Mr.
Buddha doing the work today.
Welcome to the genuine loving vase of Cosmic Unwind.
I am your brother,
Mr.
Tenet the Light.
Mr.
One Nerdy Buddha working on his insecurities.
Let's see what's going on.
Okay,
Here we go.
Being in a stable,
Healthy relationship never had one with a female.
Being good enough or staying the same so I can keep my friends.
My skills in order to get a job,
I have been getting interviews but always feel like an imposter.
Being who I want to be,
I feel like I will have to shed a lot of people in my life.
It's hard for me to,
It's hard to move forward.
So progress,
You're having problem with progressing in your life.
I feel so attached to people around me,
Like I always want to keep them happy.
Because I am so insecure about myself.
Do you meditate at all?
One nerdy,
Do you meditate at all?
Like one in a week?
Okay,
That's good.
Four to seven.
That's a great start,
Okay.
What do you do when you're in meditation?
You know the issue.
One nerdy Buddha,
His problem right now is,
He has a high level of insecurity.
Very high level.
Mucho.
Okay,
Number one.
He's been in many unhealthy relationships and is still stuck in the past about those relationships.
Number two.
He does not feel good enough.
Not good enough-ness.
One of the most toxic energy.
You're just not good enough.
Number three.
Low self confidence,
Or low confidence at job interviews.
And he feels like he's faking at these job interviews because he is.
Number four.
He has a lot of toxic friends.
Of course,
Right?
You're going to attract other people who are at high levels of insecurity too.
And what are you going to do?
Drink,
Party,
Drugs.
You might not do it while you're hanging around those people.
Because they also have a high level of insecurity.
But they're not a people pleaser.
They have other issues.
Number five.
You have a hard time progressing in life.
Like,
You just feel your life is not moving forward.
I know that feeling.
It's such a.
.
.
It's a sad feeling.
You're just quietly sad.
It's not a loud sad.
You just feel stuck.
And number six.
You are a people pleaser.
And you attach to people.
You.
.
.
Guess what?
I was the exact same way before I had my spiritual awakening.
Anything else you think we should add to this,
MysticOneNerdyBuddha?
The fear of others judging self.
Others' judgment.
You need to divorce your friends.
Last time I hang out with my friend,
One of them made fun,
Made a joke about me being on the spectrum.
Here's the thing.
You don't have to change anything outside of you right now.
What you need to change is inside of you.
You need to switch your compass to positivity.
So you're making decisions out of.
.
.
Stuck in the past.
Feeling not good enough about yourself.
So you're making decisions out of this energy.
You're low confidence.
So you're making decisions out of.
.
.
And you're choosing toxic friends without realizing you're choosing them.
Because your compass is on,
I don't love myself.
You have a hard time progressing in life.
Why?
Because you're not operating from love.
You're busy trying to please people.
And pleasing others make you happy.
Because why?
Because you're not loving your damn self.
Number seven.
Your fear of others' judgment.
Why?
Because you actually judge your dang self.
And you don't truly love who you are,
But you're learning too.
Mystic Buddha,
Whether you hang out with them or not,
They're still going to talk crap about you.
The fear of others talking bad about you,
It's already.
.
.
You're starting off the mindset with fear.
If your foundation is fear,
Guess what?
You're going to have fear.
This is a fear-based thinking.
If I stop hanging out with these negative people who think I'm stupid,
Then they will still call me stupid.
You're just telling me the truth.
You're just telling me the fear-based thinking.
But you don't realize you're doing this.
If you stop hanging out with people who call you stupid,
Then they will continue calling me stupid.
And if I hang out with them,
They still call me stupid.
So guess what?
Stop hanging out with stupid people.
Here's the thing.
Here's the thing.
You need to raise your standard for friendship.
You're just like,
You know what?
With friendship,
You're like,
I'll take anything out there.
People who talk crap about me,
I'll take that.
I'll take people who think I'm stupid.
Yeah,
I'll take that.
You know,
The people that judge me for being who I am,
You know,
I'll take that.
Because I don't think I can get anything else.
But those are my friends.
