Day four,
Observing the gap between who you are and who you want to be.
There's a place I call the in-between,
Where you aren't quite who you used to be,
But you're not yet who you want to be.
In the in-between,
It can be very uncomfortable because you haven't quite settled on who you are right now,
While you're becoming the next version of yourself.
You may find yourself feeling a little lost or restless if you're in the in-between.
Sometimes it can feel like there's more than one you inside of you.
There's the old you that thinks and feels and acts in one way,
And there's a new you that is emerging with different thoughts,
Feelings,
And ways of being.
For example,
As I began to shift my experience of financial abundance and manifest more money,
I sometimes get blindsided by stale thoughts of lack and scarcity.
They can catch me off guard and activate the memories of fear around times when I could barely afford to pay my bills.
Meditation helped me to identify that when my wellness is off,
My thoughts tend to return to a lower level of consciousness,
And I'm much harder on myself.
This comes usually when I haven't had enough sleep,
Am not eating well,
And or not getting enough exercise.
We are so conditioned to be overstimulated in our daily lives that often we don't notice all of the places where our beingness is off.
Who you are being is far more important than what you are doing.
What really matters is who you are being while you are doing something.
For example,
It becomes normal to wake up tired and go through our days pining for the weekend instead of actually looking at why we're stuck in the rat race and what is making us so unhappy in the first place.
Resentment and alignment cannot coexist.
If you want to learn to be at peace in the in-between while you create this new version of who you really are,
Meditation can support you in learning to be kind to your mind and redirect your thoughts from fear to love.
Let's try a meditation to support your journey to your new way of being.
Start by closing your eyes or softening your gaze.
Take a deep breath in through your nose and effortlessly release it back out through your nose.
Now think of a time you were hard on yourself.
When you told yourself you couldn't do it or would never be you or it wouldn't work out.
Maybe you said you're not good enough,
Smart enough,
Attractive enough.
Once you've found the thought,
Take another deep breath and scan your body.
See if you can feel anything like tension,
Tingling,
Hardening or softening.
If you can't feel anything,
That's okay.
Just stick with the thought in your mind.
Now on your next inhale,
Breathe in love and wrap it around the sensation you located in your body.
If you didn't feel a sensation,
Imagine wrapping your mind in a cloak of love.
Now choose gentle,
Supportive words and speak to the sensation.
You could say something like,
I haven't done this thing before,
But I'm sure I can figure it out.
Or there's a part of me that thinks I'm not smart,
Not attractive or not good enough.
But there's also a part of me that knows that's not true.
Keep offering your gentleness and love for as long as you need.
Keep choosing softer,
Kinder words like you are speaking to a child.
When you are ready,
You can slowly open your eyes and ease back into your day.
I will see you tomorrow for day five.
