Awareness Satsang: The Dragon Breathes Fire

Premasudha came forward like a dragon, breathing fire. She took her sword to egos, spelling out the games and tricks we all use to avoid the truth of ourselves. This satsang is both captivating and uncomfortable. Kali, the fiercest Hindu goddess, is considered the most loving of all because she frees people from their egos. Premasudha expressed alot of Kali in this satsang. All she wants to do is free the love within our hearts. Sometimes a little bit of "tough love" is necessary to do this.

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Blessings. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you for coming. And much, Much love. You know, Prama Sutta has the wind up a bit. I'm a little bit in the dragon energy, Okay? Breathing fire a little bit. Yeah, And it's about the journey. You guys, You need your innocence and your integrity. And you need to be willing to move into self-awareness. You need to be willing to be self-aware. And this is where many of you, Like, It's like a new language. Like, I'm trying to teach you a new language. And Saskia, I'm going to take the scalpel to you today, And I want you to hear it. And, You know, It's to clean you, Okay? Yeah. Yeah. It's like lancing a boil and clearing all the pus. Because. . . Yeah, And I also want to say, You know, I am a big believer about doing things like just going to bed for three days and just being with yourself. If you really want to evolve, You will do anything. To evolve, You know? You'll let yourself get uncomfortable in order to move through your complexes. It's like, Really, It's kind of crazy to hang out with someone like Pramasutra and not be willing to face yourself. You know, Over time, You have to learn. Like, You know, We're all human. We're all bumbling. But it's like, With a teacher like Pramasutra, I am really results-oriented. I'm gentle as anything, But I am results-oriented. And that's why you love me. But then, You know, You have to be willing to let the penny drop. So, Saskia, Do you remember. . . I want you to see some things. And even if they make you cry, That would be good. Just the cry in the sorrow, The ongoing ego games, Just the absolute sorrow of it, Of being stuck in it, Not knowing how to change, You know, Not being happy, Not feeling fulfilled, And still not knowing how to just surrender and let the creator take care of you. Okay, So months ago, Some months ago now, You know, You came for a session, And I said to you, You would not let me just touch you innocently. You put walls up in your body to my touch, So I never could get through to your heart. And I was trying really hard, Right? And at the same time, You know, I get flattered about how great I am and everything. And I've, You know, I have worked with so many people, And I've faced so many egos, And it's like, I was the same way. It's, I'm not judging. It's just like, Oh, It's just too bad. Because, You know, If you really love a teacher, When she touches you, You let her get through to you, The bottom line. And if you don't let her get through to you, You don't trust her, And you don't love her. It's just like, Think of a lover touching you. You know, We all know this. If we're with somebody, We don't like that much, Or we don't trust that much. We don't let our bodies go. We don't let go. It's the same thing with this work. You have to, Like, Trust the creator in yourself and Pramasutra to let it come. Okay, So, Look, It was meant to be, As you know, My own path has been littered with all kinds of resistance. So, But just want to spell it out, Because you should feel sorrow about that. Because that is why you're in the stew now, Because you couldn't surrender then. So, You're having to learn a much harder way, Much more painful than if you could have just made the leap when you were with me to just trust. I just really want to spell it out, That you are getting it the hard, Painful way, What you're going through. And there's part of you that just does not want me to threaten your ego at all. But, Sweetie, This is the gig. It's like of all the teachers in the world to spend time with and ask for this one not to threaten your ego. It's just not going to happen. I'm going to threaten your ego. Yeah, You need to come to terms with that. And maybe have two days of deep sorrow in your bed where you don't do anything other than just be with yourself. Because the thing around your hip, The immobility around your left hip is showing you how out of touch with your feminine energy is. Listen, Women, Look at hula dancers, Belly dancers, That is the real feminine energy. Most of us are walking around with kind of girdles, Energetic girdles coming from the patriarchy. And our movements are not fluid or round. They're often quite jerky, Even in women. Right, Right. So, Underneath all this stuff, You have a fluidity of your hips of movement that is just waiting for you to allow it to rise up. But Saskia, In there, Is a whole bunch of feelings that you have judged as not allowed. Okay, So, If you don't feel these feelings, You are never going to get to fluid movements in your hips. It just won't happen. So, It's just your choice, Saskia, Sweet, Sweet, Sweet, About how sincere you really want