Premasudha In Germany Part 3 Of 3

Clouds can be dark and dreary before the sun finally arrives, both in nature and emotionally, in a breakthrough of our higher consciousness. This is exactly what happened during the final Satsang during Premasudha's visit to Germany. At first there was heaviness and resistance, but as time went on, even thick armour cracked open and began to melt in the experience of unconditional love and grace. Everyone rose to it, participating fully in the expansion—a truly fulfilling evening for all.

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So I don't think I need to be introduced really. I think everybody knows me, Right? Okay, So Prima Suda says that she believes that she doesn't have to be introduced for those who don't know her. She is a spiritual teacher, Healer and author. But I'm sure most of you know them. And I want to thank Alicia also for translating, Because I often forget after, So I'm just. . . She always does a wonderful job. I've been remembering more, But I just want to get a thank you. Okay, Thank you. No, It really matters. And Alicia is very devoted to this work. And that comes through in her words. Okay, And Alisa is very involved in all this work, And you can tell by her words. Surf it! It's like worldly people and spiritual people get this work. So both worldly and spiritual people should understand this work? Yes. And that's the power of it. Like to include the worldly. Because there are a lot of worldly people. On the. . . So, We need to include them. So, Today is all about acceptance. And that dreaded word. Surrender. Today's topic is acceptance and the much-feared word, Yes, Surrender. So surrender is actually acceptance. Yes, There was actually acceptance. And just sit with that for a minute. When we accept something, We are surrendered. If we accept something, It means we give our best. So actually, When you accept that you have an ego, You become free of it. If you accept that you have an ego, You will be free from it. As long as you're fighting it. The ego is getting bigger. As long as you fight against your ego, It gets bigger and bigger. So most of my work is loving you guys and teasing you and like kind of teasing you into self-acceptance. Yeah and I. . . I'm curious. It is a really easy way to grow, Really easy. The other way to grow is one of them is to go into deep despair. And kind of. Sit there. And it gradually lifts most times. So there is a second way to grow spiritually and that is to be in extreme despair and just linger in it for a while until it dissolves by itself at some point. That works sometimes. Spiritual people are very afraid of having to live in the dark and being stuck there forever. Sometimes if I was arguing with my boys, If they were arguing, I would just lift up their arm and I'd start tickling them. Thanks, Everyone. Sometimes my sons argued with me and then I just raised their arms and started tickling them. I do very much the same thing with you guys, Really. It's just like, Because we were far too serious about our journeys. And I do exactly the same with you guys, Because we take this whole spiritual journey far too seriously. Yeah, This is our ego or another word is false personality. Ja, Das ist einfach unser Ego und ein anderes Wort für unser Ego ist einfach die falsche Persönlichkeit oder Persona. Ja, Very very serious. Ha ha ha! It's such nonsense, Really. It's just nonsense, Okay? I want to come back to science. If you shine a light. On a box, In a box. The box will. Way more. Okay, This is proven, This is quantum or quantum mechanics or whatever. Prima Soda talks about physics and if you shine a light on a box, Then this box will weigh more than without this light. This is quantum physics. Increases the weight of a box. This is scientifically proven. Right? That's it. Okay, Even the church is behind this. Even the church believes it. So. . . When you die and your soul leaves, The body will weigh a little bit less. Do you see the. . . The logical. The connection between these two things. Yes, And when we die, When our soul leaves the body, We weigh a little less than we did in our lifetime. Can you see this connection? What's the logical connection between these two statements? She is now asking what the connection is between these two statements that she just made about the box and about the soul. The soul is light? Yes, The soul is light. It's light in your box, The box of your body. And science has also proven that human bodies emit light. And this isn't infrared, This is light. And science has also proven that the human body emits light. And yes, It really is light. So you are actually a functioning sun. I meant like. . . Truly, They measure it. Yeah, Really. This isn't just to listen to. Like your heads will just go like listen going on yeah yeah but if it drops down like and let it drop down. Yes, And we can just listen here, But it doesn't really depend on these words, But on the fact that we internalize it, That it just sinks into our hearts. And knowing that your whole body is actually made out of soul energy. Yes, And actually our whole body is made of soul energy. You know, Even physical. Energy can never be destroyed. We can never destroy it. It just changes form. Your body just changes form. Also the energy that is known to us cannot be destroyed, It just changes its form. It's made out of God. You're made out of God. We are made of God. So I can feel the fascination with the spiritual journey in this room. I can feel the fascination with the spiritual journey in this room. And I can also feel like. . . A heaviness, I don't want to stay stuck. More heavy. And the problem is shame. But at the same time, I can feel a kind of heaviness in this room. And the problem is actually shame. Our egos? Are ashamed of our true energy. This is what we learned growing up. That's how we were taught when we grew up. When we Do not When we have said that we want to go on the journey, And we don't. Follow through. We will also feel shame. But at the same time, If we go on the spiritual journey and we just don't continue, Then we will also be ashamed of it. Yes, Because we know better. Ja, Weil wir eigentlich wissen, Was wir machen sollten. Or on her bow. Two. Keep moving into truth if we're on the journey. Yes, Because when we are on the spiritual journey once, Then it is the way that we always move on, On the spiritual path. Nobody can lift that obligation off you guys. You know, If you. . . You know, Tell the creator, Tell Omo. You're moving forward. And you don't, The creator's energy will reflect the dissonance back to you. It will reflect the glitch back to you. Yes, And if we tell the Creator or Amma that we have gone on a spiritual journey and that this is not in line with what we really do, Then the divine energy will reflect us back in life, That we have gone on the wrong path. Step forward. And you won't? Your shame? That ego's pile of shame that it learned will get smaller. So just take a hard step forward and then this whole shame that the ego has accumulated will be smaller. You will stand taller. It's like you'll find that your heart holds up your head. You will have the feeling that your heart is beating in your head. Think of that just now. Think of your heart holding up your head. I'm wanting to invite you guys. To you. Pay attention to the data that your body is giving you. And. Take these steps forward. Instead of repeating the patterns that give you a feeling of shame. I just want to invite you to take the data that your body or creator gives you, Or that you receive, And then really take a step forward. Just don't do them. Really, Don't do them. And experiment, Experiment, See the results. Ja, Experimentiere damit ein bisschen. I can feel it's like you've been taught to look to somebody for permission. Right, It's very strong. Okay. You're getting permission. Yeah, To just experiment. Einfach zu experimentieren. Yeah. I'm not going to let you off the hook. I'm going to say something else too. I won't let you down, I will say something else. You know, If you sign up for the journey, You are honor bound. Yes, So if you have ever gone on a spiritual journey, You will be honored. So it's around being phony. You know, Phony for the, What's the German word? Yeah. So just don't do it. Seid einfach keine Heuchler! I mean it. It's not really good for you if you're on the journey. It isn't. You don't have to say everything. You don't have to say something. You can smile. You know, You can be kind. You can still be nice to others. You can still be pleasant. But you should still treat other divine beings well. Right. So I mean, If you're being if you're irritated with someone, And you're in a situation where you feel you can't express it, You can remind yourself that they're a divine being. Yes, So if you sometimes get angry at someone, Just make yourself clear that they are also all divine beings. But to secretly hate them and then speak loving words. Don't do that. See, It's very simple. And it gets overlooked a lot on the journey. Even people that have been on it for years Wow, But it's very basic. But actually it's a pretty basic thing. Okay, And just, You know, You can come back to yourself and breathe. Nobody's putting pressure on you guys at all. I'm not putting pressure. Like I love you to bits. But you know, In a way, I don't care what you do. Like it's not I mean, I want the best for you. But I'm not gonna be looking over your shoulder and judging you. Having opinions about it. It's just if you come for a session, And I'm scanning your energy. Yipesies. It can only happen that when you come to me for a session and I scan your energy, That I see a few things. Right. Thank you. Yeah. Just breathe from it, Just breathe. I mean, Don't do. . . Just practice normally for a few minutes and don't overdo it. You know. Where we are right now in our cultures. We've got this, You know, It's an information society, Right? We're moving into an information society. We've got that. We are becoming more and more of an information society. So I was reading a report, It was about breast milk and about how. The mother's milk alters for if it's a boy, It will have more protein and more fat. For a girl. I read a report about breast milk and it turned out that if the baby is a boy, The milk is automatically converted to more protein and fat than for girls. And also the baby's saliva gets absorbed. By the breast a little bit. And it lets the mom know if the baby's getting sick at all. And if the baby is sick, There will be targeted antibodies. Yeah, To the baby. It is also the case that when breastfeeding, The sputum of the infant is absorbed by the mother's breast and then the mother can recognize when the child is sick and send antibodies to the child. And the way this report was written, It was talking about the information coming from the baby to the mother, And then this alters the mom's biology. And so, You know, The breast milk changes, You know, It's that responsive. So all you guys are very comfortable with this concept of information and this information exchange, Right? Yes, As I see it, You all agree with this kind of exchange of information. You can imagine something like that. We only run into problems, Westerners, When we understand that actually this information that's been talked about is love. It's love. It's love. We western people always get problems with this idea when we suddenly find out that the information we get is actually love. And this is right where Premasuda will physically shake you. Truly, I have several views. Shaking you. It's love. Yes, And that's the point where Primasura starts shaking you, So that you understand it. It's love. And when you get that it's love, I mean, You really get that. Then you are actually way more lodged in truth. Than when you're perceiving this at our cultural level of information. Yes, And if we really understand that the information we get from the mother or the mother of the baby is love, Then we are much more in our true nature than if we believe in exchange of information as our society understands it. And, You know, There's a shock of recognition. Oh, It's love. Of course it's love. Of course it's love. And there are two totally different lives. Yes, And then we get stuck in a kind of shock and say, Oh yes, That's love. Yes, That's right, Of course it's love. And then we will just lead a completely different life as soon as we have experienced this state. So this is why I've been shaking a couple of you. Mm-hmm. Because You know, If we're on, We study with Amma and we're on the path, Hello. Like, Hello? It shouldn't be a shock. And the bigger thing I want you to see is this is what the creator is like with us. Like we're the baby, And the creator is giving you just exactly what you need and will respond. It's like Amma responds The Creator responds to us in exactly the same way that the loving mother does with her baby. Yes, And actually, In a transitive sense, The Creator, Or Amma, Treats us just like a mother treats her child. The Creator gives us exactly what we need. Now there is no criticism and no fault, But it is exactly here that people just argue with me endlessly. In the session. They will just start arguing and keep arguing and on going. That's no criticism, It's not your fault, But some people just keep on arguing with me when they have a session with me and they keep on arguing. I want this to kind of hit home and I say it with great respect and reverence. And some of you have checked out in the talk right now. Some of you have just checked out. It's okay. But the whole point is to receive love, You guys. So what are you fighting? I mean, What's the battle about? I mean, Why are you fighting? Do you think it's not true for you? Then you're so bad. Dass ihr so böse seid And do such shameful things Und so unglaublich schlechte Sachen macht That you don't deserve love Dass ihr keine Liebe verdient I'll tell you right now, 90% of you. Are kind of. I'm not quite sure. And some of you are hoping that you do. Some of you hope that they do. Some of you are probably going, What's she going on about? Some of you are probably thinking, Why is she talking about it all the time? Let's just be with this, You guys. If you can move through. Some resistance here. You can be freer when you leave. And none of this is your fault at all. And it's not your fault that you feel that way. And there's no blame at all. I have no guilt at all. OK, Good. There's no blame. I don't want to blame you. I just want you to understand. I want you to get what I'm saying. I