So,
Yeah,
Welcome everybody to second satsang with Prama Sura.
Yes.
Prama Sutta is a spiritual teacher.
I'm just going to go ahead and eat the bread.
Last time I told Maxie,
She introduced herself,
Not me.
So I'm practicing,
It's my second time.
Well,
Yeah.
Laughter is the best medicine.
So,
Yes.
So I'm excited.
It's so crowded here.
So,
Yeah,
Prima Suga is a spiritual teacher and she has studied very,
Many,
Many years since she was a young lady.
She was looking for truth and for being compassionate and find the love and the truth of herself.
So she studied with many teachers in New Zealand and in Hawaii,
The Hawaiian kahuna,
Abraham.
And she studied with Amma,
Many of you know Amma.
And she's been with Amma many times for?
24 years.
24 years,
So yeah.
And she's also an author.
I have put some books over there.
You can have a look.
And there are more on Kindle if you're interested.
And yeah,
She's here to help us to find our inner truth.
She can really look inside and see our,
How do you say,
Walls and everything.
You see your beauty and what's getting in the way of your beauty.
So yeah,
I hope we have a wonderful tap time today.
May we all grow and open our hearts.
May we all grow,
Yeah.
All of us,
Yeah.
I'm so happy.
Thank you.
She was looking for truth and spirituality.
She learned with many different teachers for many years.
She is also an author and has written books.
She is particularly good at seeing and recognizing the inner truth of all people.
She is also good at solving the walls that we sometimes build.
And hold a lecture.
And I really want to thank you,
Shoda,
For,
You know,
And it's really important for offering your house and providing this warm.
Yeah,
There are lots of places it would not be as warm.
Right.
Achievement is actually a spiritual achievement.
Okay,
Okay.
And,
You know,
Premasuda studied a lot with the aboriginal,
Like the,
You know,
Aboriginal New Zealand shaman and an aboriginal Hawaiian shaman and this place with the round doors and it's kind of like adobe kind of yeah it's perfect and giving birth the room even.
Because this is to help activate your your innocent,
Simple,
Aboriginal energy,
Actually.
Yes,
So Shoma Suda also learned with the native Australians or Hawaiians,
Many years with a teacher there.
And she says that the colors here also have this effect,
Which she also saw there,
And that this room is also somehow special,
Because apparently Yashoda had a child born here,
Or even two children.
And yes,
That this also has a lot of energy in this room.
And that it's very special.
So before,
You know,
For the start,
I want to,
You know,
For us all to receive grace,
Amma's grace.
Oh,
There she's calling.
Really?
I don't know when this phone buzzes when I say things like that.
But her grace,
You have to feel her grace,
The Creator's grace.
And you know,
I talked about the creator and Amma,
Because we can think Amma's her body.
She's everywhere.
She's here in the room with us.
Many people think that Amma is a body or a person,
But she is much more than that.
And the more you move into truth,
The more the cells of your body can receive grace.
And the more we embody the creative energy,
The more the cells of our body can absorb this blessing.
The more even your body will receive love.
And even this you might feel a little bit of tension or restlessness.
And just.
It's just coming up to be healed.
It's not that.
Okay,
This is what the key tonight is.
The message is,
You're not bad.
You should learn,
You are not evil or bad.
You guys we um it's one of the big ways that when our kundalini and our vibrations going up.
It's one of the big ways our ego catches us.
We start thinking of all our faults and frailties.
And other people's.
When we rise up and develop further and our vibration increases,
Then we suddenly start to see all our mistakes or the mistakes of other people.
And then when we get caught in that,
Our egos go,
Oh good.
We will show our egos.
Oh yes,
Great,
Great.
So this is what I'm wanting is for you to feel the love so you can go up more into a bigger understanding.
All these feelings of feeling bad about ourselves keep us very You know,
I have to say this.
It keeps us very stupid.
Really.
Some of you know what I'm talking about.
You just miss the obvious all the time.
You miss opportunities.
It keeps us functioning.
A blind deaf and dumb.
Yeah,
So we can feel like damaged goods.
Do you know when things are on sale?
It's like as is.
It's got a big hole in it or something.
We can feel like this,
Like as is,
You know,
Damaged goods.
Okay,
Here's the word.
We can feel like our life is like a crime in a way.
It can feel like a crime.
Yeah,
If we're really caught in the ego.
Yeah,
And I want you to pay attention to this.
We sometimes feel like a shortage of goods and the right word is,
We have the feeling that our life is a crime and I really want you to pay attention to that.
You know I don't know how to say this but I want to save you from this okay it's like no really it's just like please don't get caught there please Yeah,
Please don't.
Some of you I've chased for a decade.
Chasing now,
Come on,
You can do it.
You just have to now.
You can't do this anymore.
You can't do it anymore.
I follow some people for years and tell them,
You can do it,
You can do it,
And I just can't do it anymore,
That I constantly try to animate people,
To get rid of their negative thoughts.
