The "Inside" Scoop On The Spiritual Journey

With clarity and humor, Premasudha shines a light on the spiritual journey and helps our hearts feel lighter. She describes the process like climbing a mountain. Some parts of the climb feel tough but it becomes easier as we realize the power of our prayer is enormous. Similarly, just as toddlers are going to spill their milk sometimes, we will make mistakes on the journey. It is all okay and just learning.

Our soul is reaching for us just as we are reaching for it and the time comes when the door opens to Self and we can experience Divine Love. Just listening to this satsang can help melt the veils and walls in your cells and psyche and help you feel safe enough to take a bigger inner step than you thought possible. It is easy to feel Premasudha's gentle heart accompanying you which is the whole point of her satsangs - to help us feel loved and supported.

Transcript

It's, It's what I live for, To share it, To share it, To share it. It's like a mother, You know, With the babies crying and her milk comes and it becomes less, It's, It feels so much better to share it than not, You see. Although it's okay, It's like that is the job of the person who awakens is to turn and share it. So yeah, Please understand this. It's, It's like, Um, It's like a field, An energetic field that a mama has with her babies. Really her love for them is just in the air. Yeah. That's how I feel. And at the same time, I'm wanting to help you out of your prickles. So this could be a bit of a minefield. I want to tell you a story is I had something under my armpit that was bothering me and it was kind of red and inflamed. And I went to emergency and the, The doctor, You know, We talked a bit and he was kind of joking with me. And he, He went over to the other side of the room and he picked up something or I saw him, I didn't see him pick up something. He kind of hid what he was doing. And I noticed that his hand was kind of clasped as he was coming back to me, But I was so clueless. I didn't realize what was happening. And what happened was he came close to me and he jabbed a scalpel thing into this inflamed area. And I was so shocked and it hurt so much. And I went, I, You know, I kind of, You know, I was raised with kind of this English overhang in my family. So it was like, I went, I just breathed bloody hell. And he said, You can scream. It's okay. You could yell. It's okay. Because it hurt like fire. Okay. So with you guys, When I'm going in to help you out of your egos, It's very simple, Similar to this Lansing the boil. And I know it hurts. I have been through it, But it's sort of like, There's no alternative. You, I mean, If you want to move on your journey, Do you know, You, You have to feel the pain of the misunderstandings and fear that you're hearing, Or it's just, It's not going to, It's not going to change. So, You know, In this work, A real teacher is always guided for how deeply to go, How, What the person can handle. Yeah. And it won't be all the time. It would just happen if you're being really obstructed. If your journey is being really obstructed by this misunderstanding and you cannot go forward, The teacher will go in to help you out of it. It's, This is what Amma did for me. And I didn't even know I was obstructed. And I always had a like healthy sense of self-promotion. I think this is common on the journey. You know, It's just, We tend to think it's like, We think sometimes we're farther along than we are. It's like a little, A three-year-old say, A three-year-old is as old, She's, Or he is the eldest they've ever been. So they think they're, They're it, They've got it. But, But the adult knows they're just three. It's like, They, They can't be in charge of running their, Their life yet. They're just little. So we can be like this in the journey. You know, We can sort of self-promote and think we're higher than we are. But on the other hand, You know, It's not bad if you do that. Like it's kind of like, That's the shadow of your belief in yourself. Do you know what I mean? It's not, It's not a bad thing, But the teacher will have to like help you face reality more because when you see that you're not as far along as you are actually, As you thought you were, You can leap. You can jump up. Okay. I'm going to shine a light on this. The, The, You know, The, The boil that was under my armpit. It's like, And in our personalities and our misunderstandings, They are right around a split. They'll be where we split off from ourselves as a little kid. So Carl Young years ago described Berlin as a, When it was, You know, Split to East and West Berlin, That it was a perfect symbol of the schizophrenia of the human condition. So that's, You know, Berlin's healed. This is wonderful. And this is signs of spring and Amma's here and we will be brought out of our split. But what I'm working with you guys is where you're split, Where you split off from your soul. So it's like a boil to lance it and