just want you to understand what I'm saying. There is so much love coming to you. All the time. Actually, So much love is coming to you all the time. It's like there's a river of love coming to you all the time, All the time, All the time. Yeah. So that you know. Yeah i'm getting like if i if i was good to speak for the indian speak it's like I want to put words to how some individuals are feeling. And the words are, I am so uncomfortable with all this. Ich will ein bisschen in Worte fassen, Was einige von euch so fühlen und einige von euch sagen, Oh Gott, Es ist mir so unangenehm hier das Ganze. And it's okay, Just be uncomfortable with it. You guys, Just be uncomfortable. It's okay. Ja, Und ja, Das ist okay. Lasst es einfach so sein, Dass ihr euch so unangenehm fühlt. But I cannot give one of those like pleasant spiritual lecture that Just, I can't do that. I just can't. Because you know what happens when I do that? I feel phony. And I feel like I'm just going along with everybody's ego. And then I have the feeling that I'm just swinging with everyone's ego. I don't even want to put that on you at all. I don't mean it like that. I just feel like I'm playing an ego lamp, Shall I say. I don't want you to feel responsible for that at all. I just have the feeling that I'm in the ego area when I talk nicely. Just keep breathing. Notice what's going on in your body. Notice if there's any tension or clenches or. . . If your heart's clenched, If you're tense, Maybe you're relaxed. Maybe you feel free. Breathe normally and feel in yourself if you feel any tension or if your heart is stuck. Just keep breathing, Just keep breathing. You know, When you just embrace a state, Like if one's uncomfortable, If you just embrace it, You keep breathing, You just be with it. Yes, You should just accept the state you are in right now and sit with it for a while. It changes. And then it changes how you feel. It's a big secret to evolution. If you just are with yourself and admit the truth, If you are with yourself and admit the truth, How you feel. It changes and you get brought to a deeper understanding. Then your feeling will change and you will be led to a greater understanding. And many of you haven't had much practice with this. Many of you simply didn't have much experience with this procedure. Many of you know all about fighting things. Many of you know how to fight things. Mm-hmm. That's it. If you just give yourself a little space just to be. Give yourself a little space to just be. It changes. Some of you, I'm hearing you're saying to me, I feel so little. I hear some of you say I feel so small. It's like I feel so little and my challenges feel so big. I feel so small and the challenges in my life feel so overwhelming. Mm-hmm. Some of you are saying to me, I can't concentrate on myself long enough to observe my processes. Some of you tell me that I can't concentrate long enough to observe my inner processes. But you see, You're the most important one. You guys, You are the most important one. You see, You are the most important person for yourselves. Yeah, So. . . Like your processes and observing what's going on with you is the most important thing, Actually. It's like the king. . . Pretending he's not a king. Es ist so, Als würde ein König so tun, Als wäre er nicht der König. You are the point of consciousness in your soul dream Yeah, So you're the point through which your soul can come in and be lived. Yes, You are the point where your soul can enter. And then be able to live. This is good that got through to some of you. I feel that it has been forced upon some people. Yeah so can you put your arms around that like you don't have to do it physically but just like understand that you're you're so you're the point of awareness in your soul dream. If you don't accept your awareness, Your whole dream stays asleep. Yes, You know, You are the center of your soul's dream. And if you don't grasp that, Then you all simply remain in a state of sleep. And do you understand that if you stay asleep, Then The whole universe stays asleep. And if you don't wake up, The whole universe won't wake up. Right. This is why it's so important to Learn how to love and respect yourself. That's why it's so important that we learn to love and respect ourselves. And be true to yourself. And to be true to yourself. So I can feel many of you are getting the logic of that. You're feeling the logic of it, And that's really good. That's really, Really good work, Okay? I'm not flattering you. That's very, Very good work. If you don't step up, Nobody does. If you don't have a heart, No one will. So some of you are breathing easier. With this understanding? Okay, So Yeah, That's number one, That if you're not waking up, The whole universe stays asleep. Yes, So that's the one message, That if you don't wake up yourself, The whole universe will remain unawakened. There's a second thing that's really, Really important. And it's around treating yourself. With love, With gentleness. Not self-indulgence. But if you make a mistake, It's like. . . Don't lacerate yourself. Don't get out the razor and cut yourself to shreds, Okay? Ja, Aber peitscht euch nicht dafür aus, Wenn irgendwas nicht so klappt, Wie ihr das wollt. And it can be hard not to. Believe me, I know. I'm Virgo. I think anybody who's Virgo knows about it. And other signs, Too. We can be very hard on ourselves. Yeah, And as a young person, I know that. I'm also full of self-criticism and negative thoughts. And I'm not talking about shrugging it off and going, Oh well. And I don't mean that you should just say, Well, That's just not it, And that you shouldn't take it seriously. Sometimes we need to do that, Sometimes. But the bigger thing is to If you're gentle with yourself, The reason for your mistake will come up into consciousness. And if you are mild to yourself, Then the reason for your mistakes will enter your consciousness. You'll get an insight. Then we will have an insight like this. So when I was raising my kids they were 8 and 10. And I went through a really tough time and I was very angry at myself. And I was like really caught in negative thoughts. And I was almost like You know. Rolling in them. And my eight-year-old redhead, Walked up to me and said, I don't know what you're doing, But whatever you're doing is really hurting John and I. And then my eight-year-old red-haired son came to me and said, Mom, I don't know what you're doing, But what you're doing really hurts John and me. That was the last time I did that. But I want to tell you, I mean, It hurts everybody when we really hate ourselves. It hurts everybody. Okay, The big misunderstanding as a group, Okay, Your big misunderstanding is you think you have to be something other than the way you are in order to be enlightened. And the big misunderstanding here in this group is that you think that you have to be something other than yourself to be enlightened. This is a really big understanding. So you will try to fix yourself with this. And because you have this misunderstanding, You are now trying to improve yourself. You will do like twist yourself into all kinds of like things thinking that it's good for you? You will give power to things outside you and try to fix yourself with these outside things. Yes, You will give power to other things that are outside of you. And you will try to repair and change yourself with these things. Mm hmm. Being yourself you guys. Seid einfach ihr selbst. Be yourself. Just be who you are. There's a little bit of a heaviness with this you guys. That's what you think you think being yourself, Just being yourself, That it's, You know, It's like there's this heaviness, It's like, It's not It's not okay for me to just be myself. What I mean by that is that if you think that you are just yourself, That's not okay. And you know, You guys, If anybody's really uncomfortable and doesn't want to be here, Please, Bless your hearts. You don't have to stay if you're not comfortable. Not everybody wants to do this. But you're also very welcome to be fully here to just to be here. You don't even have to be fully here. You can just be your conflicted self here. Yes, But you are all welcome to be here. You can be your conflict-afflicted self and be here. Right. It's lighter. You can be conflicted, You guys. Ja, Das ist in Ordnung. Ihr könnt ja innere Konflikte haben. Kein Problem. This is what I'm saying to you. It's okay. Das ist okay. I'll tell you, If you want self-realization, You're not going to be able to get there without very uncomfortable experiences. Yes, If you want to experience enlightenment, You won't be able to get there without very uncomfortable situations for you. You can't get there via some paint-by-numbers thing by some no prescription per for an app anything like that because it's you Yeah, You won't just come up with a plan, Like how to pay, Or if you use an app or something like that. I can't help it, It's so dramatic. This is good. You have to take a look at yourself, So to speak. Does anybody have any questions or comments, Please? Feel free. Yeah, If it's like. . . Is it necessary to make uncomfortable experiences? Is it then helpful to have like discipline Yeah, Maybe like a masochistic, I don't know. Is it necessary to live through uncomfortable situations or does it help to be disciplined? To have a masochistic streak, You mean? Yeah. That's really what you're asking? Yeah, That's what I'm asking. Meinst du, Ich sollte masochist sein? I mean, That question seems a little. . . I mean, Are you seriously asking that? Do you ask that seriously? Same with the journey. The journey is like an extreme sport. But there's incredible joy to it, You see. You have to be willing to be uncomfortable to for the ego to die. I know. What to do? But it's also possible to be really uncomfortable, Conflicted, Deeply unhappy and to make no progress. No, I mean it, You guys! I have seen this a lot. It's it's what the important thing is what is going on in you is there a really deep desire to know the Creator, To serve the creator. Also in everyone? Like, Is it just so strong that you'd do anything for that? If it is, You'll basically you will achieve the goal if it is the most important thing. The main thing is that there is such a deep inner desire to realize God. And if this inner decision is made, Then you will achieve it. Mm hmm. You there's also you guys, You also are asking, Well, You're kind of your souls are asking me for this, To give you permission to listen to your own data and trust it. Your souls ask me, So to speak, To allow you to trust your inner data and listen to them. And then experiment with it. Und mit ihnen zu experimentieren. See what works, See what doesn't. And just see what works and what doesn't. Did I answer your question? Thank you very much. How do you feel, Like what was the answer that you got? What did you understand from what I said? Maybe I understood for myself that self-love is still important in this uncomfortable situation. He says that self-love is still important in this uncomfortable situation. I'm not longing for uncomfortable situations because I think it's necessary. Oh yeah, No. No. You see, This is what we really like, A big vulnerability, You guys. The ego will come in and tell you how to achieve enlightenment. Truly, I've seen people waste years. Yes, And that's exactly what it is. The ego comes in and wants to show us the way to achieve enlightenment. Und dann machen wir lauter Irrwege und werden Jahre verlieren. And the ego will say, It's good to do this, Bad to do this. And the person's just like lost to the journey, Like till they wake up to what's happening. Ja, Und das Ego sagt ihnen, Das ist gut und das ist schlecht. Und dann verlieren wir uns einfach und werden jahrelang nicht weiterkommen. There is a great deal of grace coming to you guys, All of you. Some of you really need it. You know, Every ego wants to get all the rules in advance before they risk a step. Every ego wants to know all the rules in advance before it even takes a step. So. . . So, You know, It's interesting. It's like there's a lot of energy all jammed up. And I'm kind of, You know, Like looking at that door again. Remember at your shoulders the door we were like open the door like because i could feel everybody wanted to run And because everybody was getting so uncomfortable before the shift, Right? Okay, Okay, Okay. But you know, You know, Who else wanted to run? I did. I was like, I was actually doing it for me. I mean, I knew you guys wanted to run, But I was actually doing it for me so that I could kind of like embrace the energy. And remain in the room with you. I just looked at the door and thought again that there are a lot of different energies in the room and many of you really just want to run out. Because what happens is, This word tends to activate emotional complexes and they come up very strongly for me. My experience is a lot of emotional complexes are coming up very strongly for a clearing, Okay? I am so grateful that you guys give me this opportunity, Really, Honestly, To help you, Totally. Because every time I help you, I get bigger. And I feel the Creator more strongly. So has anybody got anything? Thank you. Where did we, Where did you get to finally? What was your. . . I think I'm still in the process of trying to understand. Poor Richard. Richard, The moment you really want to learn what I'm talking about, You will get it like that. The moment you really want to understand, You will understand very quickly. So Richard has a golden heart, But he wants to play in a little bit of a different field than where Premasudha is playing. Richard has a heart of gold, But he turns around the truth. You know it's true. Das weißt du auch. I love the truth. It is so sweet. You have full permission. I mean, You don't need permission from me, But you got full permission to play in this other field. So you're ready? To play in the field, My field, Where I'm playing. Are you ready to play in the field in which I play? And that is so deeply true that I suspect you can feel that in your body, Right? How deeply true this is? But maybe not. Maybe not. Just be honest. I know it wouldn't make sense, But at the moment it's like, Oh lord. Because you don't want to admit it. It's okay. It's okay. You don't want to admit it. It's okay. You don't want to admit that you understood it on a deeper level? You want to act as if you were playing outside of the truth, Even though you didn't know it? Happy and the attention coming and everything. And in the meantime, I keep telling Richard he's got a