You know what pleases Amma is when we see Amma inside us,
Right?
What AMA really wants is for us to recognize AMA in ourselves.
Yeah,
And you guys.
You know it.
It beyond breaks my heart,
But I can't stand it.
Really,
It's so widespread,
This people hating themselves and hating others,
Judging others.
It's just,
We're divine beings.
We're Amma's children,
Right?
Last time we were laughing when anybody yawned because sometimes a denial comes up and we're hearing a teacher and we start feeling like,
Oh,
I just want to go to bed.
I wanted to deny reality and then suddenly I said,
I'd rather go to sleep.
So you guys the the that sleepiness if you recognize it as denial um it just go okay denial's coming to try to keep me small and um i'ma help You guys,
I want you to work with your bodies more,
Okay?
Yes,
And I want you to notice that when you get tired,
When you say to yourself,
Ah,
Okay,
The denial of reality is working again and yes,
That we observe that a bit.
Maybe we should fix the door again so it's ready to unlock.
Yeah,
So if we really need It's kind of like.
.
.
You're a mama,
We can't,
Right?
Yeah.
Wow.
He's like a little toddler trying to stand up.
Yeah,
So I can feel some of you really understand what I'm talking about.
And some of you are cuspy,
Right,
On the cusp,
Kind of.
And some of you are standing on tiptoes.
Do you know what that means?
Like,
You know,
Astrologically we can be on the cusp of Leo and Virgo,
But we're sort of right there in between.
Some of you are right there in between.
And some of you have lived there your whole lives.
In a very familiar feeling of ambivalence.
Yeah,
I can feel it.
It's actually an ego wall.
I can really feel that now.
It's like an ego wall.
It's good because it's coming up to be cleared.
Yeah,
Good.
You know,
The work gets done in these settings.
It gets a little hairy along the way.
It gets a little uncomfortable,
But we make the shift.
Yes,
It's always like that in Southland,
That it gets a bit uncomfortable,
But then we do a shift.
So there was one dear one who was in a session and it was very clear to me that she was coming out of the wire cage of the unconscious.
Okay.
Like.
.
.
Our emotional prison.
The bars of it are in our unconscious.
I did a session,
A healing session with a person and it was very clear to me that she was trapped in a metal box that kept her from consciousness.
And we try and try,
But we keep on banging into the same problem.
Don't we all know that feeling?
It's because if you think inside yourself,
In your unconscious,
You have a belief system that keeps you in a wire cage.
And let's just assume you can breathe,
Okay?
But because you are.
Consciousness is in this.
Certain Situations will just keep repeating.
And repeating and repeating.
Yes,
And because you are trapped in this box,
Some situations in life will repeat themselves over and over again.
Now,
If you meditate and chant for years,
Okay,
This is Pramasutra's experience.
I'm just talking about my experience.
What happens is this can help melt the bars.
Make them smaller,
Yeah.
So if we sing and meditate our mantra for many years,
Then it can help to dissolve these barricades of our prison.
It is possible if the practices are done with real yearning and intent to over time open the door of this cage.
So it is also possible to dissolve these gratings if we really sit down with a lot of inner bronze and set ourselves the goal of breaking out of it.
Many,
Many people.
Remain stuck there.
Okay,
So I want to tell you that just hearing this Notice how you feel,
You sleepy.
And now just watch how you feel when I say that.
Some of you will get tired again.
Okay,
That is denial.
That is like.
.
.
Go to sleep and don't hear what this woman is saying.
And that's okay,
Because even this denial,
If you know what this sleepiness is,
You just go,
Yeah,
Part of me is scared to hear this.
And you go,
Please help me,
Alma.
And the denial lifts.
And if it doesn't lift at this moment,
It will eventually,
Because your intent is for it to lift.
Okay.
My experience,
Darkness dissolves in light.
So just hearing these words with the premise of this intent behind it.
Huge.
Huge,
Huge.
Grace from the Creator for Mama.
This will weaken your cage.
It won't.
Make it easier to see through the bars.
Some of you deeply know what I'm talking about.
Some of you already know what I'm talking about.
Okay,
So the thing that Premasuddha loves the most is helping to open the cage so the person can swim up to the surface of the water and go conscious.
And life looks so different.
When the difference between when you're in the cage and when the cage doors have opened and you're coming up.
To surface.
And go conscious.
Yes,
And life looks completely different when you have managed to get out of this cage and swim to the surface and have the consciousness.
You can then witness you can you have your true nature you can speak from it.
Then you are in your true nature and then you can also be in witness consciousness and you can speak from there.
Is there any comment or question at all?
And it's okay if not,
But it'd be wonderful if.
.
.
Your soul wants this.
He wants to be free.
And this is our state.
Yes,
And that is the state in which we are.
It's where most of you are right now.
Most of you are in this state at the moment.
And right now.
