The Seven Major Challenges/Transitions In Life

This satsang consolidated earlier information and expanded it, weaving several distinct threads into a deeper broader life perspective and understanding of our own lives.

This can really help our spiritual journeys- Amma has said one of the most urgent needs is for us to broaden our minds.

This need cannot be exaggerated. A true flow of light and comprehension needs wide open doors and windows if it is to be received by the occupants inside.

One of the points Premasudha made is that there are seven main transition points in our life experience - Birth, The Arrival of the Ego, Leaving Home, Decision-Time Yes or Not to Life, Looking Back at 65, Disease That Kills Us, Death.

The key to these transitions is our inner decision to move closer to or to move farther away from the Creator.

Premasudha also included many of the scientific perspectives that have helped us to see that we too are part of the natural world, and not separate as we feel sometimes.

Speakers: Maxi, Lalita, Judy

Transcript

Always a lovely moment to see your all your sweet faces. Yeah. So we're calling on grace. We know she's here with us. We know that Amma's here, The Creator's here, The angels are here. Grace is here. You are the creator in human form. You guys. You are the creator in human form. And you will find this. Out by becoming very, Very humble, Open to learn like a child, And very, Very brave. Both things. And may your path be graced. And everybody that's listening, May their path be graced. So it is. It was very good work some of you did yesterday in the. . . Dream and memory setting. Like I said. That level of material. Can save. 30 years of meditating. And just stay willing. To go deeper. And be truer. Today is going to be a bit of a Consolidation. Of material we've talked about before, But also a birth. Both things. But it's not going to be a stressful birth. It's going to be like. . . Realizing how ordinary this knowledge is in a way. How livable it is. We don't have to try with the efforting. It's an allowing, It's an expansion. It's this allowing the big understanding that is within you, Coming from all your lives. To come up into your consciousness and be woven in to your experience of life. I said light, That's so interesting. Yeah, Of life. This is how life gets. You keep going and you just get an experience of life. All the time. Okay, So. I just want to mention that. Conan O'Brien, Speaking to Harvard. His comment was. That your greatness comes from accepting the mess around you. Not despite it. I feel this means expect it by, You know. Accepting the mess that we are, The chaos around us, The chaos we create, Our confusion. The confusion other people create, Just embrace the whole thing. And you'll find your greatness. It's true. It's like what I talk about with the scientists. Who doesn't throw away material that other scientists do. You know, It's the accidents, The mistakes, The guy that takes another look. That material that's going to be thrown out. You know, How is penicillin found? Guy noticed. But the mold. Kill bacteria. Yeah, It's just I'll tell you the, The universe, The armor within you will make sure that you get the understanding. You came for this life. You know, If you're willing, If you set out in the path. The universe, Alma, Will just make sure you get the understanding. So just relax. It's like relax and be vigilant at the same time. It's like a little kid walking with his mom. He's really happy. He's really happy. And he's walking with her, But he's very open to her and what she says to him. And because he's very open, Or she's very open to the mum and what she says, And is very biddable, Then the mom goes, Hey, Let's get ice cream. Because the child's biddable. It's the same thing. With the universe. We get the gifts. As we're bittable, We're open. As we genuflect the universe. It's very, Very simple, You guys. I want to talk a little bit about. Before we set off on our lifetimes. Before we set off, In life. Where we Construct it before birth. I want you guys really to understand this. Help from other angelic energies. We set up a very detailed structure for our lives. Even putting something that when we're 50 years old, Where we stop and ask directions from a man who's wearing purple pants or something. I mean it. It is highly organized. You don't have to be scared, You know. It's very safe. The structure will just bring you. Face-to-face with what you've avoided in other lives. What you need to learn. And maybe what scared you in other lives, What you avoided in other lives. But it will. Have kind of fail-safes. It will be stacked. In support of your growth. So you get your challenges, But there will be challenges. Things in your life. It's just like yesterday Alicia was talking about at four she went next door. In her summer place, And she met a little boy who was very pleased to see her. And they had a great friendship for years. Play together. It was a happy time. The universe will structure this in. The reason if we didn't get much of that, It might be that. We have and you know if we didn't get Okay, Couple things. Maybe we didn't get too many positive experiences, But maybe we just can't see them because Our brains. You know? With the wounding, What happens is. . . Our mammalian brain has a tendency to skew us towards trauma. So when we're wounded, We will be operating just remembering. The negative. And. It isn't till we've gone some way along in a healing some way along to experiencing the creator that we will start Admitting. The good thing. I mean it. I feel sometimes I have to pull teeth in people to get them to admit the good things. It's really, It is biological. Our mammalian brain use us. Towards the negative. So that is why keep reaffirming the faith. Is so important. Keep reminding ourselves about the creator is so important. It's to override this mammalian brain. The other thing is, Which ties in with this, Remember I've been talking about the default mode network. Which is that inner monologue that starts when we don't have much to do. And actually, I'm sure it's why the expression, The devil makes work for idle hands, Because if we're too idle and we're sitting there listening to this stuff, We can get ourselves in quite a state, As you know. End. What happens is this monologue stresses out our body. If we start feeling threatened or angry, Our body starts reacting as if these memories that we're