So your dad is somebody also from fear-based thinking.
But now it's time for you to take responsibility of your life.
Tell me more about your dad.
I think this is a good.
.
.
Why do you think he is a fearful person?
That he comes from the army?
Why do you think your dad is super fearful?
There you go.
Navy.
How do I know this?
What does he do in a hospital,
If you don't mind?
There you go.
When you don't have a spiritual foundation and you work in a spiritual place like a hospital,
You will turn into your father.
If you're a nurse and you don't have spiritual foundation,
You will pick up people's negativity.
You have to stay in a high consciousness.
You got to do the work.
You got to meditate.
You don't pray all day.
You got to be with yourself.
Learn meditation.
Praying all day to lose weight,
Praying all day is not enough.
Praying to God for something is called begging.
To do the work is what my teacher teaches us.
There are too many out there using God,
Using love,
Using the universe.
Instead of being a servant of humanity,
How can you give?
How can you love more?
Instead,
Bring me a million dollars.
Some people don't even believe in the energy of love.
Some people don't even believe.
God is simply just love.
It's the intelligence energy of love.
When you don't believe that there's an intelligence energy of love,
Your mind stays closed.
If you don't believe in God,
Believe in love.
It's the same thing.
Most people are so insecure about it because they've been taught a close-minded way to look at love called religion.
Most people say,
I'm atheist.
I'm atheist.
You can be atheist,
But let's be loving.
That's called being spiritual.
You just believe in love.
That's it.
They don't believe in God because they've been taught that God is some guy in the sky that judges you.
Right now,
You are living a fear-based life.
It's time to draw your cards.
We got to do some deep cleaning work with you today.
I hope you're ready for this.
If you're new to the stream,
Welcome home to the genuine loving vibe of Cosmic Unwind.
I'm helping Mystic,
One nerdy Buddha,
Figure out why he's super insecure about his life.
It's clear to you that you know the issue.
You're just so good at focusing on the issue that you don't see the solution.
What you're experiencing right now is called a generational healing.
Imagine that all your ancestors before you,
They repeated this pattern of suffering.
They repeated this over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over.
This fear-based life is called mental incarceration.
Emancipate yourself from mental slavery.
None but ourselves can free our mind.
I'm here to help.
And you've done amazing work.
If you're listening to Thich Nhat Hanh and you're doing the work,
I'm going to do it for you.
I'm going to do it for you.
Here we go.
Breathing in.
Slowly breathing out.
Let's recap what we're working with right now.
We're working with Mystic,
One nerdy Buddha.
His problem is that he has a high level of insecurity.
He's been in unhealthy relationship and is stuck in the past about relationships.
He has the feelings of not good enough-ness,
Just doesn't feel good enough with who he is.
Number three,
He has low confidence at job interviews.
He's just not himself and he's not genuinely himself and feels like he's faking.
Number four,
He has a lot of toxic friends who judge him.
Who judge him.
Number five,
He has a hard time progressing in life and doesn't feel like he's moving forward.
Feels stuck.
Number six,
He's a people pleaser and is attached to pleasing people because pleasing people makes him happy.
Number seven,
He fears of others' judgment.
And he's scared of them talking bad about you,
About him,
Even though they do it anyways.
And we're trying to give him some insight today.
Let's see what the cosmos.
.
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Basically,
He is living in the foundation of fear.
Relationships.
I am attracted to those people who serve my higher good.
I am attracted to those who serve my higher good.
You need to let go of those toxic negative friends who don't serve your higher good.
And the only reason you're hanging out with them is because you're not serving your own higher good.
Because you don't have a good relationship with your damn self.
Because why?
You're living life from a foundation of fear.
Because you don't know that loving yourself is an option.
You don't know you can just love your damn self.
And so you're busy loving other people to love yourself.
Which is impossible.
That's why you keep failing at relationships and attracting negative friends.
You simply just don't know that you can love your damn self.
Because if you want to attract people who serve your higher good,
You have to serve yourself in a high quality.
Which means you have to love yourself for who you are.
And live from a foundation of love.
Apollo.
Focus upon your strength.
