Self Importance

Premasudha reminds us that self-abandonment & self-importance are
just different sides of the same wound. The trouble is our ego's self-importance can block the teacher's wise guidance and unconditional love for us, which if received, would heal our abandonment issues. A teacher patiently waits for us to feel safe enough to relax into the healing. Sometimes to heal means to admit we have a dark side too. Since it takes two to tango, perhaps our troubles are not 100 per cent the fault of others. Premasudha's obvious love and compassion are the spoonful of sugar that helps us swallow even this bitter medicine.

Transcript

It's really hard.

You know,

Carlos Castaneda,

You know,

Some of you know about Don Long,

The Mexican shaman,

And Carlos Castaneda was an anthropology student who studied with him.

Some people say Carlos made it up,

But I don't think that's possible,

Actually,

Because when I read the books,

It all seems very accurate to me and my understanding of the spiritual journey.

So,

The thing that Don Long said was the biggest problem.

I wonder if you can guess,

With people,

With Carlos,

But not only with Carlos,

With everybody.

Okay,

Don Long called it self-importance,

You know.

Yeah,

I can say that is very,

Very accurate.

Self-importance,

Often kind of a pompous self-importance,

And I'm going,

Okay,

What's more important,

This lonely citadel of pompous self-importance or actually bringing love in?

And the thing is,

The more you open to what I'm saying,

Like the more you get that I just want to help you,

The more you'll just put down your claws,

You know.

It's like the dog at the vet.

The dog will just wait and let the vet do what the vet wants because he knows he's helping.

It's that that really works.

And then,

You don't even get a surgical wound at all when you do that.

There's actually,

You don't even have to cut the skin then.

It's in the surrender of just letting yourself be helped that takes all the trauma away.

All the trauma disappears.

You know,

When I had that,

This is a physical example of the same principle.

When I had that,

You know,

The breast cancer and part of the wound didn't heal up properly,

And I went back to the doctor,

Check up,

And he said,

You're going to have to have another surgical procedure.

But he said,

In the meantime,

He said,

The tumor was 50% what we thought,

And it wasn't in your nose,

Wasn't in your nose.

It had come out of your nose.

And I was like so happy about this,

Like that I wouldn't have to get radiation or chemotherapy,

That that wound healed up in two days after that.

Two days,

It was healed.

Okay,

So I went back to the doctor,

And it's like,

They just couldn't believe it.

They were like,

What?

And I said,

Well,

You know,

I was so happy about,

You know,

My body just was expressing its happiness.

But the thing is,

You guys,

When you realize how loving this is,

You can let your irritations and discomfiture and grudges,

Like,

Heal up.

You know,

We're not machines,

And it's not that,

You know,

That it's good to just present and present all your whole ego.

It's not.

It's gradual.

You'll just know.

You'll just know.

You know,

If something's really bothering you,

Or you're feeling really frustrated,

Whatever's wanting to shift will come up.

Reviews

Gosh this is so helpful Janet. I am at the beginning of breast cancer transformation. I don't know what to expect other than several surgeries. This idea of letting go of self importance is a perspective shift on letting go of individual grudges. Self importance feels like the root cause like a shadow, more than each individual grudges or resentment. I've been really searching for a way to let go of resentments and this seems so much more accessible to me right now. Thank you so much. Also I didn't know you had been through breast cancer It's really helpful to hear from someone who has similar beliefs as me who has been through this. Blessings to you Janet.