The Creator,
Alma,
Is giving,
Now I'll say The Creator because I don't want to speak for Alma.
The Creator is giving huge scholarships to anybody.
Who wants to do this.
But it's really true.
It took Premacida like,
I don't know,
Ten years.
Like,
Yeah.
And some of you are going like,
Bum,
Bum,
Like this.
At this time.
Yeah,
It's off the charts.
Yes,
Sometimes 10 years is not enough.
And now you see that a lot,
That people suddenly grow a lot in their spiritual development.
And do you know the only thing that could stop you from doing this escaping this?
Present in your own conscious,
There is one thing.
But we'll stop there.
It's feeling bad about yourself.
So when I say bad about yourself,
If you're feeling bad about yourself,
You will have fairly negative thoughts about everybody else too.
Right,
So if when you're going to bed.
.
.
You imagine.
Coming out of this cage,
Going up,
Swimming up.
Clearing the water.
A beautiful sunny day and new land where and put whoever and whatever you want there right like your absolute happiness you do that every night for a while and you will you will start feeling like movement.
Like your psyche will it's like Your psyche will follow your directions.
That is how simple it is,
You guys.
Cage and she's starting to swim up and so what's happening is a whole bunch of issues are coming up.
This is what will happen.
A whole bunch of issues will come up.
Okay,
And what's happening is her ego is mobilizing and trying to get her caught in her defenses.
It's like.
.
.
Persuading her that the cage wins.
The ego is convinced that the cage always wins.
We need some angelic help here.
No really,
It's like,
Come in.
I think I'm kidding.
Hmm?
Yeah.
You see,
It's done by something beyond you.
You're not responsible.
You're not the one who does it.
The Creator does it.
Angels do it,
Okay?
It's not on your shoulders.
Also ihr selbst seid nicht verantwortlich für diese Entwicklung.
Diese Entwicklung wird angestoßen von etwas,
Das jenseits von euch ist.
Es ist nicht auf euren Schultern,
Es lasst es nicht auf euren Schultern und ihr müsst nichts machen.
Das wird vom Schöpfer vorangetrieben,
Diese Entwicklung.
And before you do an exercise like that,
Make sure that you really want to go conscious.
It looks like water here.
That's true.
That's true.
Yeah!
The background of Professor Stuhl is a wall that is painted and looks like water.
Okay,
So,
But there's a point where,
You know,
So you watch the defenses,
Watch the defenses,
Just keep talking to the creator.
Just observe all the resistance you have against it and talk to the Creator.
So I would recommend that really only people who are solidly long-term,
Been doing the spiritual journey for a while,
Have solid practices behind them.
I would recommend that actually only they should do this,
Okay?
Actually,
Only those who have been on the spiritual journey for many years and are really solid in everything should do this imagination exercise.
You have to be solid enough to be able to navigate this emotionally you guys.
If you try to do something like this without It can be destabilizing at worst.
So knowing that,
If you want to proceed when you haven't been doing practices,
Be very,
Very careful.
But when you're conscious,
You really know.
That God exists in a way that can never be taken from you.
And you start to see a lit path of where you need to go,
How you live your life.
It sort of gets illuminated.
You just know what you need to do.
It's inarguable.
You just know how to run and it's just clear to you.
And maybe some of you are realizing that you've already done it,
That you're already in this state.
Some of you may realize that you have already done this and that you are already in this state.
Yeah,
I'm just getting this.
The need for forgiveness you guys it's like Self-forgiveness.
Forgiveness.
I always have this need for forgiveness or self-forgiveness.
Right.
You know,
If you get to come out of the ocean of the unconscious and play in the light of consciousness,
It's worth the effort of forgiving,
Right?
It's better than a grudge.
It's better than holding on a grudge and staying in the cage.
And,
You know,
If you feel you're in the cage,
It's like,
It's all okay.
You know.
You know,
The people that come to Prima Sudha,
They have unusual courage.
It's true.
It's true.
It is very hard to hide.
The people who come to Promasura are all very brave.
Yes,
I'm going home today.
And Promasura is coming to the factory.
Yeah,
So,
You know.
Okay so you know you wake up and you you find new territory actually with which to live your life and you will find new talents and new capacities you'll suddenly become more psychic or more just more gifted more more infused with your soul energy you guys Yes,
And when you wake up spiritually,
You will also perceive completely new talents in you.
You will simply be much more enlightened and you will perceive a lot of things that you did not perceive before.
You know.
Do you know the whole,
We know it,
The miserable sinner thing?
I think this came from a whole bunch of church people who were in the cage,
Trying to teach.
Are you done?
These teachings of the evil or poor sinner,
They certainly come from some scholars from the church or clerics who.
.
.
So it would be very hard to get illuminated in their presence and what they would actually be teaching is how to double bolt the cage.
In their ignorance,
They might not know this.
And in all their ignorance,
Maybe they don't even know that.
Right,
But it's because it's important to see what happened to us.
