So we.
You know,
We said grace and said our prayers.
And we're talking about this it's a distraught masculine energy that's coming up to be healed it's unconscious it's very asleep you guys it's very connected to the linear mind and it's in both sexes.
And as this is healed,
You're going to heave a big sigh of relief.
It's almost like I feel like.
This part.
Has come out of his hiding place.
He can no longer hide in both males and females.
It's like the cost of it is getting too high.
You just can't do it anymore.
It's like I was talking to.
One dear one yesterday who was caught in resistance and I was asking her to look at the insanity of staying in resistance,
Like it finally you know,
Becomes.
You know,
We might have a comfort zone in our resistance,
But if we're wanting to know what love is,
Um.
.
.
It's sort of a bit of insanity to hold on to the resistance.
Consciously.
Yeah,
And this is what happens.
You don't have to force yourselves,
You guys.
You don't have to push yourself.
All you have to do is stay alert.
And watch what you're doing.
Yeah,
Please.
And the resistance just dissolves in the light.
And this is what's going to happen with this distraught masculine energy.
In both men and women.
It's holding on to the linear mind.
Terrified of the heart.
And you know what he needs most of all?
He needs Amma's hug.
He needs total love and compassion.
This is an old,
Old story.
Remnant of the old.
Mask in energy of the past.
And,
You know,
The.
.
.
The old remnant masculinity of the past is becoming very obvious in certain political realms and it's just becoming more and more nuts,
Like the stupidity of it.
See,
It's all coming up to be healed in the outside world and in the inside.
But the thing I really want to transmit to you today is the great safety.
Behind this whole journey.
So it doesn't matter what you face.
Love wins.
You know,
Gandhi.
.
.
Who was,
I think,
A soul that's like a cut above.
The usual.
I mean,
I think he,
I don't know that he was like Ama,
But he was higher than the usual.
He had a bigger capacity than the usual human beings.
And he said,
The thing that gave him courage you know his story he he was a lawyer he's Indian he trained.
As a lawyer and he went to practice in South Africa.
And or maybe was going to school in South Africa,
I can't remember,
And he was told to leave the train.
Because he was Indian because of his dark skin.
And that's what started him on.
His non-violence.
And the peaceful rebellion.
Okay,
So he said the thing that gave him courage was that when he looked through history,
The good forces always eventually won.
It's another way of saying love wins eventually.
It does.
And it is.
One of the things on my early journey.
That.
I read about candy.
And his work.
And that helped inspire me to think,
I can do this.
You know,
It may be a little bit of an uncomfortable.
Is that saying?
It's this.
This energy has to be embraced and healed.
You guys,
Otherwise it's going to run you.
This negative masculine is either going to be embraced and healed.
In wisdom.
Or it's going to run you.
Okay,
I really want you to understand it is one or the other.
And for the women.
It means.
You know,
Actually being a little like Dolly Parton.
I mean,
You just come from your innocence,
You're true to yourself,
And you just step forward.
You just step forward.
I'm speaking to worldly people.
But you know,
She's got more light than maybe some people who spent their lifetime in an ashram,
You know.
In fact,
It's in the East they consider,
You know,
Lately that the words coming that,
You know,
The.
.
.
Householder life is the most accelerating.
You guys are unsure.
I feel you're unsure,
But you see,
You don't know about this incredibly Juicy love.
It is.
Already surrounding this distraught male.
Energy.
It's already surrounding it.
In an embrace.
That's it.
Primary students lived it,
So I know.
It's all just love,
You guys.
We just get a little delusional.
It's interesting,
I can feel some women holding hard,
Holding on to this linear mind,
This negative male.
Linear mind connection.
And it seems like safety,
It's not.
It's tyranny.
Especially for the women,
It will be very bossy with them.
It will be telling you,
It will be have you marching like a sergeant.
Through life.
Yeah,
Just don't not comfortable doesn't help.
It's not to fight this energy,
But it's to embrace it.
And you guys,
You're just more.
Than men have ever been now.
You know,
Or since maybe the very old simple days.
You're becoming.
A man with the full spectrum,
Like I talked about,
Abraham could be be with a woman who is incredibly upset and just be with her.
And help her.
Or he could be tough as nails.
Unbelievable.
Powerful.
Tough.
And most modern males are in the middle.
They're kind of in the numbed out middle.
They're numbed out to both sides.
Their enhanced emotional IQ.
And this enhanced toughness.
And you see,
You don't get the real masculine toughness without also including the sensitivity.
You get the numbed middle ground,
Which is where most people are.
I'm seeing this masculine energy blind surrender.
