Becoming Clear: An Important Spiritual Step

Today's satsang is called Becoming Clear: An Important Spiritual Step

We 'Become Clear' on our spiritual journey, as we become less reactive; more still; and better able to observe our experience.

We learn to "contain" our experience as we
embrace and witness thoughts, emotions, and experiences. When distressed, we remember to wait until the turgid water of our upset, becomes still and clear again before we act.

Being able to pause before taking action is easier as we learn to identify both our ego and our instinctual Nature. Our ego likes to repeat our conditioning while our instinctual self reflects.our inner child energy and our own Souls. It wants to help whenever another person is hurt or sad.

When horses were sold in the Arab states, food was withheld for two days. When the horses were freed, both food and the owner were placed nearby. The horses that went to the owner first earned the highest prices.

Heart and good character are invaluable in people, too.

Transcript

Or calling on grace, On Amma's grace, On the Creator's grace. Soaked in our hearts. And open our minds. To the eternal truth of us. That we are so much. More than just human beings, And to allow this higher intelligence and infinite love into our bodies and our lives at the highest good pace with all the support and encouragement we need. And so it is. So the title of today's Satsang is becoming clear. Now, I know in your hearts, You all want to become clear. I know that you know the cost of your confusion and how uncomfortable confusion is. Although we have to experience confusion in order to become clear. Yes, So there's no fault. It's just happier being clear. Much happier. It's like the clarity of the child. The simplicity and clarity of the child returns to you. And I want to talk about this process because You know, We're not in physical company. There are no hugs. That just in a way make the journey so much easier for our mammalian self. This work. And working energetically and with your intellects and your heart. But there's no touch involved. And in some ways that's good, You know, Just because. Sometimes touch can blind us but These are points on the journey. That becomes very confusing. Without some understanding. We need sort of the structure of the journey. Okay, That's what I want to say, The structure of the journey. This is The kind of. The beginning of the bigger journey. Occurs when you become clear. Before that, You will be kind of in a more confused state. Which isn't wrong. Being in that confused state is part of the journey too. It's like I was saying yesterday, It's a very respectable place to be. It's not always comfortable. It actually gets more comfortable as we come into clarity. Okay, So I really want to spell out about clarity. Now, You guys, It takes often at least two years. To get there, Say, After encountering a teacher. And sometimes it takes longer. So for you who are just getting on the journey, Just listen and open and don't try to do it. That's the one drawback with spelling this out. I don't want you guys to do it. It's more. You will just be brought to it if you're sincere. Okay, You guys. Truly, We're so loved. If we really want it, We get brought to it. It's like, You know, Even just finding a teacher to help spell things out to you is part of your soul. Bringing this to you. Do you understand? I remember I saw Abraham's, I came to Abraham through a paper hanging on a you know, A street lamp. I just walked by and saw it and went, I have to go see this guy. The universe will get you where you need to go. Okay, So. For becoming clear, There's several. Strands I'm going to talk about. In a way, It's such a quantum leap. To do this. But I do have to talk about the threads in it. Okay, One of the really big threads is. It's shown up in the story about the Arab horse and the seller of the horse. And I've told you this, Some of you know this. Where it is. I heard it. The story that this still operates in the Arab states. That when they're selling a horse, They will starve the horse for, You know, Two days. And then they'll. Open. The door, Out of the stall, And the horse will have a choice between his owner or her owner. And food. And the horse that goes directly to the owner first. Is priced far higher than the horse that goes to the feeding stall. Okay, Now this is key for the spiritual journey because actually the same thing operates with students. It is a student. That is. Once. The higher awareness so strongly. That it comes before food. It comes before anything else. And if you're not there yet, Don't worry. It's the same, You know, I'm gonna. It's the same, You know, I have to say this, You know, Sometimes I send an email to students and some students ghost me, They just don't reply, Which just strikes me as so bizarre if somebody is actually helping you in the journey. It's exactly the same thing. And, You know, In a situation like that, If you don't feel able to answer, Just write back and say, Look, I got your email. I'll answer when I can. It is, You guys, It's even connected to the love of Mother Nature, Like I said. It's like. . . You know, We're