You're doing the exact opposite.
You're focusing on your weakness.
Your fear is what makes you weak.
You're a master of focusing on your weakness.
Because you simply don't know your strength.
It's love baby.
You are love but you don't effing know that because you have programmed yourself to live from a foundation of fear.
And so you're living a life from a foundation that's weak.
And so you're constantly ungrounded.
You're attracting ungrounded people.
And you never feel good enough.
Because you're good at looking at why you're not good enough.
Focus on why you are amazing.
Focus on why you're alive today.
Focus on why you're grateful for your life.
You're living your life not being grateful for it.
Just like me in the past.
Being gratitude makes you feel more happy.
Being grateful makes you more happy.
Stop focusing on the crap that makes you sad and not good enough.
You just simply can't comprehend that being grateful will change your life.
Start being grateful for your life.
Because when you're not grateful for your life,
You're going to focus on all the crap you have.
The master of crapping on yourself.
That's what you're a master at.
You have options.
You can turn into the master of loving your damn self.
Accept that you've been crapping on yourself.
And so you attract the other people who crap on themselves too.
Take responsibility for your happiness by loving your damn self.
And stop looking for love outside of yourself.
Love is in your heart.
You just don't know that because you've been in your head.
You've been focusing on your weakness,
Your head.
Your love is in this moment in your heart.
But you have no foundation of love.
And that's why you're focusing on fear because you've been programmed to live that way.
Empathy.
I am open to seeing both sides of the situation.
Again,
You don't even know there's two sides of the situation.
You're busy being in your head that you forget you even have this thing called a heart.
Your feelings.
You have turned off your loving feelings so much that all you think you have is crappy stuff.
There's always two sides.
The positive and the negative emotion to a situation.
But you just think that life is crappy and so all you see and feel is crappiness.
Be open at any time.
Realize there's two sides of the situation.
But where you really want to be is the center.
But we're not there yet.
You're in the super beginning stage of awakening,
Of realizing love.
If you have negativity,
You have positivity.
If you can live in fear,
You can live from love.
You can have toxic friends,
You can have loving friends.
If you can have people who judge you,
You can have people who love you.
Stay away from the crowd of ignorance.
You see those people?
You're hanging around with those toxic people.
All the insecure people.
You need to give them a break.
You're hanging around your family in their head.
Your friends are in your head.
You're in your head and everyone around you in their head.
Focusing on negativity.
No wonder why you're a master at fear.
Because you're hanging around people who are in their heads living in fear too.
Because these people don't know they have options so you join them.
But today you learned that you can love your damn self.
It's hard when your mind is closed.
Open your damn mind that you can just love yourself right now.
I used to make it hard to love myself because I just couldn't comprehend.
I can f-ing love myself for who I am and all my mistakes right now.
Because no one taught me.
And that's why I'm here in front of you.
To tell you how it is.
But you must do the work of stepping away from the crowd of ignorance.
Opening your damn mind and just loving all your mistakes.
And being grateful for your damn life.
Stop following the people who aren't grateful for life.
Because you will join them in ignorance and fear which you are in right now.
You need to be with your damn self alone.
And love who you are and be grateful for your life without people.
You need to be that one person who loves themselves first.
Instead of chasing people to be happy,
Realize that you are love.
But you gotta open your damn mind to see that first.
Because if you don't open your damn mind to see that you are love,
You will follow ignorance.
And be a people pleaser.
Just like me in the past.
And you will find your purpose.
I know what I am here to do.
You're here to learn how to f-ing love yourself first.
Because you've been so good at fearing.
You've been so good at living in fear that your guardian angels asked me to help you today.
Your loved ones.
He's doing good work.
He deserves to have a better life.
So your guardian angels tell me,
Hey this guy here is a good guy.
This guy got a good heart.
But he doesn't know he's been living from fear all his f-ing life.
Your purpose is what you choose for it to be.
And you have been choosing fear as your purpose.
Because you've been living in your head.
But I'm here to tell you today.
It's time for you to love your damn self now.
It's time for you to live in the moment now.
Practice what Master Thich Nhat Hanh has been teaching you.
