How Trauma, Survival & Your Divine Self Work Together

This talk is an extract from a live session we shared together. It invites you to explore your inner landscape with compassion and clarity. You’ll meet three aspects of yourself — the trauma part, the survival part, and the Divine Self — and begin to understand how they relate.

Through a merging practice and frequency-based awareness, you’ll gain insight, healing, and reconnection — with every part of you and with your original energy. Everything just wants to be seen and heard. All is welcome, and you are safely held in the arms of your larger Self.

This talk and experiential practice are a beautiful invitation into wholeness.
With thanks to Frits Evelein for the supportive music.

Transcript

Welcome.

What you're about to hear in this talk is an extract from a live session we did together.

A live session.

To me it feels like a sacred space of remembering together who we really are.

In this live session we explored how trauma,

Survival mechanisms and our divine self are all part of one intelligent inner system.

Rather than bypassing or fixing,

We opened the field of compassion to witness the fragmentation within and to remember the wholeness that has always been there as well.

The live version of course includes sharing,

Interaction and group energy.

What you'll hear now is the essence of that session recorded afterwards to guide you through the same process in your own time.

And just know,

There is no time,

No space.

So even if you listen to this later,

You are part of this group,

Of this same energy.

And a beautiful thing about a group is its shared energy.

Like we come together,

Not by coincidence,

But because we are attracted to this information.

And because by coming together we align our energies,

We bring up whatever is alive within us as it is alive within the group.

And from there,

We reprogram,

We heal,

We remember who we really are.

So you are so welcome here,

Please,

Please just take this time,

It is for you,

It is just for you.

Please take a deep breath in,

And as you exhale,

Just relax,

Sink into your body,

And receive this transmission,

This one is for you.

And you know,

Every meditation we do,

Every course comes flowing through me is all about remembering more and more who we truly are.

And that is a frequency thing.

It is all about raising your vibration and your frequency so you,

The human you,

Can indeed start to feel,

See,

Sense the true divine essence that you really are.

And feel your connection to Source.

A lot of programming,

Past experiences,

Belief systems,

Or what have you,

Keep us away from this remembrance,

From this frequency.

Mostly it is unconscious,

And the more we become aware,

The more we can let go.

And then,

As we let go,

Our frequency raises by itself.

And so,

I'd love to invite you and welcome you to follow me for new topics,

New meditations,

New courses,

Next to everything that is already here for you to explore.

And of course,

I want to welcome you in the live sessions as well.

I really love bringing this energy through,

Connecting deeply to Source,

To my own true essence,

Because I know that on that level,

We are now co-creating.

It is your higher consciousness and mine that attracted each other,

And we are co-creating this wonderful and beautiful experience.

The talk of today is about wholeness,

Wholeness.

And that's something different than perfection.

No,

It's not about perfection.

It's about being whole.

It's about a loving,

Honest look at the different parts of you that are in you.

So when they are seen,

They become integrated and you become whole.

Because we all have that part in us that is hurt,

Right,

As children,

That part that feels small and needs protection,

That part that is frozen in time,

When it wasn't able to take care of itself,

When it felt so powerlessness.

That part in us that did not receive what it needed when we were little.

And there is this part in us that protects,

Because the protection was so necessary.

It was so necessary.

And therefore all our survival mechanisms,

All those masks,

All those protective layers were there when we needed them.

And,

Good news,

There is also this part of you that has never been touched.

Your true Divine Self,

Your whole and healthy true Self,

That is deeply connected to Source.

The Source from which all life force flows.

And before we dive into this topic a little bit more,

I'd like to take you on this Source connection.

But first,

I'd like to invite you to check in with your body.

What are you feeling right now?

What is alive within you right now?

And which part of you do you feel is most present right now?

It's all okay.

Welcome.

Welcome that which is alive in you right now.

Everything is welcome.

And I'd now like to invite you to do this Source connection with me.

Short meditation to align our energy.

Please start with me to take a deep breath in.

Deep,

Deep breath.

Into your nose.

And exhale through your mouth.

And just relax.

Relax your muscles in your face,

In your neck,

Your shoulders,

Your arms.

Ask to let go of the tension.

Ask to let go of the physical fatigue.

Ask to relax.

Take a deep breath in.

And as you exhale,

Quiet your thoughts,

Quiet your mind.

Ask to relax some more.

Bring your focus to your heart.

And say quietly in your mind.

I ask and intend to create a sacred space.

I ask to let go of all distracting thoughts,

Distracting energies,

Distracting information.

My intent is to align,

Connect and fully embody the Source of all of creation.

