Tap Into Your Soul Energy

Today we highlight spiritual growth. We tap into Soul energy through prayerful intention.

We may begin the journey run by the ego, a thief disguised as a policeman who tries to knock us off the spiritual journey (Ramana Maharshi).

We grow by embracing every experience.

The corollary: what we fight grows bigger while we diminish.Like the white knight who wanted to rid the land of black knights but became a black knight because he had focused on them so intensely instead of following the Creator ‘s guidance.

When we embrace trials, solutions arrive through Higher Intelligence, which is in us all.

Your eternal presence is a gift to this world. Happiness comes as you live in truth.

Note: the power of unconditional love definitely trumps technology: After a question involving the presence of a more primal level of experience, both my phones malfunctioned. This is a metaphor for our matrix-like egoic thinking being interrupted.

Speakers: Michi, Lalita, Kalidas, Judy, Richard

Transcript

Okay, So We return. To grace. Return to remind ourselves. Of the grace. Obama's grace. That is everywhere. Within us, Without us. We are bathing in the Creator's grace. And may our minds and the cells of our bodies. Get become more and more open. To receive grace and peace. The guidance that comes with grace. Yeah, May we get really good at it. So it is. May you all. This is my wish and this is my vision. That you get very good at it. And I'm seeing it already. So talk about grace. I had some ideas for the satsang. And at about eight o'clock this morning, I got like, OK, This is what satsang is going to be about. It was just non-negotiable. So this is what I'm speaking from. You know, Prama would say, Prama Siddha would say, It's what the creator, It's what, Well, The creator, You know, Amma is the creator. That's what the Creator wants you to hear today. And your only job is to be here and work with your presence. Stay present as much as possible. Notice when you go off. And bring your mind back. The more captivated you are by this material. The less your mind will be. Will wander. Except when you're very triggered by something that I'm saying. Bring your mind back to being present and you can get over the issue in a second. To see you guys, You can move through the issue even in satsang. That's the whole point of it. So I want to talk. Okay, So. So this is what came to me. This morning. The reason you feel unfixable. Is because you are everything. You are not a piece of flotsam and jetsam to be fixed. You are immortal. You will never die. When you recognize this, That your true nature is all that is, You are healed in that instant. It's like you are so big. That to. It's such a wonder that to approach yourself as a faulty machine that needs to be fixed is a travesty and it's never going to work, You guys. This is what You know. It's heartbreaking for Premasuddha. I watch you guys keep doing this. And I understand why. But it's never gonna work. What's gonna work? Is for you to open up. To the fact that you are all that is. Open up through grace. Open up to grace. And ask. That you're brought to this understanding, Because you guys, We get brought to the understanding. We don't do it. I keep saying to you, I didn't do this. I aimed this way. With all my heart, I wanted it, But I got brought to it by something beyond me. And I want to give you an image, OK, That again, So imagine a little house, And let's say maybe you're feeling a little dark. Lifestyle. So maybe this little house is like one room. And it's dark and maybe the roof leaks. I lived in a place like this for years. Yeah, And there you are. And you look at it and you go, Like, It really needs fixing. So. You keep it as clean as you can, But it's an old building. So anybody who's lived in an old building or an old cottage knows. Even when it's sparkling clean, It never looks it. And you know, When you do repairs, I mean, Where do you even start? In this one room thing. Where would you even start? Okay, What you can do is gut the whole thing. And rebuild it. Even, You know, Rebuild the outside walls. Really sort of. You know, Gut it. Fix it up. OK. Supposing you do that. And You know, You find that. It's not working well. Let the pipes burst for no reason. It's new, But it shouldn't. The pipes burst. Through fleeks, Even though it's brand new, It's like, Ah, The fixing didn't really help. This is the point. Anything done to fix doesn't really help because. The thing that you're missing. It's about yourself and about this. House. That you. Live from. It's part. Of some, A much bigger. Structure. That you don't even know about, You can't see. Let's have the windows being tinted so you can't even see it. But imagine that it's in the central courtyard. Of a really beautiful, Beautiful building, Like such a big central courtyard, Like think of like two acres of a central courtyard where your little house is. Where you are is the central courtyard of a beautiful, Beautiful house that goes around the courtyard. This courtyard is the heart of it. It's beautiful. It's absolutely stunning. We're kind of building that you'd always dreamed that you could live in. And you realize. . . That all you're fixing Didn't work. Because you didn't understand the building that you were part of. Like the way you rebuilt your little cabin that didn't work. It was very dissonant compared to the beauty. Of this building. And the beautiful fixtures, It's all done with perfection. And you couldn't possibly know how to fix your little cabbage. Without knowing. Seeing this bigger structure. And in fact, When you see the bigger structure and you just realize that this little building was just the parameters of what you thought was possible for you. In fact, You can move into this beautiful building anytime. It's yours, It's been sitting there waiting for you. Waiting for you as you were busy trying to fix this little Crummy little cabin. Do you get it? It is exactly this. Right. This is why. Our efforts. To fix ourselves. Unless we're connecting with our true personality, With our true soul, They will not hold. It'll just be a bad date. And at the same time, You know, On the journey, We have to face the same issues over and over and over. So we can think, You know, Oh, I was doing it wrong, But actually we were on the right track. In fact, You guys, Nothing's wasted. So any, Anything that you, Any work you've done on your little cabin, Is all going to the good. Nothing's ever wasted. It really isn't. Any effort. Isn't wasted. But the. Effort that will be the most fruitful will, If you go directly to your soul, And get your guidance there. And stop trying to fix yourself. Please. Yeah, It's like. . . Remember what I said about how the scientists studying the beryllium ions. They stopped the transformation of these Berlin islands by observing them and measuring them too often. So this is often what happens with, We kind of go, Am I healed yet? Am I healed yet? Am I better? Am I better? No. Yeah, That is exactly what I'm talking about. That is the perspective of the person who's stuck in the house, This little cabin. And can't see the big picture. Now we're really taught to be this way. I'll trick you guys. We are, Our consciousness is being reduced down even by the bonding practices, You know, How we are with small children. You know, There's an expression, If you want to. That if you love deeply, You become courageous. And if you're loved. Deeply. You become very strong. So the deep love. Possible within families. And the bonding. Zero to six. Makes for strong, Courageous children. With ah. A fully functioning prefrontal lobe. Can help them go into the abstract so they can see beyond themselves. They can see beyond their egos, Basically. We're doing the opposite. And I don't know how low we're going to come before we start the upswing. But even if you just understand. That our culture is moving in the way to make people smaller and smaller and smaller. You can get the lesson now. And grow. You can pivot now. You don't have to wait for the collective to walk its sad and terrible journey. Into total desolation. You don't have to walk that path. You can start becoming bigger now. This is what the Awareness Satsangs are all about. And as I say, You know, You don't even have to worry about renovations. Just do your practices, Turn up to satsangs, Read inspiring books, Think about Amma, Say your mantra. It will be done for you. You will be brought to it. I'll tell you what will happen. You'll do all those things, And then you'll have one night where you go, I just. . . I just can't do it