Experiencing Self Love

Are you seeking something deeper, but unsure what? Have you been looking for love in all the wrong places? Have you heard the words “self love”, but are unclear on what that means to you in your life? Do you give to others at the expense of yourself? Is your sense of value and self worth wrapped up in what to DO rather than how to BE?

Many people have heard the phrase “self-love,” yet remain unclear on what it means or how to fully experience it. During this session, I will help you gain a better understanding of self-love by offering you the powerful experience of touching in with the light of your soul and feeling the love that you might have been seeking outwardly to find.

Transcript

Hello,

My name is Wendy DeRosa and I'm so glad you're here.

This healing is called Experiencing Self-Love and it was offered as a healing call not long ago.

Before we actually dive into the healing,

You're going to hear me say some things in the beginning of this recording about the process of what it means to tap into spirit guides and angels and to facilitate a healing transmission.

All you need to do is relax and receive.

So let's go ahead and dive right into Experiencing Self-Love.

This is an opportunity for you to close your eyes,

To lean back into yourself,

To receive,

To come out of the head and more into your body and into your heart and into your spirit and just receive some soul food.

That's essentially what it is.

And what happens when I tap into the spirit guides and angels is that there's information that comes through or guidance or direction on the guiding you into a healing.

But in that information,

There's actually transmission that's happening.

So there's healing work that's happening on the subtle body level,

On your spirit body level,

That the spirit guides and angels offer or facilitate for you to get to these deeper layers.

And I'm being a little bit vague about it in the moment because once you get into it,

You'll know what I mean.

There's things that they'll be coming through with,

Information and direction,

And at the same time,

They're working on clearing the energy system.

So you're actually most likely going to feel great,

Feel some clearing and feel some release.

And at the same time,

Make space for the possibility of some feelings to come up,

Some emotions or maybe something you weren't anticipating that gets touched and you might have a tear or a feeling of anger or something comes up.

Make space for that.

Don't make it wrong.

Just accept that it's part of what's bubbling up and needs to be released.

We have a lot of pockets of stored stuff in us.

And sometimes the only way for that stuff to come up or to release is to come up and out through our feelings.

So just,

You know,

See it as a good thing and bless it and thank it for showing up and make space for it and breathe through it.

Tonight's topic is self-love.

And it's a topic that is coming up more so now that we're becoming more connected to our self,

To our spirit and living more from our,

I'll say our spirit,

But basically living more from our heart and pursuing purpose and passion and direction and meaning in our life.

So,

You know,

We're just in this time where it's not serving us to live asleep anymore,

To live,

To work jobs that just pay the bills or to live shut down or to live suppressed on any level.

A lot of people are waking up to the light inside them and wanting to explore that more.

So this conversation about self-love is a part of that experience.

And what it is,

What we're,

There's a lot of ways we can look at self-love.

A lot of self-care pieces like making sure we're getting enough sleep and we're tending to our needs and we're tuning into ourselves and we're,

You know,

Giving ourselves any kind of pampering things like bodywork or baths.

Not that those are pampering,

Sometimes those are necessities.

So we,

There's a lot of ways we can give to ourselves self-love.

I want to take tonight a notch deeper and I want to guide you through an experience of understanding love on the subtle body level.

And part of that is going to be about going into some layers inside yourself where consciousness stores.

I'm going to explain that.

We go through experiences in life growing up through our lives and in our experience of life we gather layers of imprints,

Experiences that happen in our life that will leave an imprint and that imprint will be a part of how we develop and grow.

Some of those imprints are great,

They're learning lessons,

They're how we grow,

They're how we strengthen and become who we are.

Some of them are actually wounds.

So we carry blocks and wounds and layers where we actually disconnect from ourselves.

And when we have disconnection from ourselves or we have what I'll call negative imprints inside our self,

Inside of our being,

Then we're not necessarily able to connect to love for ourself during that time period of life.

Instead we're connected to a feeling that was going on at that time of development that might have been hard or difficult.

So instead of love we might be feeling fear,

We might be feeling anger,

We might be feeling confusion or something else that's happening during that developmental time period of our life.

So part of this healing is to go in to these deeper layers inside ourselves to start to release some stored blockage,

For lack of a better way of saying it,

Blockage,

Layers,

Negative imprints,

To allow ourselves to start to fill in love into those spaces.

Because what happens in our development growing up is that we're not necessarily,

Not everyone,

I'm making a generalization here,

But we're not necessarily nurtured with self-love from the very beginning.

And it's not anyone's fault,

It's how our consciousness level was or how society was at the time.

We were raised in different eras and so everyone was going through something collectively in different eras at different times and unfortunately that affected us on sometimes negative ways.

So what we're going to look at here is what is love on the deepest level in our being?

How do we connect to that love?

How do we clear some blocks to connecting to that love?