taught to exploit her. So this can be in all our relationships. It can be in our relationships with our teachers. You see, As you grow, You will see that it's everywhere. It just takes time. OK, So. It is the person who over and over again on the journey emerges out of the stall and goes directly to the owner. Which is a metaphor for going directly to the soul. The other thread of this was that there In a way, This place of becoming clear. Is when you start. Moving out of your ego, You know. I heard an Eastern sage call that the conditioned ego was like a haunted house. And as we grow. Those ghosts and fears and they become healed, They become removed. They dissolve. And the house. You end up, The self-enlightened person just ends up like an empty house. Their old personality is not there anymore. They've actually gone, Their ego's gone. All that's left. Is their true nature shining through They're, You know. Their bodies and also where the old ego was. Right and what ego remains is used to serve this. Light but as I said Abraham used to say there'd be like three percent left that you go it's basically an empty house. So I want you to at least get. An overview of where you're going. This, You know, You may remember this in 10 years. You don't know when this knowledge will bumble up. I almost said bumble up, Right? I'm always talking about bumbling along the journey. It'll just bubble up. When you need it. There's no demand, There's no pressure. We, You know, The more spaciousness you feel, The more easy it is to evolve. Yeah. Yeah, There's no demand. Funny there was a little bit of a hook there when I said, The more spaciousness you feel, Easier it is to evolve. Some of you immediately started feeling less spacious. This is the problem with using words, You guys, Rather than the nonverbal hugs, But it's all good. Yeah, So. Remember last week we were talking about the little shack in the courtyard and the bigger palace that was around it. And we imagined Krishna or Amma or Buddha in this palace, And we imagined making channels from this little hut. To this bigger understanding. Sunset about becoming clear. Is to help you with this process. It's to help you. Move into the mansion, Basically. To have the center hot become. A beautiful part of that. Of this huge mansion. I'm wanting to give you some imagery that you can. That will open the door. To your the love power of your soul so you can let it in. Mm-hmm. Ah, Sweeties. I know it's very, It's quite sad because we get taught. To so not let this happen. We get taught. To close the door so early. So remember, Becoming clear. Takes at least two years after starting. Most times. In a way. You won't have much to show for it on the outside. It is an inner state. I remember Alma saying, So I heard her say this, That The imagery of the. Of Christ being born in the barn. Was actually a picture of what the journey's like, That when really important things happen, There's no fanfare. From the outside. You guys. There's no celebration from the outside. It's a deeply internal event. Okay, That's what becoming clear is. It's a deeply internal event. And it happens when we begin to make a decision. Room. For our instinctual self. Which is what connects us to our true nature. I don't think this is seen or understood. I have never heard this talked about the way I'm going to talk about it. The, You know, The soul energy there is some instinctual things that go on in human that are very much connected to our soul energy so you know if we see somebody who's fallen. You know, There's an instinctual help, Do something to help. Now, If this is overwritten by ego, People walk right by. But the person who has a strong inner child energy, Will never walk by, Even if they're in their ego. Their strong inner child energy will cause them to do something. So when we're clear, We're walking around. Inside us. We love and respect this instinctive energy. Inside. And we're aware. That it's different from our egos. We know it's different. We can feel the difference. The normal person. Probably wouldn't even notice there is a difference. And then if they did notice a difference, They still would have very little room for their instinctual energy. Sort of like an unwelcome guest, Somebody who's clear. Realizes that this instinctual energy is closer to the soul than the ego. So this person who's clear, Will also have built a container. Okay, You guys, This is very, Very important. Really, Really important if you want to become clear. You have to build a container. Inside you. You have to become a container. For your true energy for your life. For your being a work in progress is more like it. It's like. . . A container that will hold you. It's like the ability to embrace yourself enough. To sit with the conflict. Without jumping to a solution. Just sit with it, You know, The sages talk about. Rivers get muddy and if you just, When they're churning. And if you just wait for the. . . River. Or the lake to stop churning. All the silt falls to the bottom and the water becomes clear again. In order to have the ability to sit with a conflict, We have to have become a container. Now this is. Beginning to