You.
Welcome.
Settle yourself somewhere you can be still for a little while.
Sitting or lying down,
Whichever your body would prefer.
You can close your eyes if you'd like to.
If you'd rather keep them open and soft.
Resting somewhere in the middle distance,
That's just as good.
And if at any point you'd like to stop.
Or move or open your eyes and come back to the room,
Please do.
Nothing here needs to be endured.
Let your hands rest wherever they fall.
And take one breath that's a little longer on the way out than it was on the way in.
And another.
Letting the shoulders come down.
Letting the jaw be sore.
There's nothing to solve for the next few minutes.
Nor else you need to be.
I'd like you to imagine,
If you can,
That you're standing outside on open ground in the last hour of the dark.
It's that hour before the dawn when the world hasn't yet decided whether to be blue or grey.
The air is cool and clean.
And somewhere out there,
Beyond you,
The land rises.
A hill.
A long,
Soft shoulder of ground.
Dark against a sky that's only just beginning to pale.
Feel the ground under your feet,
Grass maybe.
Damp with the night.
Peat and heather and stone.
And notice you can't see very far.
Can't see the top of the hill.
You can't make out the path.
You can barely see your own feet.
And that's alright.
Nobody has asked you to see it.
Just stand here a moment in the dark on the cool ground.
And let yourself be someone who doesn't know the way.
And then over the shoulder of the hill where you know the high ground must be.
There is a light.
Not the sun,
Not yet.
Something smaller and warmer than that.
A single point of gold.
Low on the ridge,
As though someone has lit a small fire up there or set a lantern down in the heather.
Take a moment and just look at it.
Notice what it doesn't do.
That doesn't light the whole hill for you.
It doesn't show you the path or the rocks or the soft boggy ground you'd have to pick your way around.
It doesn't tell you how long the climb is or what's on the other side.
It gives you one thing only.
It shows you which way is up.
And you might notice something in your chest when you see it.
Not excitement,
Particularly.
Something quieter than that.
A kind of steadying.
A particular relief of a person who's been standing in the dark and now has somewhere to face.
Soul.
When you're ready,
And only then,
Take one step toward it.
Just one.
Fuel the ground,
Take your weight.
And notice the ground was there.
You couldn't see it.
And it healed you anyway.
Take another.
And another.
And as you walk,
Something begins to happen.
Something you couldn't have known from standing still.
The next few feet of ground keep appearing.
Not before you get there,
Just as you arrive.
Step and the ground is there.
Step and it's there again.
You still can't see the top.
You still don't know the way.
And you are.
Nonetheless,
Climbing.
Let yourself walk a while in the cool dark toward that small gold light.
There's no hurry in this.
Nobody's timing you.
The light isn't going anywhere.
And if it helps,
You might let your breath be the walking.
And I'm down.
Wednesday.
Be in the next Now the ground beneath you is levelling.
The claim is easing.
And the light that was over the hill is no longer over the hill.
It's here.
Stand in it for a moment.
Let it be on your face and your hands.
It's warmer than you expected.
And when you're ready,
Look out from where you're standing.
There's more country out there.
There always was.
Another glen.
More hills going away into the blue.
Some of them you can see,
Most of them you can't.
And that's alright too,
Because you know something now that you didn't know at the bottom.
And you know it in your legs rather than your hips.
You are never going to be shown the whole way.
And it was never required.
The next few feet were always enough.
We still are.
Now in your own time,
Begin to let the hillside go.
That's okay.
Come back to the weight of your body wherever it's resting to the room around you.
It's the zones aren't it?
Feel your hands,
Feel your feet,
The same feet that just did all that walking.
And take one more breath.
Longer on the way out.
If you'd like to,
When you open your eyes,
You might carry one small thing back with you not the whole hell.
Just us.
The next few feet are enough.
Whenever you're ready.
Open your eyes Take your time.
Thank you for walking with me.