I now ask to connect deeply and powerfully to the energy of Source.

My Divine Creator at the center of the universe.

And to the energy of my own true Divine Self.

And so it is.

Take a deep breath in.

And as I exhale,

I ask and intend to focus on the center of this universe.

On the center of all of creation,

The zero point where Source is.

And I visualize,

Imagine,

Intend that there is this pure white light,

Pure unconditional love emanating from the Source.

I ask and intend to feel,

See,

Sense this energy.

And to feel its frequency and vibration.

I now ask to now feel it.

This pure energy of love,

Truth,

Beauty and goodness.

The energy and frequency of Source and I now ask to bring it with me.

I ask to bring it with me into my entire experience.

Including my experience in this human form.

So I visualize myself moving through space,

Through the universe.

Towards this galaxy,

The Milky Way.

Towards this solar system.

Towards the Earth.

And I bring this energy right above my physical space.

Above my head.

And I keep it right there.

And through my intent,

I now bring it in through the top of my head.

Allowing this light to fill my skull,

My brain,

My face.

Every cell in my head is filling itself,

Absorbing this pure white light.

And I bring it down through my neck,

My throat.

Through my shoulders,

My arms,

My hands.

Through my upper back and chest.

Through my stomach.

Through my lower back and belly.

Through my hips,

My thighs,

My knees.

My shins and my calves.

Through my toes,

My ankles and my feet.

And I let this energy come out through the bottom of my feet,

Anchoring me down into the Earth.

And I now ask that this energy raises my vibration and keeps me in this alignment.

Always.

As of now.

As of today.

And so it is.

Take a deep breath in.

And exhale.

And whenever you're ready,

Please open your eyes or just keep them closed.

And let these words wash over you.

You are not a linear being.

You are multidimensional.

You are this divine essence and you are here in human form,

Having a human experience.

And even then,

In this human form,

You are not just one solid piece.

There is not just one you inside.

You are a vast field of energy,

Of consciousness,

Made of light.

This is your pure divine frequency.

You came here with this divine blueprint.

Radiant frequency,

Whole,

Pure,

Deeply connected to Source.

And brave enough to enter this human realm,

This human experience.

And as you entered this world,

Wow,

Your original frequency met density.

Wow,

So dense.

It is here in this world,

This physical reality.

Your energy moves so slow.

So,

Just acknowledge yourself for the accomplishment of even arriving here.

How amazing that already is.

What a performance,

What an accomplishment.

What an accomplishment to project that massive consciousness that you are into this tiny,

Tiny body.

Hmm,

Sometimes it helps me to zoom out.

So,

Then I just visualize,

And maybe you can go along with me,

That I am standing.

Standing on my two feet,

Being raised up,

Standing straight and tall.

And then I just visualize between my feet,

When I look down between my feet,

There is something tiny,

Like a little ant,

For example.

Ah,

Well,

Now we have a perspective.

I am the vast divine being that I am,

And I am looking towards my human aspect,

My human avatar,

So to speak.

Which is represented by this ant between my feet.

This is about the size of it.

So,

Then I imagine this little ant running around,

Stressed,

Panic.

I have to figure it all out by myself.

I have to make sure that I am safe.

My survival mechanism full,

At full-blown speed.

Hmm,

But how funny.

Because when I sit still,

I can let that bigger part of me just direct the little ant.

The bigger part of me,

The bigger part of you,

Has the oversight.

Knows what is coming,

Knows where to direct,

How to direct your thoughts,

How to direct your energy,

How to create your reality.

The bigger you is there to guide the small human you through your life.

You are being guided.

And it was always meant to be like this.

One straight line,

One open communication line,

Between the bigger you and the small you.

In a higher state of energy and frequency,

You can connect powerfully.

Your brain channels are aligned.

So that the divine you gives you a thought.

And the human brain thinks it,

And by thinking it,

Creates it.

Observes it,

Experiences it,

In its 3D reality.

When this alignment is flawless,

Oh my goodness,

Oh,

It's so beautiful.

Because all the thoughts come from a quiet,

Aligned place,

In all mind chatter.

And you create so powerfully,

In alignment.

In alignment with your source,

In alignment with who you really are.

And the human you,

The little ant,

Only has to allow those thoughts through,

To observe.

Observe what is happening in its reality.

Its seemingly physical reality.

And it gives the information back.

So you have this constant feedback loop,

Of communication with your true self and source.

And with your so-called outer reality.

Because this outer reality is simply a reflection of this inner process.

That is how it's supposed to work.