And how to start to fill in the spaces?

How to have deeper love for self,

Which is more embodying of love within self.

So hopefully that's clear.

I guess I'd say the most concrete I can give you of a deep energetic experience.

So I just hope that you'll be able to receive it and just relax and open your heart and your mind and we'll dive in.

So I'm going to turn my camera off and I'm going to move to my meditation seat and we will get started here.

So you can go ahead and begin with just closing your eyes and feeling yourself settle in to your sit bone.

Sit bones make contact with your seat and as you start to bring your breath down lower in the body,

See if you can imagine that there's any concentration of energy up towards the head starts to come down almost like you're dropping an anchor and the energy starts to move down lower into your body.

And then imagine what it might feel like to roll out energetic red carpets down your legs.

They'll roll out your energy down through your legs.

It'll allow our energies to embody to come down into the body to bring our breath and awareness.

Feeling your legs,

Feeling your feet,

Feeling your breath,

Your belly.

And then imagine that you have a strong grounding cord that runs from your hips and your sit bones.

It's like a tree trunk that goes all the way down through the layers,

The different layers of the earth.

And again,

Anywhere you might be mentally start to imagine what it feels like to extend this tree trunk deep into the earth and allow it to sprout its roots.

And then any of your energy that's been anywhere else with anyone or in transit,

I want you to imagine that from your tailbone up through the crown of your head is your pillar of light,

Your central pillar,

Your center.

And all your energy that's been moved out of that center,

It's going to call it back in.

Bring all of you back in to your center from anyone or anywhere it's been.

Anyone it's been with or anywhere it's been.

And then around us is a beautiful sphere of divine grace,

Holding this healing space,

The circle of light and healing.

Around each of us individually is our own auric field and there's beautiful gold light around that right now for healing.

And I'd like you to imagine right now that you are going to breathe into allowing this space to be held for you.

So allowing this gold light to shine in towards you,

Giving you the signal to your energy body that you are held,

You are loved,

You are protected,

You are perfect.

And then I pray here that our angels and our spirit guides surround us.

We all have them.

They're here to support us on our journey,

Guide us as we open up to allowing faith and trust in the divine process.

They assist us.

And that they hold this space as sacred and provide guidance.

And I pray that my connection is open to God and that I receive light through my crown chakra,

To my third eye,

My throat,

My heart,

Continuing down into the earth through lower chakras.

It's protected with pure love,

This connection.

I pray that this healing is conducted in the highest good of each of us individually and of the planet.

Silently,

To yourself or out loud,

You can accept this healing.

Good.

And so I see the spirit guides and angels around us.

I'm going to just deliver the information that's coming through.

They're saying greetings from our hearts to your hearts,

The frequency of love,

Of divine love,

The pure essence of grace that is around you and around your spirit and has been around your spirit for many lifetimes,

In and out,

In and out of bodies and into this lifetime also.

In your purity,

In your youth,

In your infancy,

You have been wearing this divine essence energy as pure and clear light around you.

And we are shining this light in your direction as if you are that baby again,

As if you are that pure essence again.

And we see you in your spiritual light as such.

And we are guiding you through clearing some layers that have created perhaps some fears or some density around your energy field.

And that may serve as protection or walls or blocks that may keep you from seeing this divine essence within yourself.

But this is the true essence of love,

The light from spirit.

And your spirit does shine through in your lightness,

In your joy,

In your laughter,

In your smile,

In your bright eyes.

This love does come through.

But what happens are moments of forgetting.

Forgetting because some other consciousness comes in at work.

It's the consciousness of fear,

It's the consciousness of wounds that surface.

And so we are inviting you at this moment to visualize in front of you your baby essence,

Your infancy.

And it's okay if you don't actually know what that looks like.

But imagine what your soul conjures up as your infant essence.

Create that in your mind,

Your imagination,

And see that image before you.

And see how much brightness and purity and love that beams from this little baby you and beams towards you.

This is the light of yourself.

This is the love of yourself.

In this innocence,

Your spirit and your body are one.

You know not yet pain or hurt or programming or fear.

You transform the world around you just by your presence.

Because you are new,

You are fresh,

You are purity,

You are pure love.

I invite you to connect to this picture of yourself.

We are going to take you through a clearing.

Going to let this picture of your innocence,

Your baby self,

Move to the side for a moment and bring into the center focus the first image or picture that comes to you of yourself where you feel contracted from that essence.

Perhaps unable to feel it.

Somewhere in your youth,

A challenging time,

Difficult time.

We invite you to see yourself there in front of you.

And you are a child or a youth.

And perhaps notice if that part of you has developed some layering,

Some programming,

Has taken on more than what was yours.

It began to shape your thoughts and your feelings about yourself.

Those feelings started to grow inside.

And as they grew inside,

Perhaps those feelings became more self-critical.

