Daily Reflection January 5 - Total Acceptance

A daily reading from the book “Daily Reflections” by Alcoholics Anonymous. When I was drinking, there was a hole in my soul that no amount of alcohol could ever fill. I was a vapor of a person, a depressive mist of sadness and despair. Today, I'm a completely different person, so much so that I barely remember what it was like at my deepest, darkest depths. May you find solace in this meditation as you start a new path.

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Daily Reflection January 5th Total Acceptance He cannot picture life without alcohol.

Someday,

He will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it.

Then,

He will know loneliness such as few do.

He will be at the jumping off place.

He will wish for the end.

Alcoholics Anonymous,

Page 152 Only an alcoholic can understand the exact meaning of a statement like this one.

The double standard that held me captive as an active alcoholic also filled me with terror and confusion.

If I don't get a drink,

I'm going to die.

Competed with,

If I continue drinking,

It's going to kill me.

Both compulsive thoughts pushed me ever closer to the bottom.

That bottom produced a total acceptance of my alcoholism with no reservations whatsoever and one that was absolutely essential for my recovery.

It was a dilemma unlike anything I had ever faced,

But as I found out later on,

A necessary one if I was to succeed in this program.