I'm doing okay.
Okay.
Oh,
Yeah.
Okay.
Yeah,
Really,
You guys.
It's all good.
Don't,
Don't worry.
This,
This,
This satsang is Remember last week?
The.
The wheel.
The rubber hit the road and I said you were leaving behind.
The shame cycle.
Of feeling ashamed of yourselves,
Of buying into shame.
As a valid feeling,
Like it's valid if you feel it,
But it's always ego.
It's always fear and ego.
Right,
And this is how you do it.
You embrace stuff within yourself that's not so pretty.
You embrace this deluded masculine with love and compassion.
But if you let him run the show,
He will make you feel ashamed of yourselves.
Do you understand this?
So you don't want to give him the boss.
He's to be embraced with love.
Along with all your frailties.
Your misunderstandings.
Okay,
Ciao.
I want to talk about,
Here's an example.
Of the kind of living in innocence I'm talking about.
Dolly Parton recorded a song with I can't remember who,
With God Only Knows,
And I sent it to the Satsang members yesterday because it was so on.
Key with what we're talking about.
Anyway.
When they were recording it.
She kept coming in late.
She missed the time.
And she couldn't come in at the right time.
Like practice and practice and practice.
You know,
And maybe the guys were getting like irritated with her.
But she didn't get upset.
She was like,
You know,
I'm sure she was maybe she was thinking I'm screwing up,
But I can't seem to do any better.
So she asked them to come back and practice in her dressing room.
So she moved in closer to her room.
A safe place for herself,
You see?
I mean,
It's very intelligent.
She moved into a safe place.
And practice again.
And she still couldn't do it.
And the time for going on stage was getting closer and closer.
She went,
Oh,
Well,
Do you know,
Maybe I'm going to be late with the performance,
But oh,
They'll just love me more for it.
It's OK.
And then she went on stage and she nailed it.
Do you see the space she gave herself?
To be a plus,
To screw up,
To not perform on time.
In the right way.
This is really connected to embracing this inner diluted masculine,
That's really connected to our linear mind.
It's like,
You guys,
Make space for yourself this way.
You know,
When I,
When I,
When I heard her talk about or heard somebody describe this,
I thought,
This is what I've done.
This is exactly what I've done.
It's like when my buttons at the at that party came undone and my whole chest is exposed and I go,
Well,
I could get embarrassed,
But I'm just going to go,
Well,
My heart's showing.
I'm not going to go into shame.
I'm not going to go into I should have done it better.
Yeah,
And you guys,
I'd like to see you make room for yourselves this way,
And I can't do it for you.
So this guy is waving a flag and he also got a bandana put around his mouth so he couldn't talk.
Anything.
Do his bossy thing anymore.
This is good.
This is good!
It's the world of being.
The spiritual journey is being.
And you do out of being.
And this deluded.
Energy has been very stuck in doing.
This diluted masculine,
But you know he's.
He's relaxing just as we're talking.
I can feel there's gonna be a lot of movement in the month ahead.
This is good.
Okay,
Because I'm talking about some heavy things today,
In a way,
But it's very light because I know all this fear.
Ah.
Is nonsense.
So I can talk about it like this because I know it's just.
It's nonsense.
It has no power.
But I'm gonna talk about how we get fooled,
Okay?
I want to talk about how hexing has worked.
You know that.
Texting.
Which is like pouring negative tea onto somebody,
Aiming at somebody,
You know,
Sticking pins in them.
An adult.
It can people die of it,
Like it scares them to death.
Eat,
Eat.
So it does show the power of thought.
But the other thing it shows is.
.
.
You guys and I want to say like.
It highlights the power of your mind.
And it's however you want to use them.
However you want to use this power.
And you seem a little like you're a bit wobbly about this,
But I'll tell you.
Once somebody has been hexed and they did not buy into it,
They can never be hexed again.
Because it The.
The illusion broke.
They transcended the illusion of the power of the hexing.
Do you understand?
It really has no power.
Apart from you're a person's buying into it.
It's really important,
You guys,
If you want to become powerfully wise.
That you hear what I'm saying to you.
You know,
Premasutha,
I once went to a channel and she said,
She made a big deal about how there was a group of people hexing me.
And it was,
I mean,
I did feel a real disturbance.
Okay,
I really knew that there was something wrong.
But you know what I did with that?
I went.
I don't believe that this is actually intentional on the part of this people who were spiritually They have a lot of spiritual strength.
But I didn't think they were actively texting me.
I had disappointed them.
I really disappointed some of their expectations.
And I did it because I just had to follow my own truth.