it hurts. So if you can just kind of really, This is going to be a bit gross, But if you just watch, You know, In this boil, It took like, I mean, This is going to be revolting to tell you, But like it took like several days for all the pasta flow out. It was revolting. I had to keep changing this path. It was terrible. But the same thing happens emotionally when there's been a lance like that, Where I've really highlighted or pinpointed something that's obstructing you. It's obstructing you. You will feel a fuss of misunderstanding, Kind of an emotional pass of all the misunderstandings and experiences behind what I'm shining a light on. Yeah, Good. And just be with it. And you will unify if you're steering towards Amma. If you're steering towards God, You will unify. You know, It's like a teacher like me, This is my particular gift with people I can see because of, You know, My experience with my like, When I was kind of put into the blender psychologically, This one emerged with a very clear map of the psyche and an ability to access deeply unconscious levels in somebody and bring them up to the surface. But if you just think about God a lot and keep, You know, What's the word, Renewing your vows, You know, In married couples, They renew their vows, You keep renewing your commitment to the source and these splits will heal as a byproduct, Okay? And it will be a gentler, Slower way. They'll gradually heal. It may be this life or another life, But they will gradually heal. It's like all the people around Amma, They get hugs. Some people, You know, Move ahead with each hug and other people, You know, It's like they're being seated for future lives. You know, The next life, They'll be much farther along. It just depends what we want. And it isn't even what we want so much. It's really what you've already chosen because you will find out what you've already chosen in your life, Truly. It's really that is when you, As you move into truth, You discover what you've already, What your soul has already chosen. It's very much like that. Yeah. Right. And for Westerners, You know, We're so independent and we go after what we want and we're so independent and this can be challenging. So, You know, What will happen is we will keep walking into walls. We will keep walking into our own veils that we're carrying, Our own veils that our psyche's carrying to our truth. Our psyche carries them, Our body's carrying them. We will keep walking into walls and you then you surrender, Clear, Go along for a while, Walk into another wall, Feel blocked, Stuck, Surrender, Keep walking, Keep walking. It really depends what your homework is for this life, You know. This one has an incredible amount of homework. Yeah. So, You know, If you're carrying a lot of resistance, It just means that that's what you came here to heal. It's not bad. Although it can be really frustrating and can make us sad, You know, When we feel how, Just how much resistance we're carrying. Yeah. So I hope you're really gentle with yourselves with this because it's just fantastic that you're even on the journey and it's fantastic that you're attending the satsang. I mean, It's kind of like, You know, It's kind of as good as a human being can be is to, You know, Be steering in the right direction. There's a level that our souls don't expect that much of us because they know what we're like, But if we're steering in the right direction, Gradually we become pure and pure of heart. Yeah. And that's the key. Come pure and pure of heart. And lots of us, Where we get mixed up is where we, We feel that we have to earn our living rather than God earning our living for us. So we sell our souls to earn our living and we don't have to do that. We can become less attached to concrete reality and serve the higher focus and that will solve our money problems or our careers. It's, You know, Christ said, Seek ye first the heaven of the kingdom of God and all will be brought to you. It's really true, But it is the hardest thing for Westerners. I hear this all the time with people where they're, They've got one foot in worshipping the concrete and one foot in worshipping the source and that won't work. That won't work. Yeah. You have to put all your, Put it all in worshipping the source and then just follow the guidance for how to spend your days. Yeah. It's hair raising, But it works. So that's why it's kind of like, I don't, You know, If somebody talks about their financial obligations and it's interfering with the journey, I don't affirm that because either the situation can be changed or the attitude can be changed. If you're earning money, You can do it for God. Have your work day devoted to God. You guys remember this, Be very patient and gentle with yourselves because this takes years. Some of you, You're all at different spots. You know, I know that you'll get what you need out of this. You know, The higher you go in the mountain, The more you realized how loved you are. So Hathias wrote