The Suicide of the Self Now that we have gone through the example of the chocolate,
We can talk about your choice of experimenting yourself as a human being on this planet.
I know that,
To many humans,
The fact of living on this planet might be quite an endeavor.
For some of them,
Living on this blue speck of the universe means the constant struggle against something.
And they start to plan their attacks and defenses against something they don't even know.
They go through life expecting the worst from the others,
And at the same time,
They seek to obtain some kind of advantage from them.
Other human beings are overwhelmed by the idea of not understanding why they are here on Earth.
And therefore,
They suffer because they believe that their acts are of no value.
While another group regards itself as some random produce of the cosmos.
Some produce which,
As a consequence of the mix of the constituent elements of the cosmos,
Gave birth to these beings,
Whose lives are regarded as lacking any sense or purpose.
To many,
Living on this planet can become an excruciating quest.
What these groups feel,
As human beings,
Doesn't end here.
If,
In the midst of such mental exhaustion,
As a result of this standpoint,
We add that there is no point for them in investing so much energy in a purpose of life.
All of them become sheer survivors,
Simple biological elements doomed to die.
But curiously enough,
Struggling not to do so.
The fact of you believing this possesses no problem whatsoever.
You can live in the belief that you are some kind of cosmos produce and a sum of variables.
That nothing in this experience has any sense.
And that you are simply all the interaction of such elements,
Seeking some more air on a planet with little oxygen.
If this is your belief,
If you find no sense at all,
Go in on being what you want to believe in and choose to be.
The world will go on regardless of my beliefs in these books and your belief in this life.
Now,
Let me tell you what I think about living this kind of life.
And just take it as another human being's point of view.
This life is your chocolate.
Your being has created this scenario of chemicals,
Organs,
Tissues and desires.
But here,
On your way to the chocolate,
Your experience on this planet,
You have chosen not to eat it.
You have made the decision to stop this self-run machinery so as not to experiment the taste of chocolate.
The fact of not remembering that you have set out that experience makes you go through the chaotic experience of going against all the creation of your own self.
Who has already freely decided from another time and space.
If,
By chance,
You are part of that group of people who think that all this is worth you quitting as soon as possible,
Or even killing yourself,
Let me tell you something,
Something that you may not remember.
You are the element and the interaction of the whole universe.
The universe spins around you.
And I understand that you may not understand this,
That it may sound so detached or far-fetched,
But if you go against your own creation,
You will create stress in the whole universe.
That same stress which you generate in your own body when you decide to go for the chocolate and finally not eat it.
As you may well know,
And as I constantly remind you,
There is no problem in you wanting to live your life in this way.
And there is no problem either in you choosing to be your stress trigger.
But before you decide to go on living this kind of life,
Let me make one more reflection.
Let's suppose that you decide to run a race.
That's your objective.
You have endless scenarios.
Train yourself.
Finish the race.
Give up halfway.
Get hurt.
Be the first to arrive or the last.
But nevertheless,
Your decision whether to act or not to act in your life will be limited by the objective your life has,
Which is to run that race,
Even if you refuse to run that race.
If we get rid of all these pre-established concepts of philosophy,
Theology and emotions,
Your objective is to be alive.
Therefore,
Everything you decide,
You choose to live or be living,
Will always be determined by the fact of living.
You can embrace life or not,
But it will always be your life,
The one which determines you.
You won't be able to escape from it.
So,
Which shape do you think living your life has?
Harmonious,
Perfect,
Suffered,
Senseless.
What if you're not able to find the meaning of life?
If it doesn't have it,
Why not give it one?
What if you're a random mix of elements?
Why don't you get bewildered at the miracle of life when all the statistics were against you?
What if you don't understand at all what the heck is going on?
Don't keep asking,
Just live.
You're free,
You choose.