to be and how many games you want to play. Because really, It's dead simple, You guys, When you just get down to it, You just decide to feel feelings you do, You just feel them, You are with them. You know, Pramasutha, After that session, It did touch a lot in me. I was in bed for two or three days after I saw you, And I do it after, Like, After the satsang yesterday, I was in bed a long time and cried, And I feel like I feel it in, Maybe in smaller pieces, I do it in smaller pieces. I'm afraid of doing it all at once. Yeah, Saskia, You know, I've really got the wind up. So, There's a reason for it. Okay, I've learned that if something like this happens, It's just non-negotiable, It's just coming from something beyond me. And you need to listen. And even if you spent two days in bed, Still listen. Yeah. Because this is coming from beyond the earth plane. Right. I think that really needs to sink into you. Something really needs to get through to you, Saskia. Yeah. Yeah. Okay, Good. Good. This kind of blast is going to save you a lot of time. If you use it well. Right. It's like you are responsible for your life. Doesn't matter whether you're married, Whatever. You are responsible to your own soul. I think that's part of what you need to face. I mean, You either face it and move into integrity, Or you refuse to face it and you stay misaligned your whole life. Right. In sort of an attempt for safety that isn't safe at all. Right. There's a much bigger intelligence in you than you've allowed, A much bigger wisdom than you've allowed. Just allow it. The other thing I was going to say to you is follow your intuition. It's like, You know, Sometimes I would do dance classes, You know, Whatever I felt I needed, I would just do it. I once had some students and I sent them to dance classes to help break through their heads, You know, Come into their bodies more. But Saskia, You're much more intelligent. You know far more of what I'm talking about than you let on. Yeah. Yeah. You're just trying to do damage control, You're trying to stay safe, And it's just not going to keep you safe at all. Yeah, Just get truer and blunter and more real. Okay. Okay. And you're very beautiful, Sweetie. It's like, Look, You know, If you, I was a far worse game player when I started out than you are. Like, It's all good. But I want you to really take home what I've said to you and take it home to your heart and think about it and do about it. And whoever feels that it also applies to them, Do the same thing. Take it home. Work with it. Yeah. Right. Right. We are in extremis. We need the feminine energy rising up to bring everything back. The feminine energy brings everything back to center, And it brings everything back to balance and back to the ground. It's like I was saying to the moms who are getting, You know, Caught up on the spiritual journey as I'm going, Come back to center, Come to the ground, Come back, Take very good care of your kids. That is one of the most accelerative things. That is the most accelerative thing you can do is be there for your children, Especially if they're young. This is very simple, Very loving, Very truthful, Very honorable. We're all human. We have to make room for our humanity. We have to be really sincere, Really honorable. We have to be really truthful. We really have to want our integrity. Hello, Prema Sudha and everyone. Yeah, Veronica, Sweetie. I wanted to talk about a dream that I've been having. So in this dream, It was sort of like an initiation where I was confronted with some of my guides, And I was in this theater, And they had told me that I needed to not be afraid because they were coming. And then it was a bad dream. There were these other entities in the dream that came up to me and ate me, And I died in the dream. And so I've been thinking about it a lot lately, Especially with this full moon. And I feel this fear that's coming up around failure. Around not being ready. And I don't know. I don't know if it's a deeper message telling me that I need to get my act together in some way. So tell me again, The guides were preparing you? Or what? Tell me the dream again. They were preparing me for something darker. Sure. I was in a theater, And I was with my guides. I was with a bunch of other people, Too, And we were standing there, And they were telling and preparing us and saying, Don't be afraid. And basically telling me that I would be tricked into being afraid. And in my dream, I faltered slightly. Only like very slightly. And it was like the demise of me in the dream. And then I heard, She's not ready. And it's been weighing on me. Yeah. Yeah. It's like I have this notion that I'm afraid of what I'm asking for. Yeah. It is good to ask for, You know, As gently and easily. I don't know why. All the support you need. But you know, Sweetie, Dreams, You know, They can alert us. But you know, They are there to help wake us up. I wouldn't get too obsessed with it. Do you know what I mean? I wouldn't take it at absolute face value at all. I'd say that, You know, Being eaten sounds like some kind of ego death. And that part of you is, Yeah, Scared that you're not ready. But you know, I dreamt my son would die before he was one. And he didn't die. He lived, You