Like not just individually in our upbringing,
But what's happened to us culturally.
It is very important to know what is happening to us culturally.
Okay.
There's a little bit of a fear of.
.
.
There's a sort of like a feeling like if I really open my eyes and see,
I'll go mad.
Really it's a little bit like that I'm feeling this in people it's like we you know as a little kid we being raised by parents who weren't self-realized,
We took on the cloak of our family conditioning and we turned down our hearts and we turned down our intelligence majorly,
You guys.
Yeah.
She perceives in the room that many people think to themselves,
If I really open my eyes,
Then I'll just go crazy.
And that's because many of us had unexpected parents who expected us to just take down our heart and our inner intuitive intelligence.
Because really the child.
.
.
Knew that if they tried to keep the connection to their truth,
And take on the conditioning that the conflict would drive them into insanity.
Truly,
It does.
And all children knew that if they really stayed in their inner truth,
That the conflict with the outside world would really drive them to go crazy.
There's in the states there's kids very young kids with getting real mental problems you know and I personally I think part of it is this wake up time and the heavy conditioning and Pramasutra remembers her I remember at four having just a taste.
To be able to crawl out of this shit.
Do you know like my conditioning if I'd ever be able to because kids know exactly what's going on.
Yeah,
There's,
They,
They have a high intelligence operating They have a sole intelligence operating and they know what's happening to them even as they're dumbing down.
Yes,
And in the U.
S.
There is a whole pandemic with children,
That they get mentally ill.
And that simply has to do with the fact that we are now in an age of awakening and the children are very aware that the outside world suppresses or does not want them to awaken.
And yes,
The children have a very clear feeling about it.
And she herself,
Even as a four-year-old child,
Sometimes thought,
How do I get out of this shit?
I don't want to pressure you guys to evolve.
I don't want to do that.
Yeah,
The last thing I want to do.
I just want to tell you that you can grow a lot.
Very simply.
I don't want to put pressure on you to develop further.
The only thing I want to say is that you can grow a lot and at the moment very easily.
Yeah,
No matter what your situation is.
No matter what situation you are in.
And the way you can do it is you step back from your experience,
You step back.
Into your heart.
And how you do that,
You just take a step back and look at the situation from the outside and you step back into your heart.
So right now Pramasutra is,
I'm withdrawing from the room a little bit so I'm your present with you.
But I'm pulling back more inward.
Right towards mine.
More inward.
That's also what I'm doing right now.
I'm taking a step back.
I'm stepping back and I'm getting more into my heart and I'm still present here with you.
So you can do this anytime.
You just pull back.
And in a way you become more present when you do this.
And in a certain way you will be more present when you do that.
But you.
Are less caught in the cage.
But you are less trapped in this cage.
There is a feeling of some of you are caring.
It's like a little bit of a lack of trust around your lungs.
Okay,
So I'm just gonna speak to it.
Because just speaking it,
Bringing it to attention.
Some of you are carrying something like mistrust around your lungs and I will now speak so that it dissolves.
It's interesting,
Some of you have got,
There's almost like I'm getting a picture of underdeveloped lungs.
Interesting like you you were not we're not taught to trust ourselves and Okay,
I can feel it.
Okay,
Good.
This is really good,
You guys.
There's some distrust coming up to be healed from the whole group.
She feels from the whole group that mistrust is rising to be healed.
You know,
Really,
This cage in the unconscious,
All it's made out of is distrust.
That's it.
You know how Alma goes around the world and all these logistical problems just get solved magically.
Or they had that sort of bus thing on the first year that they came to the US and it was like rusty and rattletrapped and it should have collapsed.
Long ago but it lasted till the last stop and then it died because you see actually the creator is running your life And the creator can do anything.
You know it's sort of like some of you going um it doesn't seem like it right like i know this We tie up the creator,
We tie her shoes,
We cover her in chains,
So she's like.
.
.
With our ideas of bad and good.
Are like,
I don't know,
Whatever we do,
I don't know.
I've made so many mistakes.
I don't know.
Whatever we've got droning on in our heads,
Right?
So.
If you're droning around in your head.
Come back,
Come back to your head like this.
Stuff.
Listen to the insanity of it.
The really the in the dreariness of our you know the scientists call it the thoughts.
It's this flow of dreary thoughts.
It's a default mode network.
It comes from our early patterning.
Our basic state is this constant circling of thoughts and that comes from the circumstances of our early childhood.
It's very involved with the,
You know,
Words but it's something like Amidala.
In the mammalian brain.
That's where our early experience is stored emotionally.
If we just go along with this default network,
What happens is the amygdala gets smaller and smaller.
Like itch,
Our brain shrinks,
This part of our brain shrinks and actually we become more negative.
And this is what happens with a lot of old people.
We all know old people this has happened to.
There are many old people this has happened to.
This is our culture.