anymore. I'm not getting anywhere. I'm just so terrible, My life. Help me, God. " And then you'll surrender. That's how it works. And so many of you work with yourselves trying to avoid that surrender. You keep on doing another level. Oh, I must be doing it wrong. That's why it's not working. It's something wrong with me. I'm doing it wrong. I'll just try harder. They're just trying harder, You guys. Yeah, It's kind of like there are two kinds of mums. There are mums who do things by duty and then there are mums who really love their children. And if you really love your children. It is much lighter taking care of them. It's way more fun and light. It's not a burden. But if you're doing it like from this fix the hut kind of mentality. Raising children is absolutely exhausting. So is the spiritual journey. Shows everything, You guys, If you're lodged in that. That fix, Fix, Fix, Efforting, Efforting. And, You know, We need some of that. We're just so overbalanced to the masculine, That's all. That all we're doing is efforting and we're measuring and we're quietly going bananas, You know. So I hope you remember the image. Of this house. And you know what you could do, You guys? And it will be very, Very powerful if you take this to heart. And you imagine. The, This. Big huge house with this courtyard around this courtyard. And imagine I'm a living in it. You know, Or if you don't know, I'll map. Christ or Buddha or somebody in there. And imagine. Your building, Your little building becoming. Like that big building. And imagine a passageway from your building from your little building to the big building. You guys. That conceive you years. Just like the mom who really loves the child does things effortlessly. It's like if you really want this higher illumination, You'll just find you'll want to do these imaginary things. To help yourself. And you'll just do them and it will just speed you. And if there's part of you going, Oh, I can't do that, Or that just sounds stupid, Understand that this is the perspective of the person in the little house trying to fix the leaky roof. Blind to the bigger understanding. Don't argue for the small understanding, You guys. Don't argue for it. There are enough people in the world arguing for it. You can leave it. Leave it to them. Yeah. Good. I'm feeling like you're There's more space. Yeah, That's like more space for the penny to drop. Because we need enough space for the penny to drop, You guys. If our minds are too small. And full of effort, We don't experience the penny dropping. It's when we step back a little bit. So I'm returning to it. When I wrote at eight o'clock. So we talked about the reason you feel unfixable is because you are everything, And it's a travesty to try to fix yourself. It's to remember your true nature. And feel it. Let it in. It's like. A gold behind your heart. Many people wall off the divine in their subconscious. Well, We all do really, You know. Apart from avatars. That's where the problem is really. That's why imagination is so important because It really helps remove those blocks in your subconscious. Tells your subconscious to go this way, The way you're imagining. In the positive way. That's why it's so important to interrupt your thoughts and think about the Creator. Because the subconscious will pick up the patterns of how we're thinking. And if we're thinking a lot about the creator, Doorway. Through these blocks. The subconscious follows the way your mind works. Please understand this. And it goes on your whole life. So the more you're going around in, Oh, It was so awful with my childhood and everything, The more you're imprinting. Or how bad it is in the world right now. The more you're imprinting these negatives, Ruts. In your unconscious, When you start thinking about the creator a lot, When you use your imagination. In the way like I described unique. Doorways. Through these. Blocks. You melt the blocks. You think law firms, Unethical law firm, If they're having a battle, They might try to snow the other firm with 500 boxes of files, Say. So it kind of incapacitates the other firm. It's the same thing with the unconscious. If you think about the creator a lot, It starts incapacitating. The old. Unconscious patterns. Truly, That's how it works. Yeah, So you're not a piece of flotsam and jetsam to be fixed, You guys. Feshy women can go there. I think men are joining them now, Though, But women. It's our PhD. How am I doing it wrong? How can I be more acceptable? How can I do it right? What has to change about me? Yeah, When you realize that you're immortal. You're the big, Huge mansion built around this. Courtyard. You're not the little hat. That's a leaky roof. So you guys, This is the pickle. I'm talking about, You know, Trying to fix this house that doesn't work because We're missing the heart of it. We're missing the obvious that we're part of this big. Beautiful. House that that's our true house. The same thing is happening with what we're doing with Mother Nature. Like Amma says, We're trying to bargain with Mother Nature and this will never work. So, You know. What do we do? We go, Okay, Mother Nature, We want you to do this. And so what do we have to do to kind of fix you so you will do this, Like produce our food or, You know, For the storms thing? What do we need to do to you to fix you so you will meet our needs and our wants? Okay, This is what we're doing to Mother Nature. This is never gonna work. It is exactly the same perspective of the person trying to fix you. You know, Fix their little house. They're just deluded. The thing that will fix Mother Nature is when we love her. She will settle down. Just like an upset mama will settle down. When her family shows her more respect and love. When she doesn't feel exploited. All the same principle. It's so simple, You guys. I've told you many times, George Washington Carver, When the South was depleted, After crop, After crop, After crop, He talked to Mother Nature. He loved Mother Nature. He just loved her and Mother Nature told him that the peanut peanuts would grow in this depleted soil. She shared her secrets with him because he was trustworthy. Okay, I want you to realize this applies to our souls with us. We get information when we're trustworthy enough to hold it. It will also happen with our teacher. Our teacher will give us information as we show that we're ready, We're trustworthy. All the same principle. It's just like raising kids. You give them the responsibilities they can handle. Guys, It's all the same principle. That's why we talk about God being the father or the mother, Because it's all the same thing. The laws that happen in our family are the same laws that happen outside it. You know. As a teacher, It's quite funny. There is something ridiculous about sitting with other aspects of the creator who are pretending they're just human beings. It's true. It is something ridiculous. It's kind of ridiculous. We're all here together. We're all divine beings. We all have We're invincible, Really. We're omniscient. Our talents are off the charts. But we're all here pretending to be human beings. Right. That we're really believing it. Awesome. So the teacher is the person who's living in their own world. The big, Beautiful. Structure going, You who, You guys, You who. And then you guys go, Well, No, What she's saying, That couldn't be true, Because I know the truth about this leaking roof in my little house. I know that's just true. She could say other things, But. My experience of living in this tiny, Dark house is the truth. This often happens. You guys. Not only do I hear you inside yourselves go, Well, That couldn't be true. I hear it. And how do I hear it? If there's no creator, How do I hear the thoughts that you're creating? But not only that, People say this straight to my face. They say, Oh, That just couldn't be true. And I'm like, I go, This is why teachers talk about humility is so good. You cannot learn without humility. You have to be humble enough to realize that you're living in this tiny structure that does not work very well. Yeah, It's a sore point, This humility. I can feel it. You guys, Some of you were shamed in childhood. In our culture. Shames vulnerability, Really, And exploits it. It will attack vulnerability. Yeah, Well I can feel like it's interesting, It's like a Yeah, A lot of you have trouble with this humility, I'm feeling like. A third. And more. Of real trouble with humility. That's so sad and lonely place to be, You guys. That is kind of. The loneliest and saddest place to be. If you can't allow yourself to be like a fallible human being and you can't allow yourself to just learn. It's like a person who thinks the dark is the only thing that exists. And it's not safe, You can't open up in the dark. Not safe, You might get attacked by monsters. Yeah. You know, The humble person knows that. Dawn breaks. They feel safe enough. Because they know dawn breaks finally. Some of you are getting restless. You know who I'm talking about. Yeah, You're good. Melody. Come on, You can do it, You know, It won't kill you. To just go, You know, Maybe I'm not the boss of things. Maybe I don't know. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm wearing dark glasses so I can't see straight. Make room otherwise you guys you're just going to be stuck making ineffectual renovations to your little house, Your little cabin. For eternity. For as long as it takes you to be humble and open to learn, That's how it's like maybe five lifetimes from here. Yeah, It's funny, I've hit this wall. Really hit a wall. So interesting. I had the reverse problem. I was too humble. I accepted, Like, If people set themselves up as teachers, I assumed they knew. And it was only, Like, I found out that, Like. . . Not everybody who talks knows. The people who have water in their horoscope or have water in the, You know, The Chinese things. You know, Being a water tiger, Water. They have an easier time with humility because water flows down to the places nobody wants to go. Like it flows, It will go down. It flows. It's not. It's not saying, No, I'm not going to go that way. It's going down. It goes down. It just flows down. Yeah. But even so, You can learn, You guys. Even if you don't have much water, You can learn. Especially, I'll tell you, Any woman. . . Who isn't humble. Has got levels of pain within her. That are excruciating that she doesn't want to go near. Okay, I want you to like chew on that you guys. If you have trouble being humble, It's because you've got levels of sorrow and pain that you don't want to feel at all. You want to pretend they do not exist. And this is how you see we get humbled anyway. You don't want humility? Well, Life will humble you or your teacher will humble you. It's true. You will just get humbled. Ama talks about how seeds have to go down into the ground. To be watered, You know, To grow. To grow. They have to go into the ground. Right now we've got a whole bunch of like. Seeds that are like, No, I'm too good to go into the ground. Well, Do you know what happens to seeds that don't go into the ground? They dry out or they rot. They get fried by the sun or they rot. I want you to really hear that. Because this is what happens to people. If they stay in their ego. It's like the. They basically, You know, Rot as they get older. They rot compared to who they could have been. The body starts causing trouble. There's no greater sense of meaning to help. Tell Asya that. You know, If you got a sense of meaning, Often you're happier because you move your body more and you love yourself enough to eat right. That's it. There's no escape, You guys. There's no escape from the creator. When you get that, It will make you very humble. You just know there's no point arguing. At all with anything. You know, The other thing is, You'll find it a great relief to be humble. What you'll find is your Your body relaxes. The tension in your body will start getting much smaller. And when I'm talking about humility, I'm not talking about the like, I'm a miserable sinner. Who does everything wrong. I'm talking about the openness of the child, Sort of like, The kid who falls over and goes, Well, That didn't work and brushes themselves off and gets up again. That's all I'm talking about. That's all I'm talking about. That's all it is, You guys. I'll tell you which really helps with humility. If you let yourself love. You will become humble. Yeah, And you know that expression, There's no place for pride in love. This is true. Even love the creator, Love of our mother. There's no place for pride. Oh, My job is to just allow this loving to get bigger. Yeah, There's. . . This is really funny. I feel like. . . Oh, They're so cute. Is try to get through a wall. And I'm kind of giving up, But I'm giving one last parting shot to this wall. Yeah, And now I forgot what my parting shot was, Of course, But I'll remember. Yeah it's lack of humility takes away all meaning okay You lose all meaning. You lose access to deeper meaning. Because you only get deeper meaning when you're like, Like a child kind of. Racing towards the Creator. Help me, Help me, Help me. Show me, Show me, Show me. And you fall down and the creator picks you up again. End. Brushes you off. And sets you on your path. I was very depressed one time at one of the retreats. Obama's retreats years ago. But I was seriously depressed. And kind of feeling hopeless about my journey and as well as other things. Alma talked about how. Her children can throw themselves into a muddy pond. Into a big mud pile. And she has to like pull them out and clean them all out. And the way she talked about it, The way I could feel I don't know that she was using words for this, But I could feel the care with which she was taking all the mud off their bodies. Yeah that is what the creator does you see and we can become You know. Unwilling to grow just from having a depressive mindset. A depressive mindset can take away our humility as well. That's why I'm up. Clear as day. Sticks on the mud off us. So I've told many of you about. The power of Good quality subliminal. Adios. It would do, If you do do them, They would save. So many years. Is it works directly with your subconscious. And I tell you guys, And people just drop it. And then they write to me two weeks later about their depression, And I'm like, Cuckoo, Cuckoo, Cuckoo. I just told you. You listen to them twice a day for three weeks. I think actually you should just never stop listening to them, Like good quality ones. And I had a lot of trouble with depression. I went on antidepressants three times until one time I just got a This was before I knew Alma. I got a prescription and just with the prescription my depression was lifted. So I realized it was just That showed me it was just smoke and mirrors and wasn't real. That it had to do with my own state of mind. So then, And then I found subliminal. I never had trouble with depression again. Remember, You're all videos. You are. All that is, You are part of. You you are the creator in human form. Yeah, You're not Flotsam. You're not Jetsam. It's like, You know, We come here to learn where our souls want to learn. See, Even our souls are humble. They're humble enough that they that we come to earth, We dress up like human beings, And we go through these horrors. So we could learn. That's how humble our souls are. They know everything. Already. They just want to learn more, Obviously. Right, Okay, Good, That got, Okay, Good. Good. It's like when you can see the big logic, Right? The big logic, The big logic of the. . . Of the connection of this little tiny hot to the big. Palace that's built around. This courtyard. There's one more thread to this, And then I'm going to open for questions. You know how the quantum. Mechanics, They talk about how they We don't really know where electrons are. We thought originally that they sort of circled around the nucleus. Like the planets, But it's not like that. Okay, So stretch with this, But the electrons are in a cloud of probabilities. If you think of a coin being thrown up in the air. It's neither heads nor tails, And you don't know which it's going to land as. It's more like that. Okay, If you measure, If you bring in measurements. The cloud collapses. And the electron will show itself like a particle. Will show itself where it is. But before measurement, You cannot work out where electrons are. You cannot know their speed and their momentum. Where they're going. That you can't know their location and their momentum. Okay, You can't. You just cannot. Until you measure. And then you'll find an electron where it is. Okay. It's very similar to, You know, If you have a gold mine, You discover gold. And there's great interest and the stocks will go up, Up, Up on land that's got gold as soon as they start building the actual mine. And were hit with the reality, The stock falls. It just always falls. It is what happens. It's very similar. The other thing is. . . The fact you can't know the location of the electrons. And their momentum. It's just like if you focus totally on your life and you try to control all the aspects of your life. As well as Determine where you're going. What you want to happen. You will never get