Not making space for love.

We invite you to see yourself in this young and vulnerable time.

In a time period when you needed love,

Not confusion or fear or any other feeling.

You needed love.

And to love yourself now means to love these time periods of your life.

To love yourself during these difficult times.

So see yourself.

Begin to open your heart to that version of yourself.

And send that part of you so much love for what he or she went through.

You see the need.

The need was for love.

But what got absorbed was something else.

As you send love to the deeper need inside this part of your youth,

Let this part of you transform.

Loving this aspect of yourself.

We're going to let this aspect of yourself,

This young part of yourself now,

To remember the infant self,

The baby.

The baby who walks into a room,

Who lights up the room,

Or is carried into the room and lights up the room.

See this aspect of your baby self.

Now enter the picture in this child self and the baby self embrace.

The child self has a somatic and energetic experience of holding the baby.

Remembering his or her essence.

Take some deep breaths and let the negative imprinting dissolve.

The fear,

The projection,

The confusion.

Let the baby and the child bond,

Come together and feel.

Start to feel a sense of love between the two of them.

And within your own heart.

Now these two are going to work together and they're going to join you,

Your adult self,

In advancing in consciousness to an older age,

Maybe teenage years or later youth.

Another difficult time for you.

A place where it's been hard to love yourself because that time period was so challenging.

You weren't feeling love for self then.

You were feeling something else.

Start to focus in on that time period and who you were at that time in your struggle.

See you and perhaps all the mistakes you felt like you made or all the shame you may have carried or all the rage or fear or insecurity.

Open your heart to that image of you,

That picture in your mind.

Because the deeper need was love and send him or her love.

Beam it from your heart.

You have helpers here,

Your infant self and your childhood self,

Who have just come together to bond to love and to remember love.

The glow,

The purity,

The innocence and the joy.

And they come around that version of you that is in pain and they also beam love.

They invite this part of you to soften,

To forgive,

To be forgiven,

To release.

To remember that all he or she is needed in that given moment of time was love.

From your heart and from your infant heart and child heart,

You're inviting this part of you to remember love,

To feel love,

To accept love.

Perhaps the younger versions of you invite this other version of you,

This older version of you to play,

To soften,

To laugh.

Continue to breathe as you're releasing any old pain,

As you are beaming love.

These old pain points,

These old dots that need to get connected,

Need to plug back into love.

Confirm by saying to this part of yourself,

I love you.

I'm sorry,

I forgive you.

You are perfect.

I love you.

Dance one more time to another aspect of yourself,

Perhaps later in your life.

Invite this part of you in to join the other aspects of you who have received your love.

Invite that aspect of you into the circle.

This part of you may be a little wiser,

Have a little more forgiveness in yourself,

A little more awareness,

But yet still needing to remember love.

You need to take the deeper need inside yourself as love.

See your infant self,

Your childhood self,

Your later adolescent or teenage self,

And your adult self together in a circle,

Embracing each other.

Allow them each to feel in this moment a feeling of union,

Coming together to be seen,

To be loved,

To be felt by you.

Now imagine that the four versions in front of you are standing next to each other,

Directly in front of you.

And there is a beam of grace,

A beam of light that is flowing down to the back of their hearts.

And that beam of light is signifying healing,

Forgiveness,

Connection,

And acceptance.

You're going to see all four people,

All four versions of you start to merge into one light,

Come together into one light,

One spirit.

And that spiritual essence in front of you is the brightest light of love that you could possibly imagine.

And start to feel that your heart opens up to that light in front of you.

You're going to call this part of you back home.

Call this love in.

For a long time you may have fragmented some parts of yourself,

Outside of yourself,

And it's hard to love self when we're in different places.

In this moment,

Open your heart and receive by calling in this aspect,

This full glowing love that's you.

Deep breaths in,

Bring it into your heart,

Into the core of your being.

Integrate into all of your internal organs,

To places where you've felt empty,

Alone,

Scared,

Lost.

Fill you up with the love that you may have been seeking outward or in someone else to feel that fulfillment.

Fill you up.

Fill it into your belly,

Into your pelvis,

Into your legs,

Into your heart,

Into your throat,

Into your spine,

Your head.

Fill yourself up with this beautiful healed remembrance of your true light essence,

When we can love the parts of us that we're suffering,

To meet that deeper need of love,

We can gather ourselves into wholeness and feel that love again for self.

Now visualize here that a beam of light comes down through the crown of your head,

And that this is divine grace.

This is a shower of love.

And as you lean back into it,

Perhaps it lifts your posture,

And there's a feeling of light coming into the back of your heart.

The back of the pillar connects to the back of your heart.

Take some deep breaths there.

Fill yourself up with love.

This is your pipeline.

This is your connection to receiving divine love.

Shower it through,

Receive it,

Take it in,

And let it fuel you.

