Meditation - Resting In Essence

A gentle inward journey into the quiet beneath becoming. This is not a practice of seeking, striving, or trying to discover something about yourself. It is a descent beneath the familiar ways of knowing yourself, allowing the habitual movements of thought, identity, and self-understanding to grow quiet. Essence is not something you must achieve or a destination to reach. It is a quality that cannot be fully contained by language, defined by the mind, or manufactured through effort. Through this practice, you are invited to soften the impulse to seek, to understand, and to become, allowing a different quality of attention to emerge. A movement away from searching for an answer, and towards resting in what cannot be fully named. A return to the quiet beneath becoming.
A practice of resting in essence.

Transcript

Allow the breath to support your arrival. As your whole being begins to land fully inside of this moment. And as your attention begins to align with the current of my voice and the senses begin to soften into the practice Let the breath be the bridge into this movement Follow the breath a movement towards stillness and towards presence. Releasing the pressure to figure out how to become still how to become present and simply allow the quietude of presence to reveal itself to you as you let the breath guide you there. Allow stillness to wrap itself around you. As your habitual movements release into the quiet the moment. Present. And stillness. All are here for you. Waiting to hold you. Inhale and release through the mouth Allow the breath to settle. Now feel the outline of your body. Trace the entire outline of your body with a brush stroke of your awareness Feel the pulse of the body the heartbeat of your flesh and blood. Follow that pulse down to the feet all the way down to the soles of your feet Allow my voice to guide you around the body traversing the landscape that contains you. We travel around the vessel that holds the nectar of your essence. Narrow your attention and bring it to your right toes. Now move it across the tops of your feet. Up the side of your leg. Over the gentle curves of your torso. Into the hollows of your armpit. Down the inside of your arms across the tips of all your fingers up the outside of your arms over the shoulder along the neck and around your head beginning the descent down the other side of your body Glide your awareness over the neck and shoulders down the outside of your arm. Across your left fingertips and up the inside of your arm moving through the hollow of the armpit along the curves of your torso and hips down the outside of your legs. Across the toes of your left foot. Up the inner thighs over the pelvis down the legs. And gently returning to where you began the right toes. Feel the shape that you have just traced and feel this shape meeting the space around you. Feel how you've inhabited your body more fully with your awareness. And feel your inhabited body breathing. As the body breathes Allow the edges of it to soften Releasing guardedness not because it's wrong. But because in this moment it isn't needed. Let the body register this fully Release guardedness. Now feel the eyes resting behind the lids. Within the darkness, Allow the gaze to soften and widen. Let the intensity behind the eyes gradually dissolve Inviting the forward-facing eyes of the seeking self to turn inwards and let the inner sight begin to wander through the internal corridors of the body. Stay with the mind. It's natural for the mind. To see. And then label what it has found. The tensions and the gripping flutters and the undulations. Simply stay with the mind and observe its natural tendency to seek and name to define so that it may understand. And to identify so that it may know. Love the mind that does this job so well. I see you. I see how hard you work for me. And now bring the breath to the mind Allow the thinking mind to experience the breath as a gateway. Back into the presence of this moment. Feel the breath moving through the skull. The breath is not needing to clear anything away. Simply allowing the movement of the breath to accompany the movement of thought. Let thoughts loosen their hold and in their own time return towards stillness. Let the gentle rocking of the breath meet the boundaries of the mind. Like a soft swell, Rising to meet the bow of a boat meeting. Moving around it. And passing on. Nothing for us. Nothing disturbs. And now guide the swell of the inhale to travel upwards over the crown of the head and the exhale to cascade down the back of the body. Again, The inhale rises through the belly and chest, Flowing upwards towards the crown. The exhale descends along the back wall of the body. You do not need to track the breath or follow it anywhere. Because there's no separation between the breathing body and the breath itself. One continuous movement one coherent living expression And simply allow this circular rhythm to continue the breath rising up the body. The breath falling down the body. Let yourself be carried by this gentle current Rest within this movement Relinquish any notion of doing. Asin. Essence is a quality that resides beneath all that can be named It's not something you do. Or someone you must become before the accumulation of identities and defenses. Expectations and conditioning. There is an original nature that has not been shaped by the world. A nature that precedes your doing. And does not depend on your becoming. Something that is not made more real by what you accomplish or less real by what you have yet to do. Everything you have lived rightfully belongs to the unfolding of your life. Yet beneath the constant movement of choosing, Becoming, Responding There is something that does not require you to keep moving Now trust my guidance and my voice allow the practice to hold you Stay with me now. And come to the edge of what language? Thought. And self-understanding can offer and now let your awareness descend beneath everything you have learned to become not because it is wrong but because it was not required in this moment. Slide beneath the organizing principles of your personality beneath the familiar ways you understand yourself. There is nothing to push away. Nothing to undo simply allow the layers of knowing and naming to grow quiet and descend further you do not need to understand what this is. Or to call it anything. Let the reaching and naming fall away and let go Let go into essence. Rest here. Even the word essence is only a word a gesture towards something that cannot be fully contained in its naming and to follow the form until it reveals its source is an act of devotion that requires all of the senses. It asks us to change the quality of our attention. And the texture of our knowing. Not to search for an answer we can name or to reduce the encounter to what we already know. But to remain present long enough for what lies beneath the familiar to reveal itself Allow the familiar ways of knowing yourself to grow quiet once again and rest in the possibility of knowing without needing to define what you mean Allow yourself to remain here. Nothing to follow. Are fine. Nothing to carry forward. Allow yourself to remain here for as long as you desire. And when you're ready. Allow whatever wants to come next to arise in its own time There is no particular way you need to return or a feeling you need to bring with you. When you feel ready, You allow your awareness to widen once more and include the space around you. There's nothing you need to hold on to. Nothing you need to remember Simply allow yourself to continue. Your own time, In your own way

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