Turn Your Cup Upward To Receive Grace And Joy

Premasudha felt great joy after a transformative Satsang durimg which members stepped into a fresher, more instinctive way of living. Following through on this spiritual journey opens us to Grace, which can be actively received by imagining our bodies' cells as upright cups ready to be filled. This symbolic play powerfully aligns the psyche with the Creator, much like children practicing for life through play.
While several participants experienced major breakthroughs, anyone currently struggling will reach the sunny side of life by persisting. We must hold deep compassion for ourselves in our societal conditioning. Dreams—like Eva’s—also accelerate our evolution and open hearts. Ultimately, spiritual progress thrives on humility, self-compassion, and continuous remembrance of the Creator, keeping in mind that everyone eventually faces a life review.

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So we've all turned our cups right side up. Be able to receive the grace. And please think of this during the day. Turning your cup. Right set up so you can receive it. Yeah, And so it is. May you become great receivers of grace. I'm going to spotlight again. What these set sayings are about. Remember I talked in a couple of sessions ago about how the scientists have found that the mother's milk changes depending on not only the sex of her body, Whether it's the eldest or youngest or middle, It changes. Depending on the baby's health. And the baby's saliva goes into the breast. And the mother picks up what antibodies to send to the child. Okay, Now we can understand this at the level of information. Okay, That's the baby's information to the mom. And what she gives back. Or we could look at this and say, This is love. This is the power of love. This is how the Creator is with us. Just like the mama, The nursing mama. The Creator gives us exactly what we need. It responds, The creator responds, Amma responds. Anybody who spent time with Amma knows that Amma will pick up the subtlest things about you and respond. She'll pick up on your needs, Your emotional state, Your pain. Subtlest wishes. It's love, You guys. Love is this information. When we were calling it information, The information, It's It's an alienated perception of what unconditional love is, Which is warm. Hmm, Exuberant, Forgiving. Full of information. What you guys often when you come to me, You don't get the you don't understand the love, You don't actually receive it, Your bodies do not, Your bodies are vibrating at an alienated vibration. And this is what makes it hard for you to receive grace some of you. And it also makes it hard for you to understand what I'm talking about. But you can feel it in your heart, You can feel. You can feel like you. It's like, You know, It's true. You hear it. You know, It's true. It's just you, Your head has been trained away from it. But we're at this time where we can grow very fast, We can get it very fast. And part of the reason we get it really fast is really, We've got like, Do you guys want to have the courage to embody it, Or do you want to have the courage to face the Third World War? Because that's kind of it. So if you have the courage to embody this, This is what helps bring love. Brings love to this world, It brings love to your lives. The bin. A couple of people. A couple of you guys had spiritual falls. And one person has had kind of. . . You know, They were opening and then their opening has got lost in defensive. And. They might not see it that way. They might just go like, Well. Maybe it's all. Nonsense. But this one's opening has got lost in defenses. The ego will. Try to sideline growth. So if you're half set of a fall, And if you're in a situation where you've been having a wonderful opening and it's suddenly gone haywire, All you do is just observe. You keep praying. Keep reminding yourself like that, You know, I don't know that Rome wasn't. . . Get roaming a day, You know, It's like stuff takes time. Pregnancy is nine months, You know. For the uncomfortable. It's like we all go through ups and downs. And just find the strength. Inside to keep affirming. That you want to. Embody your true nature. No matter what. This is what Prema Sudha did. And that's why I can transmit to you. The knowledge and more than the knowledge I can transmit, I am transmitting to you. Well, It's all coming through, Premasuddha. Premasuddha is just a vehicle. Of unconditional love, Which is touching your mind's bodies, It will actually even be touching your past. It won't be. Working with your past and and working with your future as well as your present all at once. It's how it works. It's so big. It takes time to understand how big it is and along the way, You know. We have these openings and the ego has definite ideas of how it wants our spiritual journeys to go. You guys, You have to understand this. The ego, I told you that I was sure that this gentleman was my soulmate. We were to get together. You know, When that didn't happen. I was like. . . You know. Devastated and full of doubt. Throwing temporary chat jokes, Basically. But it was just my ego coming in with like. . . A false belief about the way my journey should go. And I'll tell you the way journeys go is over time. You will feel peaceful. Y'all love people more, You'll love yourself more, You'll demand less from people. You know, Everybody will like find you attractive. You'll be smarter, You'll be more capable, You'll be happier. You'll be more peaceful. It just goes on and on. These are the results of this virtual journey if you just keep going. So please, You guys, You gotta find your ovaries, Or if you're a guy, You gotta find your balls. Nothing, You know, Nothing, Everything that's worthwhile has some kind of a struggle. Pregnancy and giving birth is a struggle. So what I'm going to be asking of you guys. Is to learn to embody your true nature. That's what this work is. You know, I'll tell you being wishy-washy about it. Doesn't work. It's okay to go slow. But