Who Were You Before Conditioning? | Abundance Codes

Living Authentically | Abundance Codes | Talk/Heal/Meditate
In this teaching, healing, and meditation, we ground into connecting with your Authentic Self. Who are you, uniquely, beyond what you were taught? What was natural to you when you were young, something no one taught you, something you were good at that made good things happen?
When you sit with this version of yourself, what are you inspired to do? For example, my own desire to bridge my artist and my healer birthed new workshops, I trusted that feeling and followed it. We'll explore this without judgment, and ask: why am I afraid of ease? Can I work smarter, not harder, intend ease and joy, get quiet, and listen? Can I let go of timing how or when it shows up?
This is part of The Abundance Codes, a journey combining teaching, energetic practice, and journaling to help you clear blocks and open into greater reception, alignment, and flow. Explore the rest of the series on my profile.

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So, Let's just take a moment before we begin to ground in together. We're going to be connecting to our authentic self, Doing healing around that, Activation around that. So, We'll be more connected to us and our own truth and feeling safe embodying that in the world. Welcome, Everybody. And that's totally fine whether you're on or off video. Okay. Good stuff. So, Let's do the grounding in we did last week. A lot of you seem to love that. And for those of you that weren't here or didn't have a chance to listen to last week's recording, We are tending to ourselves without judgment. I actually kind of heard this one a little stronger today internally. We can release judgment if we have discernment, Which is interesting because we think, Well, If we're not judging ourselves and saying, Oh, I should do that better, Be better, Whatever, We just kind of go to, You know, Things would go to shit. But discernment just says, Oh, This thing happened. Is it okay that I just continue on in this direction or could there be another way? We have wisdom, Discernment, Intuition. So I'm sharing that because can we hold ourselves today as we do this meditation in a neutral nonjudgmental space, Just being like, Oh, Look at that. On a scale of one to 10, Feeling really light or feeling really heavy, I'm here. Good to know. See what other wisdom comes in that might serve me for getting me a little bit higher on the scale. Not, Oh, I'm at a two again. I'm always at a two. That's not our nature to talk to ourselves that way. Okay. Just wiggle it out. Take a deep breath. Close your eyes if you want. And what we're going to do is we're going to go down our energy centers, Our chakras, Which connect to physical parts of our body. There's seven of them. Well, There's more than that, But seven main ones. And I will guide you through and we're going to nonjudgmentally notice, Is that area of our body and our energy field light? A one? Or is that area dense? A 10? Heavy? Or is it a five, Six, Two, Relatively light. And we're just going to notice this clears energy in the area. So if you find yourself yawning, If you find yourself crying, If you find yourself, Um, There's tingling, Heat swooshing, It's very normal. When we welcome something with unconditional energy, Unconditional love, The energy has the space to move. So that's what we're doing here. We're coming in, Clearing that, Which we don't need to carry into class. Okay? So I just open our eyes, Close, Take a deep breath into the belly. I release, You're going to repeat out loud after me. I can't hear anybody. I release that which is not mine to carry. I am me and only me now. Good. I call all of my energy back from all time and space to my body. Just feel yourself behind your eyes, In your body, On the surface, In the room, Grounding in and non-judgmentally again. We just say to ourselves, I welcome everything that's here in me. And today as best I can, I'm going to let go of judgment. Just notice what I notice, What I like to keep that or just that. Here we go. Deep breath. We're going to do one more of those. Deep breath into the belly. Nice and cleansing. Okay. So we're going to start just in general with how do we feel in general? How do I feel right now? Am I a one? Am I light, Joyful, Free, Flowing, No judgment, A little kid telling us, This is how I feel right now. And you're just neutral and you're like, Oh, Okay, Well, That's good to know. Where are we closer to a 10, Heavy, Dense, Anxious, Sad, Whatever we may feel, No judgment of the number. Trust the number that arises. Good. Lots of yawning, Sighing. Now we're going to start the bottom half of our body. Don't let the mind try to get this, Just roll with it with me here. So from the feet to two inches below the belly button. So the root chakra, Base of the spine, This area, Just bring your attention to your legs, Your tailbone down, Scale of one to 10, One lightest, 10 densest, Where are you here? Just noticing, Aware, Number might not make sense to you, But we just let our awareness do the work. You don't have to do the work. Awareness clocks. Oh, She's at a six. What can I send her her system to adjust her completely different way of