And I wasn't being mean at all.
I was just being true to myself.
This disappointed their expectations.
And I think they were upset with me that way.
I did not buy into this Hexing story.
I didn't go along with version of it.
And it subsided very soon.
And I've never had any other experience like that.
I want you to see that the key of.
I took my power.
I was not going to go along.
With this.
Psychics.
La la la la heck stuff and buy into a really dark story.
I put it much more in human terms.
Neutral terms.
They were disappointed with me.
Like I put it in a psychologically understandable way.
Explanation to myself,
So I just didn't take it personally and I didn't.
I just didn't fuel that fire.
And it dissipated not long after that.
But it was pretty horrible when it was going on.
I want you guys to be like this.
Some of you are quite skittish about actually learning from Pramasutra.
It's okay.
It's okay.
You know,
To come and listen.
That's good.
It's good.
There's no criticism.
None.
But it's a very,
Very beautiful world the more you wake up,
And you won't get to experience it if you don't develop some courage.
Especially in this inward way that I'm talking about.
This is,
I'm talking about this very deep inward way.
With how you respond to what comes to you.
There are two ways for a woman who's got,
You know,
In the case of divorce and you've got kids and everything,
It's like,
A woman could just keep her mouth shut and not criticize the ex-husband,
Or she can criticize the ex-husband.
One way will be far.
Healthier for the child.
One way is less healthy.
It's like that.
It's making these very deep kind of ethical inner choices.
This is coming out from behind this negative male.
To the women.
To stay with your why's.
Feminine nature.
You don't fight.
You stay with your wisdom.
And take action from your wisdom.
One of you guys just let go of this masculine this negative masculine came up out of her head lifted off and light came in.
Yeah.
And the thing is,
You see,
You guys,
The male energy is so we need it so much.
The positive male energy with a steadiness,
Objectivity,
You know,
Just the Daddy taking care of.
You know.
It's like I said before,
That in the ancient days,
The old people and the children,
And then there was a ring of the women around them,
And then the males were in a big ring around all of it.
Taking care of all of this is what we need.
An awakened man is so powerful.
Priceless at this time.
Partly because it's rare.
You know?
Good.
There's a lot of light coming to this.
Unconscious masculine energy.
Beautiful.
You know,
This work sometimes,
I think it's just like a painting.
A walk-in poem.
It's like walking into a poem.
You know,
When I look myself up by.
.
.
AI,
What AI had to say about Kurosuda.
He said that she was very a poetical,
A dreamy Um.
.
.
Emotionally IQ healer,
But it was like,
Poetical and dreamy.
And,
You know,
This is.
But my experience was this is how I navigated with these images that would come to me,
And they would say,
You know,
A picture is worth a thousand words.
I mean,
I can talk about this negative masculinity till the cows come home,
Or I could talk about this distraught,
Dark figure.
Who tries to do attached to your linear mind and run things and you guys all know what I'm talking about.
We all know it in ourselves.
I mean,
It's what the sad thing's about.
Guess who felt it in herself?
What?
Like,
I could feel this.
That's why I'm talking about it,
Because it's like,
If I'm feeling this stuff,
It's in all of us.
It's in all of us.
Coming up to be cleared.
So it's not just in the sensing,
It will be in the world.
I'm losing,
Simeon.
Part of you guys,
Some of you are feeling exhausted.
And that you just don't know what to do about this.
It's okay.
The important thing,
You know,
Takeaway is that if you can experience like the experience of a whole bunch of negativity coming to you,
And you do not buy into it.
With your whole self,
That you observe it.
Not only can you you can't be hexed but you have the gateway to a very powerful spiritual journey.
Because that is the practice,
You guys.
When you're clearing,
A whole bunch of negativity coming up,
And you're walking through,
And keeping the candle in your heart alive,
And walking through,
And finding that you're changed on the other side of it in a good way.
Right,
OK,
Good.
And the group is beginning to realize more and more that you have to walk this.
This is good.
This is.
.
.
This is actually what this linear negative male kept people from walking it.
You know,
Mukta Nanda went three weeks.
Where his experience was that everything smelt of excrement.
His food?
The furniture,
People,
It was just.
For three solid weeks.
This was his emotional garbage coming up to be cleared in a very graphic way.
Up close and personal.
Yeah,
Now you only get stuff like this when you're ready,
So don't worry.
I'm really interested in this,
You guys.
You're beginning to stand up.
You're beginning to see that this has to be locked.
This is key.
Or you can just keep doing what you're doing.
You can just keep doing what you're doing,
But.
.
.
I mean,
This can't be forced at all.