you have to want it. There are a couple of Eva's in our group, But this is I'm going to call on the Eva who's been with us for a while. Let's go with your dream. It's a dream about embodying. Okay, It is a dream. Talking about. How embodying your divinity happens. I was hardly on to share the dream in the last satsang and I didn't because I was too shy. I don't know, I wasn't fast enough. My heart was beating very fast and I know, Okay, I have to share this dream right now and I didn't do it. Somebody else spoke to me, Spoke in the satsang and Then I found, Okay, This is not. Time maybe later but then the satsang was over so I didn't share and But I shared the dream to Prima Sudha by email and. . . Um. . . Yeah, We talked about it yesterday. Yeah, I'm just gonna come in. Okay. And it's good. We're talking about it before the dream. Okay. I want to make something really clear. I have told Eva. For three years. She needs to come forward. That she has a problem with ambivalence and she needs to step forward. So I get an email from her. With this dream and I immediately have a hugely strong visceral reaction. And I could feel that it was. Eva's dharma or soul duty to come forward with this stream in the satsang. And she wrote this email, And again, She'd quivered, Ambivalent, Oh! You know what I do with these guys? Premasuda wasn't having it at all. I wasn't having it at all. I said to her, This is the thing. That is getting people removed from satsangs, You guys, Like not the new people, The people who've been coming for two or three or four years and the ones who know Amma. I am removing the people who do not follow my guidance. And I felt it violently. It was very, Very upsetting. Viscerally. And this showed me. Yeah, This showed me. I got such a strong sense of the adharmic-ness, The going against the creator. Especially when an awakened teacher has said to Eva several times. Yeah, You're honor bound if you come to these satsangs. The people who've been coming for two or three years, Who know Amma, Are honor bound to follow the guidance, To experiment with it. You know, Follow it to experiment with it. I'm not talking about submit to Premasuddha as a personality. I'm talking about making the guidance that Premasutha gives. So poor old Eva got quite a shake. But it is, I'm talking about, I mean it about the Third World War, You guys. We're not, I'm not kidding here. It's like there is no such thing as a comfort zone anymore. You are either going to get like the discomfort of waking up or you're going to get the discomfort of absolute chaos and more. So which do you want? So I'm just asking you to put Prema Sutta's suggestions into practice. And experiment. Okay, So poor old Aether got. . . You know, Got all this. But it's very auspicious a dream. And then there's a second dream that points to Premasuda feels what would happen if all of us. Actually. Took action in this heartfelt way in our own lives, Wove this love into our own lives. But give a first your first drink. Yeah. We have a group with Prima Sudha, And I'm sitting. . . Right in the middle on a big chair or a kind of table. And I was asked to Do something for the group. And. So I did. I started just trembling. I started shaking my body. I don't know why. It just happened. And I felt, Okay, I have to shiver. I have to shake. And it gets stronger and stronger and stronger. The chair was starting to shake too. And I'm looking at Prima Suda and. . . She gives me a sign. Yes, Yes, That's it, That's it. Go on, Go ahead. And I start shivering and shaking stronger and stronger. My whole body vibrates. Um The energy is. . . Not only staying on myself, On the chair, It's also going to the group and everybody has a kind of Yeah, It goes to everybody and it goes through all the group and I find okay. This is what I can give. This is what happens. Shall be like, It's quite OK. And Prima Suda is, She's sitting quite. A little bit to my right side and she is stretching out one feet and I take her feet I lay it on my My leg. And hold, I just hold this feet and she. . . Yeah, She. . . And you're safe. She enjoys it and um She stretches out the other feet and I hold both and I feel, Okay, It's good. This is what I can do in this moment, Just feeling my energy, Feeling also a kind of healing energy and just holding the feet and transferring the energy to the group. And I woke up after this dream and I was very fulfilled and very happy. There was, Of course, There were, When I, Which, Why I hesitated was that I was also a little bit embarrassed about it, And I was shy about it, And I didn't want to rise my ego, Who I am. It was a little bit chaos in my head and I just I just didn't speak up. I wasn't fast enough to speak up, But I really wanted to share it. I'm happy that I can share this dream with you now. Yeah, You just got sidelined by your fear, Which operates as self-deprecation. Okay, So witness it. Witness it. You got sidelined. This is what happens, You guys. Yeah, Witness it. See it when it happens and feel it. And you feel it. And you feel. Like how it feels really bad. Okay, So I know Amma is going to bring all this back to perfection, But I also know that if Eva had just overcome her self-deprecation and spoken it, It would have had a huge impact on the group. Now, It's already There was already a lightning. That I could feel with everyone. But every time we. . . We get sidelined by fear, It costs. You cannot fight fear. But you can witness how much it just gets in the way. Yeah. Yeah. Now Eva had a second dream. Another very auspicious dream. Don't you mind sharing that? Yeah. Yeah, Yeah. Well, I live in a very, Actually I do, In a very loud street. And. I'm going down the stairs and I'm going out of the street. There are four traces, Normally four traces with cars and it's a very, Very loud street. I go out and I just look and I see, Wow. What happened overnight, Really overnight, Two of the traces were just covered with very, Very green and very, Very soft, Beautiful grass. They changed it overnight. What