become a container for your own true nature. Some of you. Are. Your faces are wild. It's lovely, It's lovely. So now, In order to become a container, You have to have some freedom from the, I'm just a flawed fragment. You have to have some freedom from I'm a miserable sinner. It will just happen that way, You guys. And I'm going to ask this. Zoom is called. The title of the satsang is becoming clear so you guys can know the title if you ever want to listen to it again. Becoming clear, Because it's a really, Really, Really important spiritual step. You can't get anywhere without it. So with this having some. More room for your instinctual energy. And some awareness of your conditioning. To have the awareness that that you've been asleep, That what you've been operating under has been an ego and it's It's the shell of you. So in a way, You have to have sprouted. To become a container to be able to be a container. And be able to. Become clear. You have to have sprouted. The shell in you, The ego shell, Has to have cracked enough that you can see that you've got this ego and that it isn't helpful. And then you contain, You are a container. For the struggles of this sprouting ego who then has to Dig the roots down and find the creator. Find Amma within you. Find the Buddha within you. You will know that you're clear because. You won't. Really be able to validate a huge inner change. Within you. And that you're on a whole new territory. And what's facing you. Is learning how to walk, Your soul power. And this requires that you. See over and over again. The ways your ego hooks you. And that you. Are aware of. You know, When the ego comes in with the meaning of life is to have a big house. When these kind of thoughts. As soon as you can, You recognize them as ego. It's. It's like, So once you're clear and you're a container. You've got a container, So you have the ability to embrace your experience as you are going through a spiritual conflict. Until. The water becomes clear and you're shown. What to do, What action to take. Although there's a huge energy of grace coming to you to help the deepening. We felt it at the end of yesterday sat saying that. Very strong energy of grace coming to help. Because as I said, The universe. . . Still wants us to go this way. Yeah, Some of you feel inadequate. No. Oh, There's the eagle. Oh, There it is. You will get brought to this, You guys. I'm just wanting to make it friendlier for your heads in a way. I'm wanting to introduce your head. To the idea of becoming clear so that it will be easier for you to do it. Because lots of times what happens on the journey, People make progress and then they get alarmed at it like some people when they're becoming more dispassionate. They're able to step back and watch their experience more. They're scared they're becoming unloving. Because this wisdom doesn't feel like the warm fuzzies. Of giving a baby a hug. You know. So we think we're doing it wrong. We think we're getting cold. We're not. It's just passion. After today. I will be scrolling back. From all this to give you guys space to do it. We're not going to keep going at this level of intensity. But you're in this bumping up. That happened a couple of weeks ago. And that's why they're business. Bigger imagery of the palace surrounding the palace. The little hut from last week. It will all happen at the best pace for you. And you know, When you're clear, You won't feel that you've done anything much, You'll be aware of the enormity of the journey. You'll be going, Oh my goodness. This is a big journey! You won't be going, Oh, I'm so great because I'm clear. You won't. In fact, Your teacher will probably be the one to tell you that you're clear. You won't even really think that you've done anything. You might even think your teacher's deluded when she tells you you're clear. This is what the journey's like, You guys. Truly. This is why, I mean, I look at Alma and the wisdom of the nonverbal hugs. I'm like, That is it, Really. But we're doing it this way. So there must be a reason. And this will help your minds. Get used to the direction you're going in. It's like. . . Having gone over the map a lot of times before the journey. The same principle. Anticipating what's going to happen if you're climbing a mountain, What you're going to face, And having a good map and getting prepared for it. This is kind of what this is. We're all bumping up, You know. It was there a couple of satsangs ago. So this is just the. Living of it. The integration of it. Beautiful the way you are. Okay, I want to talk about becoming a container. It's like when we become a container, We step back a bit from our experience and we Allow for a higher intelligence, You guys. It's like. Okay, This is really important. In the becoming clear, Our intellect is reborn. You get a higher functioning intellect. Shines a light more clearly on your experience. Okay, You're all coming with me on this. This will show you. About your relationships. It is. Very hard to become enlightened if you're in Uh. . . Situation where you're not seen clearly. By others, But it can be done. Okay, It can be done like there's a. Yogananda's teacher. His