experiencing life? I know it was weird for me when I first heard it. Just try it out for yourself. Okay. We're going to move up to two inches below the belly button. The sacral chakra, Your hips, Your pelvis, Your reproductive organs, Your low back, One to 10. What number? Just notice. Your only job is to notice without judgment. Notice with allowance, Listening to a little kid tell you her numbers, Belly, Two inches above the belly button, All the belly area, The organs under the ribs, One to 10. Where are you noticing what number arises in the mind, Letting the energy be cleared for you. Like a little kid crying and you're going up to listen. You're like, What's going on? But you're grounded in your neutral and you're just listening to gather information up to the chest, The heart chakra, Chest, Shoulders, Arms, One to 10 light, One 10 heavy. Notice what happens when you just spend a little time with yourself listening. This is what, When we don't feel heard, It's because we're not listening to ourselves. This is a way you can feel heard up to the throat, Top of the chest, Shoulders, Neck, Base of the skull, Mouth, That area, One to 10 light to heavy. What's your number? Good. Good. Allowing the body to move the energy as we move up to the third eye in between the eyebrows inch above. So noticing the eyes, The ears, The head, This whole area, One to 10 light is one, 10 is heavy. The cool thing too is if we notice the lightness, It tends to expand. Oh, Look, That area actually kind of felt tingly or nice. Top of the head, The crown chakra, The center, Top of your head and above, What does that feel like? You can even top half of your skull, Head, Brain. Notice that area, One light, 10 heavy, Where are you at? No judgment, Kindness, Noticing. Now we're going to go back to this organism that is us as a whole, Physical and energetic body. Where am I now? One to 10 light, Heavy. I want you just to ask yourself a question and see what answer arises. It could arise as a sound, A sensation, A knowing, An image, Just to ask ourselves the number we're at right now, Body, What would it take for me to move one number lighter? Just listen. What would it take for me to move one number lighter? Just listen. And when you have a sense of something, You can open your eyes, You can write it down if you want. You might not have heard anything and that's fine. The body contains the wisdom. It literally might be, Slow your speech. My answer was to put my attention more on you than myself. I was like, Oh, That's a good answer. Can share it if you want in the chat. Nice meditation to do, Right? If you're wherever you are, Calls it back home, Clears energy, Good. So today's theme is authentic self and we're going to do a meditation to connect you to this part, One of my favorite meditations. So today's intention is who am I uniquely beyond what I was told I was or who I was told I was, Because I believe we all have a unique essence and purpose and reason for being here. And when we connect into that part, It's easier to follow our joys, Our desires, Our inspiration, Because we're like, Oh, Well, This is me. And so it's going to be different from everybody else. Also requires courage, Right? To be our authentic self, Because it's different than everybody else and different than what we were told. So let's take a moment of exploration here. Why might you be afraid before we even get a sense of who she may be to be your authentic self and whatever that means to you? So the authentic truth of the moment expressed through you, The feelings, The purpose, The truth, The uniqueness that is you. What may be a fear of sharing her with the world? What may you what do you believe would happen? Wouldn't happen. And just take a moment to jot that down. You could even fill in this sentence of like, My authentic self might not be received, Might not be understood, Might not be seen, Isn't lovable enough. I would love to see a couple of yours. And then I also can know when you've completed the exercise. My authentic self might not be like, Yeah, That is, Yeah, Definitely a trauma response. My authentic self might not be liked, Won't be able to earn money or have friends if I'm my authentic self. Yeah. My authentic self might be rejected or appear delusional. Yeah, That's definitely a big one for intuitive souls as well. And those of us living on a higher, More conscious plane of existence, Not better than but just different. These are great. OK, So we're going to well, Let's do something first. Let's do a group healing with ease and then we're going to do something else. My authentic self might be judged by the group as I was often viewed as too much. Yeah. So hands on them hearts. So you're just going to repeat out loud after me if you'd like this activation. What if it's possible to be disliked for moments in time as my authentic self and still be safe, Loved, Belong, Happy and enough anyway? I'm just going to keep that door in our consciousness open. Good shift. What if it's possible that I could be disliked sometimes in moments and be completely unfazed by it and rich and happy and in love and whatevs at the same time? Good. I feel that I feel the subtleties of these shifts. This is good. OK, Let's do the next