was left was. . . Two traces for the cars and the rest was for bicycles and for this beautiful carpet of grass. I couldn't believe it because it changed overnight and it was just wow, What did they Give it to me here. It's just such a big present. Um, One car was was. Driving by and I jumped in the air and I was like, Woohoo, This. I was so happy and I was really, Yeah, Just. . . Something changed and afterwards I had the feeling that, Okay, Ways and streets can change and it can happen very fast. I was very grateful, Yeah, After this dream, Because I had kind of feeling, Okay, Somehow might be on the right path. We, Right. Okay, Good. We get definite. Feedback that are on the iPad. And that is. My feeling is pointing to a big change in your inner climate. Becoming more peaceful. Yeah, Unless. . . Rattle. And I also think that if enough of us Do what I'm talking about right now. Open up to receive grace and learn how to embody our true natures, That all the disturbances in the outside world would alter overnight just like that. Stuff, Problems would just dissolve, Just like that. This is my experience of unconditional love that I'm speaking from. Yeah. And that's why I'm wanting to raise your minds up and your eyes up to you have power. You guys have the power to do this. If enough of us do it. Yeah and and may you become bold in service to humanity and bold in in like stepping forward. Remembering, You know, Like one might feel nervous and everything, But one, But, You know, To give the gift. We come forward to give our gift. Even when we're nervous and our heart's beating. Yeah, And. Eva, You need to learn to do it over and over again, And it's going to be easier after that second dream. I'll tell you. Going with the fear and not against the fear. Just feeling the heart is beating very fast, But going anyway doesn't matter. Yeah, This is it. Like, Like you guys, I mean, I'll tell you, It just seems so wimpy to me. Truly, It's like if I had let stuff stop me, I would not be here for you guys. So don't let anything stop you for being there for the others that you're predestined to help. You don't want to have a situation where people are turning up and you're not there. Because your heart was feeding and you didn't come forward and start saying, Really? That's good. That's good. I feel like I'm getting through to you, Eva. And you guys, With all of you, This. . . I'm going to call on. Because it's like you guys, You do not, I don't think you get how incredibly rare it is to get the kind of. One-to-one from an awakened teacher where I give you this really tailor-made guidance for you. And then you ignore it and it's kind of like, Don't do that. Don't do that. You know, Permaculture has a very friendly way. Don't underestimate what comes through her, Please. We'll all lose if you do. In this whole alma. Thank you, Eva. And I hope the time comes where I stop yelling and screaming at you guys, Because I want you guys to get it, Because I don't even like talking like this, But I have to, Because the situation is so bad, Really. It's so sad and bad. That I have to shake you and really pushing people out of satsang right, Left and center. This is really, Really rare work. All the new people are going to be going, What the hell? You're gonna be wondering what this woman is doing temper tantrums. Just be patient. Come again next time. Don't give up. Yeah, Don't give up. So, Marian wrote to me and this had. Um. . . She has something to say, An event that happened to her, And I think that this event shows how gentle the universe is with us. If we're like sincere and you know we're turning up for satsangs and we're seeing Ama and it's like we're doing our best. So she'll go ahead, Marion. I had an accident. Two days ago. Friday evening. On my way back home from work. And I was so, I was late. I wanted to finish at three and it was 4. 30. I was a little bit late and I wanted to do something nice for me. Anyways, I wasn't. . . Aware in that moment when I rode the bike. Downhill. And the lady who was. . . Driving an e-roller, Like a vehicle. She was in front of me and she In one moment, I wasn't looking where I was writing, I was so in my thoughts. And suddenly she stopped because there was a car coming from the right and she stopped and she was like two meters before me. So I took my brakes and fell off the bike. Just like whoosh, Whoosh, Whoosh. It went like in two seconds. I don't know. And so I got. Um I fell on the stones like with the hands and I fell on my chin and on my cheekbones and on the head. No helmet, You guys. No helmet. I don't wear a helmet because I wear earphones to get rid of the loudness in this real weird Berlin city. And. Yeah, What should I say? Then I lay there. And it was almost like as if I could see how I was falling. And then I lay there. And I stood up, Put my bike at the side, And then the lady who stopped her vehicle was coming to me and asked me, How I was and I'm yelling at myself. That I wasn't looking at the on the streets quite and that I was too fast and that I didn't have the distance I should have had to her. To get the brakes and just stop without having an accident. And so I was like two minutes and blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Yelling at myself. The issue, Like the hardest. It's not like being mad at myself, But. . . Bliss it was, What grace and how thankful I am for that I was able to stand up again and wasn't injured. Almost nothing. I have just scratches here and like my leg hurts a little bit but I mean I felt on my on my head and nothing happened. I was like having a rest now for two days. And I'm. It was like rattling chains. To come down to. Do less during the day to breathe to pray to right but let's let's go like in the email in the email you you said that you know, This kind of really put an exclamation mark around. You that you needed to listen to yourself your heart more and slow down. And also some things I said to you in Germany when I was there. Made a lot of sense in light of this. Accident and you