I can feel you guys,
You feel unsafe.
It's like the lack of bonding.
You know,
I talked about the lack of bonding to the mom and to our parents early.
This is what comes up.
The next step with this is one's faced with that one wasn't so bonded so deeply to Darn nears and dears.
In the simpler societies,
Their bonding would include bonding to the divine within the child.
In our culture,
It's a very unusual mama.
Who can.
Help keep the connection that can validate the child's divine need to.
Oh,
This is really like I've really hit the alienation you guys.
It's okay.
We've got Ama.
I'm Lizard Mother.
Alma will help you.
That's it.
If you can just kind of be here,
Just being here,
Listening.
It's like I can feel some things are being washed away just with this staying with it.
You know,
I mean,
I woke up at two o'clock this morning with a whole.
Thing coming from the universe about just the whole curriculum thing that I.
Sort of had to go through.
In preparation for this satire.
Yeah,
And I was at it for four hours.
It's very good.
This actually you guys is an embrace of the resistance in you.
I can feel it.
The word knowledge includes K-N-O-W.
Well,
It includes N-O-W now.
You come into the now.
If you want spiritual knowledge,
Come into the now.
And if you look at knowledge,
K-N-O-W,
You know.
When you come into the now.
When you come into the now,
You will get knowledge.
You will get spiritual knowledge.
The other thing.
In the word knowledge is n o.
No.
You will get spiritual knowledge when you embrace the know within you.
Not arguing with it.
Not fighting it.
Embracing it.
Witnessing it.
Witnessing your resistance.
Feeling how strong it is.
And just being there with it,
Just being,
Not trying to fix.
Just being worth it.
That's what this negative masculine is.
It's a big no,
You know.
But it's waving a flag and it can no longer speak.
Truly.
And if it tries,
You won't believe it so much after this.
I mean,
Unless you really.
Fight this process,
But I don't think you will.
It's likely you just won't believe it because You guys win this stuff.
Once the resistance comes up into the consciousness,
It can't keep going.
The ridiculousness of it shows.
It's like the ridiculousness of poisoning our food.
We just can't do it anymore.
I mean,
Finally that day will come,
Who knows,
But at some point.
Okay,
You guys,
Some of your hearts are getting bigger.
All of you.
Ask your heart to get bigger.
Take interaction to come with this.
Ask your heart to get bigger.
To make room for this union of opposites that I'm talking about.
For your desire to wake up in love and also the existence of resistance and the naysayer.
Make your heart big enough for both.
That's it.
All okay you guys I mean this negative mail is just it's the We're at the end of an era.
So a transformation is needed.
There's nothing,
It's just deluded.
That's all.
He just doesn't know better.
And he's in the women too.
Negative linear mind is why even spiritual training can go into spiritual bypass.
You can turn people use it for a spiritual bypass.
I mean,
I think that's hard in this work.
I think it's pretty impossible.
But you can do some non-dual trainings where you can just bypass all the emotional area and just play around in,
You know,
I am God in human form,
So I can do what I want.
God,
In my experience,
The Creator is curious.
The energy of the Creator is very loving.
But he's curious,
Too,
In a way that children are just curious.
And the creator is curious enough to manifest us.
To get more information coming.
To it to find out what it's like to eat chocolate.
Or go surfing.
So you can get curious about when you feel resistance,
Don't repress it,
Just go,
Oh,
What's this?
You're all good enough.
This is very,
Very good.
Yeah,
Funny,
There's a,
In some of you,
Deep in your hearts,
There's a feeling of being forsaken.
You know,
It's kind of a biblical term,
Forsaken.
When you never were.
We're always loved.
Always seen.
You are always seeing every moment.
Every moment you are seen.
And love.
Thank you.
Thank you.
So I'm seeing sparkles like Halloween.
Bye please.
You know who's coming in now to the place that was occupied by unconscious meal.
Aggression.
Armour is coming in.
And occupying the space.
That this resistance took up.
I'm just coming in.
That is the sequence,
You guys.
This is what we're moving into.
We're moving out of this unconscious male aggression.
Into.
We're moving out of being run by that unconscious male aggression into being centered in the divine.
Being centered.
In Amma.
Who is inside you as well as outside.
Oh,
It's funny,
She's saying,
I need more room.
Make my room.
Come on,
Make my room.
Really?
Keep going like that?
Do you?
It's too small in here.
Come on.
Right,
OK,
Good.
That's it.
That's it.
The power of love,
You know,
It's just.
So.
.
.
Simple and soft and ordinary in a way.
But full and complete.
And we can just relax into her.