one. Just take a deep breath. Oh, We already kind of did that, But that's all right. What if it's possible I can be my authentic self and be even richer and have more friends than I did when I wasn't my authentic self? Hmm. Interesting. Yeah, We don't need to do that one again. That's stuck fast. OK. What if it's possible I could be my authentic self and accepted at the same time? And when we do these, Let go of doing these activations from your head. Feel into them with the curiosity of your body like we're opening a possibility in our consciousness. We're pondering. We're in a contemplation beyond our mind. So what if it's possible I could be my authentic self and appear uniquely wise, Trustworthy and taken seriously in that truth at the same time? And that if I had momentary moments of rejection or perceived delusionment, I was unfazed by it. Safe, Loved, Rich, Happy and grateful that I could be a mirror for that person that saw me that way to help wake them up to their truth they were projecting on my ass. There you go. Yes. OK. Woo. That one felt powerful. Let's do a little heart tap. Integrate that one. Deep breath. OK. What if it's possible I could be my authentic self and seen as just enough? What if it's possible I could be my authentic self and big and fully expressed and in my wild full expression at the same time? Because that's the positive word I use for too much is bigness, Fullness, Full expression, Right? All of me, My rage, My sadness, My joy, My purpose, My everything, Right? My allotness, My bigness. So OK, What if it's possible I could be in my bigness, My fullness, My divine wild expression and safe and loved and enough and grateful that I could be an example of this for the world and unfazed by people who just didn't get it or appreciate it? What if it's possible I could be my authentic self and accept it at the same time and grateful for my unique perspective of the divine world? What if it's possible I could be my authentic self and proud of who I am in my bones at the same time, Unfazed by others who didn't meet me there? That's a good shift. OK, I felt that one. Last one. These are great, You guys. OK. What if it's possible I could be my authentic self and safe at the same time, Connected into my wisdom, My common sense as I live in my truth? OK, Deep breath, Checking in one to ten. One is light. Ten is heavy. Where am I existing right now? OK, We're going to ask ourselves one last question. I want you just to jot down the answer that comes in. We're practicing our intuitive psychic selves in this class as well. A sense, A knowing, An image, A sound, A word, A picture, A feeling in the body that might arise. So we're going to ask ourselves this question. You can repeat out loud after me and listen for the answer to arise and jot down what comes even if it doesn't make sense to the brain. What would I need to believe, Perceive, Receive, Or know in order to feel completely safe being me? Let's see what comes in and we'll ask one more time. How would I need to see life? What belief system, What shift in consciousness, What would I need to let go of, What would I need to believe, Perceive, Receive, Receive higher wisdom, Or know in order to feel safe, OK, Excited to be me? And just listen for a couple of breaths, Jotting down anything that comes through, Even if it's a random sense of something. Oh, That's a good one. I would need to believe I am powerful and have all that I truly need inside of me, Obviously still in community with others, That I'm OK and safe just being me. Gorgeous. There's a process in Asking It Is Given by Esther and Jerry Hicks, Channeling Abraham. And you can start with this. So if it was a belief that came through for you, But you don't fully believe it now, But spirits like this is what you would need to believe to align with this. The focus wheel helps you just find one next belief that feels a little more true and a little lighter to get you to that belief. Because we might not feel fully resonant with it, But we're like, Spirit's telling me this is what I need to align with. So what one thought feels a little closer and a little lighter and a little less rigid, I'd be open to seeing that I'm powerful. So my spirit guides send me that. So that might be a little softer than I am powerful, Because again, You might not believe it. I love this. It is already done. It's all waiting for you. Fuck yeah. That's powerful. See these answers could be on any level. So it's kind of cool to see the differences because we can, It's pretty abstract what comes through. And awesome that yours was an image. So this is cool. I saw an image of a romantic partner, Maybe a belief related to worthiness of love. That's really cool. And also you asked, What would I need to receive? So there's something like maybe you could allow this into your life and what's the next step to be able to receive this would be the next prayer intention. Mine was self-pride as opposed to needing it from the outside. I heard like, Just be so proud of yourself with everything you do. Say feeling safe in my body. Yeah. And then again, You guys can ask once you get these answers, What's the next easiest step to make this possible? Feeling safe in my support system. Yeah, That's