Torn Between

This poem reflects on the ever-contradicting aspects of this Life; painting a picture of the dance that we sometimes ache dearly in dancing, yet are drawn in towards, sometimes inexplicably. This poem is meant to bring forth a sense of belonging, through naming something so familiar yet often fearful simultaneously.

Thank you for listening, and for being here, too.

Transcript

Torn between two worlds inextricably tied tightly knotted ever winding ever wondering connect to bliss peace and presence or chase and run and laugh and play the day and night long away and i want to dance in joy and bliss not evasion of truth pleasure ceases to please my senses as day breaks and mind calms the body aches and heart longs for more for life pulsing through me fill me with devotion satisfy my everlasting desire my deepest longing my hardest pull let me feel you life taste you pleasure as peace and presence happiness evades no longer let happiness be safe once more opening the new door to step through and let go of what is scary to doing not being has me running and fleeing kicking and screaming but mostly numbing and laughing hiding and scrolling rolling through the parquet floors of my anxiety driven mind thoughts wrought and rumbling over rocks and tumbling boulders of weighted heavy stone and carefully abandoned jagged shapes of grey and clay.

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That was truly amazing! Thank you Sydney, powerful words 🙏🙏🙏