When,
Okay,
I was on a table in Hawaii getting this body work and this amygdala cracked open in me and all of a sudden I was like three years old and feeling like,
Just it was mind conditioning how much my parents didn't love me.
They didn't love the real me.
I had a direct experience of it.
And some of you know this it also at that time I had this experience of how my mother was like in a nervous breakdown and And I was just born and she did not take care of me at all.
It was a mess.
And I,
You know,
I went,
Oh,
This is what has been bothering me my whole life.
And I went back to my mother and I said,
Were you sick?
Yes.
Thank God,
Because if she hadn't said yes,
I wouldn't be here.
She said yes,
That validated my experience.
Okay,
You guys,
This is the level that with the satsangs and the work with Prama Sutta,
This is the work,
This is where I want to work with you guys,
Okay?
This is the level that your lives will change at.
Many of you are scared to go there.
But you don't even have to it's not like it's like the rack like i'll tell you minchi is opening she is like yeah and she's freeing the love and it's like you know we all talk about how much we love Ama but like how much do we actually free the love and this is what this work is freeing the love and we can we can do this and at the same time you guys my hair has stood up sometimes with absolute terror like I've been scared out of my mind but it's just ego.
It's just eco,
It's like.
There's nothing stopping us!
Hello!
There isn't!
It's just we believe this shit.
And asked her,
Did you not hold my head when you were a little child and he just stumbled to the side and was that so that you had a nervous breakdown and could not take care of me and her mother then said yes that was really so and that solved a lot in her and that is the kind of work she wants to do with other people because that can break up a lot and you can develop a lot And Michi in this room does that,
Apparently.
And yes,
She develops very strongly.
Okay,
So what happens on the journey is some people go like that,
And then sometimes they get stuck there for a while.
Sometimes somebody who's made no movement for like 20 years go,
Like,
No really,
You can't,
Like,
It's all over the place.
Okay,
Like,
Don't.
Go and judge yourselves.
You can't really predict the spiritual journey.
Sometimes people grow very fast and just stop at a certain point.
And sometimes nothing happens for 20 years and suddenly they wake up completely spiritually.
So it's not even worth judging.
It's just the way it is.
And remember,
Pramasutra began her journey with a therapist and a very powerful shaman,
Both saying to me,
You're just too resistant to work with.
So I never give up on anybody.
I push people back sometimes for them to contemplate what they're doing,
But it's never,
Yeah,
It's always because I.
.
.
That's why I sometimes push others back,
So that they have time to reflect on it.
It can't just be played.
Yeah,
So it's sort of impossible,
But we just bumble into it,
Right?
Actually,
None of this is possible,
But we somehow manage to do it.
Okay,
So I could lose some of you here.
I don't want to do that.
Yeah.
I could lose some of you right now.
I don't want that.
Yeah,
I feel like some of you have left the room.
I feel that some of you have left the room energetically.
So we'll just be here for a bit.
So,
Let's stay a little quiet.
You know,
We all go together.
I felt this pressure on my heart.
Okay,
Like a push.
I worked with the wall once and I felt this pressure on my heart.
And anybody who knows me knows that this is the transcendent body approach and pressure means that your soul is knocking on your door.
Your soul is wanting to come into your body.
And you all know that I do body work and that this pressure on the heart means that the soul is knocking and wants to come into my body.
Any pressure at all.
So this was a pressure around my heart.
So this was my soul wanting to come in.
It wanted to give me a heart expansion.
This message.
Love and respect.
More from Masuda.
It was like I needed to shift into more love and respect of our souls plus humanity in order to keep working with this person.
And when I worked with this one person,
I heard a voice that said,
You have to show more love and respect for the souls.
And then it became clear to me that I really have to do that so that I can continue to work with the person.
It's like Prima Suda had to get bigger.
To be able to meet this person's needs.
So we all go together.
We're all getting bigger every moment.
Maybe Amma has it all sewn up on the earth plane,
But I don't know anybody else.
Yes,
Maybe Ama doesn't have to grow anymore,
But otherwise I don't know anyone.
So it's like,
If we're just open to getting corrections and allow the correction,
Then that's really all I'm talking about.
Es reicht schon,
Wenn wir offen für Korrekturen sind und dann diese Korrektur erfahren.
Und das ist schon das,
Worüber ich hier spreche.
I didn't go to myself,
Oh,
I'm so narrow and blind that I couldn't work with this person I don't think that's fair.
This is all I'm talking about,
Just living this way.
And getting bigger and getting bigger and getting bigger.
And it really helps when we're seen deeply,
When somebody witnesses us.
Amma sees who we are,
Right?
She sees who we are.
So that helps us.
I mean,
She hugs us.
Yes,
And it always helps if there is someone who can see us in the depth.
And that's what Ama does,
For example,
That she just knows our deepest,
Innermost,
And that helps us.
Yeah.
Yeah you guys um you know it's it's interesting you're you're um actually you're You know,
This patterning,
Our patterning says we can't,
We have to wall off love.