good. Answers are always there. Cool. Okay. So we're going to do a meditation. So here is the question. I can put it in the chat if you need. What was natural to me when I was young? No one taught me and I was good at and good things happened when I did it or was that essence. Okay. So I believe that we come in with these gifts and they could be spiritual gifts, Energetic gifts, Emotional gifts. It could be on any level. No one teaches it to us. It's just in us. And if we aren't seen in those gifts, Sometimes we can't see it ourself. And sometimes it's so ordinary to us. We're like, Oh my God, I didn't realize that was part of my genius. I didn't know that was my part of, Because your authentic truth and your authentic self can be many things and it's nuanced, But to get to know part of your essence can be so life changing. So before anyone taught you anything in school, Parents taught you how to speak a language, What was natural to you? So what we're going to do is just take a quiet moment and you can do this in different ways. When I did this meditation at first, I scanned through my life and was just like, Okay, One through five, What was I hanging around and no one really taught me. No one taught me how to be silly. That's a huge part of my essence and my soul. I've always been able to channel. No one in my family taught me that. So you just kind of look at like, Wow, What through your whole life, We're just going to reflect and we're going to write some stuff down, Right? Oh, My creativity. Think you guys are already starting. Yeah. My piece. Gorgeous. And yes, That was a word that came through for you that I picked up on in your essence before. So gorgeous. So I'm going to invite you to put some music on in the background if you want. Give me a moment and I'll find y'all a song. And I invite you, If you think you got it, Sit a little longer in the quiet, Sit a little longer in the space and see if something else comes just not from your head. We're scanning from our body. We're asking. This is a quantum healing, A quantum question. What was natural to me when I was young? No one taught me. And I was good at this. And when I did it, Relatively good things happened. Now I know we all have trauma, Right? But holding that aside for a moment, Let's see what version of us peeks our head out and lets us know this is who I am. OK. That's amazing. Funny how you said that. I was just thinking at the same time I knew how to regulate my nervous system really good as a kid. So you are a natural healer. OK. So I'm going to step back. I'm going to put myself on mute. Put your music on if you want. And I'm going to I'll I'm going to repeat the question a couple of times until you get into it. If it's quiet in your head, Ask the question again and sit. Listen for images, Sensations and emotion, A sense in the body, A sound. And then as it comes, You stay in that meditative space, But just start a little list and see what comes. I'm going to give you guys like five minute exploration. I'll be back. OK. So deep breath. You release that which isn't mine to carry and I'm connecting into my authentic self now. Little mini, I'm giving you a chance to speak. I want to know who you are. OK, So we're going to ask again, Who am I uniquely? Beyond what and who I was told that I was before I was socialized, Before I was taught what was natural to me when I was young. No one taught me and I was good at it and good things happened when I repeat it one more time just so we can really marinate in it. Who am I uniquely beyond what I was told I was what was natural to me when I was young. No one taught me and I was good at it. I'll be back. See what you see. I'm taking this last minute to finish letting me know if you need more time or if you have a sense you're done. My interest and excitement for learning and discovery. This could be an internal quality, An external quality, Something you enjoyed doing. Beautiful. Feel free to share some qualities if you'd like of real you. It can be disorienting, Too, Because we might not express this part in the world yet. And that's OK. My capacity for love and sincerity. Oh, I like that sincerity. It's a beautiful word. That's a very I feel like the adventure or the explorer in what you said. The explorer with love. Creativity, Invention, Daydreaming and fantasy play. That's beautiful. Yeah. The manifestor. Entertaining my family with talking stuffed animals. The entertainer. That's great. That's sweet. Make believe. Confidence, Optimism, Performance, Creativity, Wildness. These are beautiful. A visceral connection, Being in my body, Joy, Sunshine, Curiosity, Image of me as a little girl. Big smile. Power stance. Yeah. That's just this feeling of like the star taking up space. And it's OK that I am that I'm just light. These words came to me, Artistic, Being funny, Awestruck, Joyful, Help others feel safe, Protection, Animals finding my peace. That's beautiful. Artistic, Being funny, Awestruck, Joyful, Very present in the moment. Our lover of life, Right here, Present, Divine. That's really beautiful. There's a holiness in that that I feel. These are beautiful guys. So that's the question is like we're going to do another little practice, But the question this