And so we'll allow this beautiful love essence that's filling in this beautiful light,

Igniting your spirit and your spiritual light,

Becoming brighter and bigger,

As if it's expanding beyond your physical form,

Expanding beyond your skin.

And it brightens the energy essence around you.

That's your aura,

The energy field around your body.

And as it brightens that field,

It detoxifies anything that's weighing on you,

Making you tired,

Distracting you,

Clogging your clarity.

Your bright essence,

Your desire to fill yourself with loving wholeness,

Expands beyond your skin and brightens the energy field,

Clearing your mind.

Your mind is your energy field,

Brightening that energy around you.

And then imagine feeling that gold light again around the outside of your energy field shining in to you.

And it helps to draw your aura towards your skin,

Not squeezing it,

But giving you a nice hug.

So your aura hugs you because there's this beautiful golden light forming just a sweet boundary around the outside of your field to hold your container.

Sometimes we need those boundaries to feel ourselves.

And with your hands in prayer at the center of your heart,

Take a bow to yourself,

To the light within you,

To the growing light within you.

And know that at any time you can see an image of your history and send love to that part of yourself,

You can repeat this type of healing.

Send yourself love.

And that self-love is about connecting to these time periods or these dots in our history where we may need to connect,

Tune in,

Send love to,

Slow down.

And then as a result,

We start to feel ourselves.

And as we feel ourselves,

We feel the light,

We feel love,

We feel our intuition,

We feel our sense of self.

I pray that this healing support you in deepening your connection to self-love for yourself and that you're able to take this healing and radiate the love within you outward,

To expand the love within you.

And that from that place of self-love,

May you feel centered and aligned.

And also,

Maybe,

Perhaps,

The love that glows from you touches someone else's life.

I pray for this and more.

I pray that as we come together collectively to do this deep work,

That perhaps one person at a time or many people at a time were on this mission to heal our planet,

To offer healing to this planet.

I give thanks for this opportunity to be of service here in the highest way that I may be.

I pray that we all walk in the love and the light of who we are and that we may be guided by our own true heart every step of the way.

And thank you.

So thank you,

Everybody,

For calling in on this healing.

And it might take a minute to be with it.

Take as much time as you need.

Be sure to take care of yourself the way that it is appropriate for you so your own intuition will tell you,

Do you need to rest?

Do you need to move?

Do you need to write?

Do you need to breathe?

Sing?

Whatever you need to do.

Be with this healing.

Drink a lot of water in these next couple days.

That does help flush your energy and to help you integrate the work.

So blessings,

Everybody.

Have a wonderful night.

Thank you,

Everybody.

I hope you've enjoyed this healing call.

Feel free to listen back to it any time you need some deeper introspective healing work.

And again,

My name is Wendy DeRosa.

And should you find that you'd be interested in learning how to develop your intuition or checking out any of my programs or offerings,

Please visit my website.

It is schoolofintuitivestudies.

Com.

And from the bottom of my heart,

I send you many blessings and love on your journey.

And may you walk in the love and the light of who you are.

And may you be guided by your own true heart every step of the way.

And thank you.

Reviews

Wow! Thank you for this. Wendy- you are a blessing to me and to so many others on this planet. I especially loved the bigger healing of the planet by being a clear channel for love starting with ourselves. 🙏🏻❤️

Lovely! Thank you for sharing this, it was just what my heart and selves needed. Much love! ❤️❤️❤️

So good 😊 I have to share

Wow - just incredible. I love your way of being. Thank you so much! 🌟

Beautiful thanks x

One of the most intensive healings I’ve ever experienced . Thank you so so much

Exactly what I've been needing! Thank you so much. I already feel myself letting go of concern about others and moving into focusing on myself, my needs and the fact that I am pure love and it feels good to be in that love energy all the time regardless of where those around are at ✨

Your teachings are exceptional.

This is always such a powerful meditation. 💚Very grateful to be able to access it. 🙏

Beautiful, thank you 😊🙏❤️

Beautiful. I feel at peace with myself not at loggerheads with myself fighting all these emotions at once. I have released all my negativity and I now can concentrate on loving myself more. Thank you 🙏🏻

I will continue working on myself and will definitely come back to this meditation. I will also try other meditation by you.

😊🙏🏻😊

Really moving experience, cried like a baby! Just what I needed.

A truly wonderful and powerful experience- much needed and I certainly felt a shift towards self love- a great healing experience to carry me forward - grateful thanks to Wendy and my angels and guides 💚💖💚.

This was very interesting! I want more!

Very safe and deep guidance for self love and healing.

Your work is in its own realm... thank you for offering it hear, perfect perfect perfect... Thor’s who do not get it are either not ready or don’t need it ... so all is well ❤️⭐️❤️

Powerful...it helped me to see where I was still not aligned, thank you. 💕