Hey,
How are you doing?
Join with me.
Ends.
Let's just take some time together.
Time to be with.
Everything that you're feeling.
Right now.
Whether you're feeling pain and loss,
Sadness,
Grief,
Nausea,
Confusion or just feeling very dead inside.
I recorded this while moving through grief of my own.
So I'm not speaking from somewhere outside of it.
I'm here right in the middle of it too.
When I created this meditation to Just hold some space.
Space for you.
To sit with it all.
However messy and unbearable it feels.
And certainly not to try and change what you're feeling.
Not to have some kind of battle with thoughts and emotions that are running through your body and mind right now.
But to take time to sit with it,
To acknowledge it.
To honour it all.
I added these rain sounds,
Feels kind of fitting,
So.
To begin with,
Just listen to the sound of the rain.
And if you can,
Begin to acknowledge some of whatever you're feeling.
Maybe sadness.
Maybe heaviness.
Maybe you feel nausea.
Maybe you feel confusion.
Maybe there's a lot of anger.
In your being right now.
Maybe you feel regret.
Maybe you feel guilt.
Or maybe you're feeling loneliness.
Guilt isn't one that I expected,
But a lot of what-ifs keep coming to mind.
And they're pulling me down into a hole.
Whenever you're feeling that's okay.
It's all allowed.
It's all uniquely yours.
Let's sit with it.
With some of it,
With all of it,
Or just a tiny fragment.
If that's all that you can carry right now.
And you can close your eyes if that feels helpful you could hold yourself relatively straight.
Or just slumped on the floor.
It's all OK.
It's all allowed.
Meditation can feel so hard when all this is going on.
And so we're not trying to achieve anything here.
Just the fact that you came here,
Chose this and hit play.
That's really strong.
Everything else.
Is a bonus.
Meanwhile,
What can we do?
What can we do right now?
Maybe we can take.
Take one breath.
A real honest breath.
Breathe in.
And breathe out.
And as you continue to breathe,
Just breathe in your own time.
In and out,
Nice and easy.
And in that moment as we breathe,
We come into the body a little bit more.
So the breath is useful,
Supportive,
Real.
As you breathe some more.
Notice your breath all the way in.
And notice it all the way out.
Whether it's smooth or rough.
Shallow or deep.
It's always okay to cry.
And it's always okay not to cry.
As we just feel a deep ache for what was.
And as we fail.
A deep ache.
For what can no longer be.
Feeling whatever you're feeling.
Notice how your body is doing.
Do you feel any soreness or tightness?
Does your body feel relatively relaxed?
I'd be numb.
Is there any pain?
Happiness.
Any dizziness or sickness.
Maybe a feeling of confusion or detachment.
Or you could be feeling just blank.
Very,
Very blank.
It's okay.
I understand.
It's all part of the mix and it keeps on changing.
Sometimes quickly.
Sometimes slowly.
And so we just breathe.
Sometimes that's all we can do.
Breathe in.
And we breathe out.
Making a little room for whatever is here.
Maybe we can even just begin to allow the truth of this moment to be exactly the way it is.
Because you're allowed to be exactly as you are.
Your health.
You're supported.
I'm here for you.
I'm grateful you're here with me.
As I process what I need to process too.
And sit a while longer.
Notice how you're feeling.
And just breathe.
And if thoughts keep coming,
Maybe loud and strong and sharp,
That's okay.
That's so very normal.
Just come back to the breath.
Maybe as you breathe out the body could soften just a little bit.
For the next three minutes,
I'm going to remain silent.
I'm here with you.
I'm here with you as we just sit and breathe.
And allow.
I'm proud of you.
I'm proud of you for being here.
Taking this time.
As we come to the end of this time together,
I really want to.
.
.
I want to really thank you for being here.
It means a lot to me.
Come back to this as often as you need to.
I'm sending you peace.
I'm sending you love.
And I'm holding you in my heart.
For the rest of this day.