Here you are my love,
Tired and desperate and heartbroken.
You thought this time it might be different,
That you found the right person that will be tender with your heart,
But they were not.
And I know how much it hurts and that it's hard to hold the tears back,
That it's hard to keep going and pretend that everything is fine,
Because it's not.
Whatever happened between the two of you,
It wasn't right,
It wasn't fair and you deserve better.
And now all these thoughts come up,
The thoughts of why me,
Why wasn't I good enough,
Good enough that this person will care about me.
What should I have done different so that I will not end up in this situation again?
What could I have done so that this person will see my worth,
My value and the love that I carry and the love that I want to give?
And with all that comes anger and fear and the pain and this feeling that makes you want to scream and cry and hide in your bed and all at the same time.
I know,
I know my love.
And all of that,
All of that is your ego,
Is your ego that is so hurt,
It's your ego that is angry,
It's your ego that wants to prove the entire world that you are right and they were wrong.
And it's okay that this is there right now,
It's fine.
Your ego has a right to be there.
All these feelings that want to be felt,
They have a right to be there right now.
Allow them to be there,
Acknowledge them,
See them,
Thank them,
Because after all they make you feel alive,
You're still here,
You're right now and you will survive this as you've survived it many,
Many times before.
And after all this,
Behind our hurt ego,
There's more.
When we allow our ego to rest,
To find peace,
After we felt all these feelings,
Maybe awareness can rise,
The awareness that anything that happened to you maybe didn't have anything to do with you,
Maybe it's them.
Maybe they are so hurt that they can't see your light.
Maybe they are so hurt,
They are just running around and hurt other people and when they turned their back on you and they left,
Maybe they're not running away from you,
Maybe they are running away from themselves,
Because they can't handle it.
Maybe they feel like they don't deserve you,
They are not ready for you.
So this has nothing to do with you,
It's them,
It's their pain,
Maybe their trauma.
The things that they don't take care of and unfortunately you've been the person that had to show them that it's time to heal.
Sometimes we appear in the life of other people so they can learn their lessons,
It's not about them,
It's not about them.
And with this awareness,
That this has nothing to do with you,
That you are whole and beautiful and you are allowed to step into your light,
Into your power and maybe all you did wrong is just loving them,
Because you have so much love inside of you that you want to bring it out there in the world and they couldn't handle it because they are not ready.
But you stay this beautiful,
Beautiful human being that is full of love and light and color.
So be aware of that,
Let your ego be there,
Let your ego be healed and then step into this awareness that this has nothing to do with you.
And then maybe after all that,
You see it as a lesson,
You can see it as something to learn from and maybe it's just a little lesson of,
I keep my heart open,
No matter how much that hurt me,
No matter how much it feels like a failure,
I know it's not and I go back on my feet and I keep walking with my heart wide open,
Because I know the right person,
The person who will care,
They will find their way to me.
Maybe there's someone out there this very moment manifesting you and maybe at the end the person who will find you is you.
For this is the most beautiful relationship you will ever have in your entire life.
All the love you have is inside of you.
All these feelings that you had with this person by your side and even if it was for a short time,
All of that is inside of you.
This is what you create and maybe when you think back of everything you loved about the time that you had with this person,
Maybe at the end it was you.
Maybe you loved your version,
The way you were around them because you felt safe and secure and you allowed yourself to live this version of yourself,
To live these beautiful,
Beautiful parts about yourself.
Recognize the depth of you,
The depth of all of you,
That you are not alone in this.
You always have yourself,
You have your inner child,
You have your old,
Wise self that is there and got your back,
Or your ancestors,
Or the guides around you.
You are not alone in this,
So take a deep breath here.
Exhale fully,
Let it go.
Deep inhale through your nose.
Exhale,
Release.
One last time,
Deep inhale and sigh it out.
I hope this little meditation helped you to shift your perspective,
To come back to yourself,
Find your way back home.
It's not about them.
It's not about them.
It's you and your love,
And you got this.
I'm proud of you.
Keep going.