see? Even though he had that terminal diagnosis. We sometimes just get a preparatory dream. It just sounds like that you're, You know, Having an ego death. And we're never ready for ego deaths. And we can't control them or orchestrate them at all. We're just, We're just, We'll just fall into them. We're just in it. Do you see? I didn't catch that last part. Like ego deaths, We can never be prepared for them. Because it's just, It's like a dying of all that we know. You can't be prepared. You can't orchestrate it. You can't control it. Ego deaths are uncomfortable and they can be shocking. Nobody feels prepared for an ego death. But I think the dream was to preparing you. Do you understand what I'm saying? I think it was preparing me too. It was like a wake-up call. Yeah. Like I needed to be more alert. Yeah, But remember, You cannot control an ego death. You cannot do it in a pretty way. That's what all of you guys, I feel like you all want to kind of manage your journey, But you can't manage it at all. If you can manage it, You're in your ego. That makes total sense. Oh, Good. But you can trust your heart, Veronica. I'm getting this very strongly. You can trust your heart and that's where you're going to go. Increasingly, You're going to be learning how to trust your heart and it's going to get stronger and stronger in you. I can feel it. Thank you. I can feel it too. Right. You see, I'm just validating what you already know. How old are you, Sweetie? I'm 32. Right. So, You know, You're like a young tree. You know, Not like a big, Thick tree that's been through all kinds of storms. You're like a young one. So, Thank you. Yeah, That's wonderful imagery for me. Oh, Good. Good. Yeah, You let yourself be helped, Veronica. This is really good. That's good. Yeah, And I also feel you have a deep trust in there. And a really deep trust in there. Yeah, And if you go through an ego death, I'll be here to help. Won't we, You guys? We'll go. Yeah. Thank you. I'll be here too. Yeah, Sweet one. Yeah, But don't think about it too much, Okay? Don't let your mind dwell on it, I don't think. Just keep on, Just ask that it's as gentle and easy as possible. And that you get all the help you need. And you probably have a few glimmers of who you're going to be on the other side. Like, This one had glimmers of the person Premasuddha is. I had a feeling about this, Of who I was going to become. Yeah, This is great, Veronica. But you know what I'm getting? Showers. Showers. You guys, The showers can help clean the aura, Actually. They can help us. You know that old expression, Onliness is next to godliness? It's true in a way. Showers are really good. Yeah. Yeah. And just imagine any misunderstandings just falling away in the shower. Do you know? Just, You know, That's how to reprogram your subconscious. You just do stuff like that. Imagine misunderstandings going down the drain. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah. Right. Yeah, No, I feel good about you, Veronica. And I feel that even just you bringing this forward, You're going to feel a new calmness coming in. A deeper calmness. Just from this, From exposing this. Yeah. Okay, Very good. I mean, I shouldn't say very good. But it is very good, So there you go. But, You know, I might, The next time I might give you a smack, Right? You never know, But this is really good work. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You go, Girl. Yeah. Yeah. The day in the, With Bajan's, Alma looked, He looked harassed and tired, A little fed up. And I was wondering what it was like for her, You know? And I, I was like, What can I do for this woman? I mean, She doesn't need my help. I can't do anything anyway. But what I did was, I filled the hall with compassion. I just focused on compassion for everybody in the hall, Including Alma. All of you guys, I included all of you. So, I was really concentrating on all of you guys and sending compassion, Everybody in the hall, Alma, And then to the world. And whatever love power is coming through is a result of me going through the spiritual battles that you guys face, And it frees the heart to soar. The topic I wanted to speak to you was about embracing. So, Abraham used to talk about, If you have a problem, If you embrace your problem, You get bigger than the problem. If you fight the problem, The problem stays bigger than you. I want you to really pay attention to this. Because it's, If you understand a few simple things like this, I won't yell at you. Because if you understand these things, You will be moving forward in integrity. You guys hear this stuff with your heads, And I want you to hear it with your heart. If you have a problem, If you embrace it, You become bigger than the problem. It's another way of saying, Basically, Surrender or acceptance. The idea of the embrace might be useful for Alma's children. Because we know about the embrace. So, Lots of times, The thing that slows you down the most is you fight with the problem with your head. So, Nothing gets solved. I want you to stop doing it, Okay? I want you to stop fighting with your heads, Please. Or just give up, Don't do it anymore. Or watch yourself fight with your head, Remind yourself it doesn't work. Give it over to Alma, The