week, The exploration I invite you to be in is how can I this version of me, How can I help her feel safe, Loved enough? How can I let her be leading my life? We aren't taught and I know this will resonate because this is the premise of this group. We aren't taught that ease is enough and that like our gifts are easy and that, Oh, But don't we have to do all this other stuff to like be worthy? This is who you are and when you express these qualities, Life mirrors back abundance, Life mirrors back resource. And it's okay that this part is effortless, Who you are is effortless. And we push this part down, Bless her heart, And sometimes because of trauma and then we're doing all of these things and trying to effort in the world and doing all of our shoulds and it's not going well. So we think we're in the belief system of like, Yes, I have to do more to get as opposed to no, I be more to receive. I receive more of me. I receive and allow more of me and life is a mirror to mirror back to me that I am opening and receiving and allowing and loving and accepting and honoring and applauding and appreciating me, I'm receiving me, I'm hugging, I'm holding, I'm expanding in me. And life says, Oh, You're in that, Okay, I'll reflect back that to you too in the form of others receiving you as your authentic self. This feels good. Okay. So here's the contemplation that we're going to be in. I want you to not do this from your head again. Can you anchor into this part of yourself, However that feels right? Do we just set the intention right now? Okay. I'm playing a game. We're all five and playing pretend. I'm going to anchor into this version. So right now we're all this version. We're all literal us, Authentic, Whatever came through, Even if it was one word or 20 words. From this place momentarily, Just in this group, We don't have to bring her out into the world if it doesn't feel safe yet, But just right here in this safe space, In this holy space. When I sit in this version of me, What am I inspired to do? Who am I inspired to be? What am I inspired to create? So I'm going to give you a couple of minutes with this. When I sit in this version of me, So maybe you even think about her, Feel her, All the stuff that came up, Just going to sit quietly. Maybe something comes. Maybe something doesn't. What am I inspired to create from her? Who am I inspired to be? What am I inspired to do? You can sit with your eyes closed or open, Jot down what comes through. Take your time finishing up this exploration. Just letting me know what you found or just let me know if you're done or you need more time. Just slowly finishing up this exploration. This is a prayer. This is an intention. We continually ask, Right? This is the source of where we ideally desire to create from, Not who everybody told us we were. What do I do to survive from that place? Now, When I'm anchored into me, What am I inspired to create, Be, Do? Could be one thing, Could be a massive life-changing idea plugged into this source within us of our authentic truth. That's where the abundance comes. That's where the support comes. That's where we're resourced because that is the frequency of it, Us being our authentic true self. That is holy, Right? Did anyone have any inspiration, Any ideas, Any like, Oh, That would be cool to create that they want to share? Mine was really interesting. When I did this, I used to be an actress a long time ago, And then I've been doing healing work for 10 years. I asked this question and these ideas of bridging both came through, Of doing some just performing and writing and creative poetry workshops to bridge my healing and artistic worlds. I was like, Oh, That's really cool. Never thought of that before. Beautiful new creative ideas can come through. To follow my personal branding architecture and integrate my identity as the self-love entrepreneur. That's awesome. To stop fearing it and know that it is the deepest, Truest expression of who I am and who I am meant to be that I have discovered in this lifetime. That's beautiful. I love the truth where we're living in this polarity where it's like, Okay, I need to just feel, Accept myself and love myself and obviously, Yes, For who I am being in my authentic self. Then you move to the next level of the consciousness of the collective that says, Or the truth that says, I am going to be my authentic self because it's what I came here to do. It's just like, Because this is who I am, Not, I need to love myself and feel safe. Again, That's one level. Then we just override it with, This is me and this is why I'm here. I'm here to be a renegade. I'm here to live at a higher level of consciousness. I'm here to be in my authentic truth. I'm here to make money with ease. I'm here to live from divine ideas. I'm here to vibrate higher. I'm here to be an example of a new way. I'm here to shine, Period. So thank you for sharing that, That spark, That inspiration. Anybody else want to share one idea, A few ideas? You don't have to. You never have to. I'm just giving you a space if you want to and it might not have to make sense. Maybe that version of you is inspired to walk with her feet in the grass more. The words, Resilience architect, Ooh, Ooh, That's so