The roots of illness are in our unconscious often.
You know,
By adulthood,
Much of what happened to us as kids,
We've forgotten.
We've lost contact with our deeper truth,
Even many of these memories.
You know,
We walk around in our conditioning.
But the roots are often in the shadow side.
What happens is,
You know,
There's a little munchkin,
And then maybe there's trouble between the mother and the child one day,
And the child thinks to herself,
I want to kill you,
Even though they're like two or three.
And then at the same time,
They know they need their mama.
So they squish that thought down and push it down.
And it goes into this subconscious.
And it can go into the shadow side,
All the parts of ourselves that or walled off.
That we walled off and the trouble is if we wall off too much of ourselves then we get really a kind of restlessness inside,
A kind of those parts are knocking on the door asking to come back.
Now,
I know of a woman who was very constipated,
Chronically,
Terribly.
And what happened was she was working with someone who helped her go back and find parts of herself that she'd left behind.
It was just one session.
It wasn't a long,
Drawn-out thing.
But this therapist was so skilled that the woman tapped into her shadow side.
All the,
You know,
All those parts that we've bowled off,
That we think are not as good or bad.
We walled them off and this woman.
Embraced it,
Embraced the part of herself that was causing the constipation.
She's the key to what I wanted to say.
So what she did was.
.
.
She went back to herself as a child and said,
I'm going.
I'm never going to let go.
Yeah which is you know what she'd done about two or three when she was having you know she's having a fight with her mom about food and eating.
And she just clenched this and it went deep into her unconscious and deep into her shadow side.
So when she lifted again,
You know,
Just felt that desire to stay in control and put words to it,
Which she really did not want to put words to it at all.
She wanted to avoid the whole thing.
But the person working with her told her she had to say it or she had to leave the session.
Now,
This woman said it because she's had 20 years of trouble,
And she wanted her health and freedom.
So she did.
She said it.
She said it several times in several different ways,
And indeed,
The next day after the session,
She had an enormous bowel movement.
And,
You know,
What happened was over a few weeks,
The constipation went away.
But what happened is when she got stuck in a particular issue,
It would return,
But just for a short period of time.
Yeah,
It's kind of like a story about removing a thorn that was hidden in the subconscious and the power of it.
And when we can retrieve these lost parts in healthy,
Stable ways where we get enough support.
We start getting a full deck instead of having just half the amount of cards that we were dealt.
Because we've locked so much of ourselves away and judged it as not acceptable.
Suddenly we have all our capacities back.
We have all the cards.
We can play.
We have all our capacities,
All our intelligence.
And the other thing is,
If there isn't a skilled therapist for this,
You can do a lot on your own.
You can talk to the creator and say you want to begin to recover your lost parts and that you need it to happen as safely and as gently as possible and at a highest good pace.
And a lot can be done through dreams,
But you have to understand that you're going to go through an unsettled period as this material comes back.
And you can't stop halfway through.
You have to keep going.
It takes courage.
Okay.
It takes courage,
But there's a way to health.
There's a way to happiness,
To peace.
Yeah,
Okay,
I just wanted to say all this.
Okay,
Bless your hearts.