Welcome to this wide awake at 3am meditation.
If you find yourself wide awake in the middle of the night,
This meditation was made for you.
It will guide you gently back towards rest in a quiet connection to the love and light that is always present.
This is about remembering that you are held by something far greater than the night.
So if you are listening to this right now,
I see you,
Wide awake when the world is asleep,
Lying in the dark,
Wondering what this waking is asking of you.
And I want you to know something before we begin.
You are held.
There is a love that does not sleep,
A presence,
Call it the divine,
Source,
The one,
The one that holds this world even in the darkest hours of the night.
And it is holding you right now,
In this bed or couch or floor,
In this body,
In this moment.
You are whole.
Something is happening in your body that is part of something much larger,
A crossing,
A threshold,
A sacred season of change.
And the love that has always been with you is with you in this too.
So let yourself settle a little more into the surface beneath you.
The mattress,
The darkness,
The quiet of the night,
And underneath all of that,
Something constant,
Something that has always been here.
Begin to notice your breathing.
The breath comes in,
The breath goes out.
This breath moving through you is the same energy that moves through everything,
The same life that breathes through trees and the tides and the turning of this earth.
It is moving through you right now,
Even here,
Even now.
Let the exhale become just a little longer than the inhale,
As if with each exhale you are releasing a little of what you have been carrying.
Breathing in the light.
Breathing out what is ready to leave.
Again,
Breathing in,
Breathing out.
One more time,
Breathing in.
With each breath,
You are remembering you are connected to the source of all things you always have been.
And I want to say something to you.
Your body is wise.
The racing heart.
The mind that is so active.
The exhaustion you carry into the day.
Your body is in the middle of something sacred.
A crossing that asks more of you than you knew you had to give.
And here is what I believe.
This is a spiritual experience.
The soul moving through you is in the middle of becoming.
And the divine companion that has walked beside you your entire life,
It is right here with you in this.
Say this with me inwardly if you are willing.
Let the words drop into the body like light into still water.
I am held by love.
I am in the middle of becoming.
The one that made me is right here with me.
Let those words land wherever they land.
Now imagine a warm golden light gathering just above the crown of your head.
Soft,
Steady,
Warm.
The light of the divine.
The light of love.
The light that is always present.
Let that light begin to move slowly down through the crown of your head.
Through the forehead.
The temples.
The jaw.
Softening as it moves.
Warming as it goes.
Down through the throat.
The place where your voice lives.
The place where you hold so much.
Let the light move through here gently.
Warming,
Softening,
Opening.
Into the chest.
Into the heart.
Let the light of love pool here for a moment.
This heart that is given so much.
This heart that keeps going even when it is tired.
The light continues down through the belly.
The hips.
The legs.
All the way to the soles of the feet.
Your whole body now filled with this warm golden light.
From crown to foot.
Heavy and warm.
Held by love.
Held by the one.
Now imagine that at the center of this light,
Inside you,
There is a place of perfect stillness.
It has always been there.
Before the weariness.
Before the sleeplessness.
Before everything this season has asked of you.
This is the part of you that is connected to everything.
That knows at a level deeper than the thought that you are loved.
That you are held.
That you are a part of something that does not end.
This is where the divine lives in you.
Here in this body.
In this breath.
In this ordinary extraordinary night.
Maybe the awakening is an invitation.
An invitation back to yourself.
Back to the stillness at your center.
Back to the love that has always been holding you.
Let yourself rest here now.
In this light.
In this love.
In the quiet at the center of who you are.
You are loved.
You are accompanied.
You are allowed to rest before everything is finished.
You can stay here as long as you need.
If sleep comes,
Let it come.
If stillness comes,
Let that be enough.
The light is still here.
The love is still here.
It will be here when you are awake.
It was here before you were born and it will be here long after.
In the middle of all of that,
It is here now.
You are accompanied.
You always have been.
