts of experiments in your mind,
Wishing you a renewing and insightful practice.
So to start,
I'll ask you just to take a few deep breaths.
And now in preparation for creating your inner lab,
I'll ask you to imagine a tree that has its roots at the center of the earth.
It has a very long trunk that grows all the way up to right where your sit bones are,
Right where your seat is.
It can be any kind of tree you like.
But imagine that its trunk is broad enough that you feel perfectly comfortable sitting in the crux of the tree.
It supports you and you know you won't fall.
This tree will help you feel stable,
Grounded,
And supported as you do this practice.
Now I'll ask you to go ahead and imagine above your head a beautiful sphere of golden light.
This is golden,
Sparkly,
Glittery energy that is yours alone.
You can imagine your name on that ball,
On that sphere.
Imagine that this energy just nourishes you.
So you don't need to feel selfish about being the only one who uses it.
It really can't help anyone else.
So imagine that energy that's nourishing,
Especially for you,
That feeds you,
That fuels who you are and what you want to do in the world.
Imagine that coming from this sphere and showering down into your body and into the area around your body.
Feel that energy come into you and nourish you and feed you as fuel for what you want and who you are.
You feel filled up with this golden energy that is all your own.
And you feel like you're glowing inside.
It's time to visit your inner lab.
The way to do that is to put your attention in the center of your head,
In between your ears.
Put your attention there now and notice what you feel,
What you sense is there.
You might even see what is in the center of your head in your inner lab.
This is a place of fun and discovery and mystical science,
The true science of what it's like to be a person and discover things about yourself and the universe.
So it's a place that's meant to be fully you,
Fully yours,
And really,
Really fun.
If you look around and you sense that it's not fun and it's not yours,
Let's change that.
Let's take a moment to make sure that you can redecorate it,
That you can change that experience of your inner lab so it's delightful.
You could turn it into a garden or a seascape or you could be underwater or in the middle of space inside a high rise.
What does it look like and feel like in there when you're having fun?
Go ahead and change it up now.
Look around,
Look behind you.
What do you not want there?
What can you let go of?
What can you give to the tree to turn into light that goes to the center of the earth?
What can you fill with golden light so that it just glows and there's not a piece of furniture or even anything or anyone there.
It's just space that glows with your particular golden energy.
Take a moment and consider the kinds of things that you might like to do here.
What might you want to try out in this space?
Might you want to talk with different parts of yourself?
Might you want to connect with your past and your future?
Maybe you want to try out different ideas or different kinds of relationships with people or different songs or paintings you might create or different scientific experiments you'd like to do.
This is a place for all of that.
And exactly what you want to do with it has to do with what your soul's work is,
Which you don't have to answer right now.
This is a place of play and discovery,
Not perfection.
So now that you have a sense of your inner lab and you've created it to be what you'd like it to be for now,
Know that it can change.
And also know that you'll need to create a way to get in and out of this place.
Some easy ritual that you do to go into your inner lab and visit it whenever you want.
Some people make a doorway in their minds.
Some people use a word,
Like just saying their name or a particular word that brings them there.
Some people build a spiral staircase or create a swimming pattern in their mind.
They imagine swimming into their inner lab.
So right now,
Take a moment and practice using whatever method you want for getting into your inner lab.
Try leaving it and coming back and leaving it and coming back.
Make sure your method works for you.
Now go ahead and enter back into your inner lab,
If you were spending some time away.
And fill that lab with light until it glows.
Just fill it up.
Because we'll do our first experiment and we need lots of energy for that.
This experiment is about seeing what it's like to love yourself through time.
This is how it works.
Stay in your inner lab and allow that building light to be there with you.
And stay in the present moment.
You are your current self at all times in this experiment.
But you will invite forward into your inner lab your past selves.
Find some representations of yourself from when you were a little kid,
Maybe even a baby.
Maybe just a week ago also.
Add some past selves from a few years back.
Whatever points in your life stand out and want to come forward,
You can have as many past selves join you in your inner lab as show up and want to come in.
So there you are in your inner lab in the center of your head and you're surrounded by your past selves.
Take a look at each one of them.
When you look at each one of them,
Practice looking at them with love.
You don't need to say anything just have love in your eyes and love in your heart as you look at them in your inner lab.
Everything they did,
They did because it was the best thing they could do at the time with the information that they had.
So there's nothing to forgive,
But there's everything to love.
With love in your heart and love in your eyes,
Embrace your past selves fully.
Let them come into you.
Let them enter your present self as if they are beads on a string lined up at your heart and they can enter right through your heart.
Include them.
Remember this is an experiment so you're seeing what it's like to do this.
Try including them in this way.
Include them into you with love.
See if there's anything you'd like to say to them.
Maybe you'd like to say something to one age,
But not to another as you include them into you.
Notice how it feels to feel full of yourself,
Full of who you are and who you have been to love that.
Feel how it is easy to love yourself.
How it is easy to include all parts of yourself and your history in your present moment.
Or maybe it's difficult.
Feel that if that's true.
When all of your past selves have come into you,
Have been included with love,
You now know that you're capable of having this experience,
Of doing this experiment as your present self.
So now you have more faith that your future self could love you just like you loved your past selves.
So now we'll do that part of the experiment.
Stay in your inner lab in the center of your head.
Feel the golden light.
Feel the glow of nourishing yourself and of including with love all of your past selves.
And see in front of you your future self or maybe even multiple future selves from different times in the future.
Look into their eyes.
Look into their hearts.
And feel the love that they very much want you to feel.
Feel how you are only at one part of your life now.
Feel how you don't have to do everything perfectly.
Feel how much you are loved.
And as an experiment,
When you are ready,
Imagine walking into your future self,
Being included by it.
And the love that it feels towards you as you allow this.
Make a mental note of how it felt to connect with yourself,
With love,
Over time.
What you discovered,
You liked,
You didn't like,
You want to try to do next time.
By connecting with yourself over time in your inner lab,
Most people start to notice that they have the experience of feeling more connected and more stable and more strong and more loved.
I wish that for you too,
As well as many opportunities to experiment with all sorts of things as you do the science of your soul's work in your inner lab.
Thanks so much for playing.