wife. Didn't realize he was enlightened. For a long time. For a really long time. I know of somebody else who's enlightened and his wife even refuses to go on the spiritual journey. So it is possible wherever you are. To grow spiritually. But what I have found, You guys, Yes. It makes it much easier. You're surrounded by people with whom you have clear relationships. Clear. Um good quality relationships. And in these relationships, It's important to observe yourself and your actions. Okay, So I'm going to talk about how we, The importance of being a container, And how we pour out our progress. We will pour out our progress by speaking to people who are not interested in the journey. By speaking of spiritual things to people who are not interested. Who've shown themselves not to be interested. Sometimes it's useful to speak to somebody about the journey. It's part of how people come to Amma. That you're a voter from somebody. But if you're in a situation with somebody who doesn't. Is showing you. A million times. They don't want to hear about it. Don't. Pour out. Your heart. Don't pour out. Don't talk about it with them. Only keep in mind, You guys, Take yourselves where you're valued. Stay with people who see you in your true love power. It's really important. And who, You know, Are clear and treat you well. You don't have to, You know, Make a big drama about coming unstuck with the others. It's just, Just don't fertilize the relationship. See, Your ego would love you to spend time with people who tend to keep the same old stuff going. There's part of us that will feel very comfortable. So a couple things. There was a person who had trouble with their family, Who was not treated well, Wasn't respected. Really treated really unfairly by the family. And. You know, I was working with this person around, You know, Containing their learning to be a container. And I was speaking about, You know, As we spoke, This person was remembered a time when their mom Like something sweet the mom used to do, And she warmed to this mom. Just as she was. Speaking to me. She remembered this memory and that's very good work. Okay, What I wanted her to do. Was, You know, Pulled back into her container and work with herself around allowing her view of life. To become. Brighter, Do you know? It's like I've talked about our. . . That the mammalian mind gets hooked on trauma. And part of becoming a container is knowing this and letting the hooking onto trauma dissipate. So what I wanted her to do was step back. Into her life with this new information that her mom had been sweeter than she remembered. And let her whole world warm up as a result. So that her vibration would be heard. Go with gold. Would become a more loving vibration and nicer things would happen to her. Because this is what happened with me as I pulled back and remembered the good things. My family started treating me differently. I didn't take any action. Other than this inner action. This is all part of becoming clear, You guys. Now, What this woman did, She's an artist. And she remembering this about her mom. This good memory. She. . . Poured it out. She sent her mom. Of a painting. That she'd done. Now the mother has never valued the painting that she studied. Never really acknowledged it. So this woman went right back into being a needy child wanting the mom to love her finally. Through this action. It's just like a little kid picking flowers in the garden, Taking them to the moon. Yeah, It's the stepping back. Being a container, Becoming clear. Not maybe taking an action immediately. Just being with it. Our ego will love us to keep pouring out. Are progress. It's unknown what the mother did with this painting. I haven't heard, But I'll tell you if the mom does something mean in the next. While This will totally. You know, Kind of. Drain this woman of this shift. That she's made, This inner shift. Okay, So it's even getting clearer as I'm speaking. Becoming clear is being centered on the inside, You guys, More than on the outside. You know, There's a way that this training is just developing and it's like these things are becoming clear so that in the years to follow, When people come alongside, That it's a very clear thing. That the positions on the journey, The progress of the journey could be made much clearer to them. A book could be written about it, Say. It's sort of how steps of theories manifest. It's how trainings manifest. Okay, I can feel there's a clarity coming in some of your tummies. Yeah, And don't worry if you're not feeling it because many things go beyond happen beyond our consciousness. Especially at the beginning. The further along on the journey, The more you're aware of the things that are happening. In your unconscious. Your body, Yeah. Thank you. Okay. Okay, You guys. Okay. This is surprising me. But I'm getting a big bulletin. I'm seeing an image of a chained up soul. And It reminds me of a picture my sister drew. Or painted when she was 16. You know during that expansion that happens when we're 16, We call it sweet 16, And then the prefrontal lobe makes a big shift. The kids do a quantum leap around 16 often. We call it Sweet 16 because