recalling about say something happened in childhood and it makes us angry in the present. We our body functions as if it's happening right now and we reimprint ourselves with it, You guys. This is what's so deadly about it. And why the keeping your mind up. Keeping the focus especially on the transcendent. Is so important. And, You know, As I've said, If you keep doing it for decades, It finally shrinks the hippocampus, Which is the source of new memories. So you see it stops the new memories from forming, Good memories from forming. It's like we can really lock ourselves up in a cage listening to this material. Okay, So the point I didn't spell out before, But I really want to spell out. This monologue comes from the parietal lobe of the neocortex, Which is the mainly in brain, And it is involved, It's a seat of. The mammalian brain is the seed of our conscious thought. I want you to understand that we think we're so logical. But our logic is contaminated by the material of our inner monologue. Of this default mode network. This is why you can have people in a country. You know, Thinking completely different things as a result of the same events that are happening. And people have different takes on it. Because even their logic is basically contaminated by this. Default mode network material. So I want you, The reason I'm saying this is I want you to really kind of stop believing your your private logic. Because it's contaminated with this material. You know, It's like we. . . You know, It's like if you talk to a person who's violently prejudiced, You can really spot it. And they will think it's very, Very logical to prevent people from joining a golf club on the basis of the color of their skin. All of us. Have distortions. In our thinking that we don't see. Until we can start witnessing ourselves more. And you guys, We get so self-righteous about our corrupted thinking. Just a comedy. You know, We're in an age of narcissism, So we've got this. You know, The. . . The individual eye is on the throne with crowns. And this individual I is. . . But just the foundation of it is, You know, This individual eye is basically the default mode network. It's like this river of sewage that goes through our heads. This is how crazy it is, You guys. Because, You know, It's like our waking up will be turning and loving Mother Nature, You know? Yeah. I mean, This default mode network many of us are running. And even many spiritual students, You guys. Underneath, It's based on a An exploitation of Mother Nature, An exploitation of others. I mean it, This stuff. Is not when our culture is doing it, We're all influenced. For we all have it. I just might not see it. The reason I'm saying this is it's just so that you'll open up to learn, You know, That you realize really. Our states. How impoverished we are. And then as you see how impoverished you are, You start having a lot of compassion for The world. The world that looks outside you. It's really inside you, But I know it. It looks like it's upside. Yeah, Some of you are finding my words too strong, But I'm just you know, Straight from the hip. I mean, It's just true, What I'm saying. And I saw it myself first, You guys. Yeah, This isn't some, This isn't the, You know, Stuff Primasutis struggled with too, This is not. You know, This is just what we're like. It's part of you are feeling diminished and I'm not wanting to do that. I'm trying to like You know. Invite you out of your default mode networks because it's the default mode network. That would have you listen to what I'm saying and feel diminished. Yeah, You guys. You know, The most hopeful thing I feel about humanity is You know, We have four brains. The normal person, Their brains are going in different directions. You know, They've got different points of focus that are going in different directions. Directions. And it's like, It's sort of like the noise of it is a cacophony, It's caterwauling, Our heads, It's noisy. Not so pleasant, But The latest development is the prefrontal lobe, Which is a seat of abstract thinking. So this is the part of us that can go, Okay, I'm going to serve the Creator. I'm going to serve society. It's the part that allows us to go beyond our egos. To self-transcend. To go to the abstract. The best, The prefrontal lobe. Develops. After birth. Especially 0 to 6. So if you want to have. Children who can think in the abstract and can devote their lives to something more than themselves if you treat them really well between zero and six. Alma says, Just show love between zero and six. Doesn't talk about discipline she says show love zero to six she says show discipline six to 16. And then after that, She says, Just love them. So what happens is the prefrontal lobe when the person is focused on the abstract, Like these awareness satsangs. So we're focusing on the abstract, On the awareness, On service to the creator, On waking up. All the other brains, The other three brains in a human being, Come in behind that leadership. And they serve that goal. They unite and they all start functioning at a higher level. This is why it's so important, You guys, When I talk about having the intent. You know, And the courage and the strength to serve something beyond you, Because it will bring all four brains going the same way. And it turns us into powerhouses. Everything in your brain gets united behind this goal. And it comes in through the abstract. There is a very good book, If somebody wants to read it, It's called The Biology of Transcendence. And it talks about the brains, Like I've been talking about them. And I can't remember. I think the author's children or something. I can't remember. But he took his family and he went and lived in an ashram. For about 16 years and wrote this book. Yeah, The biology of transcendence. I read it once 20 years ago or so, But the content really stuck with me. So, You know, I think he was. Moving into truth. Too, As he was writing it. I've said to you that when people are moving into truth, When they write, Or if they are in truth, The words have tremendous power, And it lasts generations. And sometimes it gets ignored in the next generation, But brought up after that. OK, So. In utero, Amma says, We. Go. I'm gonna do it this time. I'm going to do it this time. Please, Please, Please help me do it this time. I'm going to do it this time. Yeah, Really. She says it. And you guys, Not that she needs any confirmation, But my experience confirmed