anywhere. It does not work. It will create suffering. What I'm trying to say to you with this with the stuff about the electrons is that The creator. Your soul permeates. This existence on every level. Everything. Reflect. It sucks. So our lives reflect what are going on with electrons. Electrons reflect what's going on with us. Everything is all that is and you are part of all that is. You are all that is. In your. Even the whole universe is in your body. We talked about that, About how your blood is like, The amount of blood is the same, You know, With the salty blood. It's just like the amount of ocean there is in the ocean. On the earth. You're not separate from anything. Your bones turn into rocks. They're, You know, Over Centuries will turn into rocks. You guys. Yeah, You're part of all that is. Yeah, I know. Coming home to your heart. Coming home to the fact that this huge mansion built around this Courtyard Izzy is for you. It's yours. And I lost you a little bit there. Just going into the imagery, When you guys were, Some of you were really experiencing about, You know, What I was saying about Your blood being like the salty ocean, It's the same amount of salt, It's the same amount of fluid. I can't remember all the things that are just like the earth. I did a video on it and I can't remember what they all are. You know that if you put your hand under the microscope, It will finally just show empty space. You turn up the reading. And instead of your hand, It will just look like empty space. We have space. We're made out of space. Yeah, You know, If this can blow your minds enough that you no longer go into trying to fix yourself, Pramasutra would be a very happy woman. Yeah. To help you think big. To get it, To get it in your heart, How valuable you are. You're just so priceless and invincible. You know, You're never gonna die, You guys. Ever. You're just gonna take. . . The coat of your body off, That's all. It's like a coat you're wearing this life. Really? You don't? I mean, If we think about it, There might be prettier coats. I'm teasing you. I'm just messing you. I'm just bugging you. But why do we take it so seriously, You know? You know, Alma keeps on saying that, You know, The human body is smelly and she talks about, You know. It is, It's smelly and even, You know, If we're hurt and the smell of blood and everything, It's like. . . And you know. The word for vāsanās, Which means patterns from other lives, Comes from the Sanskrit word meaning bad smell. It's all a hoot. It's all a hoot. Yep. Yeah, Anything you can do to. You know, Help yourself. Beyond that little armored viewpoint. You see how lack of humility is so stupid because it cuts us off from this. Want to tell you how magic it is. There is somebody who has helped me a lot energetically. There's a A-ping! And he died. 60 years ago, But he was very powerful, Very love powerful man. He's been helping me a lot. He told me. That I helped him. When he was alive. And he's just paying me back. I was born after he had died. So I was like. Floating around in heaven, Whatever. And he's telling me that I helped him? How did that happen? Like I'm going like, How did that happen? And then I'm going. On me. Like, Is he gonna lie to me? I was going like, Well, Maybe. . . I did! Maybe I was floating around heaven and. . . He was getting crucified on earth and I. . . Help them somehow. But it's like the wonder of that, You guys. Just the wonder. It brought in it opened up in me the wonder of it like this. Guys helping me. Because I helped him when I was from before birth. It's like, Okay. I can handle this. I mean, Annie really helping me. Right. I mean. Right, So just keep working with yourself. To open that little mind. When you go into doubting Thomas or anything, Just give it over to Ama. Like, Just go, Here it is again. And I've had, Just go, I've had so much proof. I choose to take a stand. I'm gonna be. . . One of the ones who stands for the new earth. I'm going to do it. I'm not going to be like the gray majority who are all like, Oh. I'm so scared of moths! Thank you very much. That's it. Remember, It takes great courage to love deeply. But when you do that, Then the creator, Ama, Responds with, What happens is we open to the grace and we feel the love coming to us and that gives us Great strength. Or maybe it's the reverse. Which, Anyway, It's courage and strength you get from whichever one. I think it's to love takes the courage and as a result of being loved, You have more strength. Yeah, I think that's the way it goes. Anyway, You guys. This feels to me like the It was very dramatic the way I was stopped at eight o'clock this morning and just brought to this. It was very, It was like, Oh, Okay. Oh, Look at it! So any. Any questions or comments? And anything you guys even. Anything, Even if it seems like a really small thing, Or, You know, You feel like you can't say anything after, You know, A satsang like this, Don't, Don't just come forward, Just just come forward. If you need to, Anything. I'm in a really good mood. I'm not going to give you a hard time. Thank you. Ha, Ha, Ha. Bye. Who's that? Me too. Mitchie, OK, I'm scrolling down for you. OK, There. Hi, Sweetie. How are you? Everybody? Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. Thank you. Had some very much points today where I had the moment of, Yeah, I get it. And I wanted to share a dream I had two days before. I went to bed with much fear concerning my job and the whole situation and money. And then I started to fall asleep. And all of a sudden, I was in a car with my two elder girls and my ex-husband. And he was driving, I was sitting in the back with my middle one. And then he started to. . . To talk with my other daughter and he was trying to fill something in during the driving. And then the car moved away and I saw that we will be crushing a big tree. And I was trying to shout, But I had no voice. And I was trying to touch his shoulder. And he didn't feel anything, So I had no chance to get out of the situation. And then we crushed this big tree. And then all was black. And then I felt a great relief. A great strength and peace and all of the fears before had gone. And yeah. I wanted to to show it to ask you. Yeah. Your thoughts. What are your thoughts? First. Yeah. I was wondering why exactly we four were in the car and not my little one or Richard. And then I remember that my ex-husband was always this kind of security for me in this money and shop topics. So maybe he was my he was this, Yeah, This kind of security. Right. These were my thoughts about the dream. And it was not a feeling of I'm dead. It was a good feeling. Yeah, Leave. So I don't want to escape the situation or these topics, But it was. Kind of soft. On on another level yeah yeah it's it kind of strikes me as you know Uh. . . It's actually a level of consciousness, You know, That nuts and bolts consciousness. You know, Like keeping track of the money and, You know, Making sure all you know the providing and all that that that he represents okay and you know, In a way. You were ineffective to that, Like you tapped him, You didn't get his attention. This is very much like the way the nuts and bolts the whole thing about getting money and providing operates in us like an autonomous person who's driving our lives. And, You know, It's the truth, We need money. So it's the truth. So it's like, Even we believe they need to be driving the car. Do you understand? We believe that that kind of consciousness is what you have to have to be on the earth plane. I'd say, You know, At this time, I mean, We're crashing into a tree. It isn't just you. I mean, The whole The whole societies are like, This is not working and it's not even, It's backfiring financially. It's like we're on our last legs financially, Really. Our societies. They're very, Very wobbly. Very rickety. And you know, Sometimes when the worst happens, It's very freeing. It's like, Okay, My worst nightmare just came true. So I'm free. It's not so bad. Really, It's like, You know, I've lived through so many worst nightmares and it's like, It's not so bad, It's okay. Life goes on. So how do you feel about what I said? Honest, Honest, Honest. Yeah, I didn't see the dream in a bigger way. Um. . . So. . . And I feel I'm not quite open. Yes, Good, Good. So one of the reasons I love you, Michi, Because you're honest, You're so honest about this stuff. And sometimes people don't like to admit this stuff, But it's when we admit it, It can heal. I know you're not really open because in you. You know that consciousness is operating quite strongly. You know, Like it's hard for