Are you tired?
Or you are exhausted from caring pain that never fully leaves.
Now be kind where it comes and goes.
But the kind that stays.
Like it made a home in your body.
You tried everything.
Be else.
Solutions.
Distractions.
Home.
And pray.
And still it returns.
So when you saw your last painkiller,
It got your attention.
And maybe this is the moment you finally hear this.
If you still want to continue your suffering.
Part of you still wants.
So stay attached.
To identity of being.
You are free to leave.
Close this now.
Scroll away.
Continue exactly as you were.
But if you stay Something in you is ready.
What I'm about to share with you is not a theory.
This is lived.
17 years of pain,
Pain that wakes with you.
Pain that sleeps with you.
Being that slowly becomes the background of your life.
I thought about pain.
Way more than I thought about leaving.
I became suffocated with sensation.
Temporary relief and then everything returned again.
So understand clearly,
I'm not speaking about pain to you,
I'm speaking from inside it.
And somewhere through all those years I realized something.
Our mind keeps asking the wrong questions.
Why is this happening to me?
Why me,
Gone?
Why this illness?
Why this pain?
Why this suffering?
But the truth is that those questions are the ones that trap you.
Because The moment you ask,
Why me?
Your nervous system enters resistance.
And you know,
You kind of become a victim of these circumstances It's like your life does not belong to you and you are not the sole captain of your reality.
So I decided to change a question.
Not why is this happening to me.
But what for?
What for God?
I have this illness.
What for,
God?
I'm going through this turmoil.
What is this pain trying to teach me?
Who is my soul becoming through this?
What parts of me are awakening while my body feels still?
What wisdom is trying to emerge?
Through something I once called punishment.
Do you feel the difference?
One question creates suffering.
The other creates meaning.
And meaning changes how the body experiences pain.
Because now you are no longer just surviving it.
You are listening to it.
Stop fighting it.
Would you resist Titans?
What you push away returns.
Pain feeds on resistance.
God moves in mysterious ways.
And the pain that feels like it is taking your life away.
May be part of that mystery.
Ask yourself right now.
Who am I becoming through this pain?
What path is my soul choosing?
When everything hurts.
The soul pain or the body pains,
It doesn't matter.
Is the same pain.
Ask yourself honestly.
Who am I becoming through this experience?
There in those questions.
You can find your answers.
If God did not allow wisdom within pain.
It wouldn't exist.
Nothing God allows is meaningless.
Your body is not the highest authority,
Your soul is.
You are created in God's likeness.
So trust the keeper of your soul.
And your body will follow.
Right now,
Reframe your pain.
Instead of saying I'm in pain.
Safe.
I feel something.
Something that keeps my attention away.
Something asking to be witnessed.
And even if the sensation remains.
I let my body rest.
No matter what.
I release all problems into God's hands.
I stop trying to carry.
What was never meant for me to carry along.
And now that your soul has softened.
Let the body follow.
Breathe your awareness.
Breath to the top of your head.
Imagine a gentle warm white light entering through the crown of your head.
Soft.
Secret.
Healing.
Feel it spreading slowly through the scalp.
The warhead.
The eyes.
Relaxing every muscle around your eyes.
The jaw softens.
The tongue releases.
Your neck unwinds.
Now the light moves slower.
To the throat.
Your throat chakra,
Your voice.
Your truth.
You no longer need to hold everything inside.
Now the light moves into your chest.
Into your heart center.
Place love there.
Even if your heart hurts Place love there.
Not pressure.
Not fixing.
Wow.
Now the warm light.
Move slower.
Into the solar plexus.
Now into your belly.
The center of will.
I tend to do.
Personal power.
And right now,
You release the pressure to control everything.
You are allowed to rest.
Now.
This beautiful white warm light.
Is inside of your stomach.
Softening the organs.
The muscles.
In your nervous system.
Your body no longer needs to stay in survival today.
Now this beautiful white light.
Move slower into your hips.
The paleness.
Relax.
Venice Nickels Miffy Feel the entire body now.
Covered in this warm,
Healing light.
Your body softening.
Your breath softening.
Your mind softening.
Not as punishment.
Not as something broken.
But it's something secret and today we stop abandoning the body.
We stop speaking to it with fear.
We stop treating it like an enemy.
Your body has carried so much.
Stress.
Fear.
Shaw.
Grief.
Unspoken emotion.
And still.
It kept trying to keep you alive.
So before we ask the body to heal,
We listen to it.
Now.
Use your inner awareness.
Your internal vision.
See your body from within.
Now find the pain.
And look at it.
Internally.
Do not judge it.
Do not fear it.
Do not fight it.
Do not reject it.
Because sometimes what hurts simply needs your attention.
But not the attention that comes with fear.
Not attention that comes with resistance.
Love.
Understanding.
So whatever hurts right now Look at it with your internal eyes.
With compassion.
As if you are comforting.
A wounded part of yourself.
Instead of fighting it.
Observe it gently.
Without panic.
Without pressure.
Without needing it to disappear immediately.
If your mind drifts.
Gently return.
You are not the pain.
You are the awareness observing it.
At the moment awareness meets sensation.
Without any fear.
The structure begins to change.
Because pain changes when it no longer feels abandoned.
Now breathe deeply.
Inhale.
You are not helpless.
Exhale,
You release control.
Inhale,
Healing enters.
Exhale,
You trust God.
Again.
Inhale.
And exhale.
Every breath in.
You inhale peace.
Every breath out,
You release fear.
Your health.
Even here.
Especially here.
I'll stay here watching.
Breathe in.
Soften in Nothing to fix.
Nothing to chase Just remain.
And if your heart has been hurting for a long time.
Let this be the moment you stop fighting yourself.
You survived so much Be gentle with yourself now.
Your body is listening.
Your nervous system is listening.
Your soul is listening.
And if you are still here,
Your body is already softening.
And maybe today.
Nothing needed to be fixed.
Maybe your body simply needed to feel safe enough to soften.
Maybe your brain.
Did not need more fighting.
But more love.
And no matter what happens after today.
Remember this.
You are not abandoned.
Not by God.
Not by life.
Not by your own soul.
You are healing now.
And B.
H unto you.
According to your faith.
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