this because When I was in utero and I did this through meditation, This material came up. I was sitting there, You know, Kind of half-formed like you are when you're in utero, And I could feel my mother's chemicals of her upset. I could feel myself being affected by it and growing in it. And I had this tremendous fight going on of feeling this material coming on. And going, I'm going to get through it this life. I'm going to get through it this life. This is how real These little munchkins are, How alive they are, How awake they are. How alive and awake you were. You work. How this would have been your struggle too, Because anybody who knows Amma, Knows she tells it like it is. And if she says that we struggle in utero with this, We do. And you would have. And here you are waking up. You know, Homing pigeons. I think they're extinct now, But they always found their way home, Wherever they went. They were used in wars to pass messages. We're like we have a homing pigeon within us. We've got a true north compass within us. And the more you awaken, The more your inner experience, You'll be able to register truth more and more clearly. When it's been spoken to you and when it arises within you. There'll be less and less confusion over time. A bigger and bigger connection to truth builds. It takes a lot of guts, You guys, And we get humbled in ways that are just tailor-made for us. In the most excruciating way we possibly could be humble. This is what happened. My expression was like, Sometimes it would feel like there was a Satan in the sky orchestrating all this for me. This is what it felt like, Satan in the sky. But it is a clearing of our egos. There's no Satan. It's clearing the material in our egos that have everything backwards. It's why I live. Why evil is live backwards, Because it's like what our ego does with our life force. It twists it and reverses it. So what is just. Live becomes evil. In my experience, Evil is when we It's control, Basically. Trying to control this. River of love that life is. The other thing we talked about as part of the consolidation of the information that's been coming to you, We talked a lot about how prayer soothes the body biologically. Physiologically, How it stops the cortisol. From being excreted that reduces the inflammation. It brings us back to feeling unthreatened, Basically. And remember, I talked about how during prayer and meditation, Our blood. Goes to our extremities. So it reduces the feeling of separation between us and the rest of the world. And that's really, Really important, You guys. Anything that reduces your feelings of separation to the rest of the world. Because right now it's a time of you know, Where if you read the media, You know, On your phone, It is all about building a threat. It's all threat. Watch out for this, Watch out for that. There's no threat, You know? I mean, We can feel it, But. . . It's like we're just lost in our movies. I mean, We're eternal. We're never gonna die. It's just like a person who knows they're going to be rich forever and ever, No matter what they do. So they just relax about money. It's like. It's the same thing with. You're never gonna die. Your true nature is eternal. You know, And if we changed our child rearing practices, Kids might have a stronger sense of that. Up there. Eternal natures of their eternal worth, Then that would do a lot of good. We talked about. You know, The last child who remembered the sky, We talked about the 200 kids who were seven and eight between 1805 and 1815, Who felt the sky. Was. Changed. And that before that time the sky was bluer. The air was thicker. One child even saw geometric patterns in the sky. And another saw waves like, You know, When you look. Look through water things. That's what the sky used to look like to him. And all of these 200 people on their deathbed said something came from, Something was done and altered the sky. But I talked about how at 7 and 8. Which is these kids were all between seven and eight, Between 1805 and 1815. When this was supposed to happen. That's when John Paul. Piaget There's a psychologist said that around seven or eight, The child leaves more of its direct perception. Goes through the concrete operational process. They learn how to use logic. And at the same time they lose something. Now I want to come back to this. When my Nice was. Two or three. I saw her stand in front of a chair and say, Chair. She said it with her totality. I could feel how she was totally merging with the chair. She was experiencing chair-ness. OK. It was very, Very dramatic. It was very, Very obvious, And it was very, Very beautiful. OK. So. But you understand that we. . . We can't keep living this way. Merging with the objects around us, You see? So this is why Pramasutra feels. Around seven or eight, We have to go through this concrete operational. Challenge. We make the shift, We start seeing more in a symbolic way. We can know that a picture of a chair is a chair. And we might see that before this period, But certainly by this period, We'll have done it. We do this to function in the world. We can't stop and feel the beingness of everything when we're getting a PhD. I don't know, Math or something. We're too busy. OK. But the cost of this, I just want to really spell this out, You guys. The cost of this is the colors in the sky don't seem so blue. The air becomes thinner. Because you're working. From a more symbolic spot. It's why the magic of childhood is magic. Leaves many of us. And I really want to emphasize this. This is why logic, Pure logic, Cannot take people to God. Because actually, When it comes on with us, We are losing our connection to God. You get it? So logic is never going to take us to God. What will take us to God is when we Recover. Some of what we've lost. It's like. . . I told you when I felt the stars suddenly come close to me, The colors are brighter to me. The world is far more beautiful to me and captivating than it ever was 30 years ago, You know, The natural world. Or anything, You know, Just walking down any street. Is a wonderful experience for me, Whereas 30 years ago it's like because premasutas recovered what she lost. And really the. Even I remember when I remember saying to somebody, I was talking about how thick the air was and I realized when I was speaking to him that for him the air was very thin. And that I had forgotten. About that state because I'd been living with the air being thick for so