you to be present because you're worrying about jobs. Even though you know that the Creator exists and Amma will take care of you, But really this complex within you cannot hear that. You know, That complex in you is running, Is trying to drive your car. Yeah, Totally. Yeah. OK, That's great. What I would do is I'd be, I would go back into the dream and I would you know, Do something like whatever feels right. But like, I just would have Amma be sitting in the car and that she takes over the driving wheel. I would just. And I would imagine that, You know, A few times, Maybe six or seven times over the course of three or four days to help. Or even a week to help steer your consciousness that way. You're signaling to your unconscious that you're wanting to open up to letting Alma drive your car. Okay. Let's understand the logic. Yeah. Yeah. That feels very good, This image, Yes. Yeah, It feels good because sometimes in dreams when we have an image of crashing into a tree, Like, You know, Maybe it'd be nice to avoid any kind of crisis, Right? You know, Maybe to learn the lesson without having to have a crisis. Right, Okay, Good. Let me just fill in more. Yeah you know there's part of you that feels very kind of warmly taken care of like there's this warm trust underneath And it's like the crashing into the tree just kind of freed the worm trough. Yeah. But I still think if you, If Amma can. Get hold of the car to let her do that. Yeah. Yeah, It's getting smaller and smaller, But it's still a big thing. The dream, You mean? I think the whole topic. Oh yeah, You're going to have to work with it for a while, Sweetie. Yeah. Don't do the try to fix. It's in everybody. It's in everybody. Everybody's got this. Please. Yeah, You're just aware of it and you judge it. You're hard on yourself for it. But it was my biggest problem by far. Like, You know, We're mammals. It's our mammal part, You know. And you've got kids. So sweetie, To imagine that you would, That it would be easy to grow out of this consciousness, Like, You know, You've got kids, You got a little one. Like your whole mammalian structure will be going. You know. Find a safe cave with regular food. Yeah. This is the guts of the real journey that you're doing, Really. Yeah, I have huge respect for it. Because I know what it's like. Yeah, I feel like you're going to feel more settled in a week about the whole thing. I feel like you're going to see how much this works to bring Alma in. You know something else it's good there's something that's going to happen in the next week you're trusted you're going to go like it's all okay Yeah, Thank you. Yeah. I mean, We can't keep the same fears going the same way when we really know the grace is there, The creator's there, That we're loved, You know? You know, Every time I would merely go broke, Michi, I would get something saving me. Just like clockwork. Yeah, And you know, There's an expression in India, The Saudis don't starve to death. You know, True spiritual seekers never starve to death. They don't. Okay, You guys, Some of you, You know, Since the war, We have been very, Very mechanistic and technological. If you read about, I was reading about some healing figures before the war, There were many people. Who were described as having talents. Healing talents. Like who got fame, You know, Not quite like Bruno Groning, But. Real fame for healing. It was not that unusual. It's just since the war, You guys, I think we've been brainwashed with this concrete reality. So we don't even hear about these people. Truly, I was reading, Like, There are tons of them. Yeah, So please understand you've been brainwashed. You know, Maybe that will help your humility. You'll go like, Well, I've just been brainwashed. I shouldn't like. I've got no reason not to be humble. I should be humble knowing I've been brainwashed. Okay, Good. Okay, Good. Good work, Mitchie. I can feel you really kind of relaxing into your feet. Like your energy is coming down your legs into your feet. Yeah. You see, Guys? Yeah? You can feel it. Yeah. How does this work if it isn't unconditional love it's how this works a lot of people you guys walked right by christ And a lot of people, There are people I've bumped into in India, Around where Amma lives even, And I tell them, You know, Speaking to them and I say, I'm studying with Amma and they kind of roll their eyes. Wow. What a funny world it is. There they are, So close to Amma. They're rolling their eyes. I think she's a crazy woman. Despite the evidence. You guys, This is what our lack of humility does. I mean, The evidence is right there before our eyes. Are we going to accept it or not? Or we want to be like the people around Anna, Going. . . Oh, She's a crazy woman. Meanwhile, You know, Their kids are struggling at school and They could get help, But anyway. Thanks, Michi. OK, Anybody else, Please come forward, You guys. This is Judy. Yeah. Just piggybacking on what you said, If we become humble. . . May we possibly see these healing people around us once again? They're here. We just don't see them because. . . Are proud or are What did you call it? Hypnosis makes us not see what's there or who's there. Just like with the building. We don't see the bigger building. You know, We've got this little. Hot and minimal. We're blind to the bigger story, The bigger understanding. When you described the hut, I don't know why, But I thought of. . . Wearing a blindfold and going into this glass container that was my world. And it was glass, And I had no knowledge that beyond what I could feel on the outside walls was the greater world. Just like you said, Your hut is keeping you from it. And the only thing keeping us from that greater vision is the blinders we wear, I guess. OK, So Judy. Goodbye and take care. Keep taking off that blindfold for the next week. Okay, Because this is where, When we're trained, We can see clearly, But we go very passive. About taking these actions to free ourselves. You guys, This is widespread with you guys. You might see this understanding, But I'm wanting you to take these steps to help yourself. I just have to find the planters. Just imagine it. No, No, No, No, No, No, Sweetie. That's exactly. Oh, You guys, There it is. You don't find them. You had the image of being in a glass house, Wearing a blindfold. It's so simple. You just imagine taking the blindfold off. That blindfold you put on in your imagination. Okay, Judy, This is the learned helplessness. I've got a blindfold. My building's glass, But I'm so bad and helpless. And here I am. And it's like, You can take the blindfold off. This is what I'm talking about. You guys are so much more passive than I was. Please come out of this passivity. Take these actions. This is all I had. I would do stuff like this. Thank you. Yeah, OK, Good. You know, Write yourself a note about it, Because I can feel like this, You know, The habit of the learned helplessness. Doesn't want to change. So. Make notes. You're getting direct guidance from an awakened teacher. It's like it's not, It's not a neighborhood cat. Coffee clap. Thank you guys when you come, You're kind of honor bound to. Really hear what I'm saying and follow. Otherwise, It's just a waste of time. Otherwise, It's just hot air. Right. Okay, That's good. All of you got that a little bit. And I could feel it's like, This is how you come into the palace. It's how you come out of that tiny building into the palace. You realize that it's your obligation, You know? To follow through. This isn't tea and crumpets. No, This is how we trivialize ourselves. Why not? I mean, I know it for myself, So. The other thing people do with me, And they go, Oh yeah, Premasuddha is so true, But another person comes along and goes, Well there's obviously no God, And they'll go along with that too, And it's like, You gotta choose. You gotta choose. You can't just change depending on the person you talk to. Find your center and come from that to everybody. From the suit is the same with everybody. I mean, I'm a little more indulgent of some than others. Good, Judy. Thank you for coming forward and for receiving the guidance. It's good. Yeah, Very humbling. You know, In our culture, We've got everybody wants to be a boss. We're all like this. I mean, If you look on LinkedIn, Everybody's proselytizing. Nobody's listening. Thanks. Or maybe they're listening, I hope so. Who else needs, Okay, Kalidus, Good. Bye. Bye. Electron, The probability cloud stuck. Uh was like fitting something in me. Um as I'm like, Kind of like a. . . Traveling and on my journey, In our journey and also outside. I had the feeling the last