How do we find peace in the paradox?
Releasing our need for tidy explanations,
And learning to love the mystery.
Life is a paradox we circle around.
Attempting to give it shape with our explanations.
Even as it slips quietly beyond the reach of our words.
Each day of life is another step toward the mystery that awaits us at the edge of our living.
Rain falls,
The farmers rejoice,
And the birds gather in anticipation of the worms to surface.
Yet the rivers rise and threaten to overflow their banks.
The sun shines,
Petals open,
Children race through the neighborhood.
And yet,
Even in this abundance,
The forests become dry,
Brush and dead branches become fuel,
And what once gave life becomes the energy for fire.
Every joy casts its own shadow.
Every gift carries the quiet weight of risk.
We too are a living paradox.
The ground of our deepest joy is so often the place where we are most vulnerable.
We long to be loved,
Yet we fear the pain that love can bring.
We reach for intimacy and yet protect the sanctuary of our own independence.
We seek the stillness of solitude while longing for conversations that touch our souls.
We want life to be predictable and yet find our happiest moments in spontaneity.
We yearn for both structure and freedom,
For belonging and for the courage to live life as our authentic selves.
At first,
We appear as contradictions set in motion.
The living embodiment of paradox.
Yet,
If we are honest,
We recognize this as the quiet truth of our existence.
We are made of both this and that.
A single body spun from a thousand elements on such a scale that we reach the limits of what can be calculated.
Yet still,
We hunger for certainty.
We try to draw straight lines,
To split the world into tidy opposites.
This or that,
Either or,
Black or white,
Big or small,
Red or blue.
We crave the comfort of clarity,
Even as life quietly refuses to be so easily divided.
We build our boxes,
Give names,
Attach labels,
Believing that in the act of naming,
Reality and call it ours.
But what first appears as a contradiction,
When seen from another angle,
Can reveal a clarity deeper than logic.
What resists our tidy explanations,
If we linger with it,
Begins to make a kind of sense that is both startling and strangely known.
At this time in my life,
I am standing in a place where much remains unresolved.
My vocation,
My future work,
And my relationships with God and others.
And yet,
I am oriented towards writing,
Contemplation,
Truth,
Healing,
And love.
My default approach is to use analysis to figure it all out.
Yet I have found that by waiting,
Slowing down,
And seeking better questions rather than answers.
Clarity begins to emerge.
By loving myself first and seeking my own truth,
I have faith that my next step will unfold unforced.
I have come to realize that life is not intended to give us explanations,
But to invite us into exploration.
A calling to release answers in order to seek better questions.
The rain will fall and the sun will shine.
The waters will flood and the fires will burn.
We may always attempt to give shape and make meaning.
And yet we circle the mystery.
Held by something we cannot fully name.
How can we find peace in this contradiction?
With warmth and gratitude,
Brooke.