long. It's like love is thick in the air for Pramasutra. So what I'm emphasizing is you can recover. This lost connection. And when you do, You will see logically. Why? The only safe way is to be true to the creator basically you start seeing it's the logic of it's very it's like this. It's like when you really see that. That when we poison Mother Nature, We poison ourselves. When we spray our food. With weed killer. And use really harsh fertilizers and eat this food, It's killing us. It's way easier to see when you've woven in more of this of your childhood experience of life. Of when you've woven in your connection to your heart more. When you've Okay, I found it here. When you're connecting up with your innocence now, I can feel it in you guys. Your innocence has been catalyzed and it's kind of. It's right there with you and it's just you too. Like make a connection with it, But don't try to make a connection. Just let my words speak. Let my words love you. Let the love come to you through my words. Let Amma's grace come to you over the ethers. And if you can't, Don't worry. Or if you're arguing with it, Don't worry, It's still coming. You'll get it today. Or tomorrow. Or the next day. Or, You know, In a month. So don't worry. That's the most important thing, Is not worrying. Just be like a child. It's like the mom saying to the child, Christmas isn't tomorrow, But it's coming. It's coming. It's gonna come. It will, You guys. If you just. . . On this. And many of you can see the changes already and the changes speed up. As you go forward with more and more confidence. I have to see you guys. I would have been, With the way I was as a student, I would have listened to every satsang at least once. And if I had spoken in a satsang, I would have listened to it like five times. Yeah, I'm saying that because some of you are like way more passive than I was. Yeah, Please. It's a career, You know. It's like a career. Stay really on it. You stay really on it or it doesn't work. One of the things about this work is it's so You know, I push people out of sad sayings and let them come back and everything. It is so kind of. It's got that hard edge of you do it. And all of you guys know it's got this hard edge and that's. It's good, It gets the best out of you. It's like if you're doing a PhD course, You turn up. You read your books. Follow the guidance of your teacher. And if you don't, You fail. Who wants that? Guys, Because this isn't just a course, This is your life. It really, Really matters. It matters like nothing else in the whole world. This matters more than anything. Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all will be brought to you. That is how it works. That's it. OK, Good. OK, Good. There's some of you who are considering becoming more pure-minded. That's it. Funniest visuals working with you sometimes. You know what I just saw? It was some black snakes leaving your head. You know, Like when one's being a bit of a snake, You know, A little corrupt, You know, I saw this black snake clue. It's very good. I've seen several of you. It's very entertaining. Oh my goodness. So again, As part of this consolidation, We talked about How? You know, In the double slit experiment when light goes through. That when it's not watched, It goes through as a wave. But when it's watched, It goes through as particles. So if you think of a rifle shooting a bullet, Like a particle, But then when they look at all the. . . Kind of marks of all the bullets. Where all these particles of light. Landed, It makes a wave. So. Some of you know about Bruno Gröning, Who was a healer in Germany, Who would stand in the balcony and there would be thousands of people below him, And he would say, Rise up, And people came out of wheelchairs. He was working with the wave. That's how real it is. And I mentioned before that we have the bell curve. The way. And I was saying, You know. We have a duality so we will have the best and the worst of whatever we're measuring. And if we try to fix that at all and we. If we try to improve this bell curve, Like try to improve. To take away the negative, We will also lose the positive. Of whatever we're doing. Whatever negative we're taking away. Yeah, It is just life. It is duality here on the earth plane. We can't fix it, Like get rid of the negative. What we can do is. . . Focus on unconditional love and the creator. Focus on the truth of our hearts. And then. Everything would get brighter. Everything would get brighter. As bright as it ever gets on their legs. Okay, I talked also about How? Are metabolic process cause us to emit light? Which can be measured by machines. Even though we can't see it. So there's a level that we are sent. Because this is what suns or stars do. They emit as a result of their own metabolic processes, Which I'm calling nuclear fusion. Nuclear fusion just rattles atoms around so violently that part of the mass of these Adam's Gits. Transformed into light. And is. Sent to us comes to us. And as stars progress with this. With Adam. The atoms, They become heavier and heavier until they're iron atoms. And iron atoms. The. The process takes so much energy that there's no light. There is no. Transformation of mass. To make the light and heat so the sun dies. So I really talked about how this is like our burnout, You guys. We get this iron in our soul. We go ahead with an iron will, Even a mom, Like she could be like just trying to be a good mom and you know, Take care of her kids and do her job, But if she's doing it with too much iron, Too much outer focus, Not enough listening to herself and responding to herself, So that the demands are so big, She will burn out just like a sun. We are the natural world, You guys. We're not separate. And I talked about how john Paul's heart wrote that book the iron in the soul, And he was talking about the despair. Annihilism that came when you know France. And World War II, It's exactly what I'm talking about. The loss of light, Where everything just seems so heavy. These are all fertilizers for us. Volcanic ash is used as a fertilizer. And it enhanced this growth, You guys. All we have to do is just embrace. The mess, The chaos that Conan O'Brien was talking about just embraced the whole mess. Okay, That's it. That expression embraced the whole mass and many of you smiled and it was like it was a culmination of all that I've said, Just embrace the whole freaking mess of it. That's it. It's so nice to do