Hello,
Sweet soul.
Welcome to your daily meditation.
My name's Jillian Arce,
And I'll be your guide during this time.
If you're here,
There's a good chance your mind is reaching for something it can't quite find.
And answer.
A guarantee.
Some way to know how things are going to turn out.
That reaching is exhausting.
And it rarely lands anywhere.
For the next few minutes.
You don't have to know.
You don't have to decide.
You don't have to fix any of it right now.
Allow yourself to arrive.
Find a way to sit.
Or lie down.
Do it in a way that lets your body settle.
When you're ready,
Allow your eyes to close.
Or have a soft,
Unfocused gaze.
On a place in front of you.
And let's begin with the breath.
Breathing slowly through your nose.
And hold it just for a moment at the top.
And let it go with a soft sigh through your mouth.
Again.
Breathe in.
Hold it.
And sigh it out.
One more time.
Breathe.
And let the out-breath be slower than the in.
Now let the breath find its own rhythm.
And let's begin where you actually are.
Not in what might happen.
But what's here?
Feel the ground beneath you.
Supporting you.
The floor.
The chair.
Feel wherever your body is supported.
Notice that in this exact moment.
Nothing is falling.
Nothing is collapsing.
You are helped.
Feel the air on your skin.
The temperature of the room.
The weight of your hands where they rest.
Here is something worth noticing.
Right now in this moment.
You are okay.
Not because everything is resolved.
But because this moment.
The one you're actually in.
Is safe enough to be breathed through.
Now gently,
Notice what your mind wants to do.
It wants to leave this moment.
It wants to run ahead.
To the conversation you haven't had.
The outcome you can't see.
The problem that isn't finished.
Anxiety treats not knowing as if it were a danger,
As if an open question were a threat standing in the room.
The question isn't in the room.
Only you are.
And your breath.
And the ground.
We're not going to answer the question today.
We're going to do something harder.
And kinder.
We're going to let it stay open.
Bring to your mind lightly.
One thing you don't know right now.
Something unfinished.
Don't pull the whole heavy version towards you.
And just let it be near.
Notice the pull to solve it.
To close it.
To make the not knowing stop.
And instead of solving it.
Try saying to yourself quietly.
I don't know what will happen.
And I can be here now.
I don't know what will happen.
And I can be here now.
Feel that the not knowing is still there.
And you're still breathing.
Both things are true.
The question is unfinished.
And you have not been harmed by leaving it that way.
This is the practice.
Not making the uncertainty disappear.
Just letting it exist.
Without turning it into an emergency.
An open door is not the same as a threat.
An unanswered question is not the same as a wrong answer.
Some things are simply not finished yet.
You can be here.
Now.
Whether or not.
Rest here for a little while.
With your breath.
The ground.
The unfinished thing.
Allow it to stay unfinished.
When you're ready.
Let the room come back.
The sounds around you.
A little movement in your hands.
Maybe a slower,
Fuller breath.
And carry this with you.
You don't need to know how everything turns out in order to be okay right now.
Certainty is not the thing that keeps you steady.
Presences.
You can come back to this anytime the not knowing starts to feel like too much.
When you're ready.
And gently open your eyes.
Thank you for allowing me to guide you through this meditation.
I look forward to seeing you again tomorrow.
Many blessings,
Sweet friend.