golden heart and he's got a big capacity for unconditional love when he's really interested in letting go of pain. His own ideas about things. His own agenda. And there's no rush. And you can grow as you are doing, Like you will still grow. It's not like a waste. Yes, You will grow spiritually one way or another. There is no hurry. It will just happen. But there is nothing sweeter than absolute truth, You know. It's, You know what, In truth, It's very peaceful. There's no demand. Es gibt nichts süßeres als die Wahrheit. Die Wahrheit ist sehr friedlich. It just is. You don't want to admit this, But that's okay. About the playing field. This is kind of the rub sometimes you guys like. You don't want to accept what I'm saying. So then you have to think, Okay, Does this woman, Is she like a true teacher? Or is she like, Not one, Or is she normally right about other people but she's really wrong in my case? This is very common. I'm confronted with that again and again. Right. And again the third important thing is humility you guys but like believe in yourself but know that you Yes, And the second important thing is humility. You should believe in yourself, But. . . To the heart of it. You know, Your usual perspective, Your thoughts, Your usual perspective. The Creator is way bigger than that. Do you know what? God is much greater than that. Like. Not just way bigger. But like way, Way, Way bigger. I'll tell you what it's like for me. Okay, Yeah. I see people with a very boxed understanding. I'll tell you how it is for me. I see people with a very limited horizon of vision, Like in a box. I often see a box around the third eye. Like really a big box around the whole person. Yeah, And they'll be telling me about the creator. And then you tell me something about God. Yeah right okay this yeah and some of you are looking to let me like you know like this And I'll be, If you're doing that. You're one of the people. And if you do that, Then you are exactly one of the people I'm talking about. Now, It's not a sin, You guys. Das ist jetzt keine Sünde. It's like. . . Like. I get gobsmacked sometimes like. . . Can you? Like, Can you just remember the creator? No, But sincerely remember, Not just. . . Really, What is going to get you out of the box? Okay, Really, If you don't think about the creator all the time, How are you going to grow out of this box that you think is true reality? And it's like this. Can't you think about God and how should you grow out of this box if you don't think about God? Yeah, I mean this is, I can, You know, This is really hard for us Westerners, You guys. It's really hard for us Westerners. Our hearts got hurt early. Our hearts were hurt very early. Everyone's heart was hurt. So we took on this boxed understanding. And we see everything as information, Not love. And we're trying to fix ourselves, To perfect ourselves. With this same box that is walling off the creator. While we are still in this box that God is keeping from us. If you really understand what I'm talking about, You won't do it anymore. You'll surrender into your heart. And you know what you'll do? You'll say, Hey. I thought I knew. I really don't know. And then you'll say, I thought I knew everything, But actually I don't know anything. And then there's a chance to know. Und dann habt ihr die Chance, Wirklich zu wissen. And we put this box around ourselves to protect ourselves from the pain in our hearts, You guys. And then we resist the energy. That if we allowed in, It would heal our hearts. Yes, And then we resist the energy that could heal our hearts. And it would heal us into a much bigger understanding. Right there's a level that you know Even in the most loving homes, It's like from a spiritual perspective, Most of us are like operating like we felt like foster kids. Even in the most loving home. We felt like foster kids. And we run from this. And we run away from these feelings. And just be with all of this, You guys. Just be with it all. All this information, All this love. That's coming to you. Just be with it. Yeah, Like I see your hearts you guys. Denn ich sehe eure Herzen. Right your precious precious hearts yeah Right. Right, And you're safe here. Und du bist dir vollkommen sicher. Right, You're safe here. That's it. It's the hero that allows their heart. Open again. After being hurt. And the one who allows his heart to open again after being injured, Is a true hero. That's it. Many of you are coming back to yourselves. Yeah. Does your tummy hurt? Many of you come back to yourselves. Sie fragt, Hast du Bauchschmerzen? And coming back to your heart. I'll come back to your heart. You don't have to please anybody. You don't have to please anyone here or do what you think the others want. See, The thing we're very frightened of is, We're very frightened of the sorrow of our little, Little, Little one. Okay, The two-year-old. What we are really afraid of is the pain that the inner two-year-old child has in us or in itself. It's an interesting day today. It's an interesting session. There's a lot of, You know, The content of the resistance is has come up very strongly today. This inner resistance has become particularly clear today. And it's good, Actually, It's good. It's a clearing, It's a step into truth. There's a big fear of punishment. What is the thing that's kind of obstructing? It's like on some deep levels, Some of you are running that you'll be punished if you go anywhere near yourself. There is a big fear of punishment. Deep inside of you there is a program that thinks you will be punished if you become more yourself or if you get more and more into your truth. So I'm calling on Amma's grace here. I will sit here till it's all cleared, You guys. I won't move till the group has made the shift. Truly, I won't. I may do a bathroom break. I may go to the window and scream. Ich werde vielleicht eine Toilettenpause machen oder zum Fenster gehen und schreien. But I'm not going to leave you until we're through. I'm not going to leave you like this. Ich werde euch hier nicht so sein lassen. But also you guys aren't passive spectators either. You're in this too, Right? Yeah. So it's like all of us, All hands to the pump, Okay? Shipped out of this, Yeah. Because this energy all day today was so strong with the Creator. I was almost like levitating all day, Really. It was like so. . . Strong you know I know, It's always a way, Right? But it may be why the heaviness has been so a market, Why it's been stronger this time. Or maybe the others were just as heavy halfway through, Were they? I don't know, I can't remember. Yeah. Has anybody got a crumb? Anything? Has anyone got a comment or a question or a joke to tell? And my belief is that the creator is all that is, And we are just a manifestation of it, Temporary. But I would like to ask you, Do you believe that the creator is? That's what I think too. Zola says yes, I think so too. Yes, And my understanding is that we have a pre-existing life, And that in this life we don't just solve the problems from our current life, But also from our previous lives. Some unresolved things, So we choose parents to imprint us with exactly. . . Indeed. And didn't they do a good job, Eh? My mother was a champion at imprinting. Right. Also, Wir haben so ungelöste Konflikte aus früheren Leben und dann suchen wir uns Eltern, Die genau das verkörpern, Was wir zur Bearbeitung brauchen. Right. Yeah, The going to the creator, Right? I mean, Where else do we go except to the creator when our patterning's heavy, Right? When we feel the to bring in the creator, You guys. Yes, And we also have all these problems, So that we learn more and more about God, Because He is the only one we turn to when we are in such a difficult situation. Yeah, I think that's why I went through kind of, At least I know a little bit my story. So in the dark times, I always thought, What did I do in past life that God forgot me in this situation? But that's why I did a lot of psychotherapy, All this stuff. But then at a certain point when I realized that I am part of the creator, So I could surrender. And I just advise anyone to do that because it was the most beautiful state ever. So my life. . . I was fighting a lost fight so because I finished something that I thought okay somehow okay and came the next problem so and so it was horrible it was really horrible. And surrender I always thought I have to let go or to say I lost so and I think it was my ego saying surrender means I lost the fight so I kept on fighting till I was completely that's what a lot of them think too yeah and for me was the word surrender was no never ever yeah and then it's really such peace of mind Yeah, And I know it's like being in a sunny day, Right? All the time. All the time. And then you go call everybody, Come on. And they all go like. Yes, And Billig has often asked herself in her life what she has broken, That she has to experience such difficult situations again and again in her life, Until she realized that everything is God, And then she just surrendered, Or surrendered to God, And then she experienced this peace, Which she did not experience before. Yeah, Yeah. One month ago, My son is 25. We had a discussion. He said, Mom, I want you to be more Mom. Not when I ask you that if I have a problem with my girlfriend, That you advise me spiritually. And I say, Sorry. Do you want to have the mother back of 10 years ago? I don't think so. So I said, For me, It's a lifestyle. It's not that I am this. I also work as a spiritual coach. But at that time, I said, You really don't want that mother back. Problems with my girlfriend and then Bilek said to him, Do you really want to have the mother back that I was ten years ago? I hurt my children there too. Lot of army experience and I really like miss this, You know, Like I And, Um, He just actually needs acceptance from me, Not any kind of spiritual counsel. And, You know, That's really hard for me, Right? Like you guys, Imagine, It's like. I'm like, Yeah, So I agree, Empathy, But I can also understand why your son just wants a warm hug. Yeah, I do. I'm a very loving mother, But I don't know why he wanted to me. So especially, I had not a very good marriage with his father, 26 years. We had three couple therapy and they went all wrong. So I never divorced, But it was not a happy marriage. I said, I'm the last person giving you advice about relationships. Yeah. Well, That's good. It was your father and me. I said, Well, It's better, No? It's very humble. I love it. I love it. Is that sweet? Yeah, That's it. He was a little bit like, Huh? I say, It's true. So we finished the third couple therapy and one week later he got the cancer diagnosis and passed away months later. Wow. Um, Yeah relationship counseling because I had a very difficult marriage and was in many couple therapies and after the third couple therapy her husband got a cancer diagnosis and then died a month or eight months later. Right. Don't get discouraged, You guys. Yeah. Yeah, We're so loved. Yeah, We're so loved you guys. Like I can feel how much love you guys need. You need so much love, You know? I feel how much love you need. You need so much love. It's like, You guys, It feels like everybody needs love. And I want to tell you that when your ego comes up, Starve the thoughts. I mean it. Starve the thoughts. So it's it's kind of i'm feeling that like you guys need love almost to be loved into this It could also be 50 years of being loved into this of taking the step of starving the ego, Starving the thoughts, Deciding that you're not, You just don't feed them. Yes, You need so much love, But the ego defends itself against it. And every time your ego comes in, It just starves out the thoughts that the ego gives you. And I want to tell you something that's not going to sound very spiritual. But. . . You need a little bit of a killer instinct dealing with your ego. You do. You do. It's true. It's like, You know. Standing there and starving something to death. And listening to its screams. Like some of you aren't there yet and you need to be loved into it, But you know, It'll be, It's good to take your time, Take your time. But I mean it about this killer instinct. You have to be really clear that you're not gonna be hoodwinked by this monstrosity yet again. Yes, Some of you are not ready yet and just have to fall in love with it. But if you are ready, Then you have to have this killer instinct and give these ego thoughts some faith and fight the ego. And the ego will try every trick. Every trick. It's very seductive, You guys. Very seductive. And the ego will take advantage of every trick. It's very seductive. And you have to like see it and do it. Just not. And it's not a fighting thing. You don't fight it. But on another level, It's a battle to the death. It is. It's a battle to the death. And it's a death of the ego. And when you do it, You will feel the creator. It's not really a fight, We don't have to fight the ego, But it is a fight to the death. In the end, The ego dies. It's like this again. Like what? It's not a fight. It's what? It's not a fight. Yes. It's a fight against the ego. Yes. But it's a fight to death. Yeah. Here we go. Right. It's even hard to. . . Okay. My little brain together. I know. It's like, Oh, I'm quite awake. Okay, So the thing is, The only the only thing which will like get what I'm talking about is your heart. The only thing that understands what I'm saying is your heart. It's like when I was talking about the boxes around the heads and that they try to figure it out. And it's like, So watch yourself. Our heads will try to figure it out. I get it. This is the thing, You just starve. You just go, Show me Amma, I really want to understand this. Could it be that more killing the ego is killing the identification with the ego, So that just to take it for what it is, The ego is a function of the mind but is not who we are? But as long as we think we are the ego, Then the problem starts. So that's why I'm saying starve the ego. You starve it. And the ego will let go. The creator's energy will flood into your bodies. And as soon as you let go of the ego, The creative energy comes into your body. Yeah. So you see. You have to see this. And then it's inarguable, You feel the creator's energy. And then there will be no more discussion. You will just feel the energy of God. Has anybody got any pain in their bodies at all? The usual area. Your liver? Yeah, It hurts. There was a moment where it was more present. Hurt more you guys the transcendent body approach any pain you feel is coming up to be cleared. Okay. To look