we can feel a little bit of the soul energy. In this painting. Was of this chained up figure who, Ironically, So my sister's 16, And this figure looks like Ama. I'm not kidding. Now I look at it and I go, That's Alma. She was painting Alma. All chained up. And the title of her book, I feel tears coming. The title of this painting was Attention, Attention. Pay attention. Pay attention. You guys. Many of you do not pay attention. At this level, Your soul is locked up and chained and you don't even notice. This was a real bulletin coming from the universe here. I'll tell you, With my imagination, I'm going into the painting and into this image and I'm cutting the chain. Because that is my, That is Prima Sudha's nature. Reaction. To any obstacle. I immediately work with my imagination immediately. In a second. And progress has shown itself. By the fact that this imagination has a lot of power as I've developed. The power of just imagining grew and grew and grew. Until it became an event. Just like the prayer of a wise person. Has real power, So does their imagination. So I'm saying this is where the journey takes all of us, You guys. You're overwhelmed again. Some of you are really feeling this image of this. Chained up soul. And you know that the title was, Attention, Attention, Pay attention. There's so much of our goal, You guys, That we just ignore. We don't pay any attention to, We will criticize it, Really. We'll ghost it. We ghost our souls just like some of you ghosts. My emails. You don't want a ghost. You need to contain. Part of the reason why we ghost ourselves is we don't know what to do with the information. And that's why it's really important. To learn to become a container. You contain yourself, You contain your journey. You stay with your experience. That is, Again, The. Becoming clear, You stay with your experience. Until it's resolved. You contain it, You're with it, You pray, You listen. Do everything until. The confusion. Clears and your container then carries more light. This is how you bring light into your bodies and your psyche. I want to come back to the point of. You know, Developing discrimination. Developing discernment. To see what is going on. We all know like or see maybe marriages where somebody's. Where the balance of power is uneven and there's. . . Somebody is getting a lot more from the marriage than the other person. We've all seen that. But the thing is, This can happen in friendships. And I want to talk about this. You need to be able to see clearly. The quality of your friendships. People who love the truth of you. Will come along with you. And the people that don't. You know, We. And this is really key too, You guys. So many people go on the spiritual journey emotionally. So it's just emotional. So when that happens, It has no staying power. If you're facing your deathbed or some big challenge, Your faith will go out the window. It's not solid. It's just like pink icing. It was like an idea of pink icing. Yeah, God exists. I'm love, But it's just like. . . It can just get washed away in a second. It is by becoming clear. And containing, Becoming a container. For your energies. Becoming a container for the gradual movement. Out of your ego into truth, Which can take decades. Okay, Good. So, You may choose to stay friends with somebody but it's really important to see what's going on because we can get hooked emotionally. And be absolutely blinded. So a dear one had talked, He'd raised in Sessing about. A dear friend of his. Who was. . . Who is with a partner. And begrudged it when he left to see his partner. You know, There's no criticism of a friend. It's like we can all get. Blinded by our own wounding. So if we have years of abandonment, We might do something like that. And this dear one, You know, Is very fond of his friend. But to grow, You have to see the outline. Starkly of what is going on. You have to see the outlines. Of it. Otherwise, We get in bondage. We get lost. We get absolutely lost. In in other people's We get lost in our relationships if we don't see clearly, You guys. Suddenly we find that we're giving up our partner to prop up somebody who doesn't want to be abandoned. I mean, That is an extreme of what could happen, But that stuff does happen when somebody is just blinkered and they don't see what's going on. And I'm not talking about measuring like, Well, I did this for you, So you should do this for me. But notice the broad outline. Of your relationships. Notice if you're being fed by them or not. Notice if you're the person who always makes overtures. Or who always fits the bill, Just notice this thing, Notice. Especially if you had deficits when you were growing up, You see, We can click right into our deficits. And we don't even realize. What we're doing. And, You know, None of our friends or our mates are perfect, But we have to see clearly enough. To be able to even speak to them clearly. Okay, So I'm going to give you like a kind of a ridiculous example. You know, My ex had a really good sense of humor. And it took me some time to realize that he was actually making very disparaging comments about me, But they were so funny, Like I could see his