weeks, Oh, I have a plan now, A rough plan for the next one and a half years. Help me to relax a bit when I hear the electron analogy and it's not to know sometimes what's going to happen that makes more space. Good, Good, Good, Good, Good. I'm happy about that. I'm really happy about that. It's, You know what, I think it's the cloud of unknowing that the Christian spiritual traditions talk about. It's the electrons. It's, We can't, No, We can't, No, We can't, You know, Yeah. This is what I mean, We're God inside and out, Yep. Everything's God. That means. . . I practically plan as. . . Not helping? R. I don't know the plan. I mean, If it came up within you and it reduces your anxiety, It's great. It's sort of like, Okay, I know what recipe I'm going to cook for lunch. And then if you keep going and you want to change your plan or your recipe, You do that. You go, No, I'm not going to do that for lunch. I'm going to make this. It's the same. Okay. At least plan if it helps calm you, It's good. I think there's another thing then. So not only the plan, I guess it's. Yeah, It's like the surrendering to the. . . Journey process. And in Egypt, It feels. . . Really difficult to me to let go. To the next. It's like. . . There's like I have to feel like I have to be secure myself all the time there's no There's no, There's like the surroundings, But of course, Maybe I, I just surroundings. It's like always have to watch out. Should I elaborate? No, Well, I just think you're trying to over-map, Like, You're trying to fix the roof of your little house, Like. . . Just be with all this. It doesn't have to be fixed. It can just be this way. That you're walking around a little confused. Just your state, Like you're trying to evolve yourself. And it's never gonna work. Just be with your state, Like, Yeah? It's sort of like. . . Well, Okay, I'll tell you what I'm seeing. I'm seeing that you're making better friends with your ancient energy. Even as you're telling me that you're having trouble surrendering. This is how deluded we can get working on our little leaky roofs of our little hut. Do you hear what I'm saying? I feel that you're making better friends with your ancient human energy, Which is actually, I think, The key to the spiritual path. Yeah, I had nice, Beautiful situations here as well. So this part is. . . Yeah, I've heard this part. You know, There's part of you. I don't know you wall me off from you. It's like, I feel like I get even though like on one level you're really kind of respectful and open, But underneath I feel there's this walling. What I'm saying off as. Not trivia, But sort of like um it's like of limited use. It's sort of like somebody who's hired an expert and doesn't think the expert really knows, But really I think it comes from that you discounted. The what your mother said, I think pretty early in life. You discounted it for being useful. It's a little bit of a dirty secret. Like, And it's not dirty at all. It's just what a kid does. But it's like you've never admitted this. And actually affects how you see women. This is what you haven't admitted. Peace. Okay Do I hurt it? Ha ha ha. Ahhhh! There's something so humorous about this. Anyway. Oh, There it is. How do you feel? Really, Really honest. I feel that. That's something I want to understand, But. . . Not getting it yet. You're not understanding what. That um It felt like there is. There is. . . There's a truth I heard and I'm wondering, Oh God, What does it mean? See ya, Climb up. Okay, It's very dear. It's very dear. You're just scared to know what you really know. Okay, That's where the fear is. Okay, You're scared to know what your soul knows. Okay. Premasut is not taking this personally. This is just like a wall that's in your ego that I've shone a light on, But it's like, You know, There's a level that you're very honorable and you can't be criticized. It's all good. Yeah, There it is. You you you okay there it is there's what's bothering you you don't understand that the It's like. . . It is totally safe to be in the place you're at and you feel that it's not safe, That it's not possible to be in error or to be growing or to have made a mistake and still be just okay the way you are. And this is what's bothering you. It's like. . . You have nowhere to stand because you're so intolerant. And it's not a fault. This is what you guys all are. This is miserable sinner stuff. This is what we're imprinted in. You can be both things. You can be totally part of God and also a work in progress. You can be in confusion and ignorance and still be a divine being who is on his way to really wake up. Right, You can be it all, Space. Beauty. It's like, This is where I see you from, Pelagos. This is where I hug you from. This is where I speak to you from. Yeah, Knowing that you're totally okay, That you're safe, That you can be. You know, Like a sprouting seed. And still be safe. You're just sprouting. And when we sprout, We have to learn how to dig down and bring our roots down to find water. Dig our roots down and find our connection to our truth. This is what you're faced with, And this is what you're wanting on your vision quest. Is two. Have your roots down in enough truth that you can come back and be a true man, Living truth. Yes. OK. OK. How do you feel right now? Is more. It's really simple. Like the visualization of the roots gave them more trust. Okay. So you can keep doing that. And, You know, Be gentler with yourself, Because I'll tell you this, Demanding that you surrender, That you go through your trip demanding that you, You know, That you are surrendering is, Is A big mistake. It's like you'll find. . . You'll find by the time the trip ends, You will see what a huge leap you've made. But what you're doing with looking for surrender, It's like the guys with the beryllium ions that kept measuring the ions and it stopped. The natural process. Of the evolution of the ions. Left to themselves, They would do it on their own. When they kept measuring it, It froze these ions. And that's what you've been doing with yourself a little bit, Freezing. Measuring. You know, It just makes it hard to change. It's what happens early on the journey. This is the crap we go through. Just what you're doing. This is the seed sprouting. And okay, Now you guys, You can get this. Think of a seed. Do you know it sprouts? Okay, So. The seed uses the meat of the shell. To hold it long enough. So that it can put the roots down. To feed it long enough that it can put its roots down, To understand that that's what it eats. The discomfort you're feeling about the lack of surrender is you feeding the seed pod as you learn how to build roots into true surrender. But you'll probably move into surrender without realizing it. You guys, I want to blast this to all of you. Often people do it, They don't even realize they've done it. Please. Don't think that you're a competent measurer of your journey. That's why teachers can spot when there's been a surrender. So I want you to take the heat off. You, Kalidus, And I want you to be more open to what Prumasuta says, Like trust it more, Hold on to it more. Let me help you more. Because I really know because I went through exactly what you're going through so it's like Yeah. Enjoy your trip! Try to have a good time, You know, Like, You know, Really, You know, Do do the things that make you happy. You know, Just, Yeah. Yeah, Really. Yeah, Just pray to Amma that you relax and just enjoy yourself because you may never have this kind of time again. And when you look back, If you go, Oh yeah, Egypt, I just spent all my time worrying about surrendering. You're gonna go, Why'd I do that? Yeah. Yeah, You see you guys. Amma, You know, Amma says the need for the big, Open the doors and windows of our minds, It's when we get the big, Bigger picture, When we let the bigger picture in. Becomes much easier. Yeah. And remember, You're good. I mean, You're good. It takes a lot of guts to leave everything and head off around the world. You're a sincere seeker, You're just getting a little help. What's wrong with that? We can't get out of our egos without help, You guys. We cannot do it. Apart from 0. 00005. 