We can relax into ourselves.
You can relax into yourselves,
You guys.
Oh,
You steer dear fellows,
You're the ones you're like,
So aware of,
You know,
Y'all,
I feel for you,
You're so kind of aware of all masculinity is under the gun,
And I have to watch myself.
And it's like,
No,
Just relax into your true nature.
We need you so much.
Yeah,
We so need you,
Just.
Feeling safe in your own skin and trusting yourselves and coming forward with that beautiful,
Beautiful masculine energy we so need.
That's good.
I'm good enough.
You are.
One saying,
I feel like a bit of a phony right now.
It's like.
You know,
We're getting used to something new.
But if you're feeling a bit like a phony,
You may be doing a bit of a trick.
Like the dear one who was speaking yesterday said that she was feeling smaller and smaller and it's like You guys,
This is soul data.
If you're feeling smaller and smaller,
You are actually shrinking into your ego.
If you are feeling phony,
You are being phony.
You've done a trick.
And it's okay.
Just put your arms around that too.
Love and forgiveness,
Love and compassion.
Imagine Alma hugging you out of your phoniness.
Okay,
This is great.
And there's one going,
I don't know if I want to do that.
Yeah,
I know.
But you might say to me in the next sentence,
Oh,
I so want this knowledge.
That's why you guys are nice.
So just notice if you're holding on to the phoniness.
It's OK.
You can't fight it.
You can't legislate yourself out of it.
It's just like your little child self.
Holding on to an old idea of normality.
This person saying,
I know that there's great grace for me if I let go.
There is.
There's great grace for all of you guys as you let go.
You will find it.
This is very broad,
Deep knowledge.
It is not easy.
No,
I think if Dolly Parton had died 20 years ago,
There wouldn't have been this outpouring.
But because the world is getting so lopsided.
And in need of just kind of this feminine innocence,
There's this sort of shaking the world a bit.
It's like Saint Therese.
Catholic saint who brought forward the little way you know just way of being kind,
Of not letting your mind hook into hatred and,
You know,
Just making these small inner steps.
She died when she was about 26.
I think it was even younger.
I think she was 24.
She died.
She did all of this.
In about six years.
Maybe she joined at 15,
So 10 years or so,
Nine years.
And her work became world famous because it's so needed.
It's so needed,
You guys,
This.
And even she said,
You know,
In the comments,
She said,
Hardly anybody wants to actually do this.
Because it's the little way,
But it's the hard way.
You.
You tap in the armor.
I mean,
It's unmistakable what happens.
You tap into Amma,
You start feeling.
Expanded,
Enhanced,
You get talents.
You get bigger understanding,
You get bigger compassion.
Meaning?
Guys are good enough.
I'm not really asking you to do anything.
In a way.
I mean,
I'm saying all this to help your mind.
Digest the journey.
To help your minds digest the lived journey.
It's not,
I'm not giving you a brass ring to reach for that you have to jump for.
I'm not giving you like rules.
And I'm kind of giving you a poem.
To experience.
It's like to read a poem and experience it,
And a good poem,
It changes us.
And in a true sad setting.
Were different.
When we leave.
We're touched.
We've been touched.
That's all that's necessary,
And it's not even anything you're doing.
You just come and be present.
And listen.
And because there's love power in the words.
They have power.
The love in the words does it.
It's very interesting what comes up.
It's like a weave of resistance.
So there's a kind of like.
.
.
Is somebody who's going and sort of like listening to his mother.
It's kind of like.
.
.
Yeah.
Is it okay?
Okay.
The words still have power though.
If words come from truth,
They're power.
Goes beyond generations.
There's no effort involved,
You guys.
It's just.
Waking up.
And see.
And when you wake up and see.
Your actions change.
Your inner actions change.
And your outer actions change.
You can let all of this just.
.
.
Be sort of.
With Alma coming in.
And transforming this.
Negative energy.
You can just be with having both of them in your heart.
And keep noticing.
Notice it.
Notice it.
Don't fight.
Just notice.
Take actions that feel expansive.
If you notice your mind's being run by a negative,
Notice it.
Go,
Oh,
This is that.
Linear mind stuff.
Alma,
Help me,
Help me.
It's like.
Brushing away the cobwebs,
You know?
So you can see more clearly.
Okay,
This is really good.
I just felt your devotion.
That's it,
You know,
It's our devotion that carries us.
A devotion to Amma,
A devotion to the Creator.
Devotion to loving other people.
Wanting the best for them,
Best for ourselves.
The best life we could live.
Because as you let the light in,
You'll just become more brilliant.
It will just make you smarter.
