So welcome everyone and thank you.
Thank you for listening.
So today let's explore anger and I know even the word might have triggered something in you just now.
Maybe a tightening in your chest or maybe a thought like I don't really have anger issues or maybe something like I would like to listen more.
So whatever came up for you notice it because it's already information because here's the thing about anger.
It's one of the most misunderstood and suppressed emotions especially if you were raised to be nice.
Especially if somewhere along the way you learned that your anger wasn't safe,
Wasn't acceptable and it wasn't you.
Now we live in a world that likes,
Loves rather to suppress anger.
We call it issues,
We call it toxic,
We are told to manage it,
Control it,
Release it in acceptable ways like yoga or journaling or I don't know aggressive kickboxing classes and there's nothing wrong with yoga or journaling but somewhere in all this managing and controlling we have lost something important.
We have lost the understanding that anger isn't a problem to be solved.
Anger is information,
Anger is protection and anger is when it's healthy one of the most vital energies that you have access to.
So if you've spent your life pushing anger down,
Apologizing for it,
Being terrified of it or feeling like a terrible person every time it bubbles up this might be for you.
So let's reclaim something that was always yours.
Now let's start with what anger actually is from a nervous system perspective.
Anger is a part of your fight response,
It's your sympathetic nervous system mobilizing energy to protect you from a perceived threat.
So when something crosses a boundary and something isn't right for you,
Your body produces a surge of activation designed to help you take action.
Your heart rate increases,
Your muscles tense and the blood flows to your limbs.
Your jaw might clench,
Your hands might want to push or strike and your voice might want to get louder.
Now this is biological,
This is ancient and this is your body doing exactly what it evolved to do.
Protect your boundaries,
Protect what matters to you and to protect your life.
Now think about it,
In the natural world animals don't have anger issues.
Now a mother bear doesn't go to therapy because she feels guilty about being fierce when her cubs are threatened and a dog doesn't apologize for growling when someone invades its space.
The anger arises,
It serves its purpose and then settles.
No shame,
No story,
Just protective energy moving through and completing itself.
But humans,
We may have complicated things.
Now I want to be really clear about something.
When I talk about reclaiming healthy anger,
I am not talking about the rage that harms people.
I am not talking about explosive reactions that leave destruction in their wake or using anger as a weapon to control or intimidate others.
That kind of anger,
The kind that lashes out,
That causes harm,
That feels completely out of control is usually not healthy anger.
It's often what happens when healthy anger has been suppressed for so long that it explodes or it's anger layered on top of much older wounds.
Shame,
Powerlessness,
Maybe even some unprocessed trauma.
Now here's an interesting thing that I've noticed in my practice.
The people who are most worried about their anger,
The ones who ask,
Is it okay to feel this?
Am I becoming a terrible person?
Are almost never the ones with the problem.
The people with a genuine problem usually aren't worried at all.
They feel perfectly justified.
So if you're listening to this and thinking,
But what if I become the problem?
That very concern tells me something important about you.
You care about others,
You are self-aware and you're probably not in the danger of becoming a monster just because you start acknowledging your anger.
Now here is how I think about it.
Reactive anger is what happens when the energy has nowhere to go.
It's been bottled up,
Pressurized and then boom,
It explodes at the wrong target,
At the wrong time and in the wrong way.
It often feels out of control and afterwards there's usually shame and regret and guilt.
Now healthy anger is different.
Healthy anger is felt fully in the body and then expressed in ways that are boundaried and proportionate.
It might look like a clear no,
A difficult and firm conversation,
Walking away from something that is not serving you and speaking up when something isn't right.
Healthy anger doesn't need to yell,
Though sometimes it might.
It doesn't need to hurt anybody.
It's simply the energy of self-protection,
Moving through you and then guiding your actions.
Now here's the beautiful paradox.
When you can actually feel your anger,
When you have a conscious relationship with it,
You're far less likely to act it out destructively.
It's the unfelt anger that causes problems.
Now most of us didn't consciously choose to suppress our anger.
We were taught to do so.
Now think back to when you were small.
What happened when you got angry?
Maybe you were sent to your room until you could calm down or maybe your parents got angrier than you and you may have picked up this message that anger was dangerous.
It provoked something frightening.
Maybe you were told you were too much,
Too sensitive or overreacting.
Maybe you learned that love was conditional on being pleasant,
Agreeable and easy or maybe,
And this is common in families with unpredictability,
There was already so much anger in your home that adding your own to the mix felt dangerous.
So you became the peacekeeper,
The calm one,
The one who used to smooth things over.
