Awareness Satsang: Opening Up Inside Changes Everything

Shifting into Truth can be tough, but Premasudha’s Loving Awareness makes the whole process more gentle and easier on both the psyche and the physical body. Sink into the Truth and let the Love in!

The weave of Premasudha's words and Presence seamlessly catalyzes shifts into greater alignment with Essence. Nuts-and-bolts suggestions to help support and ground seekers are also there. Reminding ourselves of the Creator several times daily really speeds up our journey.

Women, in particular, have a great opportunity to stand up, heal, and reclaim their feminine energy. It is the Divine Feminine that will help shift the collective consciousness back into a more love-based world where Nature is adored and harmony restored. The really good news for men is that when a man allows his inner feminine to communicate with him, he becomes more deeply masculine and women will love him for it.

Let's open up our inner doors together and bring more love and a higher vibration to Earth!

Transcript

Before we started, A couple of hours before, I got a bulletin for you, Michael, From the universe. And I just wondered before, I was just saying with Anna, We're just saying, You know, The spiritual journey isn't for sissies, Like I get it. But then life isn't for sissies either, You know, We all have to be brave, You know. But Michael, How have you been since we spoke? Well, Sort of at the beginning, Not so great. I'm pretty confused. Yeah. You know, I know I wasn't supposed to do anything. On the other hand, I thought I was. So yeah, Just just really not not not finding my feet. But in the last couple of days, That seems to be lifting a little bit. And I just find that my prayers are a little closer. But other than that, Nothing really dramatic. I'm just, I guess, Trying to ride the wave. Yeah, No, No, It's all good. It's all good. You know, The doing, I mean, We've got a doing out of the doer, Which is doing out of the ego, Or we have non doing, Which is when we act from our being, We, We take the actions, Our being, Which is the two different, Two different ways of living. And in the West, We're so trained with the doing. But the thing that it was overwhelmingly strong to ask you to do is, And it's from ABBA, And anybody, Really, All of us should be doing this. Okay. You know, It can't be forced fed to us, Right? We have to, We have to find the energy to do it. I just wanted to speak to you, Michael, About this, Because I was feeling really this coming very strongly from God, This, What I'm about to tell you, And it's what Amma has recommended as well, Which is every night before you go to sleep, You review your day. And you review your thoughts, And your actions and your words, And what you don't like about what you did, What is less than the way you would wish to be, You correct in your mind. So, You would speak differently to somebody. You just correct it. Okay. Now, The good thing about this is, Because Westerners were so focused on the outside, You, You, You did this to me, You did this to me. This exercise brings us back to ourselves and what we do. Aha. It's really important that we look at this material, Okay? And the second, By doing the corrections, We're steering our psyche in a certain way. And, You know, We might have a negative thought to somebody, And when we're reviewing, We think we had that, We remember we had the negative thought, But we might want to say, But they're awful. Why wouldn't I have negative thoughts about them? And it's like, That's the correction. Any negative thought you have, You just, You just notice it and correct it gently, Gently. There's no sin, But I'll tell you, If you do this every single day, Nighttime when you go to sleep, You will start becoming far more aware of your input in your life and why it is. And, You know, It's a good life. It's not, But you'll see that you're the agent, And when you change, Everything around you changes. Yeah. Yeah, I can understand that, Actually. Yeah. Yeah, Good. Good. Yeah, I can feel it. It's like slam dunk, Right? And you can understand, You can feel the truth of it, Like why I would be asked very strongly to tell you this, Right? Because you're, You're part of God, And God is helping you. We're all part of Allah, And Allah is helping us, And you need this. And anybody else, Really, If you want to accelerate, If you do this, It will really, Really help you. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It will help, We get, We get, It helps us be more humble, In a good way, In an open to learn way, Not in a miserable sinner way. Yeah. Okay, Good. Okay, Yeah, I can feel your heart very open. This is very good. Yeah. Yeah, We don't even know the darkness we're carrying until we do these sorts of things. Yeah. Yeah, Good. Good. It's sort of like doing a house cleaning every night, Cleaning up the kitchen before going to bed, You know, So you don't get messy dishes in the morning. Same principle. Yeah. Yeah, Great. Thank you. Okay, And the other thing is, It's good use of our satsang energy, Because I was thinking about, This has a lot of power, And we've been seeing people open, But it will have the power that you allow. It's like, How, I mean, Just noticing, You know, How deeply you listen to what's coming through, Whether you start dreaming off about something else, Or whether you go, Oh, That couldn't be true, She's wrong. You know, She's right about a lot of things, But this thing about me, She's wrong. She must be a little blinded by the ego. It's like, People have all kinds of tricks to stop what's coming through from finding their hearts. Yeah. So, Remember, Our progress, It's really up to us. Nobody else can do it. They can help. Yeah. Okay, That's so beautiful. Good. I can feel you're so open, You guys, And soft. Is there any questions at all, Or comments, Anything coming through? And if there's no question or anything, There's just love. We can just be in that. I feel somebody needs to ask a question. They're a bit shy. We're in. Sweetie Pie, I feel something wanting to come from you. I'm feeling quite nauseous right now, And my hip went out after last session. It's the female personal power. It's actually physically forward. On your female hip, Female power is forward. Yeah, And it's