Be more present.
Get out of your head.
Listening to spiritual talk means nothing if you don't practice it.
Remember that.
Looking spiritual has nothing to do with practicing love.
Because you can look like love but don't feel like it.
It's a good start.
When somebody don't know who they are,
It's because they don't love themselves.
They don't truly love themselves.
And they're not figuring it out.
But at least you're working on it.
Solution.
Live from love.
Not fear.
And love your damn self.
Because if you love your damn self,
You're not going to be living from fear.
Love your damn self.
And the solution will always be the opposite.
When somebody has a high level of insecurity,
It's because they really,
Really don't love their damn self.
Because why?
They're really living from fear.
They have unhealthy relationships.
Why?
They don't have a good relationship with themselves.
Stop looking outside for love.
Have a good relationship with yourself.
You don't feel good enough.
Why don't you feel good enough?
Because you're not hanging around environments that help you be good enough.
You're hanging around toxic friends.
You're busy looking down on yourself.
You're busy pleasing toxic people.
And then you're wondering why your life is full of crap.
You're hanging around with crappy people.
And you're focusing too much on why you're not good enough.
Be more grateful for your life.
Focus on love.
You're not grateful for the breath of air.
You're not grateful for your left arm,
Your right arm.
You're not grateful.
You're focusing on too much negativity.
Why you're not good enough.
And again,
Love your damn self.
Focus on loving yourself.
What can I do to love myself today?
What can I do for me?
What does it take to feel good enough?
That's a better question.
You feel you have low confidence at job interview and you're fake.
Be your damn self.
Believe in yourself.
Stop worrying about what other people think and be your damn self.
It's hard to be yourself when you worry about f'ing up in other people's eyes.
Everyone f's up.
Everyone messes up.
But when you worry about being perfect for other people,
You're really worried about.
You just don't believe in yourself.
Be your damn self.
The thing is you don't know who you are.
Because right now you believe you are a practitioner of fear.
You need to change that.
You are a practitioner of love.
And you gotta stop repeating negative things about yourself.
I'm ready to find myself.
I'm ready to know who I am.
I'm ready to work on myself.
You gotta change your language from saying negative statements that may be true to positive statements that is true.
I'm ready to work on loving myself.
Work on speaking lovingly to yourself.
Ask loving questions.
How can I find my sense of self?
I'm ready to find out who I am.
Right now you are disc- You're lost,
Right?
You're disconnected from your soul.
Because your soul is love.
And when you disconnect from love,
You disconnect from your home.
You're not home right now.
I'm trying to show you the direction towards home.
Change your language.
Say- speak from a foundation of love.
So number four,
You have toxic friends.
Let go of toxic people and environments.
Find better friends.
Number five,
You have a hard time progressing in life.
Yeah,
Because progress comes from fulfillment.
Progress comes from fulfillment.
And remember,
Your dad is just teaching you how to be super genuine loving.
First step,
Stop playing a victim.
You gotta take responsibility for your happiness and not play the victim anymore.
Progress comes from fulfillment and doing the work.
Do the work.
Stop being- Stop playing the victim.
Take responsibility for happiness.
We are doing great in here.
We're working with Mystic One Nerdy Buddha.
Who is living from a foundation of fear and he has a high level of insecurity.
We're trying to get him to see and to walk the path towards love.
And walk from love.
Instead of walking,
Living from fear.
Walking living from a victim mindset.
Now walking from a person who takes responsibility for their happiness.
Because lazy people will keep playing the victim.
When does a victim become- take responsibility?
When they're ready.
If not now,
When?
Why delay your happiness?
It takes two years to reprogram yourself.
But you never walk that step.
You never get there.
It may take you a month.
But you never start.
You're like,
It's too hard.
Continue being a victim.
Number six,
You are a people pleaser.
You're attached to pleasing people.
You please people because you don't know you can love yourself.
Realize you can love your damn self.
Stop pleasing people to be happy.
Number seven,
You have to learn how to clear your mind.
You don't have fear of judgment from other people.
It's that you judge your damn self.
Believe in yourself and stop judging yourself.
