Let's take three deep breaths together.
On your exhale,
Imagining there's more space between your thoughts,
Between the cells of your body becoming more spacious.
Your second out-breath noticing how you don't hold yourself up.
The earth,
The universe rises to meet you where you are.
You are held by something greater than you,
The earth,
The floor,
The chair.
And on your third exhale,
Putting your hand on your heart and imagining that you're stepping back into the realm of your heart behind your hand,
Step-by-step,
Little-by-little,
On a little trail in and in and in to the realm of your heart.
As you enter,
You see a tree,
The inner tree of your being,
Might be an oak tree or a pine tree or whatever it might be.
It's the tree of life that's within us.
And as the mother or father of this tree,
We look at this tree and we sense what it needs,
Whether it's water or a hug or blue sky,
And we give from our creative imagination the tree what it needs.
And now,
Kind of look behind the tree.
Start feeling where this tree lives,
The nature,
The inner nature that it lives in within you.
Start to walk behind the tree,
Back and back into a field,
But it's like a golden field,
It's full of light.
You know this place,
You've been here before.
And as you walk into this open field,
There's birds,
It's warm,
You feel safe.
You know this place,
You've been here before.
And way in the distance,
You see a child walking towards you,
Sparkly.
As you walk closer and closer,
You realize that child is there to meet you.
You see each other and come up to each other,
You realize this is you,
Your inner child,
Your child when you were little.
They're happy that you're there,
You notice that they're healthy and happy.
They may have feelings,
But you sense those will be understood in your time together.
You take the child's hand and the child takes yours,
And they lead you to a thicket up ahead.
You see kind of a full area,
Bushes,
Flowers.
There's a gateway,
A threshold up ahead,
The entry place of something special,
Sacred.
You can feel it.
As you enter through the threshold,
It becomes moist and warm,
There's so many flowers and fragrance.
It's beautiful.
The child brings you in and in to a sacred area that seems holy,
Holy you.
And you see a spring of water,
Maybe in an alabaster bowl,
A golden bowl,
Or it might be just coming out of the earth.
And you sense and know that this is water of the spirit.
It's the cleanest water there is,
It's what we drink from,
The well of our soul.
And the child leads you to the water,
And you both kneel down,
And both of you wash your face three times with this beautiful water.
And then the child has you face them,
And you look in each other's eyes,
And you sense what the child has gone through.
And you ask the child how they are,
And are they okay,
And about their childhood.
And you let them speak.
And you feel like you have the ability to hold them,
And to hear them.
You just listen to where they were hurt,
Or where they didn't understand their parents,
Or things that happened that were painful for them.
And you listen and hold them in this moment.
When they're done,
You say,
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me.
But I'm here now,
And I'm not leaving you ever again.
They hear you,
Seem a little lighter.
Then you ask them,
I know you know me.
What do you see that I need for my heart and my healing?
And you listen to them.
You take that in.
Give thanks to them.
And then asking them,
What do they need from you?
What do they need from you?
And you listen,
Telling them,
Yes,
I can give that to you.
Because all along,
They haven't been looking for their parents or friends.
They've been looking for you.
You are who's most important for them.
And you really sense it in your bones.
And there's a connection between the two of you that's different than it's ever been.
And you say out loud,
With me,
These words.
From this day forward,
For the rest of my life,
I will never abandon you again.
I will be by your side.
You are what's precious to me.
You show me joy,
And I embrace it.
Now you both wash your face again with the water three times.
Each time,
You're becoming clearer and clearer and clearer.
Now the child gets up.
You sense it's time to leave.
You look around this beautiful,
Beautiful place that's all you.
You notice it's even more fragrant.
There's even more flowers.
The child starts leading you back out through the trail,
Step by step,
Little by little.
Begin to see the threshold and the gateway and the field up ahead.
Come through the threshold.
Both of you embrace.
Child tells you you can come back any time,
That she,
He,
Always is here.
And you let them know that you'll always be there for them.
Then you start moving into the field again,
Giving a wink or a wave.
You're so happy,
You can tell.
And your heart is growing,
Feels more whole.
As you enter into the golden field again,
The warmth,
The rays of the sun,
And the peace of that field,
You cross it.
Then up ahead you see your tree,
Seems maybe brighter now,
More leaves.
You return to the tree,
Grounding,
Wiggling your hands and feet,
And step by step,
Little by little,
Returning to the now with ease,
Joy,
And grace,
Back to the present moment.