It's what our patterning says.
So when we do this work,
There's something excruciating about it because the love meets this Not allowed,
Not allowed,
Not allowed.
And when we start doing this work,
Then we have this feeling that it is simply not allowed.
So it can be a little Mmmmm!
A little uncomfortable.
Like I'd rather watch a YouTube video on your death experience and it's all nicely packaged.
I can be inspired.
I don't have to look at my life.
And I think it's good to watch those videos because they remind us a little bit.
There's more.
And I think it's still good to see these videos,
Because they remind us that there is more.
There's a little bit like,
There's sort of like a feeling as if people are just turning off.
It's just turning off.
Yeah,
It's like you're a little OD'ed.
It's like,
Okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
Interesting.
Next time we should get some chocolates to pass around.
Anything,
Comments,
Please come forward.
You know in the set sinks,
Nobody spoke for two years.
Really.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I hope I can make myself clear.
Thank you.
Thank you,
First of all.
Thank you.
I've always,
When I've looked at my,
The relationships I've had in my life,
My love relationships,
They were always kind of chaotic and a disaster,
Often like disastrous.
Of having these love emotions.
Like for instance,
When I was a teenager,
But also later on,
Like the intensity of this love that I would feel for people.
And often it was maybe a situation where there was,
I was longing for someone,
But that someone had no interest in me.
Okay,
And I can still very well remember this intensity of my feelings for many people and sometimes there were also people who were somehow not interested and I still felt these feelings.
Relationships,
Or my relationship that I had a little bit more and more,
Right?
A relationship,
Whereas before there would always be someone in my life that I was longing for,
Right?
Okay,
So here comes the really interesting part and I'm saying it because you mentioned what happened when you talked to your mother.
So,
Recently.
.
.
I typed my mother's memories,
Memoirs.
And she had written these years and years ago.
And my mother died 2003.
So how long is this?
23 years.
I had these memoirs for 23 years and I never really looked at them.
Okay.
And my mother was saying,
Like when I was,
But my father died before I was born,
Okay,
So she was in a very bad state.
She didn't write much about that,
But then when some years along,
And I would have been maybe Six or seven.
My mother fell in love with someone.
Who was unreachable.
And I suddenly thought,
Oh my God,
So it wasn't me who was always having to live through this.
This is something I must have picked up when I was a child.
But I'm not trying to say I only took it from her,
But something became clear,
Like,
Oh,
It wasn't just me,
It wasn't just my fault.
That's what I wanted to say,
Really.
I don't know if I also had these feelings of longing,
But somehow I still realized that these weren't just my feelings.
Yeah,
We grow in our mom's tummies and our cells are made out of our mothers.
Yeah?
Like.
.
.
And we can grow beyond her consciousness.
Yeah,
But first of all,
We have to see that it's there,
Right?
That was a big revelation for me.
I was like,
Oh my God.
And it's like,
Oh,
It's not my fault.
Right.
Do you see?
This is what happens.
We get a comprehension.
You come out of,
It's my fault,
And you start seeing this weave,
The weave of the tapestry.
This is exactly what I'm talking about,
You guys.
Yes,
Please.
Yeah.
Yeah,
Good.
Um.
.
.
I hate this.
Something I wanted to say too.
You know,
I know from Pramasutha's experience that there have been times that I'm more comfortable with that than actually having to deal with a real life person,
Right?
To choose someone who's unattainable.
Then to actually have to deal with another person,
Like to have it real.
Oh yeah yeah like like the relationship you want yeah it's a fantasy it's a fantasy and you can but you can feel the love at least you get a taste of the love right you get a taste of the love that's in your heart you guys Yeah,
This is what you can live in as you progress.
Yeah,
At least you got a taste of it,
Right?
Okay,
And this is,
You guys would meet choose partners.
We inevitably,
We will choose,
I mean unless we're awakened,
We will choose a partner who makes us.
Feel the cage we're living in.
Have you heard Big Swami?
He's like,
He said he's listened to,
You know,
Complaints for 40 years.
And so now all he wants to say to people,
He said this,
Is don't do it!
Don't do it!
But if you have two conscious people,
It can be a delight.
But they're not that common,
They're not that many.
It's true!
This is the truth!
You know,
Some people might be able to be catalyzed if we're in truce.
Somebody could come up with us.
That can happen.
This is why life will keep taking us,
Is asking us to wake up and transcend,
And it will keep taking us back to this prison.
Till we face it,
You guys.
Till we face how caught we are.
And when you face that,
You can get out of it.
Yes,
And life will lead us back again and again to these experiences that show us how much we are trapped in this box and at some point we will break out of it.
And you know,
Just hearing this,
I'll tell you,
From the pseudofields,
Just hearing this,
The next hug you get from Amma.
Be allowed in more deeply.
It's helped for you truly it's half three quarters of the bottle.