interesting. That's juicy. Resilience architect. And the thing too, Sometimes we get, It's like clues while we're following the yellow brick road. So, Right, We get a clue this week and we just sit with it and ponder and contemplate and then ask the question again. I discovered I don't care what others think. Cool. And I create from an internal wellspring. Yes. I am carefree with a purity of passion, Image running in a field, Fingers through wildflowers, Sun flares cut across blue skies, Smells of sunscreen, Sweat and summer. Hell yeah. What am I inspired to create? Who am I inspired to be from this place? Yeah. This is it guys. This is your, This is your channel to your holiness. You know, My company name is Divinely Human and I feel like that's it. Like we're humans. How do we bring our divinity down here into the body and let that light shine through? It's integration of both. And we can go on these journeys where we're just human and we're like, What the hell does it mean to follow inspiration and make money? Like, Is that a thing? And you're like, Yes, Queen. It is a new way of life. And I am a soldier on the front lines trying to figure it all out. Right? Just beautiful. You guys. Thank you for your shares. Good. Okay. Five o'clock. Oh, We got another good one. Let's see. Sanctuary for healing with animals and nature and sunshine and beauty to share with others to spread love and be love. That's beautiful. And I'm curious, Do you do stuff with, You can put it in the chat, Do you do stuff with animals and nature now? Yeah. I don't know. Because it's cool to just open our mind to like, Okay, How can I help in this world? Because that's really you. Good. How can I share my gifts in this way? That's true to my authentic self. Beautiful. You guys. Okay. So I have two more explorations and I wanted to offer some space for coaching. I have animals at home and just feel so at peace when I am with them. Animals especially. Well, We can talk too, Because I don't know if you know, I used to work, Well, Still work with animals a lot. So if anybody has working with animal questions, That's huge within me as well. So I could assist you with that too. That's beautiful. Okay. Oh, Yes. Well, They're, They're allowing, They're validating the peace in you because you just said peace again. So they're like peace permission givers. It makes sense. Okay. So let's do this. Any burning questions as, Because I know as we come into the light, Questions come up that are like, Oh, But, But this, The yeah, Buts. Anybody have anything they want to come on with coaching questions? I'll give you that space. If not, We'll do the other explorations first and then come back to see if you have any questions. So you let me know. Any fears? Is the pain of hiding easier than the pain of shining? I want you to sit with that a sec. Is it easier? Okay. Well then that's good. So if they're both the same, The pain of, Well, You're not really hiding, But hiding some aspects, Right? The pace we'll call it hiding the pain of hiding and the pain of shining or equal. So which adventure will I choose? Yup. Yup. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. So you're out there. You're successful at the branding thing. You got it all out there. You got past the fear. What might happen? What's the worst thing? Being out there naked, Vulnerable matters of the heart. I am exposed in my new business with this beautiful brand. Well, That we don't have to rationalize right now. Who, Who before you ancestrally, Uh, Wasn't allowed to be their authentic self. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. You want to do, You want to do a group healing with everybody right now? Sure. Okay. So let's put our hands on our hearts. Thank you for bringing this up. This is beautiful. Okay. Everybody take a deep breath and you're just going to repeat out loud after me and Colette. It's fine. If you're okay, You put yourself on mute. It's fine. If you're either right now, If you want to do it for the group or quietly to yourself, That's either. It's fine. Okay. Those that came before me who weren't allowed to be their authentic truth, I released the need to judge that as wrong. I give you permission to have your soul's experience of what it felt like to not be fully expressed in alignment with your truth. I'm sorry you had that experience. Thank you. Please forgive me for judging it as wrong or bad. And I love you. I released the need to honor you by hiding my shine. I choose to honor you by shining as my authentic self. I cannot fix your pain by not being fully me in my fullness. So you have pain or you don't have pain and I'm in my fullness, Two separate things. I release anyone's feelings of suppressed authentic truth from my system. Send it back to them now with love. I release the need to try to process this and fix this pain in others. I give them permission to have their feelings. I release the need to make your journey wrong, Ancestors. I release the need to make my full shining wrong. It's bigger than me. I am a channel of life, A channel of the divine moving through my human body. And I give myself permission now to open to curiosity of who authentic me is, Letting it be divinity moving through me. I follow. And when I