creator. Remember this sad saying. Like, You guys, To make real progress, We have to be a little bit mad for God. You have to be willing to really, Really, Really want it. If you're kind of half-hearted, Or you've got a lot of attachments to other things, It's not going to happen. You're not going to make a lot of progress. Embrace things. So, You know, If somebody's making a lot of noise, And you have to go speak to your neighbor about the noise, Don't go, Oh, Should I do this? Should I not? Just embrace the whole situation. Don't fight it, Embrace it. And let your embrace of the situation steer you into action to either complain or not. You know, The internet is full of, You know, Questions to the agony ant, Like, Was I right in refusing to go to this wedding? Was I right? And it's like, It's not really anything to do with right or wrong. It's kind of like, How do you as an individual feel, And you embrace it? You embrace it. And in the embrace, You will feel into whether you should go to the wedding or not, Or go to Christmas dinner with your family or not. Just embrace. Please don't do, Is it right for me to do this? Don't do that. Embrace, And then take action out of that. Don't be like a puppet trying to be good. Be a real human being. Embrace your conflict, Embrace your situation, And just be with it. And then choose an action, And then see the results of that action, Or the results. Like, Was it kind of a good result or kind of a not a good result? It's like, You know, If we're really aligned and in truth, Then the actions, They tend to work better. And so you get the results of an action that was in alignment with your truth. And you'll really know if you take an action that's not in alignment with your truth, It won't feel good at all. Like, You know, You're a divine being in human form, You are entitled to be here. Yeah, Embrace these things, And then just be with, Listen to guidance and follow. That's living in integrity, You guys. That's what this work is, It's preparing you, It's teaching you how to live in integrity, How to climb the mountain. A lot of times you'll do, You know, I've suggested Carlos Castaneda and everything, And sometimes people will say to me, Okay, Yeah, It was good, I read those books, It's great. Or I wrote out my life, You know, What I suggested you do, Write out your whole life, And it's like, You know, It's not done then. I mean, You might have to do it 30 times. You might have to read spiritual books 35 times. It's sort of never-ending. It's not a task that's done. It's a way of life to just want to shine a light in this world, To warm it up, To feel the divine in yourself, And then express it. Yeah, I feel this gets lost. It gets lost because underneath, There's a lot of fear about moving into truth. The thing is, You can move through this fear. Oh, You're scared, Oh, Well. I've been terrified in my time. How about this week? Do something differently. Tween now and the next success sign. Do something different than what you normally do. Experiment. Like experiment with, You know, Putting it into practice. Don't just think about it, Do something, And just see what happens. Whatever it is. You see, You guys, A lot of you go round and round, And you're focusing on yourselves all the time. You're thinking about yourself and your spiritual journey, And you're forgetting just to be kind to people, To hold the door open for them, Say a kind word to somebody who's stressed. And that will give you more progress than endless self-obsessed thoughts. Yeah. And if you're in the stage of self-obsessed thinking, Just embrace it. I mean it, Just embrace it. It's like, Well, Really, Just embrace it. Like, You know, Oh, Well, Just embrace it and just be with it. And ask for help. And I'll tell you, You will get a flicker of light coming in. You will get a window of your mind opening. But you see, The only thing that's going to work is your experience of the journey. So, As you walk it, You get the experience of how it works. You could sit and listen to me till the cows come home, And if you're not walking it, You won't make progress. You learn by doing. You see what works. It's this decoding of your own sweet selves. So, One of the things I learned, That if I saw channels that I would go up into my head, Wasn't helpful, I would get stuck in my head for the next three weeks after seeing a channel. So, I stopped. That was just something I learned about Prama Sutta. I learned not to tell people deep things if they weren't qualified to hear them. I learned that if I tried too hard to evolve, Everything would backfire. I learned that my kids gave me indicators of progress, And when I was getting off, They showed me. You can't really stand inside and prepare for the journey. You have to walk it, And then you find out about it. My heart gets broken very often by how hard you are on yourself. Truly. And some of you actually want to keep it up. And if that, Then you'll get the results of that. You see, Like, The results are inescapable. You're getting the results right now, Like, In your lives. Right now, You're getting the results of your choices so far. And if you don't like them, Then just make different choices. I feel like Amma is giving this energetic balm, E-A-L-M, To