this, You guys. You just embrace it. It's impossible to fix. How do you fix life? This is, You can't. You can't. You know, I had one of those experiences where so much anger came up, Came up to be cleared, That I had the experience of each one of my cells carrying a volcano. Really, I could feel how every cell of my body have this volcano. And you know, It was around the time after that, After that experience, Then I read that volcanic ash was a good fertilizer. So I went, Oh, Okay. This is how I navigated, You guys. The universe would just bring me this information and help me get over what I was gagging on within myself, You see. You'll be helped beyond where you are. Just embrace the mass. It's embrace the birth, You know? The mess, The blood, The screaming, All of it, The pain, Embrace it, That's it. Good. This is the quantum leap I'm feeling is being made. You guys. I feel all of us are making a quantum leap. Those brilliant ions that don't transform when they're watched. If they're watched and measured too much, They just stay in their original state. And I was drawing the connection between. When we measure ourselves like this, This is what happens. We don't change. And when we watch someone obsessively, Like somebody at work or a child that we're worried about, We watch and measure them obsessively. It does not work. See, The natural laws affect us. We are the natural laws. We're made out of the same stuff. Are atoms, Some atoms will have come from the sun somewhere, From some star somewhere? Your atoms in your body, Who knows where they've been? You may have been. . . Part of some great. Seer. Some great mystics. Centuries ago and an atom or a few atoms from that person are in you. Yeah! It's how big it is, You guys. So, You know, We're born. We're born, It's like we land in the hospital. You know and the thing and the noises and we'll pick up on like how our parents are feeling and will pick up material even from the doctors and the nurses, But they're gloriously happy. If you've been in a birthing room, The personnel are always just happy. It's a wonderful experience. It's like a bit of heaven coming in. Yeah, There's an expression, An Irish expression, I think, The baby brings its own welcome. Yeah. We inspire you and you would have inspired a welcome. You inspired a welcome. At birth. It would have happened the same way it happens in birth. The doctors and nurses get very happy. Congratulations, What a wonderful, Wonderful child. Mom is thrilled, You know, The pain stopping. The baby's arrived, But the pain opens her to bond with the child. It's not bad. After that pain, The relief, It's just, You just fall in love with your child. You would anyway, But. Even more so if, You know. Masuda had like 32 hour births. I was so happy to see the children. Yeah. That's it. And then. When you're born, There'll be stages, Okay? I'm going to call them monads. Birth is it, Like you're imprinted? And it's like what you do with that when you're born. Do you go like, Oh, I give up, It's too hard here, Or do you go, Hmm? I can do it this lifetime. It's how you greet your mom. Who your mom was to you, Like how many lives you've had, What kind of bond. There's any karma? All of that. And then you keep growing and there's a second stage that happens, Second monad, And that's you're ecoforming. Where you realize these people, They don't know about much. You can't ignore that. Gonna let your ego come on to protect you. They're all wearing ego coats here. I guess I have to put one on too. Otherwise I'm going to be crucified. So you put it on. And you would have known what you had done. When on the table with Abraham, I suddenly was three years old, Taking on my ego. Like, Just turn three, It was like. And the overwhelming horror. And terror. And sorrow. About doing it. I really knew I was losing connection to truth. And on the table, I was screaming and screaming uncontrollably. Just as I was reliving this when the ego came on, And by reliving it, It was part of the ego coming off, You see. By feeling all that. I. I actually reduced my ego. My ego shrunk a bit. And also, I got that whole perspective of of what it had been like for my little child self. I think I just turned three and I think I was slow because I didn't want to take the Zika on. But I realized very coldly they didn't love the real me and they wanted me to be a facsimile of myself and they wanted me to be the way they wanted me to be. That was very clear. This happens within us all, You guys. This is what life is like when you look at a chair and you become a chair, Just like that little one did. You see, This is kind of where Prama Sutta lives and where I speak to you from. It's kind of that innocence regained place. You know, Innocence, Innocence lost, Innocence regained. We can all regain our innocence. And with that comes this burst of understanding. Yeah, You get a huge landscape of a much, Much bigger understanding and compassion. And just go Me Too, You guys. And remember, We're all biased to think that we're. It's a mess and it's hopeless, Okay? Remember that. We're biased that way. I used to think it was a mess and it was hopeless. Now I see the beauty of what I went through, But I went around for years going, This is hopeless. I feel like a mess. Nobody loves me. Nobody gets what I'm trying to do. Trying to communicate. Really, It was. . . Ha ha. It was very intense. So I just printed harder. That's what I did with it. So. Then there is a second monad around when we leave home. Which in my generation would have been like 18 to 22. But it gets very delayed now, So I don't really know. Anyway. What happens then is. You know, All of us want to grow up, But then when you grow up, You said, I'll talk about me. I suddenly realized I actually had to deal with outside world. I had to like make my living. I had to deal with it. That was so depressing. And all this kind of fear, This heaviness came on. It was like, It was like, Yeah, A real heaviness. And it was, You know, All calf during money. Now, That heaviness. Was exactly in proportion to the amount of fear that I took on zero to six. This is how it works, You guys. The amount of fear you took on from zero to six, Is what you feel as heaviness, Constriction, Imprisonment just when you're leaving home. It's like you start experiencing your chains. And the fear comes from other lives. It's just. . . Was imprinted again. Okay, So then around 35 to 40. Is the fourth monad. This