Judge yourself less.
Judge less and believe in yourself.
When people judge you,
You don't have to accept it.
But the moment you accept that,
You're really just judging yourself.
They can suggest you're stupid,
But you can let that judgment go by.
Oh,
That's your problem.
But nope,
Somebody calls you stupid and you're like,
Yes I am.
Judge yourself less and believe in yourself and love your damn self.
You just don't love your damn self and you don't know that.
I need to give you homework.
I need you to focus on the solution more than the problem,
Okay?
So right now your problem is,
He has a high level of insecurity.
He has unhealthy relationships and is stuck in the past.
Feels not good enough.
Low confidence that job interview has toxic friends.
Tons of them.
Hard time progressing in life.
A people pleaser attached to pleasing people and a fear of judgment from others.
The solution,
Live from love.
I put life from love.
Live from love.
Not fear.
You're living from fear right now.
You need to learn to love your damn self.
You're just like me in the past.
Exactly like me.
That's why I can give you so much info because you are exactly like me.
Imagine everybody.
I used to be just like Mystic One Nerdy Buddha.
Exactly.
If it's possible for me,
It's possible for you.
If it's possible for me,
It's possible for you.
Because if you don't want to be happy enough,
Continue living in fear.
Are you ready to live from love?
Are you ready to do whatever it takes to be happy?
Here's the solution.
And then I'm going to give you practical things you need to do.
You have to be willing to do whatever it takes to be happy.
You have to accept that you're done being miserable.
You're done feeling like crap.
You have to accept that part first.
1.
Stop looking outside of yourself for love.
And have a good relationship with yourself.
Love your damn self.
Stop looking outside for validation.
Validate yourself.
2.
Focus on love more than negativity,
Fear,
Doubt,
Fears,
Worries,
You're.
.
.
Be a master at focusing on love.
Focus on your gratitude.
Wake up saying,
Thank you so much for my life.
Thank you so much for the pillow.
Thank you so much for the air conditioning.
Thank you so much for my negative dad that teaches me to be positive.
Everything is your teacher.
And ask yourself,
What does it take to feel good enough?
What does it take to be the best?
What does it take for me to be happy and do that?
3.
Be yourself.
And if being yourself doesn't make you happy,
Believe that it's possible.
Believe in yourself that you can be happy.
4.
Let go of toxic people and environments.
Let go of people who will judge you,
Who gossip about you,
Who talk crap about you.
Who don't believe in you.
Who see you from a low place.
Who call you stupid.
And stop hanging around in environments where you can meet those kind of people.
5.
Progress comes from fulfillment.
If you don't love yourself,
You don't feel like you're moving forward because your life feels like crap.
When you feel happy,
You feel like your life is moving forward.
And so you got to take responsibility for your happiness.
And stop being a victim of your fearing mind,
Of your negativity.
And realize that love is a choice.
6.
Realize that you can love your damn self and stop pleasing people to love yourself.
Start from within.
Stop going outside to fill your cup.
Coincide and fill your own cup and stop being needy of other people.
Have yourself.
You have yourself.
Learn to love yourself.
7.
Judge less of yourself and believe in your damn self.
Do whatever it takes for you to love your damn self.
Before you can love yourself,
I need you to make a list of all the.
.
.
This is your homework.
This is a lot for you to take in.
I need you to copy and paste this.
I need you to write.
I need you to take the time to write.
It could be a page or two pages.
All the things that make you feel like crap.
All the things,
All the fear you have in your life.
All the fear,
All the sadness you have in your life.
All the why you're not good enough.
I need you to write all of that out.
And once you're done laying out all the crappiness.
I need you to write why you love yourself.
Why you're ready to love yourself.
Why you're ready to be the best you can be.
Why you're ready to live from love.
But focus on the fear first.
Because you need to clearly see how much crap you've been holding on to.
Anything else?
Okay,
We're going to continue working on this.
Okay,
This is good work.
This is amazing work.
Most people don't want to do this crap.
Because they don't want to face the crap.
Thank you Mr.
Guanyardipu,
I appreciate that.