a poem about Mother Moon and Father Sun fighting over who gets to put you to bed at night. Yeah. Now think about that. Mother Moon and Father Sun fighting over who gets the honor of putting you to bed. It's that. It's that. That's the truth of things. Truly. It's so warm and loving, But our bodies and our psyches are trained in alienation. So this big love registers as dangerous. Yeah. Yeah. And this is why we can be with teachers as if they're like a ring on the oven that's turned on high. We don't want to get too close because we're scared of being burned. And you know, We may get one of our boils lanced. No, It hurts. It feels tough. There's some of you that are walking closely with me and it's like my hat off. Badge of honor. Good. You're getting the love. There's something that happened there. You're getting the love. There's something in your body that opened up in your bodies. You know, It's so tiring to wall off love. It's exhausting. Any mom knows that if she goes through a day like if she's not feeling good, Like heartfelt, The struggle to raise the kids in the day will be very heavy and it will be hard and not much fun. And if she's really flowing, It's effortless. If her love is flowing, Raising kids is effortless. It's the same with our lives. If our love is flowing, It gets effortless. Although we might go slower because we're taking care of our inward self more. But what we do is effortless. So, You know, One of the funny ways that I've seen my progress is, You know, In the old days when I had doing income tax, In the old days, I'd have a big head of steam about it. All the stuff about the authoritarian father, The authoritarian judging father and everything. And I always used to feel like a cheater, Even though I am totally honest on my income tax. And it's like now it's done in like, It's effortless. Yeah, Without any fear or anything. It's just done in two or three hours. Yeah. It's like that. See, This is how you can register your progress and the importance of, Okay, There's some of you that really need to get this, Of letting yourself in the equation. Yeah. Let yourself in the equation. I almost want to speak your names, But I don't think I'm going to do that. Yeah. Think of that, Letting yourself in the equation of your life. It's like what I'm talking about. Like I would pay attention to everything. I would pay attention to how I did my income tax. I would notice the heaviness. I would notice the fear, You know, Talk to God about it. Or even if I didn't talk to God about it, I was like steering towards God. So I noticed that over time it got better. You see, So many of you try to evolve without putting yourself in the equation. This makes me so sad because what you do will be, You will be trying to fix yourself over and over and over, Correcting yourself, Fixing yourself. And I'll tell you that it's not work. I have seen so many spiritual seekers spend decades doing that. Don't do that. Make it a love affair with your being. And you're the beloved of your being. You're, It's like me really looking forward to the satsang. You see inside you, Your soul's knocking from the inside, Even as you're knocking from the outside. Do you see, It's like maybe you look forward to these satsangs. So you're coming with that. And then I look forward and we're both meeting each other in this boolean love. Yes, This is what your soul's doing inside as you're knocking. So remember, Expect to, Expect to be loved, Expect, Expect to be honored, Expect, Expect the best. Don't, Don't do this, What I was talking about last time, Like this kind of concentration camp level of trying to fix yourselves. Don't do that. Yeah. Okay. So may this level in you all clear this week. Yeah. You're a little frozen with that. It may have scared you a bit, But I'm trying to help you into freedom. You can go through anything. And if you just pray, You can go through anything. Please understand this. There's nothing so terrible. Really, There's nothing so terrible. If you just keep this prayer going, Not only will you be protected, You'll get special protection because you're asking for it, Basically, But you'll just find that you can circulate through anything and emerge unscathed. There is nothing so terrible that could happen to you that you couldn't recover from. And if something that happens to us kills us, We get to, You know, We get to experience love times a trillion. Yeah. You're totally safe. And this really is a dream. And we're all going to wake up when we pass over and it'll be like, Oh, That was interesting. Learned a lot. Right. Like I said, Getting on the roller coaster, Being scared to death, And then getting off and going, Hey, That was fun. You know, One of the things about with a life where you get onto your soul task, It's like being a farmer or, You know, Climbing the mountain, But also like being a farmer and sowing the seeds and reaping what you sow and the effort of it. So at the end of a long day, The farmer and the