your hearts, Even as I'm speaking, To help the medicine go down. To remind you, Kind of, To make space inside and be gentle with yourselves, And how loved we are by the Creator. You know, Some people say 2025 is the start of the Golden Age, And I have heard that 2024 was, You know, A very difficult year. It certainly was for me. But maybe it was just coming before 2025, And we're all going to drip the light fantastic. I don't know. Even if it's just lighter, Yeah, May it be lighter. Yeah. Well, It's supposed to, Isn't it? Sai Baba said it was the start of the Golden Age. Did anybody experience any kind of a change in their life? Any kind of breakthrough this week at all that they want to talk about? Does anybody have any courage to speak at this point? Any sign of spring this week at all? Can you hear me? I can. I don't know if I would say it's a big breakthrough, But maybe on the way there. I don't know. But I feel like sharing. It fits into the thread of what others just did, Sharing a dream. And for me, It's not very common that I remember a dream. And I had last week a very strong dream, Where I have already made my own internal conclusion. I want to share, But would be happy to hear from you also what you think on that. The dream was about, You know, The leftover of my close family, Which is my father, Where the mother this year died, And my sister, Her husband died this year. We were on a boat, On a big ship, Something like a cruise ship or something, And it was about to sink. And I was the only person, For whatever reason, Who called the emergency to the, I don't know where to, And had to give very weird information. Very weird for a sinking boat, But I was the only one who could give it. And then there was smaller random stuff. My uncle was still there. I had no idea why, But that's all I really remember. A massive sinking ship. And the process I'm currently in, That's the end of the dream. And I immediately had, Even in the nighttime when I woke up, I had the interpretation and, Because the process I'm currently in, You know, We're in Europe, In Germany, We're hoping that Amma is coming next year. And we started already in some functions preparing for the potential program, Even it's not confirmed at all. And I was asked to take over a supervisor job for SEWA coordination, Which is totally new for me. And there's already a lot of work, Much in advance. And I really feel it's, For the resources I currently have, It's way too intensive. Because I can manage that job, But I had a very intensive year. Even last year, I just, You know, Recently remembered was very intensive for me. And I think this whole SEWA is currently way too much. And I feel also, You know, How my health is triggered. I'm stressed by it. So the thing is, For me, It's very hard to step back from the responsibility where I gave confirmation I'm already working for five months. But I'm getting to the point that it's time for me maybe to step back. It's not a final, Final decision I have made, But it's a big step for me to say, No, I won't do it anymore, Because it's not doing good to me for the very moment. And I think it has to do with my childhood, Where I very early stepped up and took responsibility for family, To bring peace to my mother and my grandparents, Where my father never took over responsibility. He never brought peace in that house. And it's a major step for me, I think. And I must also, I don't know if I can step back from that SEWA, But I have no answer yet. And I feel maybe she really wants for me to step up and say, Hey, Maybe it's time to look after yourself much more than, You know, Keep on going to take over this supervising role. And for me, It's a major step. So otherwise, The boat will sink. That's the dream. That's my conclusion for the moment. And yeah, I would be happy to hear your thoughts on that. Sweetwin, I'm a little gobsmacked. Remember, Our last conversation was that I hadn't felt that you were listening to me. And so I didn't, I was sort of pushing you back to yourself and saying, You know, Don't speak. And you've, You kind of ignored it and sent me some messages, Which I kind of ignored. And with this, You've, You never, You just ignored what I left you with. We never, It was never addressed about a formal giving you permission to speak in a group, In the group. And this is my experience, Trilla Chan, That you, You walk all over me and what I'm trying to teach you. And I think you ignore your heart. So I think it's, It's not personal. You ignore your heart. So you, You just ignored what I say to you. And that's why I pushed you back in the first place. Because I felt that you weren't really willing to become open enough for me to reach your heart, To be able to help you. So I did ask, You know, I said, Speak up, But we, You know, We hadn't come to terms. And you can't really do that to a spiritual teacher, Sweetie, And expect to make any progress. And it's a, It's a measure of how you just walk all over your own heart and your own guidance, Actually. And you resist getting really close to the truth of you. You're too scared to, Trilla Chan. The voice is gone. I can't hear you. There's no sound, Primasutra. Yeah, I'm not talking. You know, You know, There's a problem