could have been killed really you know it's like it's just such a gentle nudge but it brought it home to Miriam about that she has to change the way she lives her life. Basically, In the email, This is what you were indicating to me. Right. Okay, Good rise to pry rise differently. And so remember that it can be over in a second. It went so fast. Right, And we just never know. Yeah, Yeah. That's it. That's it. And then, You know, You guys, We are going to get our life reviews. Yeah. To think of. Think of. You think of that. And so it's just. These things. Help keep us safe. Moving more into integrity. To embody who you are, To do what you came here for. And it's not that you have to like you know, Change everything. It's just letting yourself be you. It's you being you. Like in the email I sent, It's your dharma, Your soul duty, It's just you being you in the most you-ish way possible. And nobody else can give our gift. And sometimes there's a often there's fear involved, And we have to learn how to move through fear. Before we can give our gift, Before we even can see it sometimes. I don't want to give you a to-do list. I just want you to open your eyes and open your hearts. Open your hearts to yourselves. Right, Turning your cup. You guys, It's good for your health. It's good for your health. Remember what I was talking about? Okay, I'm going to open up. The satsang for questions. In a few minutes, But I just want to say this. Remember I was talking about the nursing mom and the issue of information as opposed to the Sing it. Seeing the love behind things. We're loving things. You know, Our healthcare, We're getting into, You know, We're trying to fix with a lot of pills and then there's all kinds of unintended consequences. There's a psychiatrist who's written a book about how she feels long-term use of antidepressants is part of why we're in this dementia epidemic. That's interesting. And, You know, With this bigger way of looking at things, You see to the heart. You know, It seems to me it would be perfectly logical that the antidepressants would end up causing dementia, Because you see, If you don't deal with the root cause of things, Like with any illness, It's between you and the creator. It's a misunderstanding. Between you and the creator. And if we just numb that out with pills. The creator will rattle chains. Because the issue is still not being faced. Do you understand? So it seems very logical to me. That may be these antidepressants in the longterm. Cause. Are contributing to dementia, Like looking, It's like The root cause of things, It's. . . Because we're alienated, We ignore the root cause, But if we don't Face the root cause. That doesn't get better. I want to give another example. There's a guy I read about, I'm not going to give his name because I'm going to premises to editorialize about. His illnesses. So. . . But he ran John Hopkins postgraduate training residency program for decades, For many years. In preventative medicine. So this guy ran marathons, He had low-fat diet. He was, He, You know, He's a poster boy for help. He, He taught all the other doctors how to take care of themselves prevent illness. He discovers he's got clogged arteries. He's got arteries like a 73-year-old man. And he ends up reversing the plaque built. Build up, But. Through actually the keto diet, Went on the keto diet. But he was also discovered to be a pre-diabetic. And even with the keto diet, He was not a big sugar guy at all, Ever. He went on to develop full-blown diabetes, Okay? So diabetes, The root cause, The root of it is loss of the sweetness of life. Okay, So see this fellow, Not only did he spend his life kind of in this very intense framework, With the health rules, You know. Spending his life trying to stop illness. And then it all backfires. It didn't work. There's 57 you find it's like what are for i could imagine that for you know alpha Mail. Who's dedicated his life to this, That having clogged arteries like a 73-year-old man was very, Was way more, Caused a big problem. Big reckoning, A big shake-up. Emotionally. And he went on to develop diabetes. See, I think his way of life, He likes the sweetness of life. With trying to control it. Trying to hedge its bets and everything. He lost just like the guy. Who's in North America, Who is trying to live for 200 years. I don't know if you've read about him, But he has developed a big problem. A big autoimmune thing in his stomach that's really sidelining him and it's like I'd say these things would happen because somebody has got like an agenda coming from their ego that they're pushing really hard and it will be bound to fail explosively. It will not work. Any trying to fix will not work. If you start reading the news, You guys can see this. It's like learning to see to the heart of things. Yeah, So you guys this is what I want you to do. It's like learning how to center in your hearts and stuff and then you Then you look at the outside world and you start being able to decode it. You start being able to see exactly what's going to happen. Anytime you force. Anytime you try to fix in your own life or, You know, When we do it as a culture, If we try to fix without love. It's one thing if you want to serve with love. Problems in the culture will disappear. But if you're trying to fix You'll get what our cultures do, Which is they throw money at stuff and everything gets worse anyway. And then often they end up blaming the victim. You know, This kind of work, It expands your heart, It expands your self-acceptance, And it makes you more intelligent. You can see, Angels see to the heart of things. You know, I will go soft again when you guys make the shift into more. Integrity. Honoring. Honoring yourselves, Honoring what you hear from me. I will stop rattling chains. And I look forward to this time because I don't like rattling chains. We're all going to get our deathbeds. We're going to get our life reviews, You guys. So you can live with more care. Really, If you get this about the life reviews, You just