end of a long life with you guys, It's like we're tired. We put away our tools and we go back home. It's like that. It's like that. Or, You know, Climbing the effort of climbing a mountain and how you, You know, Precise you have to be and how careful you are when you're sticking the nails in to the rock so that you can, So that it's solid and you're climbing up. That's what the spiritual journey's like. It's not, It's not like, I don't know, Sitting and eating chocolate cake or something, You know, It's got like this effort in it. This, The task and doing the task like the farmer or the mountain climber. Yeah. And it's always there. And the more, If we haven't, You know, If we're totally locked in false personality, Running from ourselves, Our soul will still be bothering us. It will be seething underneath, You know? So, I mean, This can be the cause of insomnia, You know, Is when somebody's really, You know, Running from themselves. But the other thing with insomnia, I, If you guys get it at all, I go through periods of it. It's, It's always when I'm moving into more truth. And my psyche is nervous about it. Like part of me is on red alert about making the shift. Yeah. It'll be part of me that's scared of surrender. Oh, You see, Put yourself in your equation. Your whole life is, Is your task. And you are beloved of the universe. This is the thing you have so much trouble with. You are the beloved of the universe. You know, The Eastern sages say that you're the, The point of consciousness for your dream universe. So, The universe you see when you look outside, You are the point of consciousness. And as you move into truth, And become more and more conscious, You become basically the boss of it all. Do you know? It's like you, It's like you are part of God. And what happens is your, Your, You become fully conscious of your true creator nature. Yeah. And that's why sages are so relaxed and so peaceful, Because there's no war, There's no battle, There's no threat. They just flow along and accept what is. So, I remember telling you one of the satsangs that my teacher Abraham turned to his partner one day and said, Well, You better take me to the hospital, Because I'm going to die tonight, And you don't want to wake up next to a dead body. That's how accepting he was. So, She took him to the hospital. And he died that night. And, You know, You don't even have to be fully awake to know when you're going to be dying. I mean, People know this, You know, They'll, When people are sick, They often say, Well, I won't be here by October or something. Yeah, We know, The God in you knows. Okay, So, See, You can honor yourself like this, Just think to yourself, The God in you already knows everything. Really, So treat this fragment of God well, Be loving, Self respectful, Self honoring, Not at, You know, Not, You know, I'm not talking about the, Like in a narcissistic, Selfish way. Yeah. Like, I'm struck with, You know, The motherhood and, And women have to, You know, Be beautiful work and then go out with their friends and keep fit. And, And sometimes I wonder, Like, Does anybody actually see their kids at all? Yeah. Well, They're so busy taking care of themselves. But the thing is, If your heart's open, Spending time in be taking care with your kids can be taking care of yourself. It is an honoring of yourself to allow yourself to bond with your children. Right. And I really have a particular feeling for moms who really are engaged with loving their children and trying to do that even more. Okay, Good. Good. Good. The work's getting done, I can feel it. You see, It just comes in a kind of a peaceful power, A peaceful love power. You know, When you're healing a split within yourself, It's very good work, But it hurts a lot. But the sooner you can. It's funny, Just as I said that somebody's dog went over to, I don't know if you can see all that too, To this woman's face, You know, It's like dogs, No. Okay, So, You know, It hurts a lot. But if you turn and face it, It's, It's easy. It just heals up. You unite with your soul. Yeah. You just decide where your center of gravity is. Is it in your physical support? Or is it in your moving into truth? And as long as our center of gravity is in our physical support, We will be split. Because the thing that works is, You know, Seeking first the kingdom of heaven, And our kingdom of God and all will be brought to you. And it's challenging for Westerners. I so have compassion for that. Remember, Mother Moon, And Father God are fighting over who gets to put you to bed. It's like that. And if you don't feel like that, That's okay. Just knowing that you can feel like that, That you can learn to allow that. It's sort of like if you're living in the North Pole to just even hear about a place called Hawaii might be kind of relaxing. Just to hear about it, You know, Just to think about it. Yeah. And then one day, You know, Maybe because you've been thinking about it, You know, There's some lottery you win, And