5% who come in with very little garbage left. Apart from them. Like that wonderful neurologist in Australia. Is enlightened while being a neurologist. Most people cannot do that. Please understand that some of you are like, Oh, I'll do it. I'll do it. And it's like, Well, You walk around in circles a lot. I used to be way more, You know, Oh, Tell people what they were doing, But then a lot of the time they didn't want to hear it. So I just learned to be quieter. Almost taking care of everything that's not on Pramasutha's shoulders. Amma knows the exact moment you're going to become enlightened. You know, Enjoy your food between there. You know, Enjoy your food. Enjoy sightseeing. I'm thinking about her, You know. Kind of like that. Yeah, That's sweet Good. I'm glad you spoke. Glad you spoke. Come on, Anybody else you guys now's the time. And if you can't stay any longer. Just, Just. Just leave whenever you need to. Hi Pramasuta, Hi everyone. Lalita, Sweetie, How are you? I'm good, I feel like there is more allowing And you mentioned the water, So I feel, Yeah, This element. And also, I can relate what you said to Kalidas about the seeds sprouting. I feel like the seeds sprouting as well. And I was reflecting. . . On what you said, Once you said to me about patriarchy woman, Right? And bounce feet and like, I can't, Yes. So now it's- Wimp! We get taught to be absolute wimps. So I think I'm starting to see where is it coming from this this energy and I yeah I It relates to this humility, Right? This humbleness you mentioned. And I feel than especially women. We have problem with this pride in my family for sure. And I'm observing it in myself, Right? Like how it's reflecting and we exchange few emails with Promasuda. When I did my art channel yesterday. . . Like after a long time I did it out loud, Like the whole thousand names, And I felt this energy of sabotage, Like something sabotaging my life, My. . . Happiness, Like my abundance. And then I realized that it's myself, Right? Because I never give myself the permission. I think I was seeking this permission. From my mother unconsciously. And yeah, I think it's really. . . Sweetie, I want you to stop and I want you to say a few words just going to the heart of this. Yeah go to the heart of what you want to say you have a little bit of a sing-song thing going that you do and you use a lot of words and you go all over and it's uh kind of a way to stay unfocused in a way and to stay lost in soup So even though you're telling me that you see patterns of sabotage and you connect it to your mom, There's still a kind of soupy feel. So I want you to just give me a clear statement of something. Oh, I can feel this is hard on your ego, Yeah. No, It is because the ego is the falling downstairs kind of stuff and I'm wanting you to get up. Yeah, That I want to give myself this permission, Right? Okay, There it is, You guys, All of you. I want to give myself permission. It's the same as Callidus focusing on surrender. It's just You know. You guys, We cannot fix this stuff. You can feel it. You can feel how stuck you are, How sad it is, How overwhelming the family thing feels. And you just take it all to Ama. You cannot, You all, So many of you try to fix yourself and it is your ego doing this. Please understand this. Lolita, You try to fix yourself with your ego, Except you're starting to sprout. Okay, So please, It's good, You know this and you can tell the difference between how you are now and how you used to be. You can tell something's different. I'm sprouting. Okay, Good. Hold on, We're getting there. There's this helplessness, I can feel it. It's all around your neck. And it's connected with being a good girl and doing it right, And even doing the spiritual journey right. That's where it goes, And I'm lifting it off you. Because it's like this white woolly it's like cotton wool and it's right next to your ear so it fills you with these la la la la la la la la and it's like and taking it off. Yep. This is a big relief to me. And you're a very brave woman for doing this. And it's like, You guys, Only the really sincere people pose themselves like this. Okay, So there's no error. It takes great guts. That's it. Yeah. So how do you feel right now? Yeah i still feel tension like to allow myself to feel. You made a video about this feeling okay stop stop so you did it again you go i still feel tension about allowing myself to feel okay you're trying to do it and even with me talking to you it's just like helodus where you've you've you're cutting off You're asking my attention quite a lot, Lolita, But you cut off from actually getting what I'm saying to you. Okay, I want you to like chew on that and digest it. You, It's like your ego wants to keep you. For your ego, I'm just an audience. I've been relegated to an audience to watch your process as opposed to actually be allowed to help. You might think I'm overstating this, But actually the last couple of emails I've really felt it. Oh God, Part of you wants to keep the same game going. And just avoid your truth. Oh God, I hope you don't do that. And you're just going to have to give it to Ama because the way you avoid your Your truth is your constant monitoring and fixing. Yeah, I want you to enjoy your food. Go on a merry-go-round. Go and walk dogs, You know, Like. You can volunteer to walk dogs. You cannot. Fix yourself. You will get tied in knots. I will start rebuffing you if you do so that will be your that will be your if I start rebuffing you. That's what I'm saying to you. You're not letting me speak and you're trying to fix yourself. Now, Lolita, The problem with teaching is. . . You've got this kind of thing going of, I'm not doing it right anyway. You see, So when I say this, It can just go into, Ah, Here it is again. I've fallen downstairs. I'm not doing it right. And it's for you to work with that and go, This woman just wants to help me. And she's trying to get through to me through the haze of my ego. And I'm not hearing her straight. If you go like that, I'm not hearing her. Be humble. Right, Okay, Good. Okay, You have the willingness to be humble. This is very good. Good. Jay Ma. Yeah, You're very dear and sweetie, You know, The thoughts, You know, Mantra. Thing is, You see, We can Saying your mantra is so powerful to do it. But in the beginning stages it doesn't seem to have much effect, But it does. And in the beginning stages, Our ego goes, Oh, I'm too tired. It's boring. But if you can do it. It's good. Lolita, Even if you can't do it or don't want to do it, I am not concerned about you or your journey. I feel like over the long term, You're gonna go a very long way. Okay, So I hope you hear this. Okay, So if you accept that, Then you're honour bound to accept everything else I say to you. Do you understand? Because if I'm right about you going a long way, I'm probably also right about the things I say to you. Sweetie, We just feel like messes at some part in the journey. It's just we come, We can come unstuck with our families, We can see all their crap, It comes up so we haven't found ourselves yet, We don't know how to earn our living. It can be very, Very messy at parts of the journey and just keep your faith because you're a high level seeker, Just keep going. Okay. And stay open to learn. That's it. Good. Right, Yeah. Okay, See you, Ma. Hahaha. You know, The great safety of this work is the truth, You see. Because, You know, I feel I can say anything to you guys that's true. You see, I don't feel I have to be polite to you. I feel that you're here for the truth, And you want the truth, And it's very freeing. For everybody. Yeah. Yeah. So I can just follow 100% the guidance I get. And you guys can just be your sweet, Sweet, Sweet selves. And understand the real journey is. You know. It's a ride, You know, And You know, The. You have to go to extremes. You have to feel things really not working in order to feel things work, Finally. We have to trip over our egos and see they don't work. This is what makes us stop listening to the crap that we keep telling ourselves. We stop listening because we know a lot of it's just crap. That's it. OK, Good. The me lifting this cotton wool stuff Lolita was done in true reality, So even though it seems like a made-up thing and subtle, It's still being done and it will have power. That it's been done. Yeah, Good. And you turned up and spoke. Okay, This is very good. Very exciting, You guys. Okay, Maybe time for one more question. Or we could do two, You know. I have a question. You froze me. Yeah. Can you hear me? Okay. Okay. Okay, Good. So I'm gonna leave it like this then. Can you hear me? Yes. Yes. Okay. So I'm, I'll tell you, You know what's interesting? Both phones have done this. So my other one. Is just gone berserk and this phone. Has been doing this. So whatever, Richard, You're going to be saying, It's obviously significant. So what is it? What's your question? My question. You were saying you can't fix yourself. I have a question to this because I have a really big conflict with a flatmate since a few days. And yeah, It