to the location of it. Yeah. Check where you feel the pain in your body. You guys should just leave your egos here when you go, Right? Just leave them here. Just leave your egos here when you leave here. Sorry Alisa, It's like, You know. . . That's a boy, I think. Does anybody else got any pains at all? Yes. Do you feel pain here on the shoulder? Yeah. It's left side here on the back. On the back? Yeah. The back is like your neck? Yeah. Okay so that would go a little bit down to the heart yeah Yes, And it goes down to the back of the heart. So what's your, What would you say from your training with me, What would you say it is? And if it's round behind the heart area, Is it higher than the heart area? So as you're talking, I'm getting a feeling, Yeah, So emotional responsibility and then also blocks to love actually in the unconscious you guys this is what we do we feel responsibility but we're actually emotional responsibility but it will actually include a block at the back of the heart. Often. You know what I'm getting the feeling like? Often our mums, They were holding the family together, Just trying to hold everything together. It's often that, That's what this feels like, Kind of trying to hold everything together. You are not family. Right. And you're so sick of this perspective. Like you're, Oh, Your soul is just wanting to outgrow this. Just. Yeah. Right. And it is. It is. I feel it coming out very powerfully. So just, Yeah, Embrace it. This is the old pattern in you guys. Yeah, You see this transcendent body approach can be when you give up your name and that you're the child of parents. And that you have this career. When you step back from that, It's very insecure. So the point of this body approach is to give you something to hold on to as you deepen your connection to the Creator. Yes, Actually the Primasuras method, The transcendental body work, Serves to give you something that you can hold on to when you grow into the energy of the creator. Right, So that actually you guys will dare to feel more. It's something to hold you so that you'll have courage, So that you can feel more, So you can understand more. Your cuspy sweet one right in front of me, Your cuspy, You are like on the cusp of a much bigger understanding. So this is why you're doing this kind of You're outgrowing this over-reliance on your head. Okay, Yeah. To all of our reliefs. Yeah, Do it. I'm such a poker, I know. But it is a relief to see you guys grow. Oh, Like Amma says, She feels like a mother. It's sort of like, When is the child going to learn how to roll over? You know, The baby, When's the, Yeah. I understand this. When are they going to learn to come out of their heads into their hearts? And you're doing it tonight! Yes. I have a question about, I don't have actual pain, But when I lay down, I have the hip, The butt. But what I experienced last week that was interesting, Because I was at a festival, And then at the end we could dance. And I danced for more than half an hour, Techno, Like crazy. Then I stepped back from the dance floor and I could hardly walk. So for half an hour I was through Berlin thinking, Oh my God. End. I thought, Why is this? I have no pain at all. And now I really can't feel the hip behind. But the day after, I asked, And it's the idea you have to go dancing through life. And I was kind of, Is that possible that this pain, Only when I lay down or when I'm walking I have it, Otherwise I don't have it. And it's sorry, Your buttocks. Okay, Okay. So, Uh, How long has this been? So long, A couple of years. And my kids say go to the doctor said I don't think that there's no path no A witness told us that she often had pain while lying on her right half of the butt, But that she was able to dance techno for hours and didn't feel any pain at all. And when she stopped dancing, The pain was back. And then she had this insinuation that, God says, You have to dance through life. It actually feels like a kind of life repressive energy on your male side. Like life repressive. It's on my left side. It's on your right side or left side? Right. It's on your left side. My father. No, Not your father. It's you now. Yeah, He passed away. I want you guys to get that. It's you now. It's not our parents. Main side uh-huh yeah i'll tell you when i was studying with abraham the hawaiian kahuna we used to stick our elbows right in not in my butt yeah right into your butt right and and sit and just push and it's excruciating. But it will release out. Or if you can find leisure. She asked not to do everything. She is my lawyer. You know it may be loosened with just this today truly putting words to it if it's stuck my mail my name repressive repressive like um you know you're not allowed to have fun like no no your life force no Prima Suda says that this pain is like a ban on having fun. Yes, That's true. When my husband died, I had to raise the children all by myself and then I was in a very responsible position and didn't have any fun at all. You have permission for this to lift. You don't need it anymore. You really don't. You guys, The truth of it is, These pains in your body will stay as long as you have the issue. And lots of us, We don't address the issue, So it can go on and on and on. I wonder if it's going to be looser after time. Tonight. I my feeling is it will be 10. Yeah, Tell Alicia Okay, So Prima Sola says, I think that will be solved for you today, Simply because you have spoken it out and you are aware of it. No, No, No, No, But doctor's offices are filled with people with Kundalini symptoms and everything. Kundalini, You said Kundalini. In the last time, What? In the last time I am hearing every day the word Kundalini. Okay, You guys, Okay. Prima Sola says, We are running around a lot with symptoms. If you want to understand the journey, Your kundalini gets activated. It goes up it starts goes and it goes into each chakra and it burns off the complexes so you will experience all the complexes as it rises. Do you get this? This is what you go through. Yes, And on the spiritual journey our kundalini energy rises from the bottom to the top and it goes through all chakras and yes, There are a lot of problems, Unsolved conflicts, And you have to go through them. Yes, And it takes so long until the kundalini energy is at the top, At the root chakra. It's a body-based journey, You guys. You can't get it by ignoring your bodies. That class with dancing was no problem. When they were dancing, Moving the whole body was no pain at all. It was amazing. I felt like 20. Well, I think this is just, You know, It's really wanting to lift. It's wanting you to get your head around it so it can lift, So that you have permission to dance up a storm. You're not going to be punished. Do it. Yes guys! Okay, Yeah. I was talking one session about how. We were stuck with this old repressive masculine energy, And it was keeping us hooked into the the linear mind. I have already talked about the fact that we are stuck in this old, Retreating, Masculine energy. So. . . I hesitate to say this because it will kind of maybe shock you but actually, This is what it's like so on one person, I was working with this beautiful woman. And inside her, We had a man trying to boss her around. And he had a very small black penis. Kuma Suda says, I hesitate a little bit to pronounce this, But once I worked with a woman and she had a masculine energy inside her with a very small black penis. On her masculine side, She didn't experience anything like support or firmness. All these positive sides that come from the masculine side. So she was being run by this very kind of small, Ineffectual, Bossy, Energy telling her sort of how she needed to behave. Yes, And because of this inner masculine energy she was commanded to do certain things. And she was told that because of this masculine energy she was not allowed to have fun. And yes, She is allowed to try very hard, But she is never supposed to be successful. Heard this masculine change that became a much more illuminated energy so she will move into like her masculine supporting or feminine and she will become more steady, She'll become less emotional in the way women we get. You know and you can't talk any sense you have to wait till they calm down whereas a woman with a strong masculine will have she'll be she can feel deeply and still be available at the head level she can still reason Okay, It's handy. And an awakened masculine will give a woman courage and endurance. And the awakened masculine energy will give a woman courage and perseverance. It's like, Yes. Uh yes those things yeah yeah yeah there are much more that i can't say it here yeah yeah that makes everything absolute sense yeah but like and you're really worth it and it you know once you see it the transformation you guys the important thing is if you let yourself see it the transformation will just happen you you don't even need body work if you see it then you've changed. Yes, And if you just see and understand what's going on inside of you and believe that it all makes total sense, What Promasuda just said about it, Then the problem will simply be solved. I have a question. I can imagine mostly how a repressed masculine looks at the symptoms. So a woman is bossy? Yeah, She'll be bossy, She'll be argumentative. Clever yeah so yeah Yes, Benigda asks how it actually works when the masculine side of a woman somehow gets stuck in the negative masculine. How does the woman behave? Will she be particularly tough? And Fumasola says yes. The chill, You know, Like a opponent, Like a opponent rather, Like the real feminine will give space, There's a spaciousness where the feminine, Even if there's, Supposing she has an issue, There's a problem, But the person she's talking to will feel enough space to just be themselves without having to defend themselves. Yeah, It is what my son was saying because I'm very two words as one is was surrender and the other one was vulnerable for me were I know you guys were all scared of our vulnerability. This is yeah, This is yeah, This is a rub. See, God comes in through our vulnerability, You guys. Yeah, Right. You see, When we make ourselves vulnerable, God comes into us through this vulnerability. Right, And sometimes guys are really scared of vulnerability, You know, Just because of the conditioning. But women also are, I mean, Yeah. Are armoured up. It feels like the creator is really wanting to be felt in the room. Yes, It feels like the Creator really wants to be felt in this room. It's like an experience of being held and loved just as you are. There's nothing to do, There's nothing to fix your. . . The Creator's beloved child, Just as you are. There is nothing to do or there is nothing to improve. You are simply God's beloved child, As you are. That's it. Is a feeling of you guys have nothing to lose, You know, What holding on to so tightly. What's so important? What's more important than the creator. Yes, And you have nothing to lose. What could be more important than the creator? There isn't anything more important than the Creator. And in a battle with the creator. You know, Guess who wins? That's it. And sit. There's some very subtle openings happening in the room. You know, It's really understood how human beings will keep making the same mistake over and over. People tend to make the same mistakes over and over again. It's really. . . You know, Like really you guys, The bar is quite low. I don't expect that much from you. It really is like. . . You know. It's really understood what we're like. This is why you shouldn't give yourself a hard time, Really. Yeah like some of you feel like the worst spiritual student but please understand like really like it. The only thing a human being can do is just realize how futile it is to try anything. Try and just let yourself be loved. That is the only thing that works. Nothing else works. Actually, The main thing is to understand that it is completely futile to fight against receiving the divine energy. And that's the only thing that works. Many of you have the feeling of being a particularly bad spiritual student. There is a lot of love wanting to come in the room. It's much easier to get into this space. It's like. . . Like almost an overwhelming love and understanding. And if you can't feel it, Just know it's there. That's good enough. That's good enough, Even if you're not feeling it. It's going to get through to you. It will get through to you. Maybe not tonight, But it will get through to you. It will get through to you. Maybe not tonight, But it will get through to you. Is anybody, How's everybody feeling? Has anybody got a comment about what they're feeling, If they're feeling anything? How are you feeling right now? Is there someone in the room who wants to talk about what he is feeling right now? Sport machine. Which one? A solution. Deliverance. Deliverance. Redemption. Redemption. Redemption. Is that the word that came? Yes. That's the word that came to you? Yes. Yeah you know that happens to me too i get words coming and then i'll look it up and it will be the thing that's happening because it's very religious i grew up in italy catholic I grew up in Italy. Read them as you use them. Means the action of saving someone or something from sin error. Or a debt or the process of being saved. Yeah. You know. I mean this ties in with learning to receive this. Yes, This is the right consequence and is connected to what we are doing here, So that we learn to receive this love. It's it's your birthright you guys to receive love Yeah. I feel a really strong sacral chakra activation. Like a holy or a pain or? Not the pain. Um. . . It's like an activation. Yeah. No, Really. It's really. . . It's the flow of the soul, The river, And it's also the emotions. Yeah, It's the seed of the soul. And it's, You know, It's it helps us come out of the head when this happens, The scissors come into the body. And it all happens just through love. Yeah, This is good. This feels more the right track. You know, It feels good to me, You know, My crown chakra is going. . . It feels very, Very thick to me and it's, You know, It was like it was all day I was in this all day. And then we meet together and it was it was a bit of a shock because I was thinking this is so weird. It's so hard because it was I was in this bliss all day. And I think we were just clearing defenses really clearing the defenses. So this energy can come in now. Yes, And I felt this strong energy all day long, This divine one, And then I was surprised that the energy here was sometimes so heavy in the