And through this alignment,

You create your experiences exactly as you intended them to be.

So you could live your life's purpose,

Your life's script,

Easily,

Effortlessly.

And have fun in this physical reality.

What do we want to create now?

What do we want to experience?

Hmm,

Let's have a conversation about that.

You and you.

Together in this sacred communion.

Oh wonderful,

Wonderful.

I just feel it,

How that works.

But then,

We come in here.

Okay,

Family dynamics,

Ancestral trauma,

Collective fear.

All your own traumatic experiences.

All those separations,

All those thoughts about not being good enough,

Not being worthy enough,

Not being safe enough.

Do you know them?

I guess you do.

And all of it has a frequency.

A lower frequency than who we really are.

And those frequencies have an impact,

Right?

They lower our frequency in general.

And from that,

We build complete constructs of thoughts and belief systems.

For example,

We are very young and one of our parents leaves us.

Or isn't emotionally available to meet our needs.

And then we start to think,

Consciously but mostly subconsciously,

Oh,

It's my fault.

If I wouldn't have been here,

My dad or my mom would have been happy.

I don't belong.

I must work hard to be loved.

I don't deserve to be loved.

It's my mistake to be here.

And we think they are just thoughts,

But they aren't.

They are energetic imprints in our cells.

They are not in alignment with who we really are and therefore they lower our frequency.

And over time,

You start to lose touch with your original frequency.

You start to lose that connection.

You start to lose the experience of the connection.

And that hurts.

Oh,

The feeling of being alone,

Of being separate,

Is really the separateness from your own higher self.

From your own true being.

From your source.

And to deal with that pain,

To survive this pain,

You created what we call the false self.

The mask.

All our survival mechanisms.

We start to fight,

To flight,

To be frozen.

We start to now look for achievements,

To control everything,

To be a perfectionist,

To be a pleaser.

All beautiful survival mechanisms.

And they were so needed.

But they are not who you really are.

And here's the miracle.

You are also still held by that part of you that has never been touched.

The part that remembers your divine self,

Always available,

Always whole,

Always loving.

And all we have to do is to remember that part.

And remembering is then raising our frequency.

So the connection is restored.

We can talk about it.

I can talk about it for hours.

But it's better to experience.

It's better to experience it yourself.

To feel it within your own cells.

So then your body remembers.

So,

I invite you now to do an exercise together,

So we can start to discern.

We often switch so many times between those states within us.

And even when you meet someone else,

You know,

You think you have to do with an adult.

But most of the time it's the inner child talking,

Or it's the survival mechanism talking.

Who are we really talking to,

Right?

Who are we really ourselves?

And which part in the other one is alive at that moment?

When we start to discern,

We can look with empathy and compassion.

Knowing that it was so traumatic.

That this pain is still there in the other and in us.

And that the survival mechanisms were so necessary.

And that there is another part.

That the moment we wake that other part up in ourselves,

When we restore the connection,

We invite others to do the same.

That's your gift to the world.

So let's find out what happens when we connect to those parts.

From the observer perspective.

And then see,

Feel,

Sense what happens.

We are not going into the trauma again.

There's no need for that.

It's already in the past.

But it's good to see the frequency that is attached to it.

So we can start to let it go.

To reprogram.

And restore our own unique frequency.

And the connection to who we really are.

And I now ask and intend for us to be safe and comfortable at all times.

Just ask it for yourself as well.

Your higher consciousness knows exactly what you are supposed to be seeing and feeling right now in order to heal and to restore the connection.

Trust that whatever happens is exactly right.

There is no right or wrong.

Just relax,

Lay back and enjoy the experience.

Let's see it as just an experiment.

For the fun of it.

Now,

Ain't that nice?

I wish you a wonderful experience.

So let's start.

Let's start by taking a few breaths in.

Deep,

Deep breath.

And exhale through your mouth.

And relax the tension in your shoulders.

Your arms.

Your hands.

Just relax and let go.

We already did the source connection,

So we are still in that energy.

And we trust it to be so.

Focus on your heart.

And say.

I now ask and intend to raise my vibration and to put myself in a very powerful,

Sacred space that is only filled with the energy of my own higher consciousness and the energy of Source.

I ask and intend to raise my vibration and to align powerfully to my higher self and Source.

And I now ask and intend to clearly discern the frequencies and energies of the different parts within me.

In order to meet them.

To become whole.

To love them.

To thank them.

I ask to meet that parts of me that are ready to be seen and loved.

So I can become whole and connect myself powerfully to who I really am.

And so it is.

