Cool.
So I guess let me tell you my experience with shadow work.
Shadow work came up for me when I was about to go through my Saturn return.
That was at age 28.
That was around the time I was having my whole spiritual awakening.
The whole 2020 fiasco,
That's what thrust me into a spiritual awakening.
And even right before that I was,
Yeah that was before 2020,
I was talking with a therapist and the whole shadow work concept came up and I was like,
What the hell is shadow work?
And I enjoy researching things.
So I hopped on the internet and I was looking for how to do shadow work.
What is shadow work?
And it was really easy to find this is what it is,
But how the hell do I do it?
I couldn't find anything and all I can find were some journaling prompts and I was like,
This is kind of bogus.
So for me it kind of unfolded naturally.
I think it would be when I would be in my own meditations,
Some nasty memories would come up and I would just go there.
I would just dive in and I would talk to myself as if it were a separate person.
So whatever comes up,
Whenever it comes up,
Trust it,
Okay?
If it makes no sense,
Perfect.
That means that it is,
It's more subconscious than you're aware.
And those,
Those memories,
Those pain points,
The subconscious ones,
Those are the tricky ones that you would never think,
Right?
Who would ever think that you're so messed up because your parents told you you couldn't have that candy bar when you were four years old?
You know,
I guess shadow work is a very broad topic.
Your shadow is the part of you that you don't want to look at.
It's the part of you that you're not proud of until you make friends with it.
And then you learn,
Wow,
Okay,
I own that.
I made that choice.
I own that.
I lived through that experience.
I own that.
It is part of me.
That's what it means to integrate your shadow.
Because the part of yourself that has been hurt,
That has been through pain,
That has been traumatized,
There's so much power and strength in that part of you.
I think the most emotionally mature people are the ones who have been through the most shit,
Because you have to work through it.
You have to accept it.
I also want to mention that there's no like,
Traumatic enough,
Right?
I work with a lot of people and I can tell that they are comparing their traumas to other people's traumas.
And it's hard for them to accept that like,
My life was difficult for me because other people have had it so much worse.
And that's fine.
That's the life experience that those other people needed.
You get to own your experience,
Okay?
It doesn't have to be as traumatic and bad as other people in order to be worthy of being healed.
I went through a while where I would have a dream about somebody,
And then I would wake up and I would go dive into that relationship the next morning.
And then next night,
I would dream about somebody,
I'd wake up,
I'd go heal that relationship.
And that was really healing.
That happened for about a week.
And after that,
I was like,
This is great.
You know,
I accepted a lot of parts about myself,
I accepted a lot of parts about other people.
So that's where it started.
And every once in a while,
I can feel,
I can catch myself,
This area of my life is starting to piss me off.
I'll see what can I do on the 3D level?
What changes can I make?
Might be something a little bit deeper.
Let's take a deeper approach.
And that's when I use this type of shadow work.
If you have something in mind that you are hoping to heal,
Hold on to it loosely.
Okay,
That intention is what brought you here.
If we go in and something different comes up,
Trust it,
Your intuition is going to guide you exactly to where you need to be.
If it seems completely unrelated from the event that you want to work with,
Go there.
Because there might be lingering energy in another area.
If strong emotions come up,
You are safe right now.
Because right now,
You are in your home.
You are wherever you are.
You are in your current reality,
Your body.
This is work with the support of your current self,
With your current evolved emotions,
Your current evolved worldview,
That we are now going back to help a past version of yourself.
So if that thought can help you,
If you do tend,
If you feel a little bit overwhelmed,
Keep that in mind.
Like you're safe,
You're here,
You're planted.
Do we have to be able to visualize for this practice?
No.
What you do have to do is to let go of the rules.
Visualize this.
Imagine that you're here.
See yourself here.
Take those words broadly,
Okay?
I don't see pictures.
When I close my eyes,
I don't see a movie.
Never have.
Don't know if I ever will.
Don't care.
Because there's a different way that I visualize.
I kind of just see strings of energy and it makes sense.
I know what it is.
It's a metaphor.
So if you can't visualize,
Get out of that.
I have to do it this way.
Do what feels natural.
How do you have memories?
Use the same part of your brain that has memories,
Right?