There's getting our heads around it,
Actually.
Getting our heads around what we're faced with here.
Because really,
The next time you feel stuck,
It will be far easier to think,
Oh,
This is the prison.
I'm stuck in the prison.
Please,
Please help me,
Alma.
And this thing you guys about churn.
Hold back.
From the situation.
Just pull back.
And that's what I'm saying,
That you should take a step back from the situation.
And the other thing is,
It's all okay,
Whatever is going on,
No matter how serious it seems or how.
.
.
I don't know what,
Utah,
Whatever,
It's all okay.
And the other thing is that no matter what happens,
It's just fine.
Yeah,
The truth is,
You know,
Your soul is taking you through this experience and totally running the show even though it doesn't feel like it.
Yes,
And the truth is that your own soul leads you through all these experiences,
Even if it doesn't feel that way sometimes.
You know,
According to quantum mechanics.
Our lives.
Of a start point.
And an endpoint and they're like wormholes.
It means like they're kind of a tunnel.
Yeah in the space and time kind of It's not a box,
But you can think of it like a box.
And Amma knows when we're going to be born.
It's in our astrology.
And when we die.
And Amma also knows when we are born and when we die.
This is all in our astrology.
Are dream figures appearing at our birth.
You're getting restless.
Walking through this tunnel.
To our end point and our soul has created the whole thing.
In the East,
They say that our,
You know,
We have egos,
But in the East,
They call it mind,
Which includes the ego,
But they say our minds worked with our souls to create the whole universe.
So when we look at the stars,
It's our minds working with the stars.
Are true essence.
Amma says,
You know,
The whole universe has been created for us.
It's,
Yeah,
I know,
Who knew,
Right?
Yeah.
You know,
The main thing I really want is to touch your heart somehow,
You guys.
Because when your hearts get touched you this cage we can it or it opens yeah Right.
Right.
The creator is in your heart.
You know,
We're crosses,
Right?
We're crosses.
The cross,
Right?
We know this.
That interchange between our souls and bodies.
Yeah,
It's so funny.
I'm losing you and I really want to touch your hearts.
In fact,
I'm not going to stop until I touch your hearts,
Okay?
Yeah,
I mean,
You're in the cage,
Okay?
You know,
We've all been lectured to death.
We've been taught to death.
We sat for how many years in schools with teachers droning on?
No,
Really.
But you just dare love yourselves,
You guys,
No matter what.
Themselves.
Yeah and we grow you know often when we're like we're just desperate we just feel like total failures and it's a mess and then that's when we actually let ourselves be helped because otherwise we don't you know it's just like yeah so it's like this is the human bumbling you know we bumble away and you know i don't know why i spotlighted you michi i just i just wanted them to have proof that somebody you know it could be done it's not that it's it's not that big a deal you just decide to outgrow yourself yeah yeah and nobody can force you and nobody can do it for you But you can play with the idea.
Right.
Like some of you.
There's a person,
I'm not going to name,
But he knows who he is.
He came in and his eyes were dim.
I didn't see any light.
And then we talked a bit and there was a flash of light.
And by the end,
His eyes were lit,
Lit,
Lit.
Because he realized he could do it too.
No,
Really.
It was like,
Oh,
I can do it.
Like,
Me too.
Me too.
Everybody say,
Me too.
Me too.
That's it.
That's all you have to do,
Just me too.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Like,
Our heads build walls all the time.
Like,
I know it myself.
It's like,
I'm Virgo.
It's like,
It's terrible.
Yeah you just go me too me too yeah me too that's it that's it you guys that's it abraham the hawaiian kuhuna used to say about like all you do is you step across the line so it's like Here's a line.
Okay,
So everybody.
Walk across the line,
Whichever way you want to go.
Like,
Do you want to start,
Should we start outside or inside?
Start inside to go up?
Okay,
Step across the line,
Okay?
Like the line,
Okay,
The line of your known reality.
Like the old,
Just the line of the old reality.
I don't know,
Just the cage or whatever.
But it's just the line into the new world,
The new earth.
The.
.
.
That you guys,
Okay,
That you're loved,
Okay?
That is what I'm talking about.
You're lost!
Please get it.
Step across the line.
Thank you.
Wooo!
Beautiful.
The leader,
Yeah.
Good work.
I don't know your name.
Benjamin.
Benjamin,
You're wonderful.
I almost named one of my boys Benjamin.
Yeah,
Do it.
You feeling better?
Yes.
I'm happy to meet you.
Oh,
So lovely.
Yeah,
Good work.
Good work.
Ah,
I'll be sorry,
Yeah.
Mm-hmm.
Okay,
You willing to take in my love?
Yeah?
Okay,
Yes.
Yes.
Bye-bye.
Okay.
Yes,
Please.
Yes.
Are you speaking English?
Yes.
Okay.
I like looking at you.
I don't know what's going on with you.
I just thought your face was so attractive.