Really,
It's nice.
It's just nice.
OK.
Any questions,
Please come forward.
Any comments or questions?
There can be a bit of effort in just taking the higher ground,
You know,
Like with the signing with more of the Amma energy.
Feeding the Amma energy,
Starving the negative energy.
And it's homegrown,
You guys.
Our genies are homegrown,
They're grown in our country.
In your heart.
Everybody's journey is homegrown.
Everybody's journey is a little idiosyncratic.
It's not a cookie cutter thing at all.
That's it.
That is the thing you guys misunderstand the most.
That's very interesting.
That's part of why you get so hard on yourselves.
You don't realize that it's like,
It's okay.
We're all a little nuts,
You know,
We're all got like our.
Secure lives that we.
Coming to heal and conditioning.
What happened to us when we were five.
And actually,
You know.
You have to be a little,
Let yourself get a little crazy to really find God.
You have to like.
.
.
Let yourself be really idiosyncratic.
Just do.
You know,
A real teacher will be able to see the truth beyond,
Like,
They'll know you're on the right track,
Even if it's something that's very idiosyncratic,
They'll know.
That you're on the right track.
That's the biggest thing,
To give yourself more room as individuals,
You guys.
More room.
As an individual,
Please.
This isn't a cookie cutter thing.
It's like Dolly Parton.
Was fully,
Dully hardened.
Nancy,
Have you got any questions or comments?
I do.
Okay.
Let's roll.
My mind's going a little bit.
I have been thinking about this subject.
That's two weeks ago,
You mentioned it to me specifically.
And I'm not sure if I just struggle.
To have an identity of my own that I can allow.
A different kind of energy to guide me,
You know,
To soften to a different sort of,
Um,
You know,
Not negative,
Analytical,
But I then I respond with analysis.
And my thought was,
Does this voice,
Not voice,
Does this masculine energy You mentioned to me what every woman dreams a man would be like,
Right?
But does it sometimes feel like father-like.
Um,
In a positive way,
Like father-like in a positive way,
Because I do feel like I have this little girl.
Feminine energy that is,
You know,
Like you said,
Armored and whiny,
And I don't want to have to do it all by myself.
And I don't know if that's my linear mind and still that masculine energy or if it's I don't know,
My own identity,
Resisting.
I don't know the difference.
Right.
You know,
Nancy,
You're You've been so brave,
You know?
And.
Really,
You've done really,
Really well.
You know.
You're sidestepping your really deep heart.
And because you're sidestepping it,
You're sort of going a step up and trying to figure it out.
But if you would just.
Let yourself enter your deeper heart.
You would just.
Develop great clarity.
But you'd have to feel.
And.
You're,
You got an you feel,
Like you do let yourself feel,
But you come in quickly with this editor,
This analysis,
Like we talk about,
And I would say this is this negative male.
That I'm talking about.
And it's like.
You know,
Carl Jung says,
What happens with us women is we start getting run.
By our animus,
By the masculine,
Starts running us.
We have to fall into are female natures.
We have to fall into our female hearts.
And I know you try hard and everything,
And there's a level that it's your worst.
You know,
Oh God,
I'd lose control.
What is your job,
Sweetie?
I can't remember.
I'm a movement instructor and a body worker.
Oh,
Yeah.
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right,
Right.
It's just giving yourself a little more permission.
Just to bumble a little more.
Bumble,
Not know.
Walk around not knowing.
I want to introduce you to yourself and that would bring you ecstasy.
It truly is.
And you're registering it is like oh god i've got more homework i've got a It's another thing I have to do.
And it's like,
That won't work.
It's like there isn't enough trust yet,
Nancy,
But you just keep coming.
If you just keep coming.
You will start feeling enough trust that you will start coming into this doubt.
It's like it happened with the dear one yesterday who's been very kind of resistant and she's beginning to melt.
It just takes time.
And it's not solvable by the head at all.
I mean,
Apart from hearing.
That I'm just asking you to surrender into this that would bring you absolutely ecstasy.
And that would translate into your movement.
It would translate into like.
I don't know if you have high blood pressure at all,
But.
You would just,
Your capillaries would relax.
You would just relax.
And everything would get easier.
Even doing the dishes would feel lighter,
Easier.
Doing housework would feel lighter,
Easier.
You guys,
This is what happens.
Everything gets easier.
We're walling off our feminine.
You guys,
I want to shake you,
Do not know how much we're walling her off.
Our normal is to exploit Mother Nature in the most destructive way.
This is our normal.
We are so out of touch with the goddess feminine.
This is what I'm trying to free in you guys.