beginning. But now I know why all this is the way it is. Namely, Yes, All the defense that we have should dissolve today, And now I feel this expansion and love again. Some overdue. Yeah. Right. Some overdue. You just didn't know you guys. You just didn't know. The two-year-old knew all about it. The nursing baby knew all about it. And that is still in you you guys that knowledge is still in you onto your innocence. Yes, And this knowledge is still in you, This knowledge about love, And it is simply your innocence that is. And the thing is, You see, Our vulnerability, We go into vulnerability, And we're really scared of being brought back there because we couldn't defend ourselves. But That's the Buddha in you. Because that's the Buddha in there. Because we couldn't defend ourselves in this age. But that's exactly what brings you back to this energy of God. You know, I feel like a lot is going to get solved for you over the next year, Like you're understanding a lot of long-term like the questions you've had. You're going to see in a big way, A big, Big way. It feels like a much bigger understanding is going to begin to come in. Very beautiful. I was thinking about what you said about the two years old because I have a grandchild. I have two, But my one, She's now four. And at breakfast, When I visited her, She was two and a half. And she was sitting there and she said, I am all that is. Oh my god. But you see that she knew. But sweetie, The metaphor, There you were, Talking to this little Buddha. Like, You guys, Remember we get these metaphors you you it's like you're on stage and you're in act one or act two Here you are on stage. Talking to this child, It is a metaphor for you being very close to your true nature. Do you get it? I want you to get this. I want you to get that. Yeah it's like i start coming in good i want you to get that you were actually like talking to another aspect of your own soul. I want you to understand that when you spoke to the two-year-old, You spoke to an aspect of your soul. It's just a psychological picture of you. That you are in such good contact with yourself, That you can sit there with your granddaughter and she says something like, I am everything that is. Exactly what I'm talking about when I say we're trained to like information it's information but when you get it's love when you get the meaning your comprehension goes like this She wouldn't have said it in the company of somebody else. You're way better than you realize. You have a much higher understanding wanting to come in. There is a much greater understanding in you that is just about to come into you. Yeah. Yeah. Good. Okay, You guys, This is a difference between information and love. Okay, I want you to get the love. Yes, That's the difference between information and love. And I want you to experience love. And frankly, You sort of saved the evening. She did. She brought in this feeling. She brought in this feeling. Ready? Yeah. Yeah, It's very beautiful. Now I understand why today all people were smiling at me, Children in the bus, And I said, Well, They are all smiling at me. So really friendly, Really. Right. Today everyone smiled at me on the bus and I didn't know why. Especially children. I know when children are smiling, You're doing something right. Yes. This is true self-esteem, You guys. This is what I'm talking about. Right. Yeah. Thank you. Thank you, Amma. We're still going to keep going, You guys. And if you have to go, Please go. But I'm just going to keep going with whoever wants to stay. Yes, I will continue with those who want to continue. If you really want to go, You can go. It's like coming home. We come down to the ground and everything gets softer. It's like coming home. It's like coming home. It's like returning to the ground. Everything becomes softer. Is that the cat? Calling for the Creator. Calling for the Creator? They always sound like they've been tortured, Right? Does anybody, Please come forward with anything, Anything at all. Last night I had a dream, But I wanted to talk to you personally. I don't know if it's. . . Please, Go for it. Thank you. I'm just glad you came forward. Okay, Good. So I had a very poor sleep, But I could go back to sleep. And then I dreamt I was sitting, I guess, Alone or with a few people, With Amma. In a natural way, I said to her, I thought being with you. Would mean that this will be my last life. And then there's still a little burden on my heart because she's sort of. . . Checkered. Oh no! I told Michael. Oh no! And then, You know, It was in between chuckle. It was not the worst thing in laughter or something. Yeah. It was not really a mocking. No. But like having a hand before, In front of the mouth. That's great. And then I said, I am so longing. For it to be my last life, You know, When I woke up and I still feel some burden on my heart and tears coming and disappointment. Oh, Sweetie. Yeah. But it could still be your last life. Sometimes we have a dream like that to help us clear. Because I'm sitting here with you, I think that this could be my last life. And because of that, Ama reacted a bit funny. Adiba was somehow disappointed and sad about it and now she has such a pressure on her heart. Exactly, I said to Amma, I miss you so much that it's my last life. And then she said to Amma, I miss you. Are you feeling like, Is it pressure on your heart a bit? Pressure or like a heaviness? A burden of disappointment or discouragement. Yeah. And sadness. Right, So it's a heaviness. It's a heaviness, But. . . You guys, This heaviness is just in the process of clearing, Okay? Please, I'll tell you, You know what? I mean, German people are so apt to think like. . . It's hard for German people, It seems to me, My experience, For them to get their minds around that some ache or pain is actually good news and coming up to be released rather than something that's bad and wrong. Yes, I have the feeling that many Germans think that pain or pressure on any part of the body is bad, But actually these are good news, Because it always means that something is going to be solved. And then she. . . And I felt her response was to the negative. Okay, Atiba, How about this? How about you don't get your last life until you let me get through to you? I want to get through to you. You've been feeling very light and you have this dream and this burden and you're taking your dream very literally. Yes, You take your dream very literally. Yeah. Yeah, I don't know if you can let me get through to you. You're very scared of vulnerability. That is your Achilles tendon. That's your Achilles heel. Okay, Good. Okay, So. . . Imagine that this Pressure. The bird moved. Is just. A blockage that Amma gave you a dream so you could clear. And you could feel more of the divine light. Imagine that this burden on your heart, That Amma sent it to you in your dream, So that you can release it, So that you enter the divine light. Okay, And maybe this dream is a test. No, I'm not laughing at you. It's just freeing. Yes, Thank you. Yes, Just a test. Maybe, Yeah, Maybe she was joking with me. Well, Just giving you a test. It's like, Are you going to hook into that same old, Like, Storyline that you don't get the door open this life. Or are you gonna let this. . . Open. Yes, Amma has sent you a test to see if you will react in such a way that you will be brave and think, Oh, I will never be able to break the cycle of existence. So, Pramasutha has to stand up again. Okay, I want to tell you that I dreamt my son was going to die before he was 13 months old. Okay. It was a very real dream. He had a miracle healing. If I'd held on to that dream, I wouldn't have allowed the miracle healing. You see? Yes. I'm so glad you spoke it out. I knew I had to. I would have come after the session because I felt shy to share it. Yeah, But you did it. I did not know if it was a benefit for you. It was a benefit for everybody, Right? It was very good. This is helping them unhook from their minds. This is the point. Keep your minds loose. It's beautiful. Right. Right yeah i feel relieved and actually the the issue of shame came up yesterday the day before i knew i have to look at it and so here it is it's great beautiful you did it seamlessly I feel like I'm just pulling you guys into the light. That's it. And our heads are like, Don't believe your heads too much. Keep it loose. Don't trust your head or your thoughts too much, Just let them be. Oh, You guys, Yes, For our origin, For our digit. Since our last buddy session, There was not only one moment when I realized, Okay, Now I'm entering in my heart. And then I realized, We spoke about the strong mind. It was my mind's heart and not my heart. And then I realized, What the hell, What is going on? Go away. And then I I could only then enter my heart. This is this tricky mind. Right. You guys that is actually some of you are really laboring under like what you think is your heart is your mind's heart. Right. And it's, It's just a place on the journey. It's almost inevitable you get stuck there. Like we all do. But then just coming out. Varadarajan said that he had the feeling that he was in his heart, But then he realized that he only thought that he was in his heart. And then something happened. Ati, I feel really relieved, Atili, For you and you. Yeah, And that you accepted my loving glance. Yeah. And I already praised it. No, But I'm feeling like visceral relief. Thank you. I'm so glad you encouraged me not to hold on. Oh, I'm so glad you came forward. It's wonderful, Atiba. Just beautiful. Atiba is so happy that this dream could only have been a test from Amma. And you guys, I know how the mind, I mean, Prima Sutta has been my biggest struggle, My mind by far. And you know, The smarter we are, Like all you guys are smart, And then it's even harder for us. Compassion? No, Really. I want to invite you to say something. I don't know why. She says she's so happy to be here. Good. Yeah, Now it's okay. Thank you. You really do that very well, She says. Thank you. Oh, You guys are so lovable. You're so easy to love. It's like, Oh. You're so easy to love. You're so lovable. It's like a journey. We all have our path, But it's like a journey for all of us. You Yeah, Yeah, Right, Right. Yeah yeah and and when we gather like this we we all bring in more love i'll tell you my crown chakra is just going berserk it's just going Yes, And when we gather like this, Love also gathers and I notice that my crown chakra opens up a lot and almost goes crazy. I actually feel like I've given birth to Pramasutra here in this visit. It's very strong, Like a whole new level of love is coming through. You know, When I'm just by myself, It's like when I get together with you guys, I get accelerated. Yes, And also my own development is accelerating. I have the feeling that Prima Suda was born by herself and is now on a completely different level of love through us. And you know what, The more I want to get through to you and the more agony I go through trying to get through to you, The bigger a jump I make. It's true. So it's kind of hair-raising halfway through, But then afterwards I'm just so glad that I'm here. Yes, At the beginning it's always kind of hairy, But in the end I'm always very happy that I'm actually here. Yeah, I kind of want to demystify it, You guys. The growth continues. Yeah, It never stops. I have a question but it has nothing to do with directly because I spoke about the crown chakra and the flood in Nepal. I read after because Sadhguru lost 77 pilgrims in that flood and I didn't know that Sadhguru is in the Hindu religion and in the Buddhism, The Mount Kailash is the crown chakra. Chakra of the earth and if you walk around 108 times you get enlightened. So he goes there always with his pilgrim. Why? So go to walk around the stone and thinking you get enlightenment. I know. And I thought that that was very symbolic that Mother Earth this. I'm sorry. This flood that washed away and that people say hey it's not about this also made not possible to go anymore to Mount Kadesh. Sorry, I was thinking because. . . Oh, I love that, I love that, I love that. Because from the Catholic point of view we also worship a lot how to go to Medina to the whatever we are worshiping material stuff to get enlightened. And then comes a flood and then shit it's over. I'm that during the flood in Nepal, Some of the 77 people inside died. You know, I think there are holy places in the sense of if a lot of people have come and worshipped at a place for many years, Like hundreds and hundreds of years, Then there's a certain power and the air and everything. But yeah, I think any mountain is cowish, The crown chakra. But if that's your culture and your belief, Then it probably has a special power if you're really, You know, If it's your culture. But to a non, Like outside the culture, You can see the cultural stories, Right? But what's that, You know, The Arunachala? Yeah, So that's a mountain, A little hill kind of in India. And I went there. And it's, Hugely powerful, Like you can feel the love is thick in the air there. Yes, So many mountains have a great spiritual power. And yes, Vamastuda was also on the mountain Arunachala and felt a very great power there. And that is also often when many people venerate a place and come there, Then you can feel that the energy and the love is very strong in the air. Yes, And people have worshipped there for 900 years, Like strongly. But it's like, You know, The going outside, Right? We can do it in our beds, You guys, Like in the middle of the night. You could just get enlightened. You could pray with such that there was a big bolt of lightning that came in your room and some angel goes abracadabra. Yeah, But it's true. It can happen that we experience enlightenment from one second to the next, When we pray very intimately and then a flash comes into our room and then we are enlightened. That can happen. I think everybody's starting to get tired, So did you? Yeah, I just want to share, I just have a feeling I should share. Yeah, No, I want to, And anybody else who wants to, Please. It's just what I feel, It's what I felt. Good because as soon as you mentioned this um connection between the mother's breast and the saliva something entered in my cells i really felt it and i got very emotional i started like you know tears and everything like i started really feeling really just wonder and just feeling this this love like really feeling that love and i started feeling more my heart shall go But then I started to feel kind of a little bit sad. And I started to feel very