you get a free trip to Hawaii. It's kind of it. It's kind of how it goes. Just keep thinking about it. But please, You know, The thing I really notice is, I remember somebody saying to me that I was addicted to feeling bad about myself. And it was true. I came in with a lot of self karma. And I had a Virgo birth, You know, I'd say I have compassion for any Virgo. But there was, In me, Something invincible that I could feel. And that's what I want to strengthen or wanting these satsangs to strengthen. Yeah. The invincible soul in you. I mean, They will strengthen them. Right? It's invincible. Mama says innocence is the most powerful force on earth. It is. It's soul. Like, Our whole universe was created by our soul. So duh, It's the most powerful thing. Like, Really. And you know, When we get this, We get to graduate and then we leave. And this is what's wrong. It's like, Well, It's not wrong, But people get it and they leave. And actually, Amma said that part of the reason the earth was in this mess is so few souls like stayed around as avatars and, And helped out. Yeah. Everything you go through is necessary. Think of a little three year old, You know, Who knocks over milk and she, And they might, You know, Be scared and feel shamed. But it's just spilling the milk. It's nothing. It's the same with us. There's a concept I'm wanting to introduce. And it's, You know, In the East or in the West, We we know about egos, You know, And in the East, They focus on the mind. And the mind is, It's more, It's bigger than the ego. It's kind of like, Just think of everything, Like how you see the world, How you see other people. It's, It's the mind. I remember making a shift and suddenly I felt closer to mother nature. So this was a shift in my ego, But it was also a shift in my mind so that after that, The stars didn't look so far away. You guys, Can you imagine? Like this is how it changes. The stars would look stark and far away to me. And then after the shift where I just felt closer to mother nature, The stars seem friendlier to me. It's this, It's these kind of shifts. So, You know, We have our souls, And we have our mind, And our egos and our mind has been built, You know, In a way like our egos out of all of our lifetimes and everything, But it sort of covers the whole universe in a bit of a shroud for us. That's kind of what the mind does. And as this as our mind will finally dissolve, Along with our ego, As we move into self realization, What happens is the shroud goes and you no longer feel the universe as other at all. It's you, It's you, You are the mountains, You are the sunset. Aha, You are the oceans. And this is why it's so important to love and respect yourself, Honor yourself. At the same time that you're wanting, You know, To grow and become more evolved, You honor yourself. Yeah, You deserve grace. See, As you let this love in, You know, Really, Your, Your body will function better. It's like, You know, My mom had clogged arteries. And I remember thinking that that was, You know, Her true life's blood was clogged up, There wasn't much room for it to flow, You know, You know, To really love yourself, Your humanity and your soul. It's like loving your soul and forgiving your humanity is the hardest task a human being can do, You know. And that's why so many people are so comfortable with just doing practices, Or doing yoga and everything doing practices. But that can be a sidestep that they can be helpful, Truly behave helpful. But if we fall in love with those things, We miss the big game, Which is falling in love with our hearts, And the religious journey, This has happened over and over and over. It's like, You know, Practices, They give us something to do. So we, We love that. But there's a shift into the heart where you just realize that you are really, Really valuable, Just as you are. And you can go for a walk and have an ecstatic experience. Some of the most innocent people I know, Some of the farthest along most innocent people I know, Feel that they're the, They're the like, Belong to the not very good club. You know, In Britain, They've got these clubs, It's like for the not very good club for what you know, If you're not very good at something, You join the not very good club, The Brits bless their hearts. But lots of us feel like we belong to that club. To many of those kind of clubs. And you're beautiful just the way you are. There's nothing to fix. There's nothing to fix. But when you make this shift into more truth, It will feel like suddenly you're breathing mountain air. Really, Or I used to feel my eyes as if I was had a camera and I was, You know, Turning the knob so that it focused, Made it more precise what I was looking at. Yeah, Right. We can have these, If we slow down enough, We can have these physical experiences of the universe realigning us. But if you have to be busy, It's good you you know, The universe is so miraculous, It will give you an experience like that, Even if you're super