is the most important one. It can start at 32. It kind of can start slowly at 30, But between 35 and 40 is kind of the most intense and insecure time as many of you know, Or you're going through it right now in that age. And that is where we make a real yes or no. To what we're going to do. Whether we're gonna wake up this life or not. If we say no, We get taken over entirely by our false personality are false conditioning. And if we say yes. Then we start weaving our divine in. Very occasionally, This can be done earlier. Sometimes if people have had a lot of lives, They can come to this in their teens even. And sometimes people can come to this much later in life. I've got a friend who. . . She'd said no in her fourth monad in her 30s. And she said she started waking up at 62. So it's not set in stone, But. Mostly how it is. And then, You know, At 35 it starts, If you decide to open. You start like the long, It like takes years. You just start weaving your soul in. The next Mona, The fifth, Is at age 65 or so, Where you look back in your life and you wonder, You look at what you accomplished and how true to yourself you were. And what you accomplish. What you've learned. Some people, If they've been very out of focus, It's very traumatic because they lose their job, They have to retire. And they lose a great deal of their sense of worth. You know, Or they refuse to retire and just. Keep going to avoid the whole reckoning. Stay busy. Then the. Sixth one is you get the disease that's going to kill you. And then there's the next one, The seventh is a point of death. These are all challenging periods, Crisis periods. Setup. To facilitate your learning. And we don't even talk about this in psychology at all. Because our psychology is focused more on the ego. Mm-hmm. You know. I feel this approach would be more of a return to center, More to the truth of things. This is a more helpful psychology. If we all knew that between 35 and 40 we're going to feel very insecure, We could be gentler with ourselves, You know? If we knew that what happened to children zero to six, Culminates in the feeling of heaviness just when you leave home. We might take better care of kids. But really, We know the importance of taking care of kids, But we still ignore it. So you can look at your life from these. Perspective, And it's part of why, You know, I talk about, You know, That you can ask your parents about, If they're still alive, You can ask them about your early childhood. And what your birth was like and how they were feeling. Because it can help you go conscious on your. . . On the material that creates that default. Mode network. I hope that this. Has helped you digest the material that I've been talking about. So that would be more useful to you this way. Put this way. And in a way, We're all going through a whole new birth right now. There's this quantum leap. Going on. Don't worry about it. Some of you are kind of like, Am I doing it? Am I doing it right? Am I in that wave? You are. Relax, Please. You won't even see that it's a quantum leap till afterwards. It's just, I see it. Yeah, Don't worry. Look at it like this way. Premasut is making a quantum leap. So all of you guys are coming with me. It's just we're all going. No, Really. It's kind of it. It's true. It's true, How it works. It's like, That's why people follow a teacher. It's like every acceleration, They get it too. There's a couple of people who are feeling very lonely. You know. It's not a bad thing if it makes you turn to the creator. Dhunda Amma. Do that because you're just feeling your own separation, You know, You're, You're really connected, You are part of all that is. Amma calls us, You know, We're her children, She sees us like her. She doesn't see any separation at all. That is the truth of it. That's good. We're all in our separate skins. We all walk on our two legs, But. You know, So we feel separate, But we're not. At all. It's like the universe has produced all of our minds. All our minds are produced by our soul, You guys. Everything is your own soul. Truly. That's why however you treat somebody will come back to you sometime, This life or another, Because it's all you. So of course it has to come back. There's nowhere else for it to go. This is what this quantum leap's involved with, Is seeing that you're not as separate as you thought. That is it. And if you really experience that you're not separate at all, That's the best, But any movement towards that. Will help and that's why I've been talking about how we are one with the natural world. Yeah, We're one with Mother Nature. One other thing I wanted to say. Before I'm going to make room for questions after this. When electrons receive photons of light. They bump up to a higher within the atom. They go up. And it's why it's the same principle when you guys, When you're around a teacher, You bump up. You know, And it can feel like. When you move away from the teacher, You bump down. It can feel like that. And, You know, It's being around the teacher and feeling that bumping up retrains your body gradually to just lodge there. Now, When an electron emits the photon of light. When it lets it go, It drops down again. And I want to say that this is, You know when you, Feel very close to God and you're going up, And then when you lose it, You drop down. You can feel it. You can feel your vibration dropping down. Again, It is just like the natural It is what happens in our atoms. That exact process. When a teacher You know, It goes away with self-realization. Self-realization, You don't get tired the same way when you're teaching. You just got this channel to the creator. But before that, When you give out, You can get quite depleted. And sometimes you can still get depleted, But not so often. You can get depleted and it's like you've given the light. And you have to come back to yourself and fill up. You know, Electrons go up. They can also go down. You can see this happening in society. Societies can go up and they can fall down and people can behave one way. You know, And a decade later, They could be functioning in a much lower state. Doing much more corrupt stuff. Without really realizing that they do. Their behaviors. That they had fallen in the light. It's just like the electrons. This is the importance of keeping the focus. On light. Keep inspiring yourself. Read the inspiring books. You know, Meditate. Satsang. Staying up. And sometimes integration means that we