The In-Between Phase Of Your Journey: A New Chapter

This audio invites you to explore the often uncomfortable yet powerful space between releasing the old and embracing the new. As you navigate this very important stage, you'll be guided to honor your process with love, patience, and compassion. Learn to create space for the new opportunities and transformations that are waiting to emerge. Trust in the unfolding and remember—you are not alone in this journey of becoming.

Ambient Music: Inner Healing By Kirk Osamayo

Please note: This track may include some explicit language.

Transcript

New beginnings can feel so uncomfortable.

I feel so uncomfortable.

It's when you're on the precipice of something new coming in and you've outgrown where you currently are,

But the new isn't quite there yet,

And I've done this a lot before in my life,

And it's always the same thing,

The same feeling of you've outgrown where you currently are,

And you know something needs to shift.

You kind of maybe even know what is shifting,

Kind of even know the direction that you're going.

It's this very uncomfortable meantime energy that I'm in,

That I've been in,

That I know a lot of people are in,

And I've been feeling called to really put myself out into the world,

Really allow myself to be seen.

I've been aware that I haven't been allowing myself to be seen by the world for various fears,

And that protective mechanism can always be very persuasive when we're feeling led to do something that is out of our comfort zone,

That is out of our identity that we've been living in,

That old identity,

That old structure that is kind of falling away,

Knows that it's going to be falling away,

And so it's basically hanging on for dear life,

And it can be very persuasive,

And making you feel like you shouldn't take that step,

Even one first step that will help you transition over into the new,

And that's kind of what I've been battling with,

I guess,

With this old structure of myself that has been falling away,

That I've been feeling led to really take certain actions in my business to share this with you,

To share this within my brand,

And within what my soul is leading me to create,

And it's been fucking hard.

Even sitting down right here has been really,

Really hard to actually sit my ass down on this chair and to film something,

Because it's the first step in me shifting into a certain,

A new paradigm,

A new energy of allowing myself to be seen,

And putting my gifts out into the world,

And sharing with the world what I feel led to share from my own experiences that will be helpful for people that,

Helpful for people that are going through similar things that I've been through,

And allowing myself to walk with those people,

And there's something that I really resonated with about a man named Kyle Cease.

He used to be a comedian,

But he's kind of a spiritual teacher,

Personal development teacher,

And he's really amazing.

I love all of his content,

And there's always something that I'm needing to take away from his sharings,

From him just sharing his own journey,

And one of the things that he speaks about is that there are different ways to share content within your business of personal development,

Of healing,

Of spirituality,

Neither one right or wrong,

But a lot of people will share experiences of a place that they have gone,

That they've accomplished,

A place that they have learned from,

And kind of sharing a point A from point B,

That if you want to get here,

I've already been here,

And I've gone here,

And sharing that with people,

And there's also another way that he shares content,

Which is that he's sharing things with people from the perspective of it's just authentic for him,

That this is what he's currently experiencing,

And he's sharing it with them,

And as he's sharing it with them,

He's also,

He's sharing what he needs to hear for himself,

And so he's essentially walking with people.

They're walking together,

They're walking together,

And not that there's anything wrong with the other,

Because I know that I have also gone from point A to point B,

And there's things that I can share from my experiences with my audience that will allow them,

That will guide them along that journey,

Along that path,

But I really appreciate the mentality of walking with people,

And I'm realizing that it's like I want to take that energy within my business of what I'm sharing.

Anytime that I am sharing,

It's the energy of I'm walking with people,

And there's something that I can learn from you,

There's something that you can learn from me.

It's all an exchange in some different way,

Even though we may not realize exactly what that is,

And so yeah,

I really appreciate that,

And when I sat down today,

I'm like,

I don't know what I'm going to talk about.

I don't know what needs to come out.

I don't know what I'm going to say,

And again,

That old identity,

That old structure can have so many defense mechanisms to prevent us from taking a step forward,

And believe me,

Mine has been fucking amazing doing that,

Because there's so many old things that I'm shifting out of.

It's very bright.

There's so many old things that I'm shifting out of that feel really exciting and really scary that I'm shifting into,

Because I know that it seems so small,

Like me just starting to share videos,

But it's like I know that by allowing myself to be seen by the world,

By sharing my gifts,

By sharing my wisdom,

By sharing my experiences,

By turning my gifts and my experiences into offerings that I can share with you that will then help other people along their own path,

I'm aware that there's abundance connected to that.

There's success connected to that.

There's more freedom connected to that,

And I've had this old structure of survival in these different areas of my life,

Of not having locational stability in my life,

And it's like I'm aware that me taking this one step of sitting down here,

Of telling myself that,

Fuck,

We're going to do it.

Now is the time that recognizing that all of these excuses that my brain has of,

Oh,

I'm tired,

Or I'm not ready,

Or I don't have the right things to say,

Or that's not going to be profitable,

Or people don't want to hear that,

Or just I can have a million excuses.

This identity can have a million excuses or methods to keep me stuck over here,

And when I've come to terms with the reality that all of these things over here,

These defense mechanisms,

Are really just defense mechanisms.

They don't hold any validity anymore.