live with more care. It'll be easy. Does this go on? Yeah. I mean, If you root to somebody and you. . . You think I'm going to get a life review and maybe they're going to commit suicide tomorrow because they're so depressed anyway, And then I'm rude to them. You know, It might inspire you to go back and say sorry. I was rude. We never know people's states. Or how close to the edge they are. Andrea, I'm very. . . I have respect for you, Woman, That you turned up. Hello. Hi, I am. I am brave. I am brave for this. You're a rat? You're rattling the chains today. Ha! You're on the warpath. I am, And you know, I don't like it, But. You guys, You're not going to be when you get this shift, You'll be so much happier. This is a you'll be so much happier. It's kind of like some kids who are standing in the pouring rain or in the dark and you know like two steps more they've got like sunshine and ice cream and you say come on come on come on just Just go, Step forward, Go. Yeah, I am. I am grateful for you. Truly, I'm grateful for you. The last time we met, You removed the layers of the onion. The onion layers started slowly coming off, So I'm grateful for you. You're a brave woman. Basically, I told Andrea that she had more work than she realized, Even though she'd done so much. I almost took you off the list. I thought, I don't think I'm going to hear from Andrea. Then this little voice said, You don't know, You don't know. So my hat off. You know, I love humility. I love it. It's what works. It's what works, You guys. Think of a mother giving birth. She has to be humble. She's just in it. It just, You can't control it. It is like life, Just. Can I say one other thing? Oh, Yes. And you also said I was Ati, Which stuck with me and it marinated into my brain and it really made me do a lot of self-reflection and it really made me dig deeper into my ego and it really stuck with me. So I thank you. Thank you. Andrea, I so love the way you handled this. I told Andrea she was haughty because she was like, I was trying to get through to her and, And, You know, But sweetie, Look what you've done with it. Like what a turnaround like This is it, Zero to 160 seconds. This is it, Andrea. There's no haughtiness anymore. Mm hmm. You know, No, I just feel soft openness. Yeah. Yeah, And your grace cup will be, You'll receive more grace now, Sweetie. Yeah, You guys keep turning your cups. Yeah. That's it. When we drop our egos like we We receive the grace. Oh, You've made my day. Yeah, That's just great. J Mark. Yeah. Post your child for humility. Okay, You guys, Is anybody else? We're really rolling it. Please come forward. How are you, Mitchie? I've been wondering about you. Bye-bye. Yeah, I'm still feeling my defenses. And I started to work this week. Yeah, So I had a lot to do. But it feels good. And it was very fascinating because you told me, I think two or three months ago, A chance to let go the topic of finding a job. And I asked Amma to put me to work on the 1st of October. And then I got really on this day the offering for a new job. Did you hear that, You guys? Did you hear that? That's it. That's how it works. Yeah, I could let go totally and I never thought about it and it was okay, I'm fine. If nothing comes, Everything is fine. And then on this day, I got the top. And I started three days later, So it was really on time. Yeah, But I hope you post that in your journal. I hope you wrote it down. Yeah, Good. That's it. You guys. That's that's the universe listens to us. Alma listens to us. Yay. Good. How are you finding your job? How are you finding it? I guess it's still a shock. To the system, Day three. Yeah, I was just applying for thousands of jobs, But I didn't think about it, If it's a good job or not. Trustful that it will come or not. And it's good. Is it okay? Yeah, It's 30 hours so I have to go into it to get used to a lot of work but it's okay. But I'm not quite sure. I'm in the kindergarten. Um, It's very good for me because there's no time for preparation. I'm with my kids. Yeah, It's perfect. And it's so fun because it's limited to the end of the year. I can find out if it's a good job or not. And then I can leave at the end of the year. Maybe I can prolong it. So you've got flexibility is fantastic. Yeah, And I'm very grateful. And but for my spiritual path, I'm still struggling. Um. . . If this defense is. . . Still extremely big or if I'm If they're getting smaller. Okay, But just right there was a big defense where you split. Your work life away from your spiritual life, Like there isn't any split. That's your problem, Sweetie. There isn't any split. Like in fact the fact that you even got the job through this spiritual work that you that you're opening up to like how could there be a split how could there be a split to to your spiritual life when you're working with little kids It's like. . . It's really good. Yeah, No, But it's a very sacred kind of work working with little kids. No, Sweetie. Okay, I want you to address this split. Okay, Like, Catch it. Okay, Mitchie. Okay, I'm going to give you your homework. Notice it where you split spirituality is separate from life. It isn't. This is, This is what you need to get. Yeah. Are you willing to get this? Yes, I am. Because through the week I had this feeling of I'm totally in peace and although it was exhausting for my body, I was totally in peace because it was such a good and nice work. And the kids love me. The colleagues are so nice. Yeah, I was fine. Yeah, And you were a piece. Yeah, Like what do you think spirituality is anyway, Michi? Like what do you think it is? Yeah, You're totally right. Yeah, Yeah. Yeah! Wah! Wah! Yeah! Right. Yeah. That's it. OK, I could feel. Are flowing. Yeah. And, You know, People package spirituality into boxes in their heads, You know, And it's not, It's always off. It's always Yes, It is. Spiritually, The flow, It's getting the job when you ask, Just like that. The flow, Loving the kids, That's it. You're in the flow. Just be grateful. Yes, I am so grateful, Yeah. Okay, Good