scared. And I started to. . . And it was just in complete harmony and sync with what you were saying about, You know, How we feel when, You know, When we're. . . Two years old, And I started to feel like. . . This is how I felt. To give you a message it's okay. And I just felt it. I didn't ask for anything. That's funny. It's beautiful Yeah, I can feel it. But I don't. You guys, This is, This is key. It's like if you can let, If you can feel what your two year old felt, That clears, You know the, What's the word, Amygdala, Amygdala, Yeah, Where our issues are stored, That opens it so that you can find freedom. There's one more important thing. Please. And it reminded me of life. I had this feeling when I've been in like really serious medical conditions or something like when I was hospitalized and losing blood, Like, I felt like this feeling of like, I appreciate it. Thank you. It's really sad really, I'm going to tell you. You know, I'm like, Hallelujah, Man. Hallelujah. No, That's ego death. That's it. You feel this again. You feel like you're going to die. It's your ego time. That is what takes so much courage, Okay? And he just sat there with all this. Didn't run out of the room. Yeah. Yeah. This is it. This this is it this is how you find your freedom you are you you these states happen and you witness it and you're you're aware of what's going on and you you get the connection with your early childhood and you could be sitting in a corporate meeting and have all this no Y'all it's true though you can be you you guys you learn this is this is witness this is this is you learn you're going through all this stuff and you're still functioning on the outside this is the art of the journey Gerard just told us that when Prima Suda heard about the mother's milk and the transmission of information and love from the mother to the child and vice versa, He felt a very strong opening of his heart. He felt a great love and was very touched by it. And then he got so involved in his own children. And then he suddenly got a fear of death. As if he were going to die. And Prima Soda said, Yes, That's exactly the work. That it was an ego death, What you have experienced. And when you feel these feelings that you had as a little two-year-old child, That you really free yourself and that your ego and that's exactly what art is. But I'm dead serious, You can say to Amma, Please just keep this to weekends. No really you can come in no no no you guys are co-creators you have to like you can say to the creator like please don't don't do this to me in a meeting But you can also ask AMA not to get these strong feelings when you are at work. So this is also, With Gerald, It's the most important thing for him. So he's getting this information coming. And some of you, It's also the most important thing for you too. And the information's coming at the speed you can handle. But I'm, You know, This is it. So how do you feel right now? Honest, Honest, Honest. I'll be honest. I'm calm. Yeah, I still feel this scared like I still feel rattled by it. Well, Yeah, It's the I say the bravest work a human being can do. It's like it's very scary to let your ego go and to become who you're born to be. But you really amma is going to take very good care of you really you don't have to worry you're not going to be put in a awkward and you're going to come see me tomorrow, Right? So it's perfect. That's probably why it's happened because you're coming tomorrow. You know, And This can be, Yeah, Right, Right. I was getting a voice telling me that you, That Gerald really needed kindness for me to know that I was just going to be kind with him. Thank you. Prima Suda asked Gerard, How do you feel? And Gerard says that on the one hand he is somehow relaxed, But still feels a residual fear. And then Prima Suda said, Yes, This work is also very scary. And that's just the way it is. Gerard has a session with Prima Suda tomorrow and maybe that's why the fear has come up now. And I will be, Because you're doing it. This is it. Is it a safe group? And so you can be scared and feel like you're dying and it's okay. Yes, But that's exactly what I'm talking about. It's such a safe group and you can go through this development here and that's okay. You guys the journey, I can feel like your your controls a little outraged, Like your usual controls a bit outraged at this it's like I didn't sign up for this. This is what the doom is like. And it's good if the control gets a bit outraged. It's good. He doesn't have control. Right. Alma's in control. Right, Love this in control. The ego is a bit angry now that it is losing control, But it doesn't have the control. Amma has the control. We were like, I was terrified when the stuff came up. The same. You're not going to be left like this. It will be woven in. It'll be. . . You're kind of like. . . I trust I'm trusting. I'm trusting. Of course, Of course. Of course it's like that, That we're human, It's okay. It's okay. It's good. 500% gold stars all over the place, Okay? You know. . . How do you think you felt? Do you really think that you as a little kid that you felt differently than? Being scared and sad? Yeah, You were a scared little sad scared kid. Yeah, You were really scared. Yeah. I know. Terrified. Yeah. When I met Gerald, I said, He's little boy standing in the corner, Terrified. So you're going conscious on the fear and this is how the fear lives. This is your ticket out of fear. You guys, You feel it consciously. It lifts. It lifts your organism. This is how you do it. You go conscious on it. And now that you are aware of this fear, It leaves your body. How do you feel? I feel good. I feel at peace with it. Yeah, You do. I don't know how else to say it. Yeah, I feel at peace with it. Yeah, You do. It's okay. It's okay. Yeah. I know, Hold on a second. I got a lot of them. You know what? You guys. Oh my god. Yeah. Okay. Yep, There's a lot, There's more coming around. Yeah, There's more coming around. Please help yourself. Take handfuls if you want. I don't want to take it home. I will just eat it. I will. I'll just eat it. Yeah. You know, Everybody talks, Oh please, Thank you. Yeah, I guess I'm curious about that. Yeah, You know, Primasutra faced a lot of fear inside, And now Primasutra loves really deeply. Yeah. It's the love that is why I'm like this. Fernando asks, First of all, He thinks this event here is great and asks how Prima Suda always manages to be in a good mood and so on. And Prima Suda says because she has already met all her fears and feels a lot of love. And that's why it's like that. Um, You know, With my energy, I could keep going all night doing this. It's just like, Yeah, It just doesn't stop. Yeah, Yeah. You know, To really know what God is, You have to be a little mad. No, It's true. You have to be a little mad. Like, Prima Sud is a little mad. Like, It's not normal. Yeah yeah yeah Yeah, I just want to do this work with your feet. It's understanding the feeder understanding and sending love into your body. Oh, Yeah. Right. And it's your birthright. It's your you deserve it. You're entitled to it. Yes, Prima Sura sends love through his feet and says it's your birthright, You have the right to it. We'll tune in. Fernando. Fernando. Are you related? Are you friends? We're friends. Okay. Okay. Yeah. Good friends, Eh? Good friends? What? We understand we understand each other. Yeah, OK. So I burp sometimes when I'm helping to clear. Thank you. You know, Blockages, You know. You know, Our feet are on Mother Earth, And we can open to her energy and feel her support. I want to praise you. I get the feeling I want to praise you. It's like, Just praise you. It's so weird. Transmitting this to people, Right? Thank you very much. Everybody can see he has a good heart. Very innocent. Right, Good. Thank you. Has anybody got, Anybody else got? Yeah yeah i would like to share i have like a headache and i feel like i have like a stick in my head like it was on the left hand side here And now it was gone and now it's shifting to my eyes. I feel like it's like a stick pointing yeah like it's yeah I had a very strong dream. Yeah. What's your feeling about it? It feels like some, Like my mom always used to have migraines and she described it as like having a stick in her head. So it might, It feels like, Like old unconscious thing related to my mom lifting maybe. That's what came up. Yeah. There also feels something Chinese in it, Like a Chinese life, But also Yeah, Like a stick in the eye is sort of like, Now it will be clearing this, But it's like all the ways that our ego chains us up, Like it's, You know, Sticks in our eyes and, You know, Things to keep us small, Smaller, Not seen clearly. But there's a Chinese life here with a lot of rituals. A very kind of ritualized Chinese life. And kind of like you never got past the rituals. Yeah, You got limited by these rituals and You didn't come into a bigger comprehension. It's like you were in with the rituals, In with the. . . Convention. Yeah. Strict with yourself. Strict with rituals. Strict, Strict, Strict. It doesn't really suit you. Yeah. Yeah, It doesn't. You've got a bigger, Wider ranging consciousness that's really wanting to be born. Oh, Right. This stuff all the people around us will be so grateful when we get through this stuff like these things no really Yes, Prima Soda sees a life before Maxi, Where she lived in China and it was very ritualized. She had a lot of rituals and everything was so fixed. And yes, These headaches come a little bit from the fact that she this self-built prison, So to speak, That comes through all these rules and doesn't really leave all these restrictions. That's what she means. We've been sitting here for so long and now school is over, She says. But if anybody has more questions, You come forward. But if it's just all too much, Like. . . Yes, But if anyone has any questions, They should have them. So, Yes. When you were saying that grace is coming in, I felt a huge flow of energy in my whole body, Especially through my hands and the legs. And it was so thick, This energy that I could hardly breathe. Yes. But it felt so positive. And in this moment, I feel it again. But this kind of thickness and I cannot breathe kind of scared me. Right. Yeah. Okay. So when Prima Soda called Amma's blessing, A lot of love came into this room and Michi also felt it very strongly. This love in the air, Which is very thick, As she says, Or very. . . She saw it coming through her hands and feet into her body, But at the same time she felt a kind of fear. Yes, And all this energy pushed her so hard that she could hardly breathe. Place of your mom. So, Like, So when I say stuff to you, It carries a lot of power, Because you're like a little kid with her mom. So it's good in a way, Like, Pramasutra is a true teacher. So you get an experience of unconditional love. But you get the fact that you're not, That you're doing the same thing you did with your mom, Which is just kind of go along with her and not being yourself. Okay. Not feeling like there's room for you and it's only safe to go along and do what she wants like make keep her happy. Okay, So what I want you guys is you when you feel, And none of this is bad. In fact, What you do with me is actually really accelerating you. Yeah, So it's really good. But I'm wanting you to bring in your other foot of a deeper comprehension. Okay. And the deeper comprehension is that We're all responsible for us. Okay, So if you can't breathe, You. Then it is, Like, Be with that. Don't just put it on hold. Be with it, Like, Oh, I can't breathe. Yes, Prima Suda says that she is a bit like a mother figure for Michi and that she has the feeling that Michi is waiting a bit for Prima Suda to give her the permission to breathe more, For example, But that she should come more into her own responsibility, To feel as if she couldn't breathe, And then just to be with her and to feel inside her how it feels not to be able to breathe. That it dissolves by itself. There is no room for Mitchie. I have to please everybody. I can't even take a breath. I can't even tell you. Pramasthoda said to Michi that she should talk about a few things, That there is no room for her, So there is no room for Michi and I can't even take a breath. It's actually kind of like I have to please everybody to keep mom, I want to say balanced or stable or it's something where Yeah, Vanilla candy. Yeah, This is. Okay, So the deeper when you go deeper, You'll have the experience more like Gerald. Okay, But it's okay. There's no rush. Or you might be able to just move through it very quickly. It's a say, I don't trust. Yeah, Okay. Michi, I want you to say to me very strongly, I don't trust anybody, Premasuddha. I don't trust anybody in Kamasutra. Yeah, You really don't. You don't trust anybody. Say, I don't trust myself. I don't trust myself. That's the bottom line. Underneath everything, That is the bottom line. Right. And that is what gives you an aching pain. And this love coming in was Michi's soul. See, This can happen on the journey you guys want. It's like Mitchie has a cutoff, She's bringing in her soul energy, But there's a cutoff and a distrust. So this is right where religiosity happens. Okay, This is where we split and we do that that religiosity. Will either think for superior and boss people around or we do some twist rather than just embodying your soul energy. See, You're going to have to love and get to know this little munchkin and love her. And this is actually part of Gerald's strength is he's Yeah, You're willing to love little Gerald. Yeah. Right. Okay, Say, I'm willing to love little Mitchie. I'm willing to learn for the mission. Right? Because you're stuck with her anyway. No, It's true. You guys, We are stuck with our little kid. So you might as well. Yeah, You might when you just love them anyway. Yeah and then you're saying to me what am I so ashamed about? Like, It's like there's nothing to be ashamed of. And this little munchkin, There's nothing to be ashamed of. She's beautiful. You're saying to me, I can have it all this lifetime. Yes, You can. You're saying, I just have to change my attitude a little. Yeah, Kind of. This is often the only thing that's in our way. Yeah. Okay, So be very, Very honest with me. How do you feel right now? There's still a lot of energy inside and I can breathe very well. That's still just beer. But it's not a big fear, It's not this kind of fear of life, But it's just this very small. . . Can go for it. Yeah. Actually, You can get through anything, Even if it's a big fear of life, You can get