Now if you're a woman,
There's an extra layer here.
Now society has very clear rules about female anger and they mostly boil down to don't.
An angry man is assertive,
Powerful and taken charge and an angry woman is hysterical and difficult.
Now from a very young age,
Many women receive the message that their anger makes them unlovable,
Unfeminine and too much and so they learn to smile when they want to scream,
To say I'm fine when they're seething,
To turn their anger inward against themselves rather than risk the social consequences of expressing it outwards.
Now a 2024 study found that women's anger is perceived more negatively than men's in nearly every context that was studied and measured.
Even when women express anger about legitimate injustice,
They're rated as less competent and less hireable than men expressing the same emotion.
Now is it any wonder that so many women have been exposed to this?
They've learned to swallow their fire.
Now I've talked about the fawn response,
That fourth trauma response alongside fight,
Flight and freeze.
So fawning is what happens when your nervous system learns that the safest way to survive is to accommodate,
Appease and make yourself palatable to others.
People pleasing,
Saying yes when you mean no,
Putting everyone else's needs first,
Losing track of your own preferences because you're so focused on reading the room.
Now here's what I want you to understand,
That fawning and suppressed anger are two sides of the same coin.
So every single time you override your no,
There is anger underneath.
Every time you abandon yourself to keep the peace,
There's a part of you that knows that this isn't right.
And that protective fire is still there.
It has nowhere to go.
So where does it go then?
Now,
When anger can't be expressed outwardly,
It doesn't just disappear.
It goes somewhere and usually it goes into one of these three places,
Into your body,
Either as chronic tension,
Headaches,
Jaw pain,
All that clenching,
Digestive issues,
Autoimmune conditions.
And some researchers believe that anger turned inwards is a contributing factor in many chronic health conditions.
It can also turn into depression and anxiety.
Now there's an old saying in psychology that depression is anger turned inwards.
Now that may be an oversimplification,
But there may be a little bit of truth in this.
That when the fight energy has nowhere to go,
It can collapse into hopelessness,
Numbness,
Or chronic anxiety.
And the last one,
Explosions.
You suppress,
Suppress,
Suppress.
And then one day something relatively small happens and you absolutely lose it.
You rage at your partner over dishes.
You snap at your kids.
You send an email that you regret.
And the pressure builds until it has to release,
Usually at the worst possible moment.
Does any of this sound familiar to you?
Just take what resonates.
Now that we have an understanding of what anger is,
How do we reclaim healthy anger without becoming people who harm others?
Now the key is learning to feel anger in your body fully,
Consciously,
And without necessarily acting it out.
And I'll say this again.
The key is to feel anger in your body fully,
Consciously,
Without necessarily acting it out.
Now this is what somatic work offers.
That instead of either suppressing the emotion or exploding with it,
You learn to be with it.
Instead of either suppressing the emotion or exploding with it,
You learn to be with it.
To track it in your body,
To let the energy move through you rather than getting stuck.
When someone can actually tolerate anger in their body,
When they can feel the heat,
The tension,
The surge of energy,
Something remarkable happens.
They don't need to explode because the pressure isn't building anymore.
And they don't need to suppress either because they are not afraid of what they're feeling.
They can choose how to respond.
Now if you've been disconnected from your anger for a long time,
You might not even know what it feels like.
So let me describe some common physical signatures.
So heat,
Often in the chest,
The neck,
Or the face.
Then there is tension,
Especially in the jaws,
Shoulders,
Or your hands.
Then there is a forward energy,
An impulse to lean in,
Push,
Or strike.
And then there is voice impulses,
Wanting to growl,
Yell,
Or say something sharp.
Now some people feel anger as a fire,
Others as a strong energy,
Others as a pressure,
And there's no wrong way to experience it.
The invitation is simply to get curious about how your body holds this energy.
Now in somatic work,
We don't try to get rid of anger.
We help people develop a relationship with it.
Now some of the ways we might work with anger include titration.
So titration is approaching the anger in small doses rather than flooding the system.
You might just touch into that feeling,
Notice where it lives in your body,
And then resource back to safety before going deeper.
Then you can also complete the action.
So sometimes anger has an impulse that was never allowed to complete.
And in therapy,
In a safe space,
You might explore what your hands want to do,
What your voice wants to say,
What posture your body wants to take.
And this can again happen through micro movements.
Next,
You can track the sensation.
So simply noticing what happens in the body as anger arises.
Where does it start?
Where does it move?
What happens when you stay with it?
And often when the anger is truly felt,
It transforms on its own.