work. J Ma. Mitchie, It's just, It's almost like, I mean, Like, It's almost like you, You're like somebody who's won the lottery, And you kind of, You kind of like, Can't quite get your mind around it. It's like, This is it, Mitchie, You're just doing it. Yeah. Thank you. And just witness when your head makes things difficult. Witness how your your patterning would would lead you there. Catch it! See it. Don't fight it. Just see it. Okay, Good. Okay, This is a relief to me, Matthea. This is better than I hoped. Me too. Oh, This is great. Okay. Thank you. Thank you. Who else? Wants to speak. Four weeks were such a journey for me because everything started with the first satsang at Maxi's place where I met you for the first time and then we met on the following Monday and everything we discovered in that session was so opening for me and was ever since then, Was always with me and And then. . . Three days later I needed to go to a different city to see my grandmother and I didn't know that, Like I had this feeling that something is really that she would maybe die. And I came to her like four minutes before she. . . Changed like before she changed sides and and this oh my goodness and this and and You know, You said something about giving birth and today, Tonight, And this coming to her and I was there four minutes before she died, Really. And it was like giving birth in the other direction, Really. And it was so strong. And I felt like a midwife coming to this situation and being with her in that situation. And then all of a sudden I knew what to do. It was so instinctively that I started singing for her one of her mantras and then And then she was so in peace and let go. And I was so touched by, I didn't realize that this is dying. I wasn't. Um. . . Because I never experienced that before. So this was so touching to me. The moment where she let go I didn't realize that moment. I'm circling around that moment in my mind still and in my feeling, But it was so up into my unconscious in a way. I hope I can explain the situation so you can understand it. And then I stayed with her three days. She was she stayed at our place at home and and i i slept the first night i slept next to her meditated and sat next to her and it felt for me so Um. . . Familiar in a way. And yeah. And so in a way, Not normal, But so I was, It was like a gift for me. I was in grace being with her for this time and accompanying her for such a long time. And so thankful that she kind of, I don't know if she waited, But. That I could like experience this changing side thing with her, Really. And ever since this moment, I try to It's as I want. And this is my ego, I want to kind of. . . Um. . . I don't want to let go of this moment. Like one part of me is so. . . Like it's always since ever then since four weeks in this kind of universe or I don't know, It's your ego. I think you guys this is your our bodies have to get used to this expansive consciousness. It's like you have to get used to embodying it. It's that's what happens. You kind of walk around in like, It's like, I don't know like how to describe it. You know, Like when a baby's born and everybody's so happy in the hospital room, You know, The doctors and nurses, The joy, It's kind of like in a joyful death. It's not that different. And this is what we did in the old days. We kept the bodies with us for a time. That was the normal, Right? In North America, It's like the body's taken within 10 minutes. If somebody dies at home, It happens very quickly. So I think this is stunning. Hmm. In fact, It's worse. It's not your ego, It's just you transforming, Getting used to this more loving way. Yeah, No, Don't make it wrong. Just make room for Premasutha's comment. Make room for what I'm saying to you about it. You don't have to fight with your ego about it or anything, Fight. Just maybe it's a beautiful training ground for you. Yeah. I can feel you've got doubts about that, But that's okay. It's okay, We all have to figure stuff out ourselves, You know? Mm-hmm. Yeah. It's so nice when- It's when kids can stop talking finally. They just go silent. Anyway. . . This is good. But we agree on that, Right Eva? We agree on that, Yeah. I agree on that, Yeah. For sure. Yeah. It's been time, Everybody. Everybody had a joyful face in the satsang as you were talking. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you that I could share this in this round here. Wonderful. Does anybody else want to speak? And you guys don't, Doesn't have to be good news. You don't always, You know, It doesn't have to be an up and a joyful thing. It can be a sad thing. Laurie, How are you doing? After last time. Don't worry. Bye! Yeah, How are you doing? You know, I still struggle, But I do have a good thing to share. I had trouble. Putting pictures up of my set. But I have this one up of myself and both my kids, Both my boys. And Alan, He had this grin. I just love this grin that he had. Instead of seeing. Something negative in the picture? I can now look at it and smile because I love that grin. And so now I'm able, Yeah. So now I'm able to look at that every day. Without that. Other negative thing that I was seeing when I was original when I originally put it up. Yeah. But I am listening to you, And I'm trying to understand all this. And I really want to understand. I do. Oh, Yeah, It did take time. It's okay. But you know, Sweetie, You've been in Greece so much that there's some negative energies around you that are like causing trouble like you guys. The negative energies aren't demons. It's subtle parts of the ego. But if we're in a. If we get caught in a dark place and we circle around in it for a long time, We will attract negative energies that will try to keep us there. So that's what I feel has happened with you and it's subtle forms of your ego. So I'll do some energetic work. Part of this is grief and part of this is interference from these negative energies, Which again are just subtle forms of the ego. I think you need some. Support. So I'll send you some. Audios