through it, Yeah. It's just fear, You guys. Yeah. That's the strength inside of you. Right. Right. I really want you to bond with me. This little munchkin. Yeah. I really want you to see that you can't do anything except bond with this little munchkin to solve your life. It's the only thing that's going to solve your life. And it will solve your life in a really big way. A treasure chest way. You guys, You bond with your munchkin. And your life gets solved in the most, This is what Premasuddha did. I couldn't have even imagined, I couldn't have even. . . Like for how blissfully happy I couldn't have even imagined it earlier on. Yeah, It's like, Love that little atiba. Yeah, It's kind of like, That's it. It's like, That's it. Prima Suda says that the solution to everything is that we should love our two-year-old inner child and then everything will be fine. Right? And you know what? Everybody's gonna love you a lot more. Really, That's what happens. Yeah, I know, Now you say. Yeah. It is, But just do it gradually. Just do it gradually. Yeah. Yeah, So how do you feel? But I want you to learn how to be, Over time, I want you to be able to wake up in the middle of the night, Feel that you can't breathe, And shift through it in the middle of the night by talking to Amma. Right. There's no rush. Or you could even talk to Primasutha. I mean, It's like whatever works. But so that you can learn, That you can move through these things, And you can move through whole complexes this way. Yeah, That is the way to get the gold. Yeah, It's, It's going, It's going and and our return to our humanity. It's an embrace of our humanity, A healing of our early conditioning, That is what solves everything. And you get to astral travel, You get to you just You get the full depth. It's just scary sometimes. Right. And I'll tell you, The next time you see Ama, She I mean, You know, Like there's a level I can't speak for her, But I would place I would bet $1, 000 that when you go for a hug, That you feel her love more, And that she like signals you that you are Maybe even with some relief in her eyes. No, Really, I think it's like when her children are really doing it, I think that. . . Then it's not, She doesn't have to keep, You know, We're doing, We're paddling our own canoe, Right? Yeah. We won't wake you up when we call you at night. You can call, You can phone me. No, I mean when we pray together. No, But sometimes I, Sometimes you guys, You come up to me very strongly and I can I can feel you. And I, You know, I totally open my heart like I take this very Not seriously, Like heavily, But it's my work, Yeah. So it's okay. Yeah, Totally. Please do. I want you to. Prima Suda said earlier that Michi, When she has this feeling of not being able to breathe, That she should feel more at home and should simply be there with this feeling that she can't breathe and that she can then also ask for help from her mother or Prima Suda's help. And Atiba just joked more whether we don't wake up Prima Suda when we're in the middle of the night, When we wake up and can't breathe and ask for her help. And. . . Professor has said, Well, That can happen, But that's not bad. Good. Has anybody else got any comments here? Hello? Yes, Please. I had kind of the same feeling like Gerald when you were talking about the two-year-old munchkin. Yeah. And I was kind of going back into our session and where you were told me to just love this little munchkin right there and then I could feel this sadness and this little one being, I don't know, Just isolated kind of. And yeah. Could embrace it a little bit and I felt also light coming in or my heart opening. Yeah but i stayed there kind of Yeah, No, No, No, It's good. It's good. You're there's like, The second child picks up material from the mom, So unconscious. And there's a level where I feel like you get kind of the her mom's your mom's, Like feeling of separation somehow got transmitted to you. Franca also talked about her inner child, Her two-year-old inner child. She felt the love for the two-year-old child, But at the same time she also felt a strong sadness. Prima Suda says that she has somehow taken over a kind of blockade from her own mother in order to receive love. I want you to stop thinking of this feeling of separation as you, Okay? Because it's something that it's like a coat that you're wearing and it can come off anytime. Yes, And this feeling of not being one, But somehow being separated, Franca should not identify with that, Because that can simply dissolve at any time. It's like part of you is scared that the whole thing is just too big a job. But you see, It's just done gradually. It just happens, You guys. The years pass. You just grow out of this stuff. Yeah. And I can hear my voice saying, Is it so easy? Just taking the coat off, You know? It's just came up. Yeah. So, Okay, So it's sort of like you're arguing for your ego there. I know it. I know the voice thing, But it's like your ego. This voice, That's your ego? I want you to start seeing your ego more. I've given you kind of special treatment and it's going to stop soon. I won't be so nice to you anymore. Wow. Uh huh. Ah it's um I've been very like soft with you because I want you to I want you to like have enough time and space to feel loved. Okay? But your ego would just love to keep it like this. And there's this deepening required and you're ambivalent about the deepening and I get it. Only you can do it. I love you. And this separation isn't an illness. Okay? And premisuda worked mainly with separation. Do you understand this? So I had a very similar structure. Okay. I want you to get very good at going through it. Ich will, Dass du das lernst, Einfach hindurchzugehen und dass du mit der Zeit das lernst. Right, Okay. So you're saying to me, I can feel that. But I want to know how you're feeling about what I said just now. I want you to get really good at going through it. Yeah, You can. You can. And it will be done by something beyond you. It's not done by you. You just have to allow it. Yes, You just have to allow this separation to heal. It is not controlled by you anyway, But by God. And there's a feeling of brittleness in you. And I think this is coming down from your mom to a feeling of being brittle, Not too brittle, Brittle. Do you know what? Not too strong? Not too strong, Like breaks easily. Um, And it's just at the personality level, Like actually, As you deepen, You will tap into an immortal strength. Yeah, And a very Gentle. Toughness. Like a toughness like you see in Premasuda. And you're just not quite ready. Like You're young, I mean. Like, I know you don't feel young, But you're young. You're not quite ready for it yet, But you're still very young. Great, Great, Okay, Good. You're saying to me, I'm at the stage where I can start to be true. You have two boys to raise, You have kids to raise, I get it. Yeah, She has two kids. It's something around. . . Franca, The opening is done by something beyond you and you just go along with the ride and I have enormous trust in you. And you don't have to measure up, But I just have it. Primastola says that the opening of something is called out, Which is bigger than you yourself. And I have faith in you that this opening will come to you. How do you feel? I feel this opening here. Good okay what's here yeah control right so if there's an opening Yes, It's great when there is an opening in the solar plexus chakra, Because that means the task of control. You guys must be. You must be had enough, Right? Have you had enough? We could do this all night. Has anybody else got any questions or comments? I'm like, I'm very touched, You guys. Yes, I'm very touched by the fact that you like to continue here. With this work, Prima Suda has always had a kind of, Like there's always been this kind of fear or like a feeling of, Oh, I'm going to get run out of town. Really, For saying all these things, Really, It's like. . . Yes, Prima Suda has always had such a subconscious fear that she is simply being chased out of the city for all these things that she says. And it's much better. It's like, You know, There's only like a little bit like 5% left. With your fear it got a lot better, Only 5% of it is still there. And this 5% fear is now more about whether you ask yourself, Will you really internalize and understand it this time? Or are you all going to go home and say, What was that? Yeah, And it's part of why I work really hard to find you. Right, Because I really want to make the bridge to you. Yes. And that's why I try to find you in your inner self and try to build this bridge to you. So even the experience of unconditional love from one person, I mean, You know, Many of you know, But even just from one person, One evening can alter a whole life. It gives you a whole new baseline. Yes, You certainly know this experience of unconditional love and one night with a person who loves unconditionally can change your whole life. Yeah, And it's why I do it, Because if these people hadn't breached to me, I wouldn't be here. Yeah. Yeah, And the desire to just share it and activate it in you, Because it's new. It is immortal, You guys. Immortal love, Like the creator. It's a new just as you are. You don't have to change. You don't have to do anything. Right. Right. Yeah, It was kind of the hope for the world. This world we've got. Yeah, Really, If we were doing this. Maybe we will, More and more. Yammer. Great. And then it goes out from all of you guys. I feel like some. . . Do you know the word fetters? That there is. Okay. It's like the kind of burdens, But there's a, It's more like a slightly irritating too. A fetter is a chain or shackle used to restrain someone's ankle or a metaphorical restraint that limits freedom and progress. I saw a whole bunch of fetters leave your body. They were all over the place. They were on a very subtle level. And your consciousness is very subtle. Yeah, I feel like you're going to feel much more of a freedom and a freedom to just be yourself with this high sensitivity. And capacity, You can just be yourself, You can express it. There's no rush to express it, Like I want to scroll that back. It's like, Yeah, Just, They're leaving. Yes, The knots don't come undone. And this stuff comes from countless lifetimes you guys and it's not our fault at all and this will be you know this material this kind of material will be lifting off everybody And everybody is with everybody who spoke. Just take it as me too. It's you guys too. That's so frank, You know, It's kind of like just kind of a little afterthought like when when the spotlights off her right and then it's just there's this movement happening. It's very beautiful. It's just very good in her own way, Right? In her own way with a little bit of time, You know, But yeah. That's very good. It's beautiful. Yeah. Yeah. We're all very idiosyncratic. There's lots of room for our idiosyncrasies. Yeah. How are you doing, Richard? Good. I felt like an opening in the heart. Yeah. Just the last three months. Yeah. You see this, The opening in your sacral and the opening in your heart, Like you're doing it. This is really strong i never felt this yeah yeah this is good this is more like my playground And you're doing it. You're doing it. It's good. It's very good. It's good. It's great with both of you doing shifts like this, Too. It's great. I mean, You know, I mean, But you're both going, You're both moving. It's good. So, Sweet one, How are you? Okay, Good. Like, Relax. I won't, I feel, Because I'm getting my menstruations. I feel like I'm grounded, You know, To the cows, But. . . Grinding into the couch because it hurts or bloated? Tense, Like the movement is moving right, I feel the movement. Maybe it's your menstrual. I mean, Maybe partly menstrual, But it also means movement. I don't feel any opening to get through you. Not that I have anything to say particularly, But I feel like you've got it all sewn up. But there's not also not there's no room for me here. We might as well go for it. Say what? Were you going to say something? Yeah, This movement I feel also in my life after a session, Like some things in my family are moving. I thought I was feeling like if I should share it. Yeah, Go for it, Please. Yeah. You know, My family, My mom, We have a difficult relationship. Since I was a teenager, She got married twice, Like second husband. It was very difficult. In the family right between us and i always wanted him to be And my mom, We are not in touch often, But she called me, And usually she calls me when something bad happens. So she called me that her husband is sick, That he's kind of serious. He got water in his lungs. They took out two liters of water, And he's quite obese and with diabetes, And they found a tumor and metastasis in his lungs. You. So it's very sad and I felt sad but I felt kind of conflicted also because I remember that time when I was a kid. How it was really difficult for me, You know, I didn't want to have him in my life. He's not in my life anymore but I felt kind of. . . Like that maybe he's like relieved so you don't have to deal with him anymore? Like my mom like it was connected more to my mom because she's very much impacted her life is all around him and everything like shifted for us right and actually if he leaves i was just feeling like for my mom Like how it would be, Right? The dynamic. Oh, Like she'll be lonesome? If he dies, You mean? Yeah, If really the worst thing happened. Yeah, It's very fresh and I'm still trying to feel it. Yeah, I feel that conflict, Right? Because of course I feel sad. I don't want him to suffer because it can be painful and he can't breathe. That sounds horrible, Yeah. And what's the other side? And then at the same time, These memories are coming, Right? Of remembering what, Like, He was a nice dude? Yeah, Yeah. Oh, Okay. So what's the conflict that you feel like you should was the conflict. No, I'm just interested, So you're feeling both ways. Feeling sorry for him as a human being yes yes but but he also you have some hurt memories coming up like i really i hated it you know it was like very very difficult right when i was a kid and I don't know how I feel about the whole situation now. Okay, This is you guys this is what happens with the spiritual ego. It's like getting there and tells you that you should, You know that you should I don't know. Whatever. It's like, Sweetie, You are entitled to just however you feel about this. Yeah, Please. You know, I was getting like this thing like that you were saying to me underneath. I'm very scared. You