We have some kind of negative experiences, And we might not always be at our best. Do something, Function badly somewhere. Just embrace it, Forgive it, And get back up. Don't roll around in it. We all goof. This is why I've told you so often about my goofs, Because it's like. . . It's how it is. Are human. It's like all saints have a past. It's like. You, You know. You don't know what. You know, The saint had gone through in their growing pains. What they've been like to live with, You know, Really. They might be way worse than you ever were. Ha ha ha. OK, Questions. Does anybody have any questions or comments? There's some of you I'd like you to show yourselves more in the group. Some of you send emails to me, Which is fine. I'm always happy to hear from you, But some of you are avoiding the group. Are you doing this? You know, Special relationship with teacher and it's like, Yeah, You got to come forward in the group. The group does. A lot of the teaching. Just coming forward for those who've, Some of you know this, Some of you have been healed. Through coming forward with the group. Because everybody wishes you well, You guys. Yeah, I really would. This group is really adorable that way, You know. This group is actually more aware of their own frailties than they are critical of others. Actually, As a group of people, That is the way you are. Namaste. Namaste. How are you? Um Oh, Better, Better. Yeah, Much better after our communication. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, Good. Oh, Good. Yeah, Look at it. It feels it feels all fine now, Like some kind of fear about about the way and not doing it right, Something like this just vanished. So yeah, I've always imagined the the picture with the speedboat you gave me and it makes me smile. I love that. I told you, Sugar, I saw she was struggling. And as we were talking, I suddenly saw her in this kind of speedboat, A very small speedboat on a lake, Just being filled with light and laughing and. Just buzzing around the lake like a child, You know. Yeah. Yeah. Right. And you've opened a grace a lot. Like your capacity to open to grace. Is it it's beautiful you showed up like remember in the old days it was There was way more mental struggle. And sense of your own frailties. And that is getting much smaller. And you know there's part of you that really knows you are a divine being. And that it's your birthright. Yeah. That's it, You guys. I can feel that. Yes. I can really feel that. I don't feel that threatened anymore. I mean, There's still this moment I feel threatened, But on another level and phase, I feel more safe and I know it's going to work out for me. It will. Yeah, It will. And when you just. When you just talked about the age of seven and eight, When kids get on their ego or how did you say that the mental logic yeah logic i remember i must have been like eight and i remembered sitting in my room And I would be thinking about the world and life and think that my life would end someday. And it scared me to death. I was so scared. Like the mindset my parents or put me in was you will die and it will be over and it was horrifying was so horrifying and I just remembered this last week and it came to my mind again And I wish I would have had some parent or person telling me, Oh, It's just a life and you will live forever. But I remember I was scared to death. Really. It was like. I remember how I pushed it away. The fear, It came up many, Many times and I just pushed it into a corner. Side of the way. Yeah, So it must be this age. Yeah, I remember. Right. Oh, That's very beautiful. It's, I mean, It's very profound you went through that, Like what a thoughtful little kid. Yeah, Really. I mean, Yeah, Thoughtful little kid. I wish somebody would be there and say, Oh, It's not the truth. I know. But I felt it. I really remember it scared me. It was horrifying. And there was nobody. I just remember sitting in my room and this fear came up. I will be dead. And I was just like, Oh, My God. Like in one part I knew it can't be true, But I didn't know that it's not true. I believe in it. Right. Remember I said to you, You had that courage not to go into your mom's bed when you were early. It's the same kind of courage to let yourself feel that amount of fear and just be with it. Like that's amazing to me. That you would feel it so intensely. Consciously like that. Yeah. You know, And again, Not try to get help from somebody else. Yeah, It's very. . . It's really, Really important, Maxie. There's something really, Really important about your decision to do this. Kind of just be with it. Welcome home. It's almost like you could see through all terror this way. Yeah, I can feel that's like. They're like, Oh no! Yeah, I feel you. Yeah, I know. So this is the trouble. This is, You know, The trouble with talking too much, You know. I was trying to encourage you, Just saying, Yeah, You could keep up that kind of thing. Yeah. Bye. The same courage to see, The same courage to be with. The same courage just to keep looking. It's like. . . And you didn't go into drugs, You know? Your adulthood, You didn't go into drugs. Not at all. Never. Yeah. Yeah. Awesome. Awesome! It wasn't even a possibility. No, But that's a credit, Truly. I mean, Truly, People go into drugs to avoid this kind of stuff. Yeah. I almost feel like I've made a mess with all my words. I feel like I'm going to have to sweep up. I feel like energetically I'm sweeping up some of the things I said, Because I don't want to disrupt your process. Amma doesn't talk. Increasingly, I see the wisdom of it. You know, In another way, I have to talk to reach you guys. Yeah, So I just swept it all up. So I'm happy to hear this. Yeah, Yeah. Good. Yeah. Thank you. Yeah, I never said bye. There's still time for anybody else. Lolita I want you to. . . I want you to express something to the group like I want you to it's sort of like I want you to know how how safe it is, The group. Yeah, I feel really grateful and calm. Like much better in my body and Last week. . . I was contemplating on two things. One is anger. Like how I wasn't able to express my anger. And it was causing this default network you were talking about. Exactly my health right and also around loyalty like i was super loyal to others or some things places but i was never loyal to myself so it was big big reflection this week and i decided to be loyal to myself to start being loyal to myself. Right. It's above all to