subliminal, You know, They've got like words within the music, But they got words. And if you listen twice a day. The thing will. . . They'll bump you up. You need some support to get it done. Get out of this, You know. I agree. Thank you. Yeah, I would love that. Thank you. And that's one of the reasons I don't go to grief share or anything like that anymore, Because I don't want to stay in place. No, No, No. And actually, I mean, If you did, You go just like travel, Go to a warm place for a couple of weeks. Like, Yes, I was just looking at that this morning. No, Really, Sometimes, Sometimes it's the best, You know, In England, They would send, They'd have a change of climate for people that had TB, You know, Like a change of climate, A warmer climate, Like it's just good for us, You know, Or some place where you've always wanted to go, But never went or. Do you know? Yeah, Sophia, I'll send you the sibling host too. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Okay, I'm right in now. But the negative energy, It isn't as bad as it was. It has gotten better. And I am trained. Yeah, No, No, No, No, There's no criticism. Oh woman, There's no criticism. I know. The last thing. No, I understand. But sometimes when I would just sort of take off. You know, I love Greece, Those Greek islands. I don't know. If you can get somewhere, Hawaii. That's all. Anyway. We can email about it. Thank you. Okay, Good. Ugh. Anybody else got any comments? Shivamayee, How are you doing? I'm doing well. I'm doing well. I need to email you back about I contacted from Masoud about my family, But you know, Really I felt I'm worried about, I wanted prayer for them, But I'm not as worried about them as you perceived, I don't think. I know that they need prayer, You know, But I also really know that there's very little I can do, You know, Other than support them and connect to them and do what I can do and pray for them. But I really feel like I'm shifting. I really do. I feel a lot more peace. A lady that I worked with passed away suddenly, And I asked Prema Suddhod to work with her. And she prematurely perceived that she would work, That my friend would work with me. And I do feel a lot more peaceful. I think for so many years, I just thought I had to do better. I was doing everything wrong. Or the beyond me. But it is, I guess, Just self-acceptance. It's really not as complicated as it seems, Accepting myself. And I feel like a lot of the people that I chronically judged, I'm feeling less judging with them and more seeing how they're that they're just trying, You know, That we are all in this together, You know, That there's no magic, I don't think. I think I thought, You know, It was sort of like in school or with weight loss, You always feel like there's something you're not getting, You know, Like with school. And when finally I got older and mature enough, You just have to go to class and do your own work. You know, School wasn't so magical, You know, Or the same way with weight loss, It's diet and exercise, It's not that magical, You know, And it's sort of like this, These things beyond me, You know, Just accepting myself and loving myself and the people in my life, You know. That's how I feel right now, Anyway. I'll probably get off here and start. Anyway, Go back and say, I'm proud of myself that I'm doing better. And I'm very thankful to you. And it has been this unfolding process. Yeah. Chief Amai accepted herself. I mean, I think, You know, The stars in the sky are shining a little brighter, Sweetie. I think this is fantastic. No, Really, It's fantastic. Oh, You're just making my day. I'm just so happy about this. No, Really. I'm so happy about this. Oh, Sweetie. Yeah, Jayma, Yeah. This is why I get up in the morning. You just get it. You go, Why did I make it so complicated? It's not complicated. It's just easy, But it just takes time. And we get it when we get it. But once you've got it, You know what it feels like, Right, Shivamai? You know what it feels like. So even if the clouds come again, You'll know, You know, You've done this. And so you can get back there. And it gets quicker and quicker and quicker. You lose the peace and it comes back within a day. You get it quicker and quicker and quicker. The more you go through these shifts, You speed up. So instead of spending months sort of feeling down, It's like three days, And then a day, And then an hour. Because you just don't believe the bullshit anymore that your ego is feeding you. You don't believe it, So you just don't pay attention and it goes. Oh, I'm just so happy. It doesn't take much to get Premasuddha happy. Just somebody accepts themselves. Premasuddha's enjoyed. That's so great. Thank you. Keep it money. Thank you. Yeah. Sue, Come on, Anybody else? Cat, Did you want to say something? Not really. In my heart, There's a lot. I am very grateful for this work. That saved my life. But yeah. Doing really, Really good and all that you speak of is wonderful. Is how my life is right now. Lots of abundance. Anything that I wish for, It falls for me. Wanted to go to the library. Oh, Go ahead. We're getting big scholarships these days. You know, Like I said, The universe if you go this way, The universe pours it on. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah. Gratitude, Gratitude and the big wedding I had for my daughter. It was a crazy love fest. Abundance all around joy, Joy, Joy. And I thought, Yeah, Like, Oh, Got to get back to it. No, I can keep holding on to this joy and, And writing it and sharing it and Thank you. Share it. When we share it, It grows. That's it. This is PermaSuite's secret. It's fantastic, It's. Yeah, It's, It is fantastic I feel, You know, Empowered, And my dreams for sure. I was thinking about that before we came on. Do I share. And, Or do I have a question, But certainly I'm in my dreams. Standing up and saying yes and and saying no. When no needs to be said. Than doing it in real life. Right, It just. . . Being yourself, Right? You've got your being yourself. This is you guys. This is all it is. You just got room to just be yourself. Be me. Be me. Unapologetically, Gratefully, Happily. Feels really good. Doesn't it feel great? Yeah. And this is the stuff that would start wars and bring everything back to center and bring sanity. Yeah. I'm thrilled out of my tree. Yeah, Thank you. Oh, Thank you. All the people who are feeling a little down are all going to be going. Oh, I don't get it. I'm down. I don't get it. You guys, It's just. . . It's like that. You you will feel like you don't get and then you turn to the creator and you pray really hard and then you I don't know. It just happened. It's just like you have a dream like Ivo. You just, You realize that you don't want to waste your life or you realize you've got your life review. So you might as well get real. Yeah, Yeah. Oh, This is thrilling. This is, You know, When I was 30 or so. No, I guess I was 35. I told my mom, I said, You know, Mom, I'm going to get famous. And I'm just going to get famous by telling people the obvious. And she looked at me like, What the hell, Woman? But I knew it was true. I'd be famous just for telling people about the obvious. Just be yourself. You can do it. We're returning to our hearts, Returning to what we already know underneath. Yeah this is it you already know underneath remember i was talking about the base chakra there is the the mechanistic or the instinctive? And our culture is doing the mechanistic. And even, You know, Things like yoga, You can do yoga in a mechanistic way. And you won't get anywhere spiritually if you do that. You get places spiritually by staying with the instinctive, What you deeply know. And just your. Your instincts, Like. You know. The things that are really close to your heart, Close to the bone, The deep stuff that you really know inside. It's like instinctively seeking the light. Instinctively preferring light over darkness if you got a choice, Although both are valuable. It's like with my son, I instinctively knew he could get better. And I followed that. Like always, This is what Pramasutra would have this instinctive feeling about something, And I would just follow that. And that is far safer, Even though it often gets ridiculed by people who are doing things in the mechanistic way. But even Premasuddha's approach to spirituality is very instinctive. And it's something the women, This is, You guys, This is the key to your self-esteem, Women. Our culture teaches us to downgrade and distrust this instinct of knowledge, But if you To love yourself, You have to embrace what you know instinctively. It's like we meet somebody and we instinctively know whether they're a good person or not. Or we, You know, We meet somebody and we like go, I'm going to marry this person. Where does that come from? It's almost just instinctive. Women are really good at this and you need to honor it. And trust it. It will bring you into higher self-esteem if you allow your instinctive feelings, You know, When I'm sitting across I was sitting across from a gentleman who had been who had hit some disease and he was very damaged his brain and his nervous system and everything. And his partner had brought him to me and I was looking at him thinking, I don't know how to get through to this guy. And immediately I started talking in a very high-pitched, Very sweet way. And it got right through to his heart. And he started to cry. And it was just my, I just followed my instincts for how to reach him. It couldn't have been done in a normal therapeutic way. But this just instinctively. You know, I raised my voice like really high, Almost like a child. And spoke to him so sweetly. Like with the sweetness of an angel. That was what was coming through and it so got through to him. So you guys, Trust your instincts. You women, You'll love yourselves. You'll love yourselves. You'll find yourself respect. Again. If you do that, Don't discount this stuff. And, You know, Our culture is mechanistic to the nth degree. We're almost going nutty with it. And the instinctive is very downgraded. And is why we're in such trouble. Our instinctive nature is the mother nature within us. Think of it like that. It's the mother nature in you. How could she be wrong? She's never wrong. Mother Nature. She's the gold standard. And guys, When they wake up, They have access to. But I'm working a lot with women's self-esteem to help you women feel good enough that you can recover your true nature that you can Yeah, Recover your connection to your truth. That's what I'm getting. To recover the connection, Remember like the wires. Making the connection to the electricity, Hooking up. To your true nature. And you know, The more educated we are, Sometimes the harder it is, But it can be recovered. We just have to get humble. Like Andrea's great example there. Jai Ma. Yeah, No, Really. I'm very impressed, Andrea. You have no idea. You just have to be humble. Babies crawl before they walk. They don't judge themselves for crawling. They're just happy to be able to move. And not require mom to lift them from place to place. Oh, You guys, I am so much happier. At the end of this satsang than I was at the beginning. I'm actually feeling, You know, Like the ice melting. And I'm feeling this, The flow of love, The river of love beginning to flow. I'm so happy. Because I was getting. Like my hair was even getting whiter. Banging my head against the wall. I'm so happy you've made my, Just made me so happy. And remember, Anybody who's feeling bad about themselves that they don't get it, It's like it is just one step away. One step, One humble step. Away. And if you, You can always, We can always talk about it in a phone call if you, If you want some midway thing from Pramasutra. Yeah, And remember, Don't be shy with Premasuddha because Premasuddha sees so much more about you than you realize. You can't really hide. You can't. I see a lot of stuff that you guys don't realize how much I see. And you're all so adorable! You made my day. Okay, You guys, I guess this is it. And see you next week.