are? Okay, Good. What are you scared of? I don't know. I think it's just to admit the truth of who you are. It's like, You know, Primasutra would not be mourning this man. If that was you, I'd be like. . . You know, I'm sorry as a human being he's, But, Um, Hello? Like you don't have you don't even have to forgive them you don't have to do anything like just be with, You know, Forgiveness can come after you admit how much you hate somebody. It's like after you admit the truth, Maybe you'll come to something else. But as long as you're sitting there judging yourself, You can't even give yourself room to feel. I really want you to give yourself room. To just be however you are with things, However you are feeling without trying not to. Control or make it pretty or. . . Some of the best spiritual students come from people who really screwed up really badly. It's like darkness is not bad. It's the other side of the polarity. This guy hurt you. It's like we try to be rocks, You know, We try to numb out and yeah, Feel it fully. You should write it out, You know, Or do something, Yeah. Yeah, Please be. Yourself. You know what happens is, You know, If we're really, You know, Feel negative stuff for too long, We get fed up with it and it moves. It changes. You're still not deeply convinced that you're entitled to feel whatever you feel. So I want you to realize that is your learning curve. You need to work with that. Face that on an ongoing thing because I'm going to start really shaking you. I thought you'd shifted from the last session. I'm surprised that you're presenting with this after our last work. Right, Right. Yeah. Right, Need to learn from Pramasutra. You'll get round to forgiving him eventually, Don't worry. But feel it all. Because your little kid's in there. The Buddha is in there. This is what we do to kids. We like, We, We, We, We tell them, Yo, You're, You're not being, You're being bad for like whatever you're feeling like. That's not polite. Or be nicer to Uncle Frank, Even though Uncle Frank's a bit weird. Lalitha told us that she has a difficult relationship with her mother and that her mother rarely calls her. But whenever something bad happens, Her mother does call her. And now her mother called her and told me that her mother's partner is very sick, Has cancer with many metastases and water in the lung. And Lalitha then said that this life partner didn't treat her well in her childhood and that's why she sensed such an ambivalence, That on the one hand she somehow says, Yes, It hurts her for these people, That it's so bad for him now, But on the other hand it doesn't hurt her either, Because he didn't treat her well and Pramastuda mainly worked with her so that she can feel what she feels I want to make something very clear to the women in this room, Okay? If you judge and inhibit yourself from actually feeling the truth of how you feel, You wall off your strength. Okay, You lose your strength, You wallet off, And you wall off your intelligence. But first, You will lose strength. You will not have any strength. So don't do it. Yes, And Prima Suda says, Especially to women, That if you judge yourself for what you feel and don't allow yourself to feel, Then you lose all your strength and your emotional intelligence. Don't do that. Or premises is gonna like smack you. I am. I'm going to smack you. It's like. . . I thought you'd got this at that last session. Yeah. I can allow myself to feel more. I can do it. Yeah, You're going to have to. Right. Right, Is that or be crippled? No, Really, It's crippled. And women, They'll start talking like. . . Professor has just copied the women, Who do not allow themselves to feel a certain way and then just start to say something. Thank you for laughing. This is why I used to get scared of being run out of town, Right? Because it's so it. It's so it! And that's why Primasura was always afraid of being chased out of the city, Because she always said something very directly. Thank you. Oh, You guys, You know, I was, I mean, We got here. Thank God, You know, I spent this day and just total bliss and it's like, It's like we got here, We got to resolution. I'm just so grateful you all sat with me all through this really. It's been a bit of a rack at times, You know. I am so grateful that you were here the whole time and experienced all of this with me. This is the easy way. And everyone has made a development leap on the spiritual path. That's how you can do it. In the collective, That's the easy way. I also want to thank you that you give them permissions because I have the feeling when someone also on the spiritual path, We have algebra, So someone is kicking you in the gut and then, Yeah. I know. Yeah, I know. I love you anyway, But even if your instincts say, If you do it again, I kill you. But I say you can't say this because I'm so spiritual. Okay, Yeah. Okay, That is exactly the vulnerability. And you know what? You're much better staying with your instincts. You guys, Your instincts will be the correct thing. And you might not kill the person, But you might say, If you keep doing this, I'm going to kill you. Yeah, Okay. Yeah, Or at least feel the pain. Yeah, That's it. That's it. And Belegda says thank you again, That you give us the permission to feel the way we feel, So that we react appropriately and not to someone who treats us badly and says, Oh, Yes, Yes, But I still love you. Because I'm so spiritual. Coming of including your humanity because without this we're losing the plot of our culture. It's just, Yeah, It's good. You know, I saw sort of a wave of light come in through the window and just go to you. Oh, Look, Astrid just saw a flash of light through the window. Yeah, This is the divine feminine. It's just this coming back to our humanity and including our humanity and allowing room for our feelings. Do you know that? Isn't that amazing? It felt like 10 minutes to me. But it's now 9. 30 almost. It's like, Yeah. But again, If somebody's got a comment or a question, I'm up for it if you want. Yes, If someone has a comment or a question. But I also want to give everybody permission to leave, Too. You don't have to stay. Thank you. I have a fun question. Yeah. About this pressure on the body. Uh-huh. During the evening you spoke about it, I felt certain parts, Then I lost the connection to my body. But now what I really feel is on this left side below the ribs. I don't know if they have a spleen. Yeah, The spleen. I honestly, I don't know. Yeah, Spleen, Obsessive thinking. Varadarajan just said that he felt pain all over his body during the session, But it went away again. But now he feels pain on the left side under his back. What does that mean? And Pumas Soda said excessive thinking. I'll tell you what, Obsessive thinking, If you think about God all the time No, Really, That's good news. You know what? Pramasutra has a genetic thing for obsessive thinking, Like it runs in my family. So this is part of my progress. I thought about God all the time. Everything can be turned into a gift. So I only will change the trophy, Okay? So it's coming up to be healed. So you know. Just speak to Amma and you guys when you when you realize that you can this stuff lifts just as you see it like if you see it then and it will come up and you'll go you go I don't have to keep doing this you know I don't have to keep doing it. You can work with yourself. Think about God, Actually. I feel that would really help you. Obsessively think about God. It worked for me. That also helped Promasoda. Yes, And also remember that if you have any symptoms, It doesn't have to stay that way. It just comes up so that it can be healed. And if you then recognize what symptoms you have, Then just tell yourself that it doesn't have to stay that way. Do you have anything that you'd like to bring forward? Not really, I'm still on my way. You still? I'm still on my way. Are you awake? Yeah, I think so. I follow my intuition very much. Good. And I don't put too much attention to things that get on my nerves. That get? That get on my nerves. No. Because that's costing my energy. Yes. So just play it off and focus something else. Yes. Good. And watching my body when there is something i know okay my body will tell me something about that there's something not in an order yes and i think okay i i understood you i do something and it's gone okay And it's just easy to read the body, Right? If you have a throat ache or something, Just think, What is it that is getting on your throat? I don't want to swallow. And then it's gone. It's gone. But you have to think about it. It's not just pain. Take a tablet or something. It's just like I thought about your liver. What is running about your liver? It's the same, Right? So something is there that is getting on your on your liver and so that just just yeah so that's love that's self-love when you when you pay attention and inquire yeah But it's so easy because the body is telling us everything. Well, I think so. I think so. If you can't walk, If you have pain there, Then everything stands for something. Yeah. As soon as you see it, It's fine. Good. You know, Sometimes like I remember I used to sometimes feel really heavy and then over a few days, Then that heaviness would lift and I would feel lighter and it would have been my ego had gotten smaller. Me and I was like not carrying so much ego weight, Like it's pretty kind of obvious. But lots of times people aren't that interested. You know, Like I love that you're interested in that, Because I think everybody should like get interested. Off. And yeah. So if she has knee pain, She thinks it stands for fear of losing control. Because you have to stand on your legs. And if you can't stand on them, You lose control. Yeah we all like we all like we all figure ourselves out really yeah we should yeah not all do yeah they just run to doctors and get sick so that's insane Monika says that many people just take some tablets against symptoms, But we shouldn't. We should really find out what the body wants to tell us. If we didn't have pain, We would be lost because we wouldn't know what was going on. Und der erste Gedanke zur Intuition des Masses ist der beste. Oh yeah, And she pays a lot of attention to her intuition and she says the first thought is always the right one. Yeah. And sometimes the brain is telling you after the first impression, It says, Probably it's okay, Right? So you try to admit things, Right? And then after a while you think, Oh my God, I would have been. . . I think the first thing is often, Yeah. Yes, The first thought is always the right one. Everybody's done a good job, You know? You guys don't have anything you want to say? And it was really, I really enjoyed that you were here and since our session, Lots of things changed. Yeah, You made a big leap. I had really one and a half day great headache and but it shifted yeah even this this evening it was i felt my my solar plexus yeah intense control and now it's like bubbling and oh good oh good good good good oh good it'll make deep deepening easier yeah good good work How long ago did your grandmother die? My grandmother? Yeah, It was your grandmother, Right? Who died? Who died? Somebody died. Two friends died this spring. Oh, Is it? No, No. But didn't you just go to. . . Didn't you send me an email? Oh, That's the other Eva. That's my friend. Oh. Yeah, With the dark hair. Oh, OK. OK. OK. Yes, You. Okay. That's okay. That's what planet is Prima Sudam that I thought it was you. Okay, Well, That's good. Okay. Yeah, You did beautiful work. I was really, Really pleased. Me too. Yeah. Eva says thank you again for the session that Prima Suda had with you a few days ago. It seems that a lot has changed in her life. There was a transcendence of the head that was necessary for your deepening and you did it. And I never have headache, But it was necessary. Yeah yeah yeah. A little bit of emotional conflict about it, But you'd already jumped. It's good. How about you, Sweetie? I think I'm a little bit overwhelmed by like everyone because it was just a lot. And yeah, I've been after our session, I it was really intense for me. Yeah. And but I like that you talked about the inner kid because I really got in touch her in the past few days so good that was really yeah it was yeah well this is this is pretty intense i mean a session and then this and yeah this is even for some of the people who know me it's intense yes Good work, You brave soul. Okay, You guys, We're gonna. . . Please, We're gonna finish here. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, Alicia. Thank you, Guys, For tuning up. Please, Thank you for tuning up and your attention for like four hours. I'm gobsmacked. I'm just so touched. It's the highest compliment you could give me, Actually. It's a compliment what you can do, Being here with me for four hours. You guys, You're just all so valuable and precious. And to me, You feel this more and more. And make more and more room for yourself in your own heart. And you're doing it. All of you are doing it and yay atiba like jay ma No, I really, I'm. . . I'm really, Really pleased with what you're doing, What you've done tonight. I see the real Atiba more. Yeah, Right. And being lighter with herself. And that you don't go to court so hard with yourself and be nicer to yourself. Good and there's a light coming in for you too it's coming in through the window again just like with her it's like it's almost like a nod from the universe really Like, Premasutra doesn't flatter and I don't lie, Okay? Right. It was that good. Okay. So I am just going to start talking. I'll just stop talking now. Ha ha ha ha! And I'll come back next year, You know. Please make sure your names are down on a list. So yeah, You're so great. Yeah, I hope you're pleased to see me next time though, You know, Who knows. I'd be going, Oh god, She's back. Maybe everyone will say, Oh my god, She's back again. Ha ha ha! You know, It's a little bit like medicine, You know. Kind of nice, But. . . Anyway, I'm going to stop talking. Yeah. Yeah. Aww. Thank you. I'm just so glad people are listening now. I'm just so happy that people are listening now. Oh, This is my dream. And I feel like Amma is happy. I feel like Amma is happy with Pramasuda and I feel like Amma is happy with all of you guys, Really. Very deeply I feel this. And I also feel that Amma is very satisfied with all of us and with Pramasuda. And I really want to please her. I do. Okay, So hugs are available for people who want to. Yes, And hugs are available now. Who wants a hug, You can take care of it. Thank you. Thank you.