like hurting quite a bit, Too. Yeah, And I rolled around on the floor. I kind of just tried. It felt better after I did that. I've been feeling quite like things are not what I thought. Just things are not what I thought. Yeah, I'm really coming up. Everything in my life is just not what I thought, Like things that I built foundations on, Even for my family, Everything is just not what I thought. Yeah, So you're in a realignment, Realignment with truth, But I have huge empathy for this. Yeah, And your hips forward. Do you remember, I don't know if you were when a lovely woman was speaking about being threatened by the male and just moving in to sleep with him? Yeah. She just moved to protect herself. This kind of reminds me of sort of moving forward like, Oh, I'm going to have to protect myself with your hip, You know? Yeah. But really, Women, Well, For any of us, Life doesn't feel very safe lots of times, But especially for the female polarity of the human being, It's, You know, We're in a culture that's almost hostile to that, Actually. Yeah. So remember what the nausea is? Having trouble stomaching my divinity. Yeah, You're clearing it. Right. So when you get the nausea, You're actually clearing the issue, You're actually moving into more embodiment of truth. Yeah. It's hair raising sometimes, Sweet one. To see the difference between what we thought was reality and what is reality. Yeah. Right. So how long has your hip been hurting? A few, Wednesday, About Wednesday, It kind of went, Tuesday, Wednesday, And then it was really bad in the mid of the week until I kind of, Yeah, I just rolled around the floor. And I did that chiropractic thing where I gave support on both sides, So it can just, Like, Sink to the ground. And after, And then the dog came and, You know, Kissed me and all and like, I was laughing. And yeah, I felt better after that. It kind of even to feel it, Because I could really feel it protruding out, Which scared me a bit. And then after this, It's, It's gone back in a little, Like, It's a little more even. Okay, So it's good. You supported both sides, Both sides, Male and female, And you received love from the doggy. And there was a realignment, You know, At least the beginnings of, Beginnings of a realignment. It may be even better after the satsang and tomorrow if you come. You know what I mean? It's just sometimes we just need, We just need love for the realignment. Yeah. Right. This is just killing your ego. You're not, You're not at risk. You know, Your discomfort is just an ego death. Yes. You get that? Yes. You get that? That's what it is. Yeah. You're probably seeing a lack of love, Right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yep. Yep. What? How I would chase it, Expecting to get it from, Like, My dad, My uncle, My sister, My friends, And it never happened. And then I'm back being like, Well, You did it again. Right? Well, This is the PhD in idiocy. Like, I get it. It's like, I did it too. Like, Yep. So, But, But, You know, It's again, Coming, You're, The answer is always to come back to oneself and realign more in truth. Yeah. And there's also a chiropractor. If you really, If you've got a loving one that can help sometimes. Yeah. But I never went to one. I just did the, Did it like you did it, When my body would go out. I would follow my instincts about what to do, Which is what you did. Right. It's all right. It's okay. You know, One day I woke up, And my whole left shoulder was dislocated. Who dislocates their shoulder in the night? Like, It was, It was, It's off the wall. Yeah. And I had to click it back in, And I have a very high threshold for pain, So I could do that. But yeah, This is, In a way, You know, When it dislocates the joints, We're, We're, You, You're experiencing the power. How do I put it? The power of the wake-up call. Do you see if it's, If it hits your joints like this, It's a very powerful wake-up call for you, Gurren, Right? And the great thing about with the, You know, Joints, Or when we work with our body, When the joint clicks in, Again, You've made the shift. You've made the shift. Just keep working with it till you, Till you do. I mean, I had the feeling about that satsangs I had the feeling about that satsangs would help hold you, You know, Right? When you were dealing with your family, And it's like, Yeah, This is it. And satsangs can hold you while you make realignments with your family, And they've all got broken hearts too, You know? And sometimes, You know, If, If people have stopped looking for love, Like you, You, You, You still offer love and want love, But in a way, That's because your heart is in a better shape than the people that might have given up entirely, Crying. They don't even try to give or receive love. They've just given up entirely, And they've got the most broken hearts of all. Yeah, I am. I empathize with all of you guys when you get the shock of reality, As opposed to what you thought was happening. But, You know, That will keep happening. This will keep happening till you realize that you, You're an eternal being, And everything's base, Everything's love. Yeah. That's where you'll finally get to with all these ego deaths. Yeah. It all ends well. Yeah. And let me know after, You know, Let me know how you're doing, If you feel to, With this. Okay. Like, You can email me, Let me know how you're, Yeah. Okay. Yeah. I knew this was going to happen, Corinne. Yeah. I knew you, You, You have to stop lodging in your family, And you have to lodge in your heart more. And in the, With the East Indian culture of the family, It's harder, Right, To, To, Yeah. Then you guys have spirituality in your genetics. So I'm not worried about you. You know, Really, All the, All the thousands of years of spirituality in India, It's like, Thousands of years of spirituality in India, It's like, It always seems to me the Indian people, They just kind of know, In a way that I don't feel that myself as a white person knew, I had to learn it. It's just like in India, Where they, You know, The signs in the Himalayas, We, We love you, But we don't like your speed. You know, Like, What country puts signs up like that? But it was just so heartwarming. Imagine if you drove along seeing signs like that, You just feel loved, You know? Yeah. Yeah. What we got is like, Big heavy fines if you do anything terrible. Or if you do anything small, Right? Yeah. Good. Good. You look a lot lighter. So this is good. Good. Yeah. See, You guys, Our problems feel really big and difficult. To the teacher, They don't seem difficult. They just seem like small in a way. But the teacher also remembers what it's like. And honors you. Yeah. Wherever you are, You're honored. I'm getting this to ask you all a question. It's, Are you coming home or not? Are you coming home this life? Are you? Are you really? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Right. We have to be very clear about it, You know? You can't force the clarity. I mean, If we feel like, Well, Maybe not, Then that's just how it is. But then you give that over to the creator. You see, Just because you see it's hard to receive, It's hard to make progress if you're too ambivalent about it, You know? It's like Amma says, Most of the people who come to her are wanting to be happier as they pursue more things, Which of course doesn't bring happiness. Again, I'm getting this to ask you again, Do you really want to come home? Are you really focused on coming home? Bonding with your heart. Bonding with the Amma inside you. Bonding with the creator inside you. All this coming to me now in this vacuum, You guys, Of you guys not asking questions. I'm getting that you're talking a lot of nonsense to yourself in your thoughts. A lot of it's just nonsense. You're not, It's nonsense coming from the ego. And you're not realizing it. That's it. That's okay. We're all in this together, You guys. We're all one. You know, You're, We all come together to create this earth experience. And each one of us just sees our own soul manifested. So all the pictures that you're seeing and that you're hearing from me, It's all you. All the pictures that you're seeing and that you're hearing from me, It's all you. It's all you. And you guys are all me. Your aspects of me speaking to me. I feel you inside me, You know. There was one beautiful woman, And I felt her make a shift, And she said, I heard it oddly, Coming from my body. She said, I'm really gonna sink into it now. Like sink into truth, Sink into the truth of her. So because I heard it in me, I know that that's what she's going to be doing. And I could hear it in me because all of you are part of me. And you're hearing yourself speaking to you through me. That was why we all had that feeling like many of us at the starting of the satsang of like coming home, Because you're actually coming home to yourself. Remember, It's okay to be ambivalent. It's just that you won't get anywhere. You'll just get more and more experience about what it's like to be stuck, What it's like for everything not to change. The spiritual journey is the journey into freedom. But there's always at first a misunderstanding with a seeker. The seeker, First of all, Will think like, Oh, It's freedom for the ego. Oh, I get to have my dreams come true. Oh, Everybody's gonna like me. I'm gonna get abundance. I'll be understood. And yeah, Probably, You know, When you finally get to enlightenment, All that stuff happens. But before that, We have to see that our ego's unhelpful. And the person who wants things its way is the person that has to die in us. It's the genuflecting to the mystery. Genuflecting. Bowing down. The lower you bow, The higher you go. Most of us don't even want to tip our heads a little. We just kind of. . . Do you know in the East, The custom of lying down in front of the master, It's it's to help steer the psyche towards surrender, You know. But it's totally possible to do that for 40 years with the ego going, Oh, Look how humble I am. I'm so humble. I'm so great. The thing is, Truth feels different in our bodies. It feels spacious. We feel like we're living in a house with 20-foot ceilings, Which is probably easier for, You know, In Germany. You know, In Canada, It's much lower than that. Your body will feel relaxed. Your movements will have grace, Male and female. The more you surrender, The more when you do tasks, You waste no energy doing them, And you do them just very well, Without effort. You do them just like a river flows. Yeah. Is it a good moment to share something or. . . Whatever you feel, Man. You know, I was just waiting for a long pause because I didn't want to interrupt your. . . I started yapping too much, Maybe. No, I loved it. So I was waiting long until I feel you might have finished. I think it's the first time I don't ask a precise question ever. Even I talked a lot. I just want to share a few points from this week and would happy to hear you on that, If there's something to say. This week, When I was listening to your last week's satsang again, I had a short moment of, Wow, Even my heart is beating now strongly when I repeat that. Hey, What is there to have fear of? We're all divine. We cannot die. You said something like that. We can do the biggest risks in our life. What is there? Even if we die, We're eternal, We're divine. You said that and it felt so true to me for a short moment. I think afterwards for a glimpse as well, And then obviously it was gone. But at least for a few seconds and all that. So I was quite happy on that. So on top to that, What I observed this week, At least occasionally I can feel my pain in my heart, My sorrow, And an occasional short crying happens. Even I help with that, Looking at pictures of my mom, Looking at old pictures or listening to old music, Which we played at the funeral of my mom. So I help use these tools of going deeper into my heart. So I could do that at least a little bit. So that's happening. But on the other hand, I really feel I'm praying deeper. Since you mentioned that to me, I try to really go deeper and deeper with trauma, Understanding that I can't really do anything on my situation with the fear of the fear. And it's getting stronger prayers, But I also feel it's getting a feeling of being so fed up with this situation. Really feeling like, What the fuck? Sorry for this word. What have I maneuvered myself into? Because I have tomorrow a workshop, I have two speeches in a company on Tuesday and Wednesday, And I will give them with Amma's grace. But obviously, The feelings of going there, Driving there, And all the feeling, Theoretically, I