was in one sentence was like an endless loop in between. Oh, I can understand you, But how can you do this back and forth? Um. . . So I'm writing a letter now. And one part of the letter, I'm also giving the advice to maybe look at the topics who are showing up the last seven months. And yeah, I'm not sure now because it feels like I'm trying to fix her. Yes, Exactly. Don't do it. Don't do it. Don't do it. She'll get enraged. But like. You would be enraged if she did that. Yep. Okay, Do you have any advice? What's the problem over? Can you say that again? What's the problem? You know. What's the issue about? What's the problem? Why are you in conflict with each other? Ah, Because I'm moving out or I'm most of the time in Berlin. Uh-huh and yeah um she's she's kind of sad that i'm not so much in dresden but uh where where i lived before with her together but also she is like um mad at me that i decided this and But you weren't boyfriend and girlfriend? No, It was a friendship. OK, Well, It's obviously. She's obviously fonder of you than. . . She's obviously more deeply fond of you. For me, It's just really difficult to. . . To stand the the anger it's not not easy and also Yeah, Well, You. . . If you just. Roommates and you've, You know, You've got a girlfriend, I mean, I mean, Her anger is coming because she looks for you to fill more of her needs. Than was spoken, You know? Does this make sense to you? Yeah, For sure. It makes sense. Yeah, This is one part. Also, I'm sad that she's turning away from me and saying, I cannot be a friend of you anymore. Right. Well, She may be, You know, She may love you, Eh? So it sounds. There's a deeper thing going that she would do that. I mean, If she was just a friend, I mean, She'd. . . It would be so understandable that if you've got a girlfriend, You wouldn't spend so much time there. Does she have a boyfriend? She has a boyfriend. Yeah. Yeah. That was also one big part of the, Uh, Well, One big topic was, Uh, Friendship, Um, Partnership or relationship. Why is it so often like this, That, Uh, Relationship is more, Uh, Important or people move cities and why cannot, Can it not be with a friendship like this? And yeah, It was, Yeah. You know. You know, I'd say like it's like a hopeless case. I mean, If If she's demanding more emotionally than you can give, I mean it's. . . This stuff just kind of gets primal. I mean, I I mean. Do you see what I mean? I don't think there may be no reasonable solution. Are you saying that you're, Have you said to her that you would leave or? If this isn't sorted out or what. No, No, I didn't say that. No, Okay. Yeah, Well, Look, You know, This is again, You know, Sometimes we try to fix things when actually the level where the problem is, Is deeper than any fixing, You know. I mean, Obviously her neediness has come up. And but she already has a boyfriend so maybe you know, If you're not there, She'll look at her boyfriend and go, Well, Maybe he's not the right guy, You know. Maybe she doesn't want to look at that. I don't know. For me, It seems like a really good relationship and they're happy with each other. Yeah, Well, Why does he care so much about whether you're there or not? Like, Come on, Man. Like, This is, You know, Guys, Sometimes the writing's on the wall. It's kind of like, Why would she care so much, Though? No. Maybe she just wants both of you. Yeah, I don't know. Could be. Well, This stuff often is kind of primal. It's at a primal level within the people. And sometimes there's not much room for reason, You know. Sometimes, You know, You just. . . You know, You could go find a counselor and go speak to a counselor with her. About it, Which seems bizarre to me, But you could do that. What is a counselor, Like a mediation? Yeah, I was just suggesting that actually. What she said? She denied. She said she doesn't think it's. . . What? Daniel Schmidtt, Ph. D. : Useful not need, But what did you say she said it's not needed she said it's not needed, And in my view is really needed, Because the last talk was like two hours in a loop and we're not getting back and forth. Okay, Well. You know, Sometimes we just have to be true to ourselves. I don't know. I mean, You know, These things happen and sometimes there's steps on the journey. I mean, You know, Like maybe Maybe just standing up and telling it like it is, Is something you need to do. Face being without having to move. Or losing a friend. I'm not promoting that. I want to be really clear. I'm not promoting losing a friendship. And if there is a way for it to be solved, That would be great, Except both phones stopped working before you raised this question. Do you know what I mean? No, But really. I mean, I think this is like, It's a primal question. It's like at a primal level. She might not want to face that. But it just seemed bizarre to me for somebody to try to control a roommate when They've already got a boyfriend. Do you know what I mean? It's she's way out of her she's coloring over the lines quite dramatically you know. That's why I think it's a primal, More of a deeper primal thing. It's as if there's some truth that she doesn't want to face. So I suppose this is pretty unhelpful in a way. It's like it doesn't solve the solution. I mean, It doesn't solve the situation. In a way like just knowing that it's a you know, Having the flashing. Warning signs of it's a primal level where this is for her. And not for you, Obviously. Yeah, But I was also questioning why is this happening? It's really interesting because it's so strong. Such a strong experience. Sometimes, You know, It isn't until much later on the journey that you can know why something's happening often. Okay, So just You might be able to tell early, But often it isn't until much later when there's much more self-knowledge, Then it would be much easier to know why something's happened, Why something is happening when you're going through it. You know, I think this is a deepening. It's a deepening for you. It's like a deepening also out of your head that some things are just not solvable, You know, At the head level. Yeah. Yeah, Maybe it's a good possibility to put the trust and there's a bigger picture doesn't make sense. I think so. You know, I'm sure she's a wonderful person, But she obviously has some work to do, You know? Yeah, It's, It's quite tempting to say, Please do this work. It would be nice to be. Yeah, Would she? Would she come? Here to Pramasutra, To you. Is that so, Yeah. Maybe. Well, Try it. I have a pen, Ask. You could even say this woman said it was a primal thing. Yeah, I guess on a rational level, She knows that. Yeah, Give her a chance to come. I mean, Maybe, You know, This work, I mean, You know, It needs to spread. I mean, This is how it spreads, Right? Well, Trust your own judgment. I mean, First of all, Richard, Just do what as you see fit. I'm just trying to expand your playing field to provide you with more choices. I don't care what you do. I mean, I want you to be happy, But I'm not particularly Whatever choice you make is all good. Okay. Yeah. Thank you. Good. And actually, That's for all of you guys. I don't, I just want you to be happy. You know, I say what I say to you, But I'm not like looking over your shoulder about how you live your lives. If I feel you're not hearing me, I will start getting tougher or will refuse to talk to you. That's all. But what you do, It's all good. You know, Richard, I mean, This is. I'll tell you what, If it were me, I would be taking this as a badge of honor. I'm not kidding. That my question upset the uppercard with the phones, Really. It sounds to me like there's some. . . Big soul power wanting to be born. And that, Yeah, And that this is what the upset with the phones is reflecting. You know, Sort of an overthrow of that very tight rational mindset, You know, To allow more of your power. It's like a lot of our power comes through when we're getting bigger. Our lives can, The uppercut can get upset. As part of that. This sounds very auspicious for the, Remember I was talking to you about I felt this juicy rich, Juicy soul wanting its freedom. And this sounds part of the process. Sounds good. However it resolves. Okay, You guys. Well, I'm, I'm not gonna dare move this at all, Because I don't want the microphone to get muted again. So I'm just gonna say my goodbyes. Bless, Bless, Bless your dear hearts. And it was wonderful work you guys did. Wonderful. Wonderful. And I, I praise you. I do. I praise all of you for turning up. And the ones who spoke and the ones who listened. Praising you all with all my heart. OK, Many, Many blessings, You guys. Bye. Bye.