busy. So don't make any wall, Don't wall off any possibility. Because, You know, A teacher, What happens is when people come alongside a teacher, A teacher will get data about how innocent they are. And, You know, We all go through phases where we're, You know, Innocent or more defended or whatever. But a teacher will kind of get how deeply sincere the person is. And they'll, They'll respond. It's kind of like, If you want to get closer to the teacher, Get closer to yourself. The teacher will feel it. Yeah, Become more honest. Really. You know, You have to be honest before Mother Moon and Father Sun will fight over who gets to put you to bed. It's a great relief to just get honest in to yourself and others. It is such a relief. And it's so much easier on your body. It's funny, I'm seeing a lot of love coming in behind you. And it's kind of pooling outside your back. Okay, So I'm going to speak to your deep subconscious and ask that this love be allowed in, In just the right way, In in a safe, Organic way. To just let this love in and it's around the base chakra and the sacral chakra. Right? Right. Right. It's a little walled off in pretty much all of you right now. That's it. This will be actually where the split is. You know, Because we want to be in truth, But then push comes to shove. The cells of our backs were walling off this love. I don't know how you feel about this. But it really wants to come in. Some of you may even be feeling a burning around your back. Don't worry. You know, Something beyond you does it all you can do is please help me. Creator, Please help me, Alma. Please help me make this shift. You're worthy of this love, You guys. Some of you are going, I can't feel it. So I don't know if she's speaking the truth or not. Okay, Well, You know, Has it been truthful before? You see, If you're if you're three year old, You can't know what it's like to be a grown up. So just let yourself be led by the grown up, Please. Please, I want to shake you. Don't let the ego wall you off. Don't let don't let the ego like, Keep you separate. Some of you are going, I don't know that it can be so easy. It can be. This is what we like. It's like, I really want to know God. And then we were with a teacher, And she's serving it up on a plate. And we're like, Oh, I don't know. I don't know. And the teacher's hair gets whiter. I'm browsing with you guys. I'm browsing you. You know, I'm, I'm just so kinesthetic that this is just how I, The teaching comes through. That's it. Funny. Some of you, Unconsciously, You're trying to seek shelter from a storm. You're walling it off, Because you feel that it's like, Oh, I have to protect myself from the storm. But what you're trying to protect yourself from is mother moon, Father, Son, Fighting over who gets to put you to bed, You see, You know, The omicron, You know, The, The variation of COVID omicron, The spell, Unscrambled spells moronic. So, You know, It's kind of like it is kind of, It's kind of, It's so stupid what we do. But, You know, It's so ridiculous. And that's why it's like, They talked about waking up, Because when you wake up to what you're doing, You see the stupidity of it. And you can't do it anymore. You can't wall off the love anymore, Because you get like, I'm wanting to let this love in. And you go like, Okay, I'll just let this woman's words, Reach the cells of my back, Melt the resistance. So I can feel the love. That's it. That's the innocence. That's just going. It's just going. Thanks, Mom. Thanks for the help. Right? No, Sweetie pies. Yeah. Okay, You're, You're softening is a softening. You're better than you know, All of you. Please. This kind of thing has to be done at a pace you can handle. Okay, So for me, It just seems well, Open the door, Right? Like, But I remember, I mean, I know it can't be done just like through a linear mind thing. You can't just say, Okay, I'm going to do it. It's done. No, You're working with your psyche, You're working with your lives, You're working with the cells of your body. You know, You're working with what the creator wants you to get, When the creator wants you to get it. And there's a way that it's not in your timetable, All you can do is go, Okay, Please help me let this love in. And then just let the creator decide the time. Because if it isn't done, Right this moment, It will be done next week, Or it will be done between the weeks. Or you'll have a dream. I don't want you to give yourself a bad time about this. Okay, Good. Okay, Good. Okay, You're letting it in. That's it. That's it. Don't worry if you can't feel it. What I'm picking up on is like blueprint level. So don't worry about it. That's it. Just notice your backs what's going on. You know, All I'm talking about is opening to universal love, And you will do it at a pace that you can. So don't, You know, Please don't just just put your arms around, However you're feeling. And know that it's taking place. It's like, It's the act of just turning up for the