can always leave and find a cheap excuse, But obviously, I wouldn't do that. So hopefully, All goes fine. But I feel, Hey, This is just a neighboring city of 25, 30 minutes, And these feelings of fear, Fear of the fear, Fear of losing control are coming, Even for that. And I feel, What is going on, Man? Amma, When do you fix that? I mean, I'm using the word fix. I know I shouldn't say that, But I still wanted to get out of my life at some point. Yeah, That's where I'm currently at. And I feel, When is it getting better? When is it getting better? Right, Right, Right, Right. Please help, Amma. That's all I can say. That's all I can say. Yeah, Really. I mean, This is like our state. Chill it, Dan. I mean, Yeah. Okay, Well, I'll tell you, I am thrilled out of my tree. You had that moment where you go like, Yeah, There's nothing to be scared of. It's that moment, Those kind of moments that are ending, Going to make you, That are actually going to lift you into a higher vibration out of this. Okay. Yeah. Yeah, I can feel it. You want to argue with me, But it's actually when you get that there is nothing to be scared of, Then why would you have fear of driving the hours? When you get, There's nothing to be scared of. And Trilla Ch'en, I mean, Really, There is this part of you, It's like an hysterical two-year-old. That is where you're stuck. Okay? And this fills you with these thoughts and everything, But it is your two-year-old part that is feeling this. Yeah. See, And this is our great vulnerability because we can be a strong, Strong man, And we can be stuck in this two-year-old fear-based perspective, And we're helpless with it, Right? I mean, It's like, You know, It's like all the stories, Superman and Kryptonite. No, Really. It's all of these stories of, You know, I don't know, These strong men brought down, You know, Whatever they are. It's like, We're all like this. This is the human experience. It's not just men. This happens for women. The same kind of thing, We get brought down to this. So, You know, You have made me a very happy being today. No, Really, With you getting that moment of what you would say to be scared of. Yeah. And, You know, It's when we get really impatient with what we're doing. Just like you're in this impatience with this. Like, You know, It's like stupidity, Really, But we're in it. It's like the idiocy, The PhD in idiocy. We know we're doing it. We're in it, But we're kind of helpless. And we're helpless till we're brought out of it by this allowing a higher understanding to come in. And this means, Chula Chan, Letting your two-year-old be loved, Which means you getting that this is part of you. And this part of you is closest to God. This part that's so scared is actually a gateway to God. So, As you realize that really it's an internal fear that can be allowed to heal, Your two-year-old self will start feeling loved. Like, Your two-year-old really felt he had to perform. This bonding, It's like with your mom. You said she was quite a scared person? Yes. Right. Okay. So, You're bonding. You bonded with fear as normality, You know? And you left your soul behind. And so, This now, You're in recovery of your soul so you can transcend this patterning. It's just where you bonded with your mom and you felt like love doesn't really exist. There's no safety. There's just kind of fear and this contraction. Do you see? You took Buddha, Chunked down to meet the family emotional climate. And being fear-based work in the past, It would work for women. It's like I knew so many women who didn't want to drive on the highway, You know? At 30, They decided it was too scary. I mean, 40 years ago, That was so normal. So, It kind of works for women in a way or it has done. Yeah. They'll find some protective man to take care of them. They can go along in their fear, But that's not working so much anymore. Trulichan, You have made my day. You have made, Really. You've given me a great gift, Truly. Just you being yourself. No, It's true. It's true. You being yourself and just feeling that shift. And that's why I sat on you. And Michael, That's why I sat on you. For both of you, It's like I realized with men, When I think about it, This was my problem with raising the boys. I would say something once and I'd expect them to do it. But I realized that men sometimes, You have to whack them. Women might get it once, But men, Whack. And the male world is harder. It's more of a wacky world. It's harder. But it's the hardest thing for me to sit on people, But it's the best thing when I do it. Because look at this. I mean, My life is full of braids. Trulichan. No, Really? Yay! You know, I tell you guys, I think of you during the week. I'm with you. I celebrate your victories. Yeah. I'm happy that you're happy, But I feel it was one little glimpse. And the rest of the week, Obviously, I'm getting stronger in my prayers. And I start to feel the sorrow in the heart and all that. But the fear stuff is still there. I mean, It's still. So there you are. Okay. Okay. So what you're doing. Okay. Now listen to me. Trulichan, Please get it. So I don't have to sit on you. Get this. You let fear weigh more space in your consciousness. You were so dismissive of those things, Your moment of connection to God, And also your heightened prayer. Those things are the most crucial things. They're the things that are really, Really important. And it shows me how dismissive you are actually about the real meat of the spiritual journey. Okay, Because those things are the IV of the journey. These moments and, You know, Are the deeper prayer. Yeah. So put your IV to that and take the IV away from the fear. Yeah. You focus on the fear all the time, It'll just get bigger and bigger. You focus on it to fight it. So you fight it. So it gets bigger and bigger. This is why I said to you, You had to get over your Roman centurion life pattern. No, Really, Of the fighty, Oh, To war, To war with fear. And it's like, It's not going to work. No. And you are doing it, Trulichan, With this moment. You know, I empathize. It's like, It's like pregnancy, Man. It's like, It takes time. Yeah, I know. This is harder for men, But you know, Your soul wants you to really connect up with truth this lifetime. So this isn't going to go away. I mean, I know. I want