wit. So I'd laugh. What we get lost is the fact that this was all aimed at pushing me down, You see? I was absolutely blind to it because I'd grown up with it. And so my ego felt very comfortable with it. Now this is pressing some buttons because there's fear of, You know, Abandonment. You're going like, Well, Who can I be friends with? But I'm talking about, You know, Gradually as you go on the spiritual journey. These things will just become obvious to you and you will just do them. You will just take good care of yourself. I don't want you to go up into your heads and like, Us about it. Just ask that Allah bring the knowledge to you when you need it. Okay, I don't want you to go all obsessive about. Bye-bye. People are exploiting me, They're not treating me well. I'm not promoting fight, I am promoting awareness. And again, You know, This is a big sad thing and, You know, It may, You know, It may cause some of you to go to may cause you to be invited into your heads and you can watch that. Because it's not what I'm wanting, But it's like, This work is very feminine. I don't think this feminine realm gets enough airtime in the spiritual journey. And so what happens is because this level, This emotional level is not acknowledged, I see people who've been on the journey for 30 years and they're still not taking care. They're still not clear. They're still not containing their energies. They're still not being aware of their relationships. And this is why I'm highlighting it. I don't think there's it's it's. Valued enough this level. Like it's. You know, In my experience, Alma's work includes this level, But it's not talked about often. I'm just talking about it. Highlighting hopefully I want to validate you guys like validate your your human experience. Sort of to make it okay that you're a human on the journey and you'll just bumble into this knowledge, You just will. And at the same time, There's some of you guys who are really focused on self-realization and some of you who just want to kind of have an expanded heart. So just use what you can. Can of this, What works for you, Just being there. In the past. Just being in this energy for a bit will help. It is, You have to become clear, You have to. To some degree become non-attached. And the position of being non attached is when you are attached to the creator to the inner Alma. More and to other people. And material things less. So say an unawakened person is like 99 1% attached to. Their inner self and 99 attached to people and the world and material things and as you grow say like the coming clear. Maybe it's 60%. Attached to people, Material things, And 40% attached to the creator. Just like the horse being like the horse who goes to the owner first being you take your your reference the creator in where you're going. You include the creator in where you're going. You do not just say, Okay, This job pays better. And I'm gonna do it when in your heart, The cells of your body are saying, Don't do it. It's going to add more stress. Or in some cases, It would be the thing your soul wants. Yeah, Take that job. That's good. At which point you will feel lighter. And more airy, You'll feel more space around yourself. You guys, This will just become clear over time. I feel like the waters are all churned up. So just be with it. No, Really, Just be with it. Contain it. Be with it. And when I say contain it, I'm not saying like put a lid on it with your head, Just be with it. Just be with it, Be the container for the, What is she talking about? What is going on here? Am I clear? Am I not? Be with it all. You know, In our families, We can become a little more non-attached to them if they're not helpful, But without making, You know, We don't have to make any song and dance, Just see them less, You know. Just take care of yourself. Be intelligent. Let your soul intelligence guide you. Your soul knows. A soul knows who to spend time with. You know, Amma says again and again, Just. . . Don't just. Focus on her, Like take everything to her. Not to talk things out with other people. Although, You know, Sometimes, You know, If you've got a good. Counsellor that can be helpful. But there's a point on the journey where it becomes easy to just take everything to Amma. Again, You can't force that, You guys. Comes when it comes. Some of you are getting some big challenges that reflect it. This bumping up of this work. Some of you are like, You're being forced to confront some things that you haven't seen so clearly. That's how it happens, You guys. That's how development happens. Just be with it. It'll get solved. You might see where you were caught in your ego, Where you've been caught in your ego. Might be shocking. It's okay, Just embrace it all. Brace it up. Keep talking to Amma. Keep talking to your soul. You know, Come back to the horse again, The horse that keeps going to the owner. You just keep doing that over and over again. The sincerity, Having that kind of sincerity. You just live like that and you won't. Make enormous progress. As a byproduct. You just will. The other thing is we can be so aware of our frailties. That we don't see, We don't acknowledge the sincerity