I feel I have walked 100,
000 miles,
Morning after morning,
Day after day.
Some days I feel heavy like I am carrying the weight of the world.
Other days,
Though,
I feel as if I could fly.
The difference between the two are marked by something extraordinary,
And that has to do with my awareness,
My attitude,
My focus,
And my attention.
On days I feel heavy,
I have focused on my perceived pain and suffering,
Replaying old wounds,
Creating arguments where none exist,
Finding a good comeback to someone's careless words,
Even though they've been gone for hours,
Playing in the drama of life,
Real or unreal.
It is in these moments I have wandered away from God.
I have forgotten who I am.
I have watered the seeds of discontent,
And they have grown in me like an overgrown field of weeds full of drama,
Fear,
And suffering.
When I try to cross the field or clear it,
I cannot do it alone,
For when I'm feeling this way,
Although I may feel alone,
I am not.
It is the darkest of times when I have hidden myself from Him,
Too much pain and misery to even notice that He is here with me.
Strangely or amazingly so,
It takes but a whisper,
A gentle hand,
A kind word,
A remembrance of who I am to bring me back,
Back into the present moment,
Where I am and He is with me.
I remember who I am.
I am His daughter.
God knows my pain because He has walked with me.
He has seen me fall away from Him time and time again,
But He has also seen me come back to Him each time.
The deep desire to be with God is always there.
Sometimes it is but a whisper.
Remember,
If I stay still,
Stop the doing,
Stop the thinking,
The planning,
The reviewing.
If I just stop,
Breathe,
And call Him to me,
Pray,
I am filled with His presence,
With stillness,
I am filled with peace,
And then I remember this journey on earth is all about finding unity with God.
Jesus knew it when He called to us.
He taught us about our Father.
He showed us the way.
How many times can you find the words,
Do not be afraid,
In the Bible,
365 times,
Just enough for each day,
And yet we do not listen.
We are shown the path and we stray from it time after time,
And yet no matter how far we stray,
We are forgiven,
We are loved,
We are accepted for who we are and where we are in our journey.
That,
My friends,
Is a blessing.
That is holy.
That is unity with God.
So no matter how many times you stray,
No matter how many times you forget,
Your Father will always draw you back to Him because He loves you.
He loves all of you,
The good,
The bad,
And the ugly.
So sit a while with me today.
Sit with me in the stillness.
Breathe in love.
Breathe in forgiveness of yourself and others.
Breathe in hope.
I will sit with you for a while in His presence today and let us rest together in Him.
Breathe in love.
Breathe in forgiveness of yourself and others.
Breathe in hope.
Feel His peace and let it wash over you.
Feel His love for you and let it fill your soul.
He never leaves you.
Put your mind at ease knowing that you are not alone.
Go forward into this day.
Be kind to yourself.
Forgive yourself.
Love yourself.
Step out of the past and into the light of this moment.
Take each step of this day knowing that His presence never leaves you.
He rests in your heart awaiting for you to awaken to His presence.
You are loved.
Thank you for sharing the presence of God with me today.
Please come back time and time again to feel the light of love.
I am sending you God's peace.
Thank you for spending time with me.
I am Jerilee Sayers,
Here to light your path.