You could see so much love in it.
It is.
That's it.
Are you offended your shoulders?
Oh yeah,
You're wonderful.
Hold on.
How do you turn off a flask?
Yes.
Are you willing to receive love?
Yes.
Okay,
Good work.
Okay.
Yes.
New life.
New life.
I can feel this.
You're going to let it into your body.
You can feel that.
You guys,
She's going to let the love into her body.
Good.
See,
Nobody can hide.
I know.
Okay,
Yes,
You too.
Hi,
How are you?
Is he letting you love him?
He's shy.
He's shy,
Yeah,
Of course.
You know what?
I wouldn't be too.
If somebody was doing this,
I wouldn't be so shy.
Yes,
She is.
She is.
Ugh.
Bye.
Okay,
Yes.
Katarina,
Right.
OK,
Yeah.
Thank you for coming.
Yeah,
Yeah,
Yeah,
Yeah.
Oh,
Yeah.
So are you waiting to let them up in?
Yeah.
OK.
That's it.
You are.
Yeah.
That's it.
We just need a little.
Okay,
Team up.
So thank you.
It's lovely to see you again,
Sweet one.
It's so great and you let me embarrass you in front of them.
Thank you for taking it like that,
My beloved.
Okay,
You!
What's your name?
Axel?
Yes.
Oh Axel,
I was looking at you often.
You've got such a nice beard.
Thank you so much.
Thank you.
Like you're a lovely guy yeah you know i hope no i don't think you know this but please do you know yeah Thank you.
But those two guys are,
I don't know.
This is a hard world for good people sometimes,
Right?
Yeah.
Thank you for coming.
I like to see your face.
Thank you.
Okay,
Now.
Okay,
Now really do it!
Yes.
Yes.
Okay.
Yes.
Good.
Right.
Good.
Yeah,
Okay,
Good,
Yeah,
Okay.
Yeah,
Good,
Yeah,
Good,
Yeah.
Yeah,
It's tough.
Okay.
That's it.
Yes,
You can afford to take a lot in.
Yeah,
But I feel you're more willing.
Yeah,
I can feel it.
You are.
I can feel it.
Yeah.
You might as well,
Mate.
Yeah.
Yeah.
We don't have to get married.
That's no way.
Come on now,
Here we go.
Resistance.
All right,
Sorry,
Katie.
Wow.
Have.
That's the key.
Yeah,
You're good enough,
Man.
You just have to open up.
You just have to do it.
That's all.
You have to want to do it.
No that's it it's not it's not your fault it's just yeah good Game on!
Okay!
Oh yes!
Yes!
Yeah,
You've come so far.
I know,
You've come so far already.
You just have come so far.
Yeah,
Yeah,
You're learning.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Oh,
It's so cool.
We women,
We're natural.
We are.
We just need permission.
And then there are really wonderful men,
Too.
Yeah,
I'm on deck.
I don't know if I can do that.
Thank you.
Thank you.
It's okay.
It's okay.
How did he say that?
Okay.
Well.
.
.
It's when you wake up,
You see everything.
You see what's going on in everybody.
I don't like this at all.
I need to sit here.
It's a good lesson.
From the other side.
It's beautiful to see.
I know.
So,
But when,
Can't one come as soon as in town?
Yeah.
And these people who are waiting.
We'll do it after,
OK?
It's totally fine.
It was so beautiful to watch too,
All these people.
I embarrassed you,
Sweetie,
And I'm like,
But look at it like this.
You have total permission to act like a crazy woman now.
You have it this way.
Yeah,
Yeah,
Yeah.
Yeah,
You'll just watch it happen,
You know?
Yeah.
And actually me telling everybody is helping to make it more real.
Yeah.
Well,
This is great.
If you're joking,
I should take away this car so nobody can get mad at me.
Oh,
Yeah.
Oh,
Right.
Oh,
Yeah.
Yeah,
No,
That's true.
We should take it back.
Benjamin walked back,
Though.
These guys walked back?
You walked back?
Okay.
No,
No,
No.
We have to walk out again.
Then we'll lift it up.
Oh,
Anna went that way?
Did you walk over this?
You went around?
Okay.
I'll speak to Benjamin.
This is the mix of Abraham.
He didn't have us step across the line,
But he had us wander around in the net new,
Walking around and like doing all kinds of things.
And it helps.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah.
And just like the experience of stepping across the line and helps me through reality.
Do you want to get buzzed?
He's such a big helper.
And he was so peaceful.
Yes.
He wasn't restless at all.
But it was so funny because there was a live stream today from Amitabh Puri and Amma also talked a little bit about this truth topic.
The main thing is we often lie to get our way.
Like so we want it our way so well that's what i'm okay to not tell somebody that's okay yes yeah but i said that not to i said like i said like i don't you know what i i think you know yeah i don't think we have to back,
Come back and step across again.
Okay,
Because you stepped across it back,
Right?