it. You know, I just really, I'm so happy. You know, It's like what you said before was resonating so much. I mean, I want it, But I'm still searching for happiness often at the wrong places. Even I know the spiritual journey is the only solution for any suffering we're having in life. For all the happiness we're searching, I'm knowing it and giving it to my clients, But still I'm searching at the wrong places. Yeah. So that's what you have to address because, You know, You have to self-correct. Yeah, This is it. This is it. But what you want to do is like, Talk about your fear and how stuck you are. And it's like, And it's like, I'm like, Self-correct, Man. I had to. We all have to self-correct. Yeah. You see, You're who you are. You're not really like the physical Trulichan. I mean, You are that being. Yeah. This is, You see, This is it. You thought you're this physical person, But you're this being, You know, This physical person is just incidental. I'll tell you, You know, Trulichan, Here's another exercise, You guys, That's very, Very powerful is imagine yourself on your deathbed or imagine yourself dead. You're lying there dead. And you're kind of hovering, Looking at this body of this person that you were, That will really steer you into an ego death, Doing that. It's very accelerative. These are all things I did because I was so unfixable. So I just go like straight to the like, Okay, I'm dead. What's this like? Yeah, I still do this sometimes. I just imagine myself as a dead body. You know, Once that once you've had a moment like that Trulichan, The dam is starting to break. Okay. Yeah. Yeah, It's already in progress. If you have a moment like that. It's, It's going to change. And it's more like just watch, Just watch and take the inner actions to steer. I mean, This is why Alma said that people come to her wanting, They want to be happier pursuing things. And it's just not going to work. Not that you pursue things particularly, But I know you want your life the way you want it. And we all do, But it just doesn't work. You know? I can tell you it doesn't work. Yeah. But you get something much better. Oh, Trulichan, I am so happy about this. Yeah. Thank you. And I'm, You guys listening to the sad sayings, You know, The especially the Sunday ones, Or if you've asked a question to listen to it again, That's just kind of a no brainer if you really want to get on to what I'm talking about. Yeah. Can I share something from us? Yeah. Yeah. Hi. Hi. Yeah, I wanted to share something. You know, After the last question and answer, When I was lying with my back, And after I just walked out of my back and got up, And it's still miraculous to me, Even after you explained it, But it feels to me now after my back is straightened, It feels like I traveled inside to a totally different country. Everything is new, Even my taste and my smell is stronger. A lot of good things happened. And we also it started kind of with a bang, We had an emergency with our youngest, The one who moved out to the island, Which is like a 90 minute ferry right away. And he had to leave his class with a very strong chest pain. And we were of course worried that he would sit there all on his own as being here. And it, There was a friend then, Because you know, He said, I'm just so tired, I want to sleep. And we were Michael and I were worried that something would happen. He wakes up, I don't know, You don't know. And anyways, A friend of him took him then to the hospital. Yeah. And I was really happy because he wasn't alone. And he was in the hospital. Not that I believe in the hospital solves everything. But in that moment, It was just shot right. And they checked him till three in the morning, They didn't find anything. And they did not do the last thing they didn't do was a CT to find a blood cloth. Because the doctor said it was a really good doctor. And he said, You know, I don't really think that's necessary. I don't think either. But it was just it was kind of, You know, After when I had that, When he moved out, And I went through that sorrow phase, And which was moving, And then the back straightened, And it kind of started on a deeper level, More intense, But also, I feel like I could handle it well. And I then realized it was his process. Our son wanted to go through that process, Maybe feel his own heart, And we could just support him and be there. And but it was, It was everything feels a lot deeper, You know, It was like, A deeper connection to him, Almost a karmic connection we had, That needed to be also not separated, But I can explain it. Change. Yes. And, Yeah, Yeah. And had that happened before, I think I would have been really, It would have been very difficult. But now I went through it, I was upset, And it was difficult, But deep inside, I felt he was okay, Or he is okay. And there's so much happening. But I felt also like we were kind of carried through it. And that's where we're at now. I mean, We kind of keep going to the island, Checking on him, Which is good for everybody. It's kind of helping with the transition. But I wanted to share that it was such a tremendous change. After my back straightened, It was really a different country inside. Yeah. Remember, I said that the barrier between the soul and the ego takes place as a twist. Okay, So you had the twist in your back and a twist in perceptions, And that's leaving now. And so you're feeling just more of the depth of the soul energy of more the truth of things. There's still a long way to go. But like, As far as you go on, This is this is great. Okay. But I, I'm kind of interested in this with your son. I mean, You get that that's a huge heart opening, Right? Yeah. Do you understand that intellectually? Did you tell him that? Did you guys speak to him? You know what, Pramasutha, We talked to him and said, It's probably an emotional thing with him moving out. But the depth of it only occurred to me now, While we were talking in this question and answer, It became really only that clear now. And we'll, We'll go there, We see him Monday and have a chance to talk to him. Okay, So I just want you guys to see this, That it Yeah, It was a very deep heart opening. And this is like fantastic. And this is how families can move and help each other. But see how, How much it scared you