about trust, Man, Right? Sorry, I didn't get that. What? There's a problem with trust. Trusting God. Yeah, To some level. Do you, Do you, Will you take responsibility for what I've just said to you? About that we, We hadn't, I hadn't formally given you permission to speak in, Up again, In a group? I mean, I, To be honest, I understood from, I think, A few weeks back when you called me in the group to speak, I thought maybe it was a, I guess it was a total misunderstanding that this is over now. Oh, That's what I understood because you called me out. No, I misunderstood that. Yeah. Yeah, Because I asked, Yeah, I, I mean, I kind of go like, Maybe this is why your ship is sinking, Man, In the dream. It's like, There's a level of trust that I, I don't think you, You felt in the ashram either. And I would so love to help you with this. Yeah. But you, You, You'd have to open up to me to let me do that. You know, All there is, Is love. It's us who are scared. It's us who are caught in alienation and ego. The truth, All there is, Is love. And we make our lives hell because we're so scared of it. You know, There's a line in one of the Bajans about that you have to drown. And sometimes we have to sink and drown before we, Before we are reborn. You're so scared of losing control. Chulachan, But it's hard for you to go anywhere near your heart in a deep way. In a deep, Innocent way. It's really hard for you. It's like, Remember, I don't know if you even thought about when I said to you, You had to get over the Roman centurion. Like, Really, You should have meditated on that, Really taken that to heart, Because it's key, Man. It's key for you coming out of the way you are into a more fulfilling life. You can't fool me. You know, And you're not trying to. You're not trying to particularly, But you're just caught in your ego, So you behave in certain ways. But I'm telling you, This one knows. Yeah, And you have a lot of light inside you that is desperate to, You know, Come forward and be expressed. I'm seeing it. Actually, I'm seeing it more clearly right now. Sorry, I'm not hearing you. No, There's a lot of light in you wanting expression. I'm seeing it more clearly than I've ever seen it in you. And as soon as I said that, Are you hearing me now? Trilija, Can you hear me now? Yes, I do. As soon as I said there was light, The light doused. It went dark immediately. And that's just data. That's how shy you are about letting your light shine. Even me speaking it to you is like, Oh no, Gotta hide it. Control it. It can't be shown. Gotta hide it and control it. And really, Your life is devoted to hiding and controlling this light. And that's why I'm making a fuss. You're worth more than this. And it's a very hard way to live your life. It's much easier just to move into truth. The light's coming back now. It's showing itself again. Good. Good. Good. Yeah. Stand with it. Stand with your light, You guys. Live it. Make a fool of yourself sometimes. Oh, Well. Okay, The light's dimmed. And you're saying to me, I can't do this. You know, It's not you who will do it. Your soul, Ama, Will solve it. Your soul will do it. Your soul will solve it. The light's coming again. You're ashamed of it, Do you know? You see, You guys, Our egos are ashamed of our light. We turned against the light early. Our parents let us know that it wasn't okay. So we get ashamed of it. We'll do something that's actually in truth, And we'll feel shame about it. We'll feel like it's not allowed. It is allowed. You're allowed to love, Trluton. You're made out of love. Right. Actually, It's interesting. There's some happiness waiting for you on the other side of this. You didn't know you were worth that, Atuli. It's like, That's the problem. You don't know that you're worth it. You are worth it. You're an absolute treasure. How about thinking about expressing that in yourself? Is there anything coming up for you to say at all, Trluton? Just before, When you talked about love, I think I can feel it. I mean, There's a lot of things that I can feel. Obviously, There's several things. I think I shared that with you before. For small kids, Animals. And I think in a deep, Strong relationship, I can really, Really feel that. It's not that I can't feel it. At least that's the deepest level I can feel. Especially when I walk past cows or dogs or cats. My heart is like, Wow. It's fully open. There's so much love flowing out. And also in my last relationship with small kids. Wait a second, Wait a second. I feel that your voice is not connected to your heart. So you're talking the way you talk. And it's a bit of a sidestep. It's a sidestep away from the truth, From the more vulnerable truth, The more uncomfortable truth of Trilogy. Please learn to speak from that. Like a lot of the way that you talk to me is to persuade me something. I feel this very strongly. You try to persuade me. And it's like, Just be real. You're never gonna persuade me of anything in Trilogy. You could talk for 20 years. You will never persuade me of anything. I'm trying to help you into more integrity, More truth, Being more real. That will be helpful for your yoga students to have this model to them. How does your body feel right now? I feel, I cannot really describe it, But