I mean,
I'm not trying.
It's what the whole point of this is.
It's happening.
How do you feel right now,
Nancy,
In your body just hearing this?
It's just,
I'm just buzzing.
It's all,
I'm on alert because it's,
Uh,
This is what you're saying is not something I haven't heard before.
And this is why I'm critical of myself,
Because I do.
I hear and I can obey and do,
And that's what I keep doing.
Every time I turn around,
I realize,
Oh,
I'm letting go.
And then I'm doing something.
I'm putting on a behavior.
I'm,
I am in love with nature.
I'm constantly,
You know,
I'm filling myself and putting my feet in the ground.
It's all still doing.
I,
If I was to be still.
And go into my deeper heart,
I feel like I would just disappear.
I would just.
.
.
Well,
You would,
But you're being run by this negative male.
Oh,
I know.
I know.
Yeah,
So I mean,
This negative mail will tell you to do things and it will tell you that it will disappear,
That you'll disappear if you go into your feminine,
Because it would disappear and it would turn into ama.
You know,
Nancy,
It's just.
.
.
It's,
You're gonna have to see your no,
Your N-O.
You know,
The N-O in knowledge.
Yeah,
Just don't want you guys.
Do I understand this?
I mean,
Our whole culture.
Is totally patriarchal.
To come forward in the feminine,
Like Dolly Parton.
I mean,
You know,
She may have grown up a hillbilly and everything,
But that's actually easier.
I think that actually is a better upbringing,
Truly.
Than what we did.
So if you've got the courage like she had,
You can,
You know.
You can pull it off because you haven't learned to be totally divorced from yourself.
That's it.
Actually,
Nancy,
It is like that.
That's a good word for what's happened with you.
You learn to be divorced from yourself.
It's a good word,
Divorced from yourself.
And you're trying to fix it.
It's not fixable.
In the same energy that caused you to divorce.
It's like a whole other energy.
Yeah,
You know.
Nancy,
I had to be incredibly patient with myself.
Just.
Patients like.
Because nothing else worked.
I just endless patience with.
Seeing that I was stuck,
Seeing how much it didn't work.
Taking it to God.
I was a journalist,
So I was so analytical,
I was so doing-oriented,
I was so pushy.
Oh my goodness.
It just seemed impossible to heal.
But it healed.
Really like what you're doing there.
It's right here is a woman's high heart.
This is her soul work.
At this level.
This work is high heart work.
That's it.
Beautiful.
We okay this is okay you guys i will send you all this song this dolly parton god only knows song now please watch it because in the video.
It shows.
What happens on the journey.
One part that's lying on a bed really hurt,
Suffering,
And there's another part watching.
And as the song goes on.
The two merge and the injured part.
Becomes healed enough.
To join the person.
This is how you heal and you do it through God,
Through the creator.
You're aware of this really injured part.
You feel the disowned feminine or the disowned masculine,
Just feel how hurt you are.
And you feel it.
Turn to God and You know you've made the shift when you unify.
And you become wiser,
Stronger.
More in truth,
More invincible.
Because you're being healed by the Creator.
We often were trying to heal without the Creator.
In fact,
Even people who know Amma can Because they think of her as her body,
They try to heal without the Creator.
You can't do it.
If you watch the video,
You will see what I mean.
Dolly Parton called those guys up and said,
I really want to do this song with you because she was so moved by the song.
I bet she did this sequence many,
Many times in her life.
You know,
Get brought to her knees.
Part of hers.
Really troubled,
Upset.
Turns to God,
And then the healing takes place.
How are you feeling Nancy?
Honest,
Honest,
Honest.
Um.
.
.
Antsy?
And see?
Yeah,
Like I can feel this.
I heard as if you stirred.
Have you read The Great Divorce?
No.
There's a part in it where he describes the lizard of lust.
This man has to give up the liberty of lust.
He's like,
No,
No,
No,
It's just,
It's,
It's not hurting anything.
And it's like,
I'm going to die if you take it from me.
And,
You know,
Ultimately it gets taken and he turns into this white horse and,
You know,
It gets transformed because he lets go of something.
And that's what I feel inside.
It's like,
No,
Don't listen to her.
Don't do that.
It's dangerous what she's saying.
You know,
That's what's coming up.
Sure,
Sure.
Yeah,
Yeah,
Yeah.
It is.
It's very dangerous work for the ego,
But the benefits are unbelievable.
So people just choose.
Well,
And I'm frustrated because I feel like this is what I've been doing,
You know,
What supposedly doing,
And it just,
It's like,
Still here.
And that's frustrating.