live as such, This energetically uplifts the ancestors around me. Not by control, But by the power of my energy field. I choose to be me now as this can't negatively affect others around me. If they feel bad, They're in their own bad feelings because my choice to be authentic is of pure intent. Okay. Deep breath. Let it go. What is here for you now? What are you feeling? Anything arise? Anything subtle? Oh, I can't hear you love. Yeah. Guilt. Guilt versus gratitude. So always looking at, Let's look at this. So in a, And this is, This is a collective healing for all of us right now. Inappropriate guilt versus appropriate guilt. Inappropriate guilt is checking ourselves. Did I do something wrong that my ancestors had suffering experiences? Did you do something wrong? Right. If you were up in heaven with a little wand fucking with your ancestors, Trying to help them suffer, I'd say, Let's look at that. Let's look how we can be a more aligned angel and integrity, But it's a pure, Like it's a, It's a, It's the innocent child that just wants to have a good time and is doing no wrongness in her joy of, Oh, Branding, Ooh, That like total innocence. There is no wrongness in your desire to be great, To be authentic, To go bigger. And there is no wrongness in their experience of suffering. Now I know that's deep. I know that's hard for us to wrap our head around, But I remember one of my mentors years ago, This was hard for me cause I get it. You guys. Um, Cause I'm also empathic, But one of my mentors said to me, You have to give people permission to have their suffering. And so that mantra is going on in my head all day, Because if, If I'm not in that truth, Then I'm trying to process and help everybody's stuff because I'm doing the work where I'm around everybody's suffering. So unconditional love, If we want to talk deep, Spiritual stuff, Unconditional love embraces all. So if you are an embodiment of unconditional love, You say, I make no wrongness out of all of my ancestors experiences. That's also divine. And if I make no wrongness in the pain and I make no wrongness in the joy, Then I can have suffering when I have it and joy when I have it. And I can give them permission to have their soul experience. And also if we want to go really far back there, If we believe in past lives, Well, You've probably had those suffering experiences thousands of years too. You know, What do you hear, Feel, Sense, Where are you with that now? Ooh. If we get bigger, They die. That's for, This is a collective and I know I just went drastic, But that's what's going on in Little Lung Country because if you're trying to save them by playing small, If we get bigger, They die because it's, It's the illusion that they are, They are not connected to source. They also don't have the potentiality to be great and expansive. And I get it. On the level we're speaking human to human, I get it. But if we move into divine truth, Um, That, Wait a minute, They're also connected to source. They're also being woken up in maybe a slower timeline, But I'm not their source. They're not my source. Source me with life and ideas and worthiness, God is. And what if it's possible that I can be big or whatever we want to call it in my bigness, Successful, And they can stay alive at the same time? That's for everyone to speak into if you'd like. So I'm going to say it one more time. What if it's possible I can be fully expressed in my authentic truth, Abundant, Rich, Sexy, Loved, All of it. And those around me who are stuck in their stories that are not that can stay alive at the same time. Could I be open to that? Could I be open to the possibility that they're playing small, But they aren't actually small? Because if I see past the illusion of they're into addiction and they're into all the things, But the truth of their divinity is that they're not that, They trust they're plugged into source and they're woken up and they're big and powerful too, Then I get to go do whatever I want. What's there with that? I give them permission to not be in their full potential. It's just like if we look at nature, We don't judge the rotting plant and the blooming plant. We just might not prefer to look at one or the other. It's not like, Oh, Why are you having this expression rotting plant? Just like, Oh, Shoot, Maybe I need to go get a new plant or, Oh, Maybe I can help this one with water or whatever it might be. We leave the judgment out of it. It's the discernment and the neutrality. Like I was talking about before, When we release the judgment of family, It's just more we're neutral. We're discerning. We're not judging those things. Say that again. I didn't hear the last thing. Well, That's it. That's it. Telling the little one inside, I can be big and they don't die because we are. We're around very toxic environments. Most of us when we're young, Innocently, Some of us more than others. And it is based on survival. And so we do believe we have to keep it all going and play small due so that we can live, So we can have our needs met. But when we realize we're literally not, We don't have an IV connected to these people, Like real life, We don't have something connected to where they're getting our blood, That we're not running them