let oneself be true. Yes. Yes. Yes. And. You're very equipped to make this step. I want to say it can be a hard step, But you're very equipped. So I'm not expecting this hardness, But to all the rest of you, You guys, It can be a hard step. When we do this side with ourselves, This is a siding with ourselves I talk about. Honoring ourselves. And when we have had a lot of lives and we can love very deeply. We can be incredibly good devoted friends for others. And yet never get the same thing back because we're not giving it to ourselves. Right and we feel abandoned because of that. Yes. Yeah. So I'm really grateful, Yeah, With this full moon and the energies, More clarity came. So very grateful for that. And I feel more empowered, Like I'm coming, My health. Yeah, It's like I can feel you're coming back in a wide front, Like health. Your psychology, Just a whole many, Many threads. You're working with many, Many threads right now. Near tapestry and yeah there's this gold being woven in and It's beautiful work you're doing, Lolita. Truly. Yeah, It highlights enough how precious this is, You know, This group that you offer these sad songs and we can really connect and share and go forward. You know, We give what we needed. It's like I needed this. I feel like all of our journeys could be so graced if we did this. It would be world-changing because we change, Right? We're transforming and then it's just going out. I know, It's like the angel said, You know, That this was practical help and that. . . This is what is needed for people, Practical help, Yeah. You're all doing it, You guys. You're all doing it. Okay, Everybody here is doing it, Please. Even I've gone after a couple of people. It's okay. You're doing it. That's good. Yeah, Sweetie. I'm seeing this light coming to you just with these words. Yeah, It's like you've opened up to more grace. Right. Yeah. I wrote this story. Many of you know it, The Gateway, About somebody knocking on the door. Wanting truth, And the guardian going, Who, You? Who do you think you are? Which is what happens on the journey. It's what the journey feels like, You guys. But anyway, At one point when she knocked and. . . It's the. The guardian. Opened the door and they embraced and for the guardian had faced his fear. And cheap-faced. Her fear through this process and they embrace. And with this, There was a noise of a tremendous crack. And it was resistance cracking, Resistance. The old mold breaking. After that, Heaven came to earth. And many souls made it through. Through the gate of the dreams come true. Yeah, I feel we're at this moment. Truly, When I said the resistance, There is a quantum leap and this resistance breaking. I feel we're right here. And I think you're going to see it in the collective as well. I think I'm speaking, It's not just a personal experience. I feel it is. The time right now. And I just want to say something, You guys, This is when I wrote I wrote this book and. I just wrote it out of my own angst and my hopes and everything. And many, Many, Many things in it have come true. Yeah, It's just you don't know what you're doing, You know, Like. You don't know the value of what you're doing. And what you're going through. Yeah, Please. Please remember that. We're in. You know, You're each an aspect of the universal mind. Think of it like that. You're each an aspect that. Uh. . . A wave of perception comes through you from the Creator. It's like, Remember, I've talked about snowflakes. They're all snowflakes, But they've got different patterns. To have a different pattern of perception. From which to experience life and then to give your gift from this. And you can't help but give your gift from this. And we're all the creator. We all see three things really differently. But it's all the creator. In essence. So as I said, This. This way of looking is is premature and I teach it, But you will have. Your own way. That's your job to free it. And you will see things like a little differently. In your own way. This is why, You know. If you bring a whole bunch of enlightened people together in a room, They won't agree. They'll love each other. No, I mean it. They won't agree. But they'll see the divine in each one. View. So please. You know, Your differences are valuable too, You know? Your Your point of pain is the other side of your great gift. The thing that has caused you the most excruciating pain is your great gift. And really the most important thing this time, I feel, Is to be able to stand. Outside your default mode network and witness it. More and more develop a solid footing. Where you watch your default mode network. Without falling into it. First, When we try to stand outside it a little bit, Observe it, Witness it. We get caught in it again, And the only thing. That makes that. A safe place to stand. Is. Where we've where it's coming from the creator. Yeah, It's not just, Oh, I want to get out of this default mode network. I want to get out of these slots. I'm going to. . . Like try to enforce that. No. It's when that you've connected to your soul energy enough. That you actually can stand outside it. Where your understanding has got big enough that you really know that the stuff that's running through your mind is of limited value. Even as part of you believes it. Takes time. Takes time. Once you've got that witnessing, Once you're able to do that, You're on your way. Oh, It's funny. I don't want to say goodbye to you, But my voice, I'm tired of talking. And I don't want to mess things up by talking too much more. I'll have to start sweeping it all up again. So I'm going to make the last call for anybody who wants to speak at all, Say anything. Can I just say something? Yeah, Who's that? This is Judy. Just Judy. You're not just Judy. No, I said this. I said, This is Judy. Oh, Okay. Thank you. That's what that came in my head. That's all I have to say. Right. Right. And that's, You know, That's it. It's like, We can play into it. That's exactly it. We can, That is, That is the use of a loving group. It's like, We get playful, We get, You can play out of this. That's it. Good, Good, Good. Good start. Good start. Jayma! Okay you guys. We'll see you next Sunday, And we'll do another Saturday in a couple of weeks from this weekend. Okay, And thank you. Thank you. Thank you for all your messages and thank you for coming. Thank you for growing. Thanks for being willing. It's just so much fun, You guys. It's just so much fun. Bye.