Take a deep breath in.

And exhale.

Now visualize that you are in your own sphere of light.

And then ask for your trauma part to appear in front of you.

Just visualize you.

The younger you in a ball of light in front of you.

This version of you is in its own sphere of light.

There is the you of you today in your own bubble.

And there is this trauma part of you.

Mostly your inner child.

A younger version of you where most of the trauma and conditioning happened.

Just look at whatever appears.

There is no right or wrong.

Everything that you see,

Feel,

Sense is perfect.

Even if you don't see anything,

Just trust that your inner guidance is guiding you.

And even if you don't have the experience right now,

Trust that your higher consciousness and subconscious will bring the experience to you in the moment that is exactly right for you.

Now visualize that you create from your bubble an extension,

Like a bridge towards the bubble of this trauma part of you.

Like this bridge is connecting the two bubbles.

You are in your own bubble.

That part of you is there.

But now through your intent ask to see,

Feel,

Sense how this part in you feels.

And whatever you feel in your body whatever you think,

Whatever you experience is from that part.

How does this part feel?

What shape,

Color or image comes through?

How old is this part?

Where do you feel it in your body?

And then just ask your higher consciousness what is the frequency of this part?

How many hertz does this part carry?

Is it 100?

200?

300?

Whatever comes through.

Don't analyze,

Don't think.

Just let it appear.

There is no right or wrong.

And then ask what do you want to say to me?

What do you want me to know?

Is there a message for me right now from you?

I am here.

I am listening.

I am listening.

Just say whatever you want to say.

Do whatever you want to do.

Just carry this message with you.

Thank this part of you.

And say I ask an intent to receive and store all the information of this part clearly.

So I will recognize it with love when it shows up again.

And I can be with it with compassion and empathy,

With love.

So it can heal,

Integrate,

Become whole and so the frequency can rise.

And so it is.

Take a deep breath in and as you exhale ask for a clean slate.

We'll start over right now.

Now ask an intent for your survival part to show up in another ball of light in front of you.

That one part of you that had to work so hard to keep everything together.

Pleasing,

Pushing,

Perfecting,

Controlling.

No matter what your strategy was it was hard work.

Visualize this part in its own sphere.

And then again merge with this part.

Extend your energy field as a bridge and connect it to this other ball of light.

Like you have these two balls connected through a bridge of light.

And now everything you see,

Feel,

Sense is from this part.

Then ask how does this part feel?

What shape,

Color of image comes through?

What frequency and energy does it hold?

And how is it different from that first part?

What do you feel?

What do you sense?

Ask your higher self to help you receive this information clearly without judgment.

And then ask what is your gift?

What do you want me to know?

Receive the message or trust that the message has been sent and it will come to you in the upcoming period.

No doubt about it.

Thank this part in you for showing up.

And again take a deep breath in and as you exhale return to your own sphere of light.

Focus on your heart and ask your higher self to raise your vibration.

Just visualize that you extend your energy field outwards 360 degrees.

Ask to raise your vibration to 500 Hz.

600 700 700 733 Hz and stay there for a moment.

And notice what you feel.

Then ask to expand a little bit more to 734 Hz and feel what happens.

Feel the expansion.

Your energy field expands.

Ask to raise your vibration to 800 Hz and 1000 Hz.

1100 Hz and stay there for a moment.

Feel the energy field expanding and say I ask and intend to merge with my full spirit self.

I ask to remember who I really am.

I ask to embody my true divine frequency fully in this physical form.

And then in this energy from your heart speak to those parts within you and say to your trauma part to your inner child oh dear one little one I see you you were so alone so helpless so much confusion so much separateness I am here now for you I see you and I've been there as well and I've seen your struggle it's time to come home to rest in my arms you can speak to me whenever you want I recognize you now and you are so welcome take a deep breath in and as you exhale speak to that other part your survival part and say my dear dear survival mechanism I see you you've been working so hard you've kept everything together you've kept me alive thanks to you I am right here now thank you I honor you and you can rest now finally all of you are welcome in this energy in this light nothing needs to be pushed away and I now choose to let my divine self lead the way as of now as of today and so it is take a deep breath in and as you exhale let this integrate within you let the energy do its work for you stay in this energy for as long as you can drink some water rest whatever is good for you thank you for being here doing this work together feel welcome to join the next live session or to explore the courses and meditations where we dive even deeper into this sacred reprogramming all about coming home and embodying your divine energy in this human experience bringing your energy through is your biggest gift to yourself to everyone around you and to the entire planet thank you for this from my heart to yours thank you