satsang is you saying yes to this. So don't worry. And that love from this one comes to you all during the week. That's it. And some of you are very, Very innocent. And some of you might be surprised at who I'm thinking of that you might you might think who me? Yes. You. That's it. You all deserve this. It's coming to you. And it's coming. You know, In the, Especially the last two chakras, And they're where we get split. Because we feel that we cannot have our true nature and flow with our divine nature. And we can. And when this comes into your body, It will heal the splits I'm talking about as a byproduct. And you'll fight yourself less. The fighting yourself is just ego. It's always ego. Just watch it. Observe it. Observe if you start that it's ego. Ego comes in with you should do this. And it will come in like the expert. Say you should do this. If you're a good spiritual student, You should be doing this, You should be doing it. And it's like, No, Just observe that the best spiritual student honors, Let's themselves be a small ignorant child, Who's being taken care of by the Great Mother and the Great Father. And, You know, Often just before a shift into truth, We will act at the worst will be the worst of us just before there's a shift into more truth. Okay, So you guys, You made a big shift today, All of you, And it's going to be ongoing. And it feels like next week, We'll do some more around this. It's not to be, You know, Engineered or messed with, Just keep it in mind that there's this deeper unity wanting to come. That's where we're going. And the process has already started. You know, You know, Except as you become as little children, You cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. It's so true. There's some of you that are, I know we're coming to the end, But there's just something happening. There's some of you that are dropping an obstruction from your third eye. It's like, You know, I'm seeing where we chew a bone, Like we get an idea in our head, We go, We chew a bone, And we think about all, I'm, I'm like this, And I'm like, I'm doing this wrong. And I'm, You know, We have something that we're chewing, Chewing on and chewing on and chewing on, And it blocks our clear creator intuition. And some of you just gave up this dark bone that you, That distracts you away from just sinking into truth. Oh, Thank God. This is beautiful. It's beautiful. Okay. So not only do you have Ama, Like, Who's running this whole show. But I think of you all personally, And send you many blessings during the week, Please understand this. And I deeply know how hard it can be. It's one of the great gifts of me having such a trial by fire is I know how horrible it can be. Just, But I know that as soon as you get the lesson, You get brought to heaven. So if it's really hard, Just turn up the, The heat, You know, Just turn up the prayers, And you'll get lifted out of it. Okay, So So, Again, I'm particularly asking Ama to assist this process. I mean, This is all her, It's all, It's all just love, But it's like, It's for you to know that, That I've asked her to come and particularly help you. Okay, So it's base chakra, Sacral, And a clearing around your third eye. And you all made big shift. And, But there's more that's wanting to come. So we're human, We cannot, We're not machines, We have to do it at a level we can do it at. But you know, My hat off to you for turning up. Yeah, I'm being open. And next Saturday, There's going to be a question and answer. For anybody, I might talk for like 10 minutes just to get stuff going. But if anything's pressing on you, I just want some time to get a little nurturing, You know, Or get your boil lanced. I don't know. But any question, You know, When you when you ask a question, You actually open the door to let the love in. And the more truthful and close to your heart, You can be with me, The more that will expand into your lives. You see? Yeah. So tell the truth to me. And you'll find that you can tell the truth, Much more just in your, In your life. It's like we can experiment, We can find new territory through interfacing with the teacher, You see. And then we discover it's safe. But we might get scared along the way. But really, It's safe. For a sincere seeker, It is totally safe. Okay, But you'll, You'll feel into this in your own time. So I it's, You know, 935. So I don't really think we have time for questions. So we'll save them for Saturday. And then we'll have just a normal set saying, The following week, Probably the following Sunday, Next Sunday, Probably along the lines of this energy coming to your base chakra and in your unconscious and your sacral chakra. And we'll just gently work with it and may everything be balanced and gentle and easy for you during the week. And may you think about Amman God more and more often, More and more easily. And I'm going to complete but before I go, I want to say special hi to Benjamin. Hi, Benjamin. Bye, Everybody. Bye. Bless your hearts.