really, On some levels, And you've been rushing over the island, But really, He's just having a very deep heart opening. No, I want you to see your, Your, It's kind of like, Is this really allowed? Can we really go conscious on this? Can we really like, Speak to him about this deeper process? And can we really? Yeah, Like, I can feel you guys do not want to hear this. As part of you, You don't want to hear it. Yeah, You want to be praised for being right, I can feel this. You're in, It's not a right or wrong thing. I'm, I'm just getting the data that I'm getting. So I'm speaking it. Sure. Right. You're not being made wrong, Saskia. I'm just trying to help you make more room in your understanding. Yeah, I'll tell you, Okay, What I'm bumping. Okay, Now this is what happens. There's an opening, And then the ego will grab it. Okay, I want you guys to realize that. It's go, I got it now. It's great. I'm not open to further discourse. Next step. Yeah. So I'm getting this. Like, It's like, Don't, It's a thing like don't, Don't come into this premisuda. Don't, Don't, Don't go in with us to what's going on in our family. Yeah. It's okay. I know how hair raising it is with our children, Believe me. And even, You know, When my guys are like in their 30s and 40s, It's like, I get it. Even now, I will see some spiritual thing going on. And it will make my hair stand on end sometimes. Make my hair stand on end, Sometimes. So it is and it's still the worry, You know, It's still there. You know, When when the guy said that about the black cloth, I mean, They are you hear all the black cloud, What the black cloth that they might find, They did not do a CT scan, Because they would do that. The only thing they didn't do is that because he might that they would do it if they suspected he'd have a blood cloth, You know, In his in his, In his body. You hear a lot of information after that whole Corona stuff, With young men who have heart issues, Because a blood cloth appeared. So of course, The fear is there, Too, You know, So it's very, I feel like when you go there and touch it, Which I want, I consciously don't want you to not go there. Otherwise, I wouldn't have spoken. But there's also there is still fear, You know, Of course, Also. I know how hair raising it is. You know, I just feel a very familiar cutoff place. And it's where, You know, The outside world is brought in yet again, And given a great deal of reality. And so like we can go this far, But no further stop here. It's kind of I feel a cutoff. And the fear is understandable, Sweetie. Yeah, It's not that for some reason, I feel my heart is closed there. I can't explain it. That's maybe it's just not the time. Okay, Sweetie, Sweetie. Okay. You know, Like, I know you made a really big shift last time. So maybe that's enough for your psyche that you just can't do anything more. But yeah, But I just I could just even with your heart being closed, You're kind of going like, Don't go there. Can you make an explanation for it? It's okay. It's okay. This is what we're like you guys. We're human. You know, Saskia, It is okay, Understand this, It is inevitable, That after a deep shift, Like you've made that the ego is going to come in and really try to rattle you away from it. Okay, I want you to really understand that. And that is why we're having this kind of a little bit of a, I wouldn't even call it confrontation. It's not a confrontation to me. But I can feel it feels there's something about a confrontation going on that you feel as a confrontation, Energetically. Like, Yeah, Oh, I feel you don't want to go there. You just you just want this all to go away. I feel like I'm not allowed to tell you that. Yeah, I feel like I'm really not allowed. I'm just not allowed to tell me what this whole thing and you know what happened. What I just did before, What I should write and remember, Okay, Can you can you hear me please? Your ego will try to grab you after such a big shift. So can you feel your feelings of that I feel like I'm not allowed. But maybe this is actually my ego coming up to try to grab it and stop any further movement. Right, This is where people and I could see it in your eyes, You know, Sweet one. Even from here, I can see this like a warrior like a whole friend or foe here. That's okay. This is what we're like. This is what we're like. It's okay. This is sweetie pie of all the spiritual seekers, Teachers, You could find this one is the specialty is helping people out of the ego. So if you come here, That's what will happen. And it can be a very unpleasant process. But you have to understand that you chose a teacher who is really like this. Because this is actually the most loving thing I can do for you. Yeah. Right. Right. Okay, Good. Good. Yeah. And I'll tell you, It's really hard work for this one. I get mud thrown at me. No, Really. It's like walking into minefields. It can be very unpleasant. Right. But it seems to me there's so many people walking around diluted. I can't stand it. So nobody's done anything wrong. There's no error in any of this. It's just a bigger, Energetic birth canal than you've known about. You haven't known about this level of a birth canal. But this one knows it very well. So that's I'm trying to help you through this. I'm just very confused. I don't know if my feelings are my feelings or my ego now anymore. Yeah, You won't be able to figure it out in the moment. Okay, All you can do is just pray for guidance and and you'll just be shown. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. It's you're not doing anything wrong. It's just, I'm just helping you into this bigger birth canal for a bigger understanding. And any mother would be concerned, Any parents would be concerned with the heart, The hurt heart with the young people falling dead, You know? Yeah. Like that's very understandable. It's not wrong. Yeah. You know, Stuff just can be not right or wrong. Just it is. Oh, I think your whole family is in a much deeper transformation than you realize. And this is you're just sort of halfway through. Right. Okay. Okay. Yeah. Right. Right. Right. And if you're really worried, Maybe you could go back to the hospital and assist on a CT scan. Can you if you're really worried about it? We have the doctor's number. Yeah, We could probably you could phone you could say like that you you could even say your mother's intuition is bothering you or that you're having sleepless nights. And it's just you're just wondering if it could be done. And then you can know. And that is okay, You guys, That's that is you see, That is self love. Okay. If you're worried about this with your son, Then it's self love to, You know, Resume this dialogue with the doctor. Okay. What the ego would want to do is just stay frightened and helpless and even fight with me. But it better to use the energy that would be used in fighting with me to take it to solve the problem about the doctor and then and then it would be very clear. And then if no blood clot goes up, You just maybe turn to him and talk to him a little bit about the work that you and Michael are doing, And what you've learned about the body. There was any room for him to do this, But he's just starting a university course, So he might not be very open to it. Saskia, I am asking you to become a lot braver than you've been before. Okay, So you can fight me on this. Or you can just dance with me. Really. Okay. But it's really good if you feel withholds or barriers against me to speak of them, Just like what you've done. Just like what you're doing. This is really good, Because it exposes the whole mess in a way. Right. Okay, This is very good. Okay, Good. Okay, You can agree it's a mess. It's good. Okay. This is really, Really good. Yay. I'm feeling this. You're relaxing out. Yeah, It's a mess. You're in a transformational mess. It's not a serious mess. It's you're in a bigger birth than you realize. Michael is too, Which is why I sat on him. It's like, So you're both doing this together. And your son's in this. It'll be the making of you all. Sweetie pie, Remember, It would be inevitable. You would have some real discomfort after that miraculous healing. Because there were so many levels of your subconscious involved in the twist. So you're brought up physically. Now you're having to be brought up emotionally. And it's, It's harder. Right? Yeah. Okay, Can you receive a hug for me? It's like, It's all good. You're doing just fine. You're very dear. It's hope. It's all okay. Yeah. Yeah, It's all okay. Right. Right. Yes. You know, With with all of us, The bad and good thing and the we feel like we're doing it wrong. And sometimes maybe in German people, It can be stronger sometimes, You know, But like that much stronger. Because it's all over Canadians, Too. Yeah. Yeah. Okay, Good. Good. Okay, I can feel very deep level in you around being forbidden to move into truth. It's at a really deep level. And I'm just, It's like, Just acknowledging it. I'm honoring it. I have felt it in myself. It's in all of us. Right? Okay, Good. And you, You just came out from behind that. That's good. Yeah. It's all good. You're just and contact me. You know, If you need a phone call or anything, Just let me know. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. It's okay. Yeah, I'm there. I know the if look, If you guys are willing, I'm so bad. Like, Because I know what it's like. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you. Sweetie. Both of you. Yeah. With our kids. It's so scary. Yep. Yeah. But the greatest gift I'd say is to give our kids is our bonding with our own souls, Because that frees them to bond with theirs. Yeah. And the whole thing's hair raising. I know. Okay, I guess we got time for one more. If anybody's maybe that's I'm sorry, I want to thank everybody. I know I'm taking so much time in these questions and answers these times. But I'm really thanking you all for being there and for listening and supporting me. Thank you. Oh, Sweetie. Yeah. Let's send her all love, Right? She and Michael Saski and Michael. Yeah. Oh, Really? It's like, You know, Everybody will just be grateful that you spoke up because this is all the stuff that we all know about. Yeah. And, You know, Says, Can you just made another big step into truth, You know, Psychologically, So this is all good. You know, I often feel like, You know, People, You know, When I bump into an ego, People go stony with me. You know, Somebody goes stony, A stony face. So you were, I could feel that the stoniness that I felt and and you came right through beyond that stone. Energetically, And right through this kind of a old male patriarchy energy saying verboten, Verboten, You came right through it, Like, So even I'm coughing, That was a depth that you did it at. It helped the whole group. Saskia, You helped the whole group. You helped the world. This is. Yeah, You guys, We've we've we've been laboring under this, You know, That life is verboten, That love is verboten. And it's why we've got like. So much war breaking out everywhere, Because we're scared of love than we are to blow ourselves up. And that is our craziness. And we come to the satsangs to to restore to recover our sanity. So this world can recover our sanity, But we are so far from truth. And during the satsangs, When you go through your emotional stuff, You start to recognize this, You start seeing how far we all are from truth. As we correct and how hair raising it is, It's scary that my my white hair is how scared I've been, Really. And it's just love underneath. That's what I found over and over, Over. It's just love. We're scared of love. And when we do this, There's less chance of us being nuked. Really, When we do this, I'm dead serious. This is it's so powerful when we start moving into truth in this deep way. It is the most loving gift we can give our families are the world Mother Nature. Amma says that meditation strengthens Mother Nature. This is meditation in emotional. It's emotional meditation. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And we need a lot of compassion because our normal is so skewed. And it takes such courage, Just to come back to, You know, God is good. Life is good. Yeah, It's just, That's what takes the courage to see this, How far off we are as a world. Yeah. As well as our individual lives. This straightens everything up. And small miracles occur, You know. You keep living in this energy and, You know, A plant that you thought was dead, Suddenly sprouts a leaf. It's kind of like that. It's just, The miracles come and they keep pointing that you're on the right way. You're in the right direction. Yeah. And it takes so much courage, I know. That always comes into what else do we do? You know, What else can you do? What else can we do except to do this, Wake up and transform? Pramasutra? Yeah. Janna. Hi. I wanted to share a story. I wanted to share a story that's also a prayer. Yesterday, I was walking home from work and I saw dragonflies everywhere, Which for me symbolizes transformation. And I heard a story last night, A musician that I love was talking about when she went to Brazil that she grew up by how they educate children with music. And that for them, That music is a gift from the forest. It's medicine from the forest that is birthright. It's passed down from generation to generation as a way to be able to stay well. And that it's a passing down of the knowledge from the forest of how to take care of each other. And she was talking about how when she experienced that, That she felt a lot of grief come to her heart around how we conceptualize education and kind of commoditize music. And I was remembering the story that Inga talked about with that beautiful image of a pregnant mother and the group of women around her and listening for the song of the baby. So I was thinking about those two stories and also what you have talked about when it comes to just aboriginal strength and knowledge and what we really know that's underneath all of this mess. And so, Yeah, I've been thinking about, I'm just praying for golden age. I'm praying for that we come out of Kali Yuga and we come into a golden age that looks like that where we understand that the forest knows. And that as new ones come into the world, That they bring their own special medicine, That word. I remember, Inga, That you said that. You said the word medicine specifically. What medicine? And it's not always sweet. I remember you saying that. Praying for that. I'm praying that we don't blow ourselves up and that yeah, That knowledge just becomes stronger and stronger and that the golden age comes. Okay, Good. So I just want to say this. You guys, If it comes, It's going to come through the women finding their ovaries and their courage because I'll tell you, The men can't do it for us. This comes in through the divine feminine, This back to the real roots of life and the connection of life to God, Okay? So the female patterning is to submit in the patriarchy and just get resentful and self-pity. It's like, So women, We really need to learn how to awaken in a constructive way. I mean, I'll tell you personally, I'm gobsmacked that it's like, I've been talking like this for 40 years and the very few people who listen to, Who come to the satsangs or even listen to the videos because it is so feminine, This, And it has not been allowed, But at least the people in the satsang just to get that not the responsibility isn't on yours, On your shoulders, But just you know, Step forward yourself, Okay? And I know you are, Okay? There's no criticism. I know you are. If you're coming to the satsangs, You are, But I just want to spell it out because, And I want to go back to you, Saskia. It is almost with the verboten and everything, It's as if the guy, The doctor may try to fob you off, Okay? But I saw you come through this stone, And I saw you come through this verboten. So, Just keep whatever comes to speak to him. Do you see what I mean? Yeah. So, Because you've done this work, It may just be seamless, But if he presents with difficulty, Just keep going because you did the shift internally, So it will manifest in the outside world. Yeah, You guys, You could come to a satsang and go zero to a hundred, And it would manifest in the outside world, But don't, You know, You know, That's too, It's too destabilizing. I'm not really, But I want you to see that it's your inner work that will change the outside. Yeah. Okay, We're going to sit with this for a moment. It's your inner work that will change the outside. Right, Or your inner faith. Yeah. Yeah, This is very beautiful, What you're all doing, Male and female. It's very, Very beautiful. I noticed that there's, I'm not recommending you watch this, But I noticed that there's, In 1984, There was a movie made about nuclear war, And the name of the movie is called Threads. Of the movie is called Threads. I remember we were talking about that Threads are the bottom unit for creating this universe. Yeah, It's called Threads. So you see, We all know everything underneath. Sometimes you meet resistance in the outside world, But don't lose heart, Do you know? Don't lose heart, Just keep going. You know, You meet resistance in yourself and the outside world, Just keep going. It's like, I'm kind of just the poster child for somebody who just kept going. It's kind of like, You know, The really slow runner who actually makes it to the end just because they kept going. It's kind of like, You get there in the end, Just keep going. And thank you, Jenna, For speaking. I kind of ran from that to Saskia, But it was, Yeah, I mean, We think in the West that our culture is so superior, But actually elsewhere, They feel sorry for us, Right? Yeah. Yeah, We're like the poor little rich kid. Yeah. Yeah. Not so rich anymore. Yeah. Yeah. So the prayer time, Keep the prayer time. It can be a big support. Yeah. Just remember, You guys, I think of you all week, Right? You even speak for my body. You know, That's how sweet it all is. Yeah. I know that that's how Amma is with us. We're inside her body. When she hugs us, She knows that we're all her. So when she hugs us, She's just hugging part of herself. So that's what I'm really saying when I say I feel you in my body. It's like, I feel you as part of myself. Not in any kind of ego way, Much more as in that internally, You're being bathed in love all the time within me. You're being bathed internally in Amma, Internally in Amma. And your soul is right there in your heart, Asking to be allowed to bathe your whole human self in love and compassion. Yeah. Yeah. So just say yes and be it. Be it. Be your soul energy. Be it. Mm-hmm. How could you do anything else, You know? Anyway, Saskia, You're in an even bigger transition than you know. So like, Yeah, Whatever support you need from me is all good. Feel free. Yeah. Yeah. Okay, You guys. Blessings to all of you.