Right.
So,
Can you reach your hand up and can you wave the white flag right now?
Put your hand up.
Do the white flag.
Yep.
Keep doing it.
Yeah.
Here you are.
It's dark.
Doing this,
Not getting anywhere.
Yeah.
It hurts.
Yep.
That's it,
You got it.
Who's gonna love me if I surrender?
Nobody's gonna be here.
God will be there.
Creating.
That's it.
Prana Siddha.
And said,
Having the humility to wave the white flag,
Yeah.
What can we do with ourselves?
Were so impossible.
This is what we're like!
This is why we're on the verge of World War III,
Because we do this.
I like.
What to do?
I don't even know who's waving the flag.
Honestly,
It's just like,
Who's even waving this flag?
I don't even know.
Yeah,
Well,
Keep it like that.
That's good.
Just wave it.
The body's got a wisdom beyond you.
Yeah.
But just.
.
.
Be very patient.
Nancy,
I have watched people.
Transform.
Unbelievably so.
Primasutis certainly did.
So I just,
It's all good.
Talk good.
Keep a journal.
Keep coming to Satsangs.
It's all good.
It's what we like.
It's okay.
Yeshota,
You're looking at me with very beady eyes.
You look very beady to me.
What's going on with you?
You showed up.
Are you going to speak?
Oh,
Did you say that to me?
I thought you talked to me.
Yeah,
Do you?
You're looking with beady eyes,
Like what's going on with you?
I'm actually really tired and I could feel like when you talk to Nancy about this waving the flag.
That really resonated with me.
So yeah,
Here I am.
So you should say,
I love my denial.
I love my denial.
I feel safe in my denial.
I feel safe in my denial.
I'm not going to change.
I'm going to check.
How does that feel?
It's true.
It's true.
It's just true.
It's like you guys just stay with the truth,
Please.
That's it.
Just stay with the truth.
Yeah.
Yeah,
OK.
It's okay.
It's okay.
Our journeys are really idiosyncratic.
And all I know is that.
For my experience is.
Like,
I am so at peace with hearing both Nancy and Yoshoda and what they're talking about.
So it feels that they're so on track.
There are times when if somebody's in resistance,
I start really fussing,
And it's because I'm getting the data to do that.
I'm getting that this person.
Needs to shift.
In this case,
I'm not.
You guys do see like it's like Amma like she will she will say like that she uh will will only interrupt people when they're doing things that are really hurting their journey.
Okay,
That's when she.
Gets in there.
Otherwise,
She just lets people be.
And really that's kind of it just we're all you know we're all a bit nuts and we just do our thing and when we go into the clouds and we come out of it and it's just all I know is if I get really irritated.
Then something's wrong.
But this feels okay,
You guys.
It's just part of your process.
Yeah,
It's just like a mom knows when to cut some kids slack and when to be tighter.
It's the same thing,
Really.
It's like.
You know,
I will get tight with people when they're getting near to make a shift.
When they need to make a shift.
It's like,
I feel it.
Sometimes we just have to be with our resistance and feel like how it's not a lot of fun.
Resistance isn't a lot of fun.
It's like a dreary,
Cloudy day,
You know?
We go like,
Why am I holding on to this so hard?
But you guys,
Half the time,
Okay,
And we're going to come to close,
But if you just keep this in mind,
Half the time we're trying to evolve.
Through this negative male.
Linear mind energy.
Is pure ego.
It leads nowhere.
We need to stop listening.
Actually that's for the whole satsang.
You need to stop listening.
You need to starve this part.
Feed Amma and starve this unconscious male.
Just listen to the twaddle,
How stupid it is.
And listen to it's always your fault and you're not doing it right and you could try harder and you're just not very good.
And it's like,
You're God,
You guys.
Dear God,
I hate to tell you.
Perfect!
It's just which playground you want to play in.
And if you decide you want the lit playground,
You will.
You will take off this horrible rotten coat you're wearing.
And you might take it off in layers.
But you will take it off.
So trust yourselves,
You guys.
You know,
This above all to their known self be true,
You have to just Do it your own way.
And be patient.
Well,
You guys,
You know,
This was a big set saying,
I mean,
I was two to six,
I was in heavy,
Energetic work and doing heavy energetic work with all of you guys in preparation.
So Remember,
There's a higher intelligence running this,
And it's not in your conscious control.
So you can be saying no,
And you're just going to be moved into a yes.
This is what happened with me.
I would be saying no and suddenly I was moved into a yes.
So just relax.
And know you're loved,
You guys.
Honestly.
Yeah,
You're adorable.