and our courage, We don't see it. I want you to see it, You guys. Value yourselves, You know. And remember, Your soul loves you and Alma talks about how. The soul gives in to the personality sometimes. Like the story she told about the child on the bus and the child wants a banana. And the mom first says, No, You can't. We're on the bus. And the child says, No, You can't. And finally, She goes to the bus driver and says, Can we stop and pick a banana? And he stops, My kid gets the banana. It's like sometimes our soul like. . . Okay. It doesn't have to be all. The way of the soul. The soul will cut us some slack. It will just, You know. It knows we're human. Our humanity is important to you guys. This is what I'm saying. It's a value. It's to be respected. Our soul respects our humanity. And our soul works with our humanity. You know, The struggle with integrity is if you think of a a pack of cards that's in perfect order. And then you think of a pack of cards, All the possible ways. The pack of cards could be organized. There'll be millions and millions of different orders for those cards. So this is the problem with coming to integrity. There are millions and millions of ways to be chaotic. There is one way. To have integrity. There is one choice that your soul will be asking you at any point in time. It'll be asking you to sort of do the thing that is the pack of cards in perfect order. That leads there. And it can be very chaotic. It can look very chaotic, All the different ways that packs of cards could be. This is why it's really important to learn to be a container, Listen to your body, Listen to your heart really, Really deeply, And you will get the guidance about the clearest action you can take. And only you will know the truth. That is the. Right thing or an awakened observer could see that you're making the right choice. Often the people around us can't tell. It is the focus on the Creator and the devotion to the Creator. To your soul. That brings you to. Embodying your soul energy. How much you want it, That's what you'll get. Every state you're in, No matter what is going on with you. It is a respectable state on the journey. Please get that. There's nothing wrong with that. This is what the journey's like. We've all come in with our own particular gigs. Some are like heavy lifters. I heard her say this. Some people are like heavy lifters on the journey and some people can't carry that much. And it's all beautiful. That's what I want to leave you guys with. It's all beautiful. It's like. . . It's like a garden. Amma talks about the ashram like a forest. It's more like a garden, You know. It's like we're all. We're all like these flowers. We've all got different gigs. We've all got different life. Things. It's all very, Very, Very beautiful and valuable. That's it. You know, Even in motherhood, You know, All mothers have hard days and, You know, The kids have hard days too as a result. And, You know, They're just some hard days sometimes, But the mom knows the kids are priceless anyway. And she knows she's doing her best. It's all good. It's just what life is like here. This is good. Okay, This is good. There's this sprouting energy that I'm feeling. So if you guys, You get how loved you are. About how wherever you are, It's all good. It's all very valuable. Amma talks about how even the worst person in the world, Or even the most broken watch, Is correct in time twice a day. A day, Twice in 24 hours. Same with the worst person in the world, She'll say. God is in them and will show somewhere. You're always, Always precious. Valuable wherever you are. And when we become clear, We realize it. Which is kind of what we sprout into. There's restlessness happening. We sprout into this feeling of being loved. We sprout into being more bonded. To the creator. This is where sprouting takes us. We sprout into a higher intellectual capacity. It's we become more capable of dispassion and kind of an abstraction. I feel like you guys are in a. . . I'm seeing a picture of plants in a sort of a plug in thing where all these pots are in this. Plug-in thing that is keeping them warm. You know, Like the little, When you start planting in the spring, You get the seed warmer. Yeah. Let's see what they're doing. It's Thema Jemsi. You guys, The answer is always awakening to the fact there's more love here than we realize. Yeah, That we're more loved. That is the progress. That's it. It's like when I would realize that Amma like got me all along so, So much. But she understood me so deeply, I kept falling over this. Oh. She really gets, She gets all this. That's it. That's it. Xiexie. It's just sort of to support and reassure you enough. That you don't give up. Because if we give up, Where do we go? There's nowhere to go. Always, Always, That's it, Valued. This was my, You know, Dream to be able to communicate. How valuable we are because you see, It was so hard for me. To realize. And, You know, Even the, You know, The struggles, You know, Our willingness to just keep going, Even if we're feeling like mess ups and Things aren't going well, Just continue. Just the continuing is like so celebrated. From heaven's perspective. I