the chest heart region is very dominant, But I can't say what it is. You can't say what it is. Feel warm, Hot, Heavy, Undigested. I cannot label it with anything. I just feel this is the most dominant region. It's just there without any further labeling I can do. Okay. So you're feeling it then. You're feeling your heart. You're saying that. Yeah. At least this region. But on the other side, There is some milder tension in my arms going down to my hands, Which I know chest. Okay. Good. Okay. So the tension is, You know, Arms reach out and embrace. Okay. Embrace yourself and others, And they reach out. So this tension is part of a complex resisting that reaching out, And it's coming up to be cleared. Okay. So you may in the next week, You may notice that, You know, That maybe the urge to embrace yourself and others, And then in your thoughts withholds about whether it's okay or not, And withholds about whether it's really safe to live with more trust. And just notice this material. It's like, You're only going to get through this Trilogy and by bringing your attention to this level of focus, This more subtle level, You really like staying on the earth plane, And you have to come up a little bit out of it, A little bit like noticing and being with more subtle levels and witnessing yourself and noticing what's going on in your body. And it will be the making of you, Man, And it will be the answer to the sinking. It will be a rebirth of who you're born to be. And it's why you're attracted to this one. I mean, There must be, I mean, This is what I teach. So you must want to get it if you keep coming. You have to let yourself be taught and come along with me. It'll be the making of you, And you'll be very happy you did it. You know how many years it's taken me to be able to stand in truth and be so direct with any male? It's like, This has taken 30 years. You know, In the old days, The male voice, I would just start surrendering. I would just hear the voice and I would start surrendering. Right. But this one has a great gift to give you, Trilla Chang, Really. And I feel that you're able to receive it if you wish. But you're going to have to admit that you're a trainee and be a trainee. I am. Yeah. And become open and honest in a new way. And it will take time, But it'll be the making of you. And I have a lot of trust in you. I've got like, I see who you could be very strongly. I see your very good heart. You just want to stay in control of this relationship with this teacher and you can't be. It won't work. I would finally probably kick you out of the group if it's finally where it would go. And I don't want to do that. I'm hoping that you, You come forward because you could burn a lot of karma very quickly. That's it. That's very good. That's good. That's good. That's good. And, You know, If anybody is ever in a spiritual fire, I am always available to that person to speak on the phone or, You know, If you feel really, Really desperate or really, Really scared. How does your body feel right now, Krilajan? Lighter. Some more inner joy spreading. Yes. Yes. Yeah. That's fantastic. A little bit of surgery. But you guys, It's like this is, You feel lighter. It is enlightenment. You get the results. You can feel it. That's a beautiful shift. And Krilajan, You may need to have a conversation with me. So if you need one, You know, If you start feeling uncomfortable, You can always phone me or you can, You know, Handle things yourself. But there is, You know, This one is incredibly devoted to all of you. And when you're in process, I will be there. Yeah. Because I know how uncomfortable it can be. Wow. Okay. So how's our time? Does anybody, Or is there more you want to say, Krilajan? Is there anything more you need to say? That's a big thank you. That's all. See, This is why it's so important. The Rise of the Feminine. Women, We need to speak up. This is the gold that we've been squishing. This is what needs to be expressed. And I know it's outside the comfort zone, But it's like, Anyway, I'm going to, I don't, I'm going there. Okay, Good. Is anybody, I am a really happy woman. Is anybody, Yeah, I just, Yeah, I see you guys. I mean, You know, Yeah. You know, This, This one is demonstrating the, Oh, You walked the journey, You know? I mean, This one just goes Geronimo and comes forward with what's coming through me, You know? And I have the highest intentions. Right. Oh, I feel, I feel so close to all of you right now. Just so incredibly close to you guys. And I thank you for the level of truth that we've been able to play in today. This is like breaking of a cosmic egg level of truth. It's just thrilling. And this is how, This is how quickly in a way we can evolve, You know, As we get closer and closer to our hearts and we move into more and more trust. Oh, I'm just so happy and grateful. Okay, Really last call for any comments. I'll tell you guys, This week, You're just going to be showered in blessings. I'm going to be pouring it into you this week. I really am. I can feel it. It sort of started with the compassion in the hall, But wow, It's really, Yeah. Blessings, Blessings, Blessings. Okay. I love you so much. Yeah. Here, I'll just, I'll come on to, I'll come on to wave. See you next week.