like, Oh, I can just pull that out and they stay alive because they're not plugged into me, Not sourcing these people. I don't have these weird tentacles to my, I mean, Sometimes energetically we do, But we're trying to clear that shit right now. Right. It's like, Okay, Here, This is the last bit for us. So everybody hand on the heart, Repeating out loud after me, I release the need to be anyone else's source. I call all of my energy back to me. I release the need to make anyone else my source. Source is my source, Whatever I choose to call it. My family doesn't breathe my lungs and beat my heart. Nature does. So I call my energy back from anywhere I plugged in. I am me and only me. They are them and only them. They are safe in God. I am safe in God. Whatever word you want to use. I can pull back my energy and they can still be alive. And ironically, They can be more alive and thriving when I pull my energy back. When I shine, They have an example. They can say, Oh, That would be cool. Thanks for the inspo. That's how I really give to those I love. Good. Good job, Everybody. You still got a question? We have a couple of minutes. I can answer if you have it. Let's do it. Well, Here, I'll set the intention beyond time and space. What is the one quantum breakthrough that needs to hear? Go ahead. So creativity is connected to what for you? You said there's sadness in it sometimes. So hand on the heart. Let's see where this leads us and we can do this as a collective. I give myself permission to feel creative and sad at the same time, Creative and a failure at the same time. And I open to the possibility that there have been moments in my life where I have felt creativity and success at the same time on the feeling level and creativity and joy at the same time. And I'm going to give myself a moment right now to see what memory pops into my mind when I wonder when was a time I was creative in any way and felt joy and creativity at the same time or joy and success. I'm sorry, Creativity and success at the same time. Memory, What one second of my life pops into my mind when I ask that question. Just wait a moment. Take a breath. See what comes in when I felt creativity and joy or creativity and success at the same time. What pops into my mind? Give me a thumbs up if you have a memory. We're going tiny here. Good. It could be a flash of a second when you are five and you were picked up a tadpole and you were like, Yeah, Or something. I don't know. It's fine. It's not really creative, But you got me. Okay. We're going to take a moment now. What we're doing, All of us with Sasha's help, Is taking your moment. We're going to wire it into the nervous system. So we're going to show your nervous system to look for proof of this possibility in the world and that creativity and success or creativity and joy is safe so that we don't keep repeating the other experience. We have potentiality for new. That's what we're going to do. Okay. So holding this memory, We're going to do this quickly because we have one minute left. Just take a deep breath. Holding this, This image. Let's just look around the memory for a moment. What images are here? What images arise here when we think of having creativity and success and joy at the same time? Notice any colors, What we look like, What the world looks like, What other people look like. Now we're going to notice sensations in the body. When these images arise in the mind, What sensations are here in the body? Usually sensations like heat, Tingling in the heart, Tingling in the belly, Tingling in the pelvis, Expansion, Relaxing muscles. What sensations arise in the body when I notice the images connected to this memory? Breathe and allow and notice. Let it be easy. What thoughts are here? With these images and these sensations, A simple thought like this is fun, This is easy, Cool. And what feeling is here? With these thoughts, With these images, With these sensations, Feeling emotion, Just notice. Just taking 10 seconds to bathe in this experience. Your body, Your brain doesn't know the difference, Whether something's happening now or not. We get to reprogram our body to be able to receive more experiences like this. I want you just to call this something, Name this memory, This experience, Call it creativity and success, Creativity and joy, Whatever you want to call it. And opening your eyes whenever you're ready. I know we had to do a quickie, But how did that feel? And anybody else can share in the chat. I'm just going to go a couple of minutes over today. That's good. Let the sadness be here. At first it will. At first it's like, Wow, I'm having this experience I've always wanted and I didn't have that. So let that be here. Let that move through like a wave. We just ask the question if that happened to you too, Guys, It's what happens when I allow that part of me to be here now? And it moves through like a wave and then when it settles, We don't rush it. It realizes we've just implanted a new program in it. So thank you guys, What a beautiful, I feel like we're always doing these transcendent healings here. So thank you for that. I invite you to practice this this week, Especially anybody that resonated with that. Bye. Lots of love, Guys. Thank you.