Now finding the no.
Anger almost always has a boundary embedded in it.
What are you saying no to?
What are you protecting?
When you can name the no,
You can often find healthier ways to assert in your life.
Now when people start to reclaim their anger,
Healthy anger,
Beautiful things happen.
They often become better at setting boundaries,
Not from a defensive,
Aggressive place,
But from a clear grounded one.
They have more energy because they're not spending it on suppressing anymore.
They become safer to be around.
Paradoxically,
Because they're not building up pressure that will eventually explode.
And they feel more like themselves.
Because a vital part of their emotional range is finally now available to them.
And often,
Not always,
But often,
Physical symptoms improve.
The chronic tension releases,
The headaches ease,
And the body doesn't have to carry what can now be expressed.
Now that we have a much deeper understanding of looking at anger from a somatic perspective,
We can explore a guided journey together.
Now if you're doing something right now that requires your full attention,
You can do this bit later.
If you're somewhere you can just settle in,
You can invite yourself to do that now.
You can keep your eyes closed or open.
Whatever feels safer for you,
That's perfectly fine.
Just let your gaze soften now.
And as you breathe with me here,
Just begin by feeling your body in space.
The weight of you.
The contact with whatever surface is supporting you.
Just let yourself be held by gravity for a moment.
Now,
Notice your feet.
Whether they are on the ground or resting somewhere,
See if you can feel them from the inside.
The weight of your feet.
The temperature.
Any sensation at all.
Your feet are your connection to earth,
And the earth can hold whatever comes up today.
Now very gently,
I am going to invite you to think of a situation that makes you angry.
Maybe not the biggest one.
We are not going for maximum activation here.
Choose something moderate.
Of frustration maybe.
A moment when something wasn't right and you knew it.
Whatever comes up,
Just trust it.
Now let this scene come to your mind just enough so that you can feel a little activation in your body.
We are not diving in it.
We are just touching the edge.
Now without trying to change anything or dismiss anything,
Notice where this anger lives in your body right now.
Is there heat somewhere?
Tension?
Pressure?
An impulse?
Just notice.
No judgment.
Just curiosity.
Now if you found a place where the anger is living,
I want you to gently bring your attention there.
Not to analyze it.
Not to make it go away.
Just be with it.
Just be with it.
Just be with it.
Now you might silently say this to that part of your body.
I feel you and I'm here.
I feel you and I'm here.
I feel you and I'm here.
Now notice if there's an impulse in your body.
Do your hands want to do something?
Does your jaw want to clench?
Does your voice want to make a sound?
You don't have to act on it.
Just notice what your body wants to do with this energy.
Now I'm going to ask you a question.
And you can answer it silently or out loud if you're alone.
What is this anger protecting?
What is this anger protecting?
What is this anger protecting?
Maybe it's protecting your boundaries,
Your dignity,
Your time,
Your values,
Something or someone you love.
Just notice what arises.
And now if you can,
I want you to offer some gratitude to this protective fire.
It's been working so hard,
Maybe in silence,
Maybe underground,
Trying to guard what matters to you.
So you might just receive my words or say it.
Thank you for protecting me.
I see you now.
Thank you for protecting me.
I see you now.
Thank you for protecting me.
I see you now.
Now gently let the scene fade.
You don't need to hold on to it.
Let your attention come back to the room,
Wherever you are.
Back to your sitting or lying position.
Feel your feet again.
Feel your contact with the surface beneath you.
Take a breath that feels good.
And when you're ready now,
No rush,
Just come back.
If your eyes were closed,
You can open them.
Welcome back.
Now before we close this,
I want to leave you with this.
Your anger is not a character flaw.
It's not evidence that you're a bad person or too much or unenlightened.
Your anger is life force.
It's the part of you that knows when something isn't right.
It's your built-in boundary setter,
Your guardian,
And your truth teller.
And when you learn to feel it,
Really feel it in your body,
With consciousness and care,
It becomes one of your greatest allies.
This doesn't happen overnight.
So if you've spent years or decades suppressing your fire,
It takes time to build trust with it again.
Be patient with yourself.
Be gentle.
And if you find yourself needing support,
You can work with somebody who can help you navigate this terrain safely for you.
Someone who can hold a container for this type of exploration for you,
Where you can feel your full range of emotions without losing yourself.
You have every right to your fire.
You have every right to your no.
You have every right to protect what matters to you.
Just reclaim it.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for listening to me.
And thank you for your courage.
Be fierce.
Be gentle.
Be you.
And until next time,
Namaste.