saw near death experience where there's woman hurt the whole near death thing was about how the angels had like praising her for that she got up every morning. That was her experience, Her near-death experience, Being praised for getting up every morning and facing life. How beautiful is that? Really, You know, From the. In my experience of Amma, She deeply knows what we face, And so do the angels. And all the helping energies, They all know what we're facing. And how hard it can be. That's it. I almost gave up halfway through my journey. I really did. It was really nip and tuck. And the only thing. Kept me going. Was. I just, It was like, Well, Where else am I gonna go? If I don't continue the journey, I'm just going to see a lot of darkness with no possible cure, With no possible solution. And if I keep going on the journey. There's at least a hope. That the light will come. And of course, By continuing, The light really came after that dramatically. I got dramatic. Huge light. After going through that. However dark it is. There will be the equal amount of light. There are angels speaking to you all the time. Personally, I think our angels speak with each other. You know, If we're in relationship, I think our guardian angels speak with each other to help promote the relationship. I do. I do. Forward to help if the relationship should end for how that can totally we're so loved you guys. This is what the harshness of my life has shown. It's been so harsh in some ways, But so incredibly beneficent. And I was saved at every turn. So you guys, The power of your innocence, The power of your child heart, Become a container. So you can hear. You're your little child. Make room for your little child. That is another way of saying becoming clear that you are a container and you hold the energies for, You know, The ego and for your little child energy and the Creator. And you can. That's how you live your life. And as you go forward, You become more just filled with life. Yeah. Best shit this time. Yeah, I remember yesterday and my phone. Recorded. Just on its own. That was the creator. That was Alma. Keeping a record of it, Truly. You know, The whole group, You all. Got closer. To the loving truth of things. In our Western world, We tend to think of the truth as harsh and brutal, And actually the truth is love. It is how loved we are. And we're the ones who haven't. Who were taught not to allow it. But you can. Allow it. You know there's an interplay of all your lives. You know, So sometimes people who are really halogen musically have had like 15 lives in a row with music. And they're the ones who are absolutely the top of the line. And when you. You create your next life by all your wishes this life. Of what you want, You know? So if you want spirituality, You really want it and you serve it this life, The next life, You will have more. Opportunities for it. It's how it works, You guys. We're not like helpless victims. The universe follows us too. And this is the interplay of our humanity and our our soul selves, You know? Yeah. It's all it's all so we're so loved utterly on all levels and our humanity is loved and understood and angels praise us for getting up in the morning, Which, You know what? That makes total sense to me. When this woman said it, I thought, I really bet this is true. So there's this. Greater love that some of you are feeling, A greater sort of relaxation and peace. The whole journey is to relax. Into the love. And learn to trust it. To trust. Thank you. Even if there's sometimes you can't see it. Or, You know, Like I used to feel like, You know, There is some Satan in the sky operating. But it was, You know, It wasn't like I didn't seriously believe in Satan. I kind of knew it was like ego stuff. And I'm feeling some of you, It's interesting that I talked about shame because some of you are, It's like this shame is getting dislodged. It's a little bit like you're going to be able to see it. Yeah, You're going to be able to see the shame that keeps you in certain situations. It's just like what I'm talking about. It's like putting up with unwholesome relationships. Because underneath one's kind of ashamed of one's true nature. I feel like the sheen is actually beginning to be dislodged. And you're going to see it. You're going to see it first and then let it go. That's it. That's it. That's it, That's very good you guys. You know, Underneath. Our egos. It's like. Even underneath the mind. Knows that we're not in truth and is kind of relieved to be held back to truth, Just like sometimes a serial killer. Gets relieved to be caught. It's the same principle with our minds and egos. They sometimes just relief that it's can change. OK, This is a. Been a big sad saying and we will probably scroll back for integration of all of this and then also practical help for how to do all this. And remember, With this warmth you're feeling, You'll get integration. So just walk through the integration. Ama, Ama, Ama, Ama, Ama. Ama, Ama, Ama, Ama. Son of a. . . Just be your song. That's it. That's it. Let your mantra be your song of life. It's beautiful. Oh, You guys, You're so dear. Okay, Bless your dear heart.