They don't hold any validity anymore in my life,

And possibly they did before,

Because the things that I needed to be protected from were a reality before,

But now these defense mechanisms are keeping me stuck.

They're keeping you stuck.

They keep everyone stuck.

They keep everyone stuck in something that they're used to,

They're familiar with,

They're conditioned by.

So for me,

It was really helpful.

It's been very helpful to recognize that these structures don't hold any validity anymore.

I am ready.

I do know enough.

I am good enough.

I am worthy enough.

It is time,

And likely there's never going to feel like it's a good enough time to start,

Because it's always going to feel scary.

It's always going to feel out of my comfort zone to do something that's out of my comfort zone.

It's always going to feel strange and unfamiliar for you to do something that is unfamiliar to you,

And so really when you recognize that,

That there's never going to be a good time to start the thing that you feel led to start,

There's no more barriers from you just starting,

And then you start,

And you realize that everything that's on the other side of you starting is everything that you've been wanting,

And it's like,

Wow.

Wow.

You have the power to change your life.

You have the power to co-create with everything around you,

And yes there's magic,

And yes there's manifestation,

And yes there's synchronicities,

And serendipitous moments,

And everything falls into place exactly how it's supposed to,

But really the aspect of all of that that's kind of holding the trigger to say like for the energy to go,

For everything to kind of explode,

For the manifestation to explode,

For the magic to take off,

Is you making a choice.

It's me making a choice.

Me making a choice saying I'm tired of living in this old structure that I know that I've outgrown,

That is no longer who I am.

I'm being called to be over here.

I'm being called to be this version of myself.

I'm being called to go there.

I'm choosing to step out of the old and into the new.

I'm choosing different habits,

Different beliefs,

Different thoughts.

I'm choosing to be a different version of myself,

And that doesn't mean it's going to be easy.

It's actually the opposite.

It's not easy.

I'm not going to sit here and tell you that it's easy to change your life.

It's fucking hard because you have so many identities,

And constructs,

And habits,

And patterns that are connected to survival of having your needs met that maybe weren't met before,

And you feel like you have to have these structures intact to have your safety intact.

And again,

Maybe that was true before,

But it's not true anymore,

And what you're doing is actually limiting yourself.

We're limiting ourself by believing those voices that tell us that we're not good enough,

That we don't know enough,

That who are we to do X,

Y,

Z?

I mean,

Yeah,

Who are we to share our voice?

Who are we to be seen?

Who are we to be in our power,

To shine our light so bright that it just illuminates and people see it?

Who are we to do that?

We are a fucking goddamn human being.

We are also more than this physical form.

We are light energy.

We just simply are.

I could have a lot of different words of what we are,

But it's like we simply are.

We deserve to be seen,

To share,

To glow,

To illuminate,

To shine bright,

To be huge in our energy just simply because we exist.

There doesn't have to be proof as to why you're good enough,

As to why it's time.

It's just,

It's time.

It's fucking time.

And I am shifting into my Watea 5.

0.

I've been saying I'm Watea 5.

0.

I've been connected to Watea,

My higher self,

Because I relate to my higher self.

Watea means to be free in the Mauryan language.

And I've been calling her 5.

0.

I'm shifting into Watea 5.

0.

Who are you shifting into?

Who are you ready to shift into?

What is being called to be shed out of your life?

Who are you being called to step into and recognize the ways that these survival constructs,

These voices that feel very persuasive,

That try to convince you that it's not safe to go out of your old structure,

This old structure that is basically decaying and falling away.

There's hardly anything holding it up except you.

That's a good visual for you.

This identity,

This construct,

This old life that you've outgrown,

That you're actually very unhappy with,

It's basically dead.

It's like a thousand-year-old building that is crumbling.

And the only thing that is holding up that building is you underneath it.

You desperately trying to hold everything up.

But what if you just stopped trying to hold it up?

What if you took away every single finger,

Every single muscle,

Every single body part,

Every single energetic tentacle out from underneath that crumbling building,

That crumbling structure?

What would happen?

Maybe you feel like you would be left with nothing.

But that's not true because you just have to shift your focus.

You've been so focused on holding up the structure,

Looking up,

Holding up the structure,

Just focusing on this old structure that it's like when that is taken away,

You realize that there's so much more around you.

There's so much more in front of you and you'll be able to see new paths you've never even seen before because you were so focused on the old.

And now you can see this new path that has basically been sitting there.

It's been fucking sitting there this entire time waiting for you,

Waiting for you to stop focusing on the old and look at the new.

And you'll be like,

Wow,

Why didn't I let go of this before?

Why didn't I take my energy away from something that was sucking my energy and not giving me anything back?

You were trying to protect yourself.

It was all you knew.

Be gentle with yourself.

It's okay.

It's okay that you were holding up the old structure.

You just recognize and letting go of that old structure.

Everything that you want is already here.

It's always been here.

It will always be there.

There's a path.

There's a very beautiful,

Potent,

Amazing path that is already lit up for you to take.

It's so exciting.

All right.

I'm walking this path.

I'm choosing to walk this path.

